Chapter 218: Lin Xiangtian's heartfelt words
I knew that Lin Xiangtian would be very angry because of my crying before and my desperate pursuit later, but I didn't expect him to be so angry.
I have always felt that I know Lin Xiangtian very well, he is a gentle and kind person, and he will never get angry easily in the face of anything, but this is the second head-on conflict between him and Qin Han.
Faced with the precarious situation between them, I lay in bed without any strength to stop it, and I couldn't even sit up from the bed.
But even so, I struggled to sit up, to prevent the conflict that might arise.
"Lin Xiangtian, hurry up and let go of Qin Han, the things that should be resolved between us have already been said, those are all misunderstandings, he hasn't done anything to me!"
I desperately explained to Lin Xiangtian, I could have shouted loudly, but I still suppressed my emotions, because Chen Tang was outside, and I was afraid that he would know what was going on in this house.
For me, Lin Xiangtian is an indispensable friend, and Qin Han is the person I like, I am not willing to help any of them, and of course I am not willing to hurt any of them.
If I really did this, then the one I hurt will probably feel guilty about for the rest of my life.
The same applies to Chen Tang, Lin Xiangtian is also his friend, and Qin Han is a person he has always respected very much.
If Lin Xiangtian and Qin Han really fought, it was unknown who Chen Tang should help and who he could help.
But even though I had already explained to Lin Xiangtian like this, he still didn't listen to me, and continued to confront Qin Han, as if he had to decide a winner today.
I couldn't move my legs, but fortunately my upper body could still move, so I could only rely on the strength of my hands to support me and slowly move to the side of the bed step by step, until I finally grabbed Lin Xiangtian's clothes, forcing him to finally be willing to turn his head to look at me.
But when Lin Xiangtian looked at me, I was inexplicably terrified, this is a gaze I have never seen before, fierce and full of jealousy and madness.
This is the same as Lin Xiangtian I know, except for the same appearance, it is completely just two people.
"Lin Xiangtian, I beg you, can you let go of Qin Han quickly? There was only a misunderstanding between me and him, and now the misunderstanding has been made clear! ”
"I know you're doing this to help me, but now that the problem has been solved, it will only make matters worse, and it won't allow the problem to be dealt with further, can you let him go?!"
"Xiao Ci, until now, you still have to speak for him, have you ever thought about what he did to you, but you still want to continue to defend him!"
Lin Xiangtian's eyes were full of sadness, and every word I said was a question, a doubt, and a puzzle.
I know that all this is because of me, and what he said makes me feel extremely guilty, but what can I do, it has happened, and I can't change it, the only thing I can do is to end this dispute quickly.
In order not to anger Lin Xiangtian, in the face of his question, I could only shake my head desperately.
But at the same time, the answer in my heart is indeed the same, I don't want to be too partial to someone, it's just that Lin Xiangtian's current approach is too extreme.
At this time, Qin Han, who had not moved, also suddenly raised his hand, he grabbed Lin Xiangtian's hands that were dragging him by the collar, his eyes were still calm and indifferent, and he couldn't withstand a trace of waves.
"Lin Xiangtian, sometimes impulsiveness can't solve anything, this is the situation you want?" Qin Han raised his head slightly and calmly spoke to the angry Lin Xiangtian.
In my opinion, these words are to persuade Lin Xiangtian not to act impulsively, but in the mind of the angry Lin Xiangtian, maybe this is not the case.
"Shut up, there's no room for you to speak here!"
Sure enough, as I expected, when Qin Han opened his mouth to Lin Xiangtian, Lin Xiangtian not only did not appreciate it, but his attitude became more radical.
The hands that were already holding Qin Han's collar were even harder at this time, bringing the distance between Qin Han and him closer and closer, and they were almost just a stone's throw away.
Lin Xiangtian's expression was fierce, now he is not at all like what I once knew, like a completely changed person, those good qualities that used to exist no longer exist, it really scared me.
I wanted to pull Lin Xiangtian desperately, but then I realized that my hands were already trembling.
Obviously, the fabric of his clothes is not so slippery, because I am too scared, I can't catch Lin Xiangtian's clothes at all.
"You two hurry up and let go of each other! Hurry up and let go! This is a hospital, can you not make trouble here? ”
"Lin Xiangtian, can you not do this, you have to think clearly about what the consequences are, impulsiveness can't solve the problem, what Qin Han said is not unreasonable!"
I tried my best to speak, and gradually, some of them became more open-mouthed. As long as I felt that I could persuade Lin Xiangtian, I said it all, and I didn't consider whether there was anything that made him angry again.
Originally, I thought that Lin Xiangtian would not listen to me at all, and he might even be desperate about it. But what I didn't expect was that he actually listened, just because he was too annoyed to give up.
Because after I said what I just said, I didn't expect him to suddenly laugh coldly, which made me stunned for a moment, and I couldn't react for a long time.
This sneer made my premonition more and more in a bad direction, and I didn't speak again, but looked at Lin Xiangtian's expression clearly, and at the same time he turned to me again.
Only this time, with an extremely indifferent expression.
The inky eyes were like deep lake water, without a trace of waves, and the sharp light, like a sharp dagger, pierced deep into my heart.
"Of course, of course. In your eyes, Qin Han has never done anything wrong, everything he does is right and good for you. ”
"But in my opinion, while he is helping you, he is not hurting you, I can see all this clearly, but you are not willing to face it."
"I can understand that he rescued you from the mountains without informing us, because it is true that we did not protect you. However, you wept in my arms before, did you say it was because of him? ”
The more Lin Xiangtian spoke, the more excited he became, obviously slowly becoming difficult to retract his anger, "Also, you were kidnapped before, where was he?" Didn't I save you? ”
"Obviously, I've stayed by your side for so long, I'm willing to do anything for you, but why, why can't I compare to a Qin Han?"
Gradually, there was a flash of crystal in Lin Xiangtian's eyes, I thought I was wrong, but the next second it really fell on my cheek.
At this moment, I was so sad that I could barely speak, and I didn't know how to open my mouth to comfort Lin Xiangtian and let him not be so sad, all of this was my fault, and it had nothing to do with him.
There was a stone in my chest, which pressed heavily on it, making it difficult for me to breathe, and even with all my strength, it only felt like I was immersed in the cold water, unable to struggle, and even more difficult to escape.
"Lin Xiangtian, can you calm down? It's not at all what you think, I can explain it to you, I can tell you why......"
"Of course you can explain, because you didn't do anything wrong from the beginning to the end, and you and I have always been just friends, and we haven't done anything transgressive."
"I also know that you only regard me as a friend and never take me into account, but I am just obsessed, and I always feel that one day you will be moved by me."
"But now I think, even if I tried so hard, I was wrong. From the day you took me as a friend, there was not the slightest possibility between the two of us. ”
The more Lin Xiangtian explained all this to me, the more uncomfortable my heart became, and the cold and biting chill penetrated into the bone marrow, making me tremble.
The hand that was tightly tugging on Lin Xiangtian's clothes also slowly slipped off...... How did all this happen?
I understand, from the time I was in college, I knew that Lin Xiangtian was interested in me, he always liked me, and he always stayed by my side silently.
But I've told him many times that if I'm willing to accept him, I can't just be a friend for so many years.
We were destined to be inseparable, but I didn't expect that this incident would hit him so hard.
I sat at the head of the bed, not knowing what to do next, the coldness permeating my body, they made me sweat coldly, almost eroding the rest of my consciousness.
I didn't have the courage to raise my head and look at Lin Xiangtian again, of course, when I looked at him, I didn't know what I should say again.
So I had to lower my head for the time being, but the moment I lowered my head, I only felt extremely sad in my heart, and I couldn't help but laugh bitterly for a while.
"In that case, what do you want, Lin Xiangtian. I know I owe you so much that I may not even be able to pay it back for the rest of my life. ”
"But you've always known that I regard you as a friend, and since we're friends, there's no other possibility between us than this relationship."
"You have always been the person I trust the most besides Qin Han. I thought that this relationship could last forever, and I also wanted to make up for the pain in your heart. ”
"But tell me, what else do you want me to do after you say that today?"
In Lin Xiangtian's narration, I only feel that all this seems to be my fault, if I can make him understand the relationship between me and him better, and be a little more cold to him, wouldn't what happened today happen?
But when I opened my mouth to Lin Xiangtian, I realized that I just felt that I was wrong, and this was far from enough.
I also have grievances, and I also have unavoidable difficulties, so why can't others understand me a little?
There was silence in the room for a moment. Lin Xiangtian didn't speak anymore, I don't know what his expression was, but I thought...... It must be ugly.