Chapter 12: Late Summer Moods
When everything feels bad and restless, just drive the car out and tease, no matter where it is going, no matter how fast it moves, as long as it can cure the bad mood.
Crossing the road on the edge of the waves, if life needs a 100% full roll to pass, then do it with 100% effort, as long as there is anticipation, you will not get lost, and all your troubles will eventually dissipate into a past that will not be remembered again.
Go to a place that no one can find, how does it sound, while you are lost, there are many people who are accompanying you in different corners of your loss, and then you are the best.
At this moment, I am a teenager, and all my fantasies can be regarded as a reality without worry, and although I have not yet got what I want, I know that the day that belongs to me will come after all, and it is the kind of conviction and firmness.
I like to hug the girl and let me count the stars on the pink bed on the terrace, and occasionally there will be a picture of shooting stars streaking, in the middle of the night when only the wind blows, happiness is so simple.
I just want to just lie down all the time, laughing, and loving. It makes me feel that there is a warm side to this world, and I pray that this side will be exposed to everyone around me forever.
I want to dance all night in a romantic space full of flowers, and I won't get tired even if I have her by my side, but I just want to sink into the atmosphere of love like this, and I don't want to come out easily.
I'm the kind of man who just wants to enjoy the joy of the moment, and I've long since turned off my phone and won't be disturbed by anything.
As soon as I put beer in my mouth, I get nervous, and I can't stop chatting with my friends, without the slightest taboo, and I can say anything, including how many minutes I can last in bed, haha.
Alcohol eventually emboldens me, and I can call the girls I have a crush on and confess, and I can also fall to the ground and vomit until I don't wake up.
So I don't know whether alcohol is a good thing or a bad thing, I only know that it can make people very happy, for example, it is easy to be promiscuous after drinking, for example, it can promote tens of millions of business, and for example, when I go to my mother-in-law's house in the future, I only need to drink my mother-in-law's father-in-law.
I remember the most excessive drinking was the night before my sister's wedding, less than a week after falling out of love, I felt very uncomfortable, I wanted to vent, like I saw on TV, a bottle of liquor went down, and then I was unconscious, I got up at three o'clock in the morning the next day and went to the toilet to squat and vomit, until six o'clock the doctor came to give me a drip, the excessive was that I went to my sister's house to sleep in the new room the night before, how many times I vomited in the middle, I had no intuition, my mother said, it was my brother-in-law who served me all night.
Brother-in-law, I'm sorry, I got married the next day, and I had to clean up the disgusting evidence left for me in the middle of the night, no wonder I didn't dare to drink with me every time.
There are too many temptations and desires in this city that fill our eyes all the time, and my colleague in the morning told me that I went to meet the female netizen for the first time last night, and after eating, the woman said very naked that she was not wearing a bra and wanted to go to the woods in the park.
Then he said that it was really unpleasant to be dumped by his previous girlfriend, and I should have dumped her, and I couldn't swallow this breath in my heart.
The moment I went to the toilet, I thought to myself, it's really a man who can't do without a woman, the first thing a man has to see if you're handsome, whether you have money, if you don't have both, it's not related to the sass, it's just a dick who nests in a dark corner of the house every day to watch **** and then solves it by itself, of course, I have also played such a role.
When a woman makes a fuss, it has nothing to do with beauty and ugliness money, as long as she shouts on social networks that she wants someone to accompany her tonight, someone will definitely sign up for her lonely party.
As for sex, it is fair to the society in which you live at the moment, and you are all entitled to enjoy your own sense of floating, no matter what scene, what posture, as long as you are willing to spend money, you can achieve it, including those that you can't think of when you close your eyes, and you don't dare to think about it.
I want to go to Sister Qian's house for dinner at night, she likes to drink tea, every time she has to pull me cross-legged and sit down to make me a good pot of tea to drink, I remember at the beginning she said that this tea is expensive, a small bag will be a few thousand yuan smaller, I picked up the package and took a look, the old Pu'er tea, I thought how old it is? Is it older than my age?
Like a rich man drinking tea in a TV series, he gently picked up the teacup, shook it and sniffed it under his nose, it was really a smell of old leaves, etc., how do I feel like I have a kind of action when drinking red wine, pinch it lightly into my mouth, the taste is really not as good as the three yuan red and green plugs sold in the supermarket downstairs.
She told me to close my eyes and listen carefully to the sound of the teapot being poured into the teacup, and I listened to the sound of the water rushing and irrigating, as if I had deviated from this impetuous society, and in a small wooden house in a bamboo forest, the sound of birds would be heard around me.
After opening my glasses, I deliberately said how could I think of the sound when I went to the toilet, Sister Qian said that I don't know how to enjoy, I will never reach her kind of state, such a good tea for me to drink is a waste, I said that she is an old antique, a waste of a body to go to the night fishing Kaizi skin.
But even so, she still likes to pull me to drink tea, saying that I have an artistic atmosphere, and it is a pleasure to sit with people with artistic cells, and I want to open my mouth to refute something, and she told me to shut up and not speak.
I always speak so directly, what to say. Tell the girl with small breasts, you must not feel inferior, I don't have breasts. Say to your big-breasted sister, I know that those men who look at you are obsessed with your big breasts, but aren't you afraid that you will explode when you touch it? Wait, don't hit me yet, I know that the current plastic surgery technology is very safe, but I also know that there are many cases of failure. Then lying on top of his girlfriend's belly, constantly encouraging her, you go and have a snort, I feel that touching yours is not as good as touching my own touch, she touched it with her own hands and said, I feel very good, after putting on the bra, I can squeeze them together, it looks very plump, I rubbed her belly with my beard to protest.
Recently, a lot of friends are praising the Chongqing girl for being beautiful, water and smart, from the street to the end will not feel bored at all, along the way to see this girl disappear at the same time can then shift their eyes to the next more beautiful body, and finally look at the neck is sore or unwilling to waste precious travel time. Perfect body proportions, convex and backward, no trace of fat can be seen with the naked eye, the key is the snow-white skin, which is easy to make people feel guilty.
I listened disdainfully to the side, saying that my friend didn't know anything, and I couldn't wait to go there and have a good time. My friend who was a soldier in the army was about to retire from the army, thinking that he wanted to travel for a month after being discharged from the army, I didn't even think about it and said to go to Chongqing, he asked why, I said that the hot pot there is delicious, you think about the two of us while eating spicy throat hot pot, while drinking until dawn, that scene is not like the scene of the male protagonist drinking in "Fast and Furious", although even I know that the two are simply eight poles can not beat each other, but I just want to use my wonderful eloquence to persuade him.
My saliva splashed on the phone, he listened to the surging on the phone, and finally he slapped his thigh and said that the back and forth consumption was all-inclusive. My eyes were about to narrow into a line and I couldn't open them, and I pretended to be serious and said, I will serve you 24 hours a day, when you are the most full-time driver, of course, I don't sell erotic services, I don't know if he has changed his sexual orientation in the army for so long.
In this way, I set a small goal for myself, I will not get married until I go to Chongqing and see a row of long-legged girls. I admit that I'm very sexy, but my color has always been reflected from the outside, not the kind of stuffy in my heart with dick eyes to peek all the time, how can I say this when I feel a little weak, it must be caused by not having enough to eat.
This year's midsummer is about to die in the collection of little things, and I seem to have too many unfinished things, such as going to Qinhuangdao for a vacation with the woman I love, which I have long forgotten in the not short quarrel; For example, when I broke into my ex-girlfriend's house after getting drunk, I found that I was no longer thinking about her after I was drunk; For example, I set myself the goal of writing two articles a week, but I can't sit quietly in front of the computer every day, and I still feel that watching movies and playing games is more fulfilling.
There are too many, too many things are buried in tomorrow and tomorrow, I didn't leave it a chance to breathe and just wipe it out, is it too cruel, so cruel that the word abortion suddenly flashed in my mind.
The most real feeling is that I got lost in late summer and early autumn, panting and wandering in a space that does not belong to the concept of two seasons, and even the cold of winter is constantly eroding my hot palms.
I took the crumbling leaf with trembling fingertips, tore it to pieces, and tossed it high, watching as the next wind blew haughtily away it as if it were my unfinished business.
Now I am thinking not only about how to become a good writer, but also about how to become a successful person who shuttles between business every day, so as to relieve my daily confusion. However, I still have self-knowledge, and combined with my own conditions, I can clearly know that this is more difficult to see.
Black and white are the most stark contrasts, and the display of my dual personality always seems so frightening to me, and the sudden thoughts that pop up will always haunt and torment me for a long time, and I will still not be able to calm down when I think about it again one day in the future.
I don't know myself, I'm an emotional kid. I like to get along with rebellious girls because I think their smoking and drinking postures are cool, because I was fragile when I was a kid and tried to make up for this shortcoming in them.
Fate is too casual, and I feel like I have too many secrets hidden in my subtle subconscious, and I can't touch it to touch it easily, or I will not hesitate to crush it, even if it is the beating heart itself.
If you look down from the top of the sky, you can see at a glance that my life is constantly flickering and counting down, and the other point that connects me should be the faintest star, because I don't like to have too obvious presence.
How disappointed would I be in the world if one day my desire for my dreams went beyond the boundaries of age control? Will I be gently grabbed by my throat by my self-esteem, and I will not let go no matter how much I struggle, so that I am enjoying the feeling of suffocation every minute.
Being troubled by some messy and meaningless things every day, wasting precious time to jump, I always feel that the word New Year's Eve is too indifferent, and I hate it.
The long-term thoughts that have been accumulated are all left in the circle of friends that I occasionally see, clear photos, and the smile is still so dazzling.
Search for the word encounter on Baidu, the meaning given in the encyclopedia is: mainly refers to accidental, unexpected encounters, different from encounters, encounters can be known, can not be recognized, and encounters can only be unfamiliar. Why I feel like sometimes it's more appropriate to use it with familiar people?
Chen Jiajia, are you doing now? Later, I saw that the content you posted on Weibo was really naïve, and the selfie photos were also marked with pink embellishments on the Meitu App.
You say, don't become the one you hate very much, girl, you're really ugly like that...
I commented, when have you ever been beautiful? If you are beautiful, is there still an ugly girl in this world?
I've known you for many years, and I feel like I don't know you at all, and when I hear a friend say that you're writing a novel, I don't even think about it, so I say it's a crossing, and my friend says it's a romance.
I'll go, it must be very good, I can't seem to count your love history on my fingers, one by one, I seem to know that you have soaked a lot of juniors.
I think what I write will definitely make me cry, after all, you are always dumped, after all, you always say in tears that you will never be in love again, and then within a few days there will be a new boy around me, which makes me very ashamed.
Qi Yuanyuan, what about you? You must have been fine lately, you're the kind of person who won't wronged yourself no matter what, or the kind of person who can find a way to knock me back to the ground with a hammer no matter how high I fly.
I know you're beautiful, but can I hit your black? Don't worry, I will never say that you are darker than Bao Qing.
I remember clearly that when I put on new clothes to play with you, you kicked the cabbage in the land, and then pulled me to the car one by one, I wore new clothes for the first time, and after moving it was all dust, you girl not only didn't say thank you, but also rubbed the soil on my back, rubbed and rubbed, you were really a devil's minions in your previous life.
What's even more aggrieved is that you always seem to tease me, I feel that you obviously like me, but when I ask you, you always say that just your ugliness, sister, even if I like Xiaoyu (her dog), I won't like you.
I am aggrieved, every time I see the dog yelling at me, it's like slaughtering dog meat and eating it, babbling, etc., am I jealous of the dog when I say this?
Recently, I heard that you are going to open a beauty salon, I am deeply blessed, when you have money, I can have nothing to eat, anyway, your boyfriend just went to the army, I can't control you, if I do that, when he comes out of the army, he can't bring his comrades back to beat me into a sieve on the **** gun.
Finally, let's talk about Wang Limei, I know that you are very happy now, I know that you just want a simple life, I know that you want to be a good wife and mother after you get married, and accompany your children to grow up at home, I know that you are really the kind of girl who only asks for firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, I know that you have too many things, after all, I have made too many promises to you.
You said that you would never invite me when you got married, and you said that you would never see me again, and even if you did, you would treat it as if you didn't know me.
You've changed now, and of course, so have I, and as long as your indifference to me chills me a little, I know it's my own doing.
There are so many things I want to say to you, and they are all enough to be written into a long novel, but I dare not touch the story of our events easily. Because I was too young at the time, my cognition of everything was not mature enough, and by the time I matured, you had already left me, which was what I said about breaking up.
It's very cold, it's chilling for what I used to do, I owe you too much, but you said that because of these debts, you met the most suitable person.
What makes you disgusted with me is that I went to disturb your family and friends after the breakup, which bothered you, without malice, and was the last struggling when you were about to fall off a cliff.
These three girls who grew up with me in childhood are about to become women, but in my memory, I always retain the appearance of you as you were eighteen, and your smile is shining.
These are separate memories between us, maybe in another ten years, with each other's children can still sit together and chat, when talking about those embarrassing things in the past, they will definitely smile from ear to ear, after all, those are so innocent that there is no trace of distractions.
You don't drink now, and I'm afraid it will be the same in the future, in fact, what I want most is to get together with you and have a few drinks, after all, we all know each other because of me.
I don't know what kind of sentence to use to describe our youth so that people can look at it and say, wow, it turns out that your youth is so gorgeous.
I just want to be able to keep this friendship or lost love in my mind, after all, we can't disappear on the other side of time and space.
There is also a girl named Lu Yaqian, we are the most familiar strangers, I spent an hour and a half rummaging through your space, and I felt like I was going to be brainwashed by micro-business.
I want to get involved in your life, but I don't know how, so a lot of the time it's clumsy and clumsy, and you know I'm trying to make myself as perfect as possible.
Those postcards, at the moment in the lonely album seem a little hazy, so that the eyes at a glance will subconsciously want to close their eyes, that is my best way to express you, maybe now, the scribbled text written on the back is a little green and childish, but that is my last stubbornness about youth.
We almost belong to a kind of personality person, on the surface we like to disguise ourselves, but in private we imagine how to express ourselves more pompously countless times, and finally these are shown in the circle of friends.
Every time I see you young, I feel a lot older, maybe because I am too busy every day and rarely look in the mirror, or maybe I come into contact with girls who are older than me.
Your legs are really thin and long, and when we meet in the summer, they always trigger my sleeping hormones, but that's just thinking about it, and I know very well that we are not people of the same world, you are quite comfortable in your little circle, and I am not the kind of person who is willing to follow the steps now.
I'm always wondering if if I would be the happiest thing in the world if I hadn't happened so much, I would still be the stupid me who was with you.
Even though I have a wide range of thinking skills, I can't think of it, because that is the most extravagant thing I ever wanted.
When I was young, I always didn't have much concept of the season, and now the summer is about to leave me, I have forgotten how many bottles of beer I drank and how many skewers I ate, and directly when the hooligan kissed the woman who had been in love for a long time, and then, she slapped me hard, and the five slaps were printed, I didn't dare to look at the photos, I remember that several people took pictures and posted them on Weibo, and I secretly saved one of them in Baidu Cloud that I thought was quite cute.
At this moment, I couldn't figure out what her lips tasted like with all my brain cells, they were very soft, and she drank cherry-flavored champagne at the time, so it should be sweet, anyway, my tongue was very hard, and I didn't pry her teeth open, so I made up my mind to practice how to kiss her tongue easily, and prepare for the courage after drinking in the future.
Take off your clothes and slam them on the ground and dance on the table after you dance, play a shame game with a girl after the adventure, yell at the sky and complain about the fuck of the world, go to KTV to sing loudly until dawn after drinking, no matter how hoarse your voice is, you can still fight while you are young and vigorous in the bar, there are too many, I don't want to say surrender to youth.
I told those friends that we can continue to do this until we are 50 years old, and then we will be active in the 90s, but I know very well in my heart that once we get married, we will have a lot of things to do.
I don't know how many summers I'll be able to spend like this, but I know I'm going to be even crazier in the future, or I'm sorry for being in my twenties.
I don't have many friends, but I'm sure you can all help me in times of difficulty, and if you can, don't finish the last glass of wine in the future, and let's talk until dawn.