Chapter 68: Mu Zhan without Xia Xingkong (1)
At that moment, he seemed to hear a cracking sound somewhere in his left chest, so loud that it crackled like a firecracker in his ear, and his whole brain was unconscious.
The tears dried up, his throat was hoarse, Mu Zhan stood up tremblingly, An Yu wanted to help him, but Mu Zhan silently pushed him away.
Not only is the heart like being cut open alive, but even the bone marrow hurts so much that it doesn't look like it's your own, every step is like stepping into the abyss, and the heart is falling step by step.
The light flickered in front of him, Mu Zhan held on to the wall and panted, slowly moving forward.
He still has to take care of his grandfather, he can't fall, he can't.
An Yu pinched his green muscles and followed Mu Zhan behind him, looking at his lonely back, and swallowed the words several times when he wanted to open his mouth.
Some things are better to know than not to know.
People who are more painful and uncomfortable than them are still holding on.
Each of them seems to have fallen into an infinite loop of death, Xia Xingkong is still opposed to Zhou Yanshao, the starry sky can still escape before, Zhou Yanshao now has the weakness of Xia Xingkong, and he can easily persecute Xia Xingkong by suppressing Mu Zhan, he and An Xin can't get into their grievances and hatreds, but they can't really come out.
Or maybe they already have a complex.
He quickly walked behind Mu Zhan and said to him, "Mu Zhan, there will always be over." ”
Mu Zhan's blank brain paused with a "magnetic", reached out and pressed his temples deeply, so that he could wake up, and pushed open the door of the ward and entered.
An Yu waited quietly outside, Zhou had already withdrawn from the suppression of Xinyu International as promised, and Xia Zhixing quietly sold his assets to support An's.
Xinyu International's capital chain is operating normally, although it will take a while to return to normal, but he has no intention of caring now, the company has An Xiangyang in charge, he just wants to do what Xia Xingkong explained.
His love, though insignificant, was essential.
Mu Zhan walked into the ward with half-squinted eyes, Mu Tang had already woken up, Mu Zhan pinched his palms hard, wiped the tears on his face with his sleeve, and then approached the hospital bed.
Mu Tang was much haggard, his eyes were cloudy and hazy, and he shouted weakly: "Ah Zhan." ”
Mu Zhan held Mu Tang's hand, and his voice was hoarse, "Grandpa, I'm here." ”
Mu Tang's skinny hand gently rubbed Mu Zhan's palm, and asked in a low voice, "Why is it so cold, you wear more clothes." ”
"Okay."
Mu Zhan's throat was dry and painful, and he forced himself not to shed tears.
He could only tell himself repeatedly that kind of woman was not worth it.
It's not worth it.
It's not worth it.
It's not worth it.
But why is he still in so much pain?
The ribcage of his chest was like a balloon that was constantly inflating, rapidly inflating, as if it was about to explode to his bones in the next second.
Mu Tang looked at the roof hollowly and sighed: "I don't know...... What happened to your father? ”
Mu Zhan pursed his lips, he, who was a son, had nothing to do but wait.
Yesterday, Xu Ming's father, Xu Yuehai, came to visit Mutang and told them that the provincial government was still trying it, and because it was an internal move, the province attached great importance to it.
According to internal reports, Mu Shiyan has always been low-key and upright in his life, and they can't figure out which of the same people they have offended.
If there is a stain, it must be his son.
Now he realized how bad he was, just like Xia Xingkong said, he was really useless.
It's useless, it's useless.
But he still had to reassure his grandfather, "You have a good rest, cough...... Dad, he didn't do it...... Cough this kind of thing, cough ...... Will definitely check ...... Clear, ahem......"
His throat seemed to be stuffed with a handful of peppers and it hurt hotly, Mu Zhan supported the hospital bed with one hand, and coughed violently with one hand covering his mouth.
"Ah Zhan, how's it going?"
Mu Tang struggled to get up, and the needle shook violently with the movement of his arm.
"Ahem...... Grandpa, I'm fine, you lie down. ”
Mu Zhan pressed Mu Tang's shoulders with both hands and asked him to lie down.
"Ahem......"
"Go get some water."
"Ahem...... Good. ”
Mu Zhan touched the bedside table, picked up the water cup on the table and drank it.
The icy cold water rushed from his throat to his stomach, and the coolness quickly rushed to the top of his head, Mu Zhan shook his body, the water spilled onto his clothes, and a tear dropped to the mouth of the cup, quickly merging with the pure and flawless water.
Mu Zhan pulled Mu Zhan's clothes with his hand. "Ah Zhan, you go and sleep next to you for a while."
"Ahem...... Cough...... Good. ”
Mu Zhan covered his mouth and slowly went to the next hospital bed to lie down, and when he covered the quilt, he could only feel the heat on his cheeks, and it was the tears that kept falling.
Closing his eyes, it was all her figure, Mu Zhan opened his dry and painful eyes, was she standing in front of him?
Mu Zhan stretched out his hand forward but couldn't touch it, he kept moving forward, and fell out of bed with a "poof".
Mu Tang was startled, and shouted with his arms propped up, "Ah Zhan." ”
"Grandpa, I'...... It's okay. Mu Zhan got up from the ground with his arms propped up, and fell on the bed with his drowsy head in his hands.
Mu Tang's eyes were covered with a layer of water.
Every minute and every second of such a wait is an ordeal.
An Yu had something to go back to the company, so he sent two people to protect Mu Zhan, and contacted him at any time if there was a situation.
The next afternoon, Mu Shiyan appeared in the hospital without warning, Mu Zhan rushed over with red and swollen eyes and hugged Mu Shiyan tightly, "Dad." ”
It was the first time since high school that he called Dad.
Mu Shiyan was stunned for a moment, and then patted Mu Zhan's shoulder, still looking unsmiling, "Guard your grandfather is tired, go sleep for a while." ”
Mu Tang struggled to get up, and Mu Shiyan and Mu Zhan immediately went to help Mu Tang.
Mu Shiyan held Mu Tang's hand, "Dad, I'm back." ”
"It's good to come back, it's good to come back."
Mu Zhan was still a little apprehensive, "Dad, are you okay?" ”
Mu Shiyan frowned and turned to a natural expression, "I haven't done anything, no matter how much they investigate, they can't find out." ”
But it is also strange, it is obviously a frame-up, the other party is prepared, and the evidence is sufficient to take him down.
In the past few days, it seems that he has deliberately slowed down the pace of investigation, and today he will be released immediately, and he will be allowed to roll in the officialdom for many years, and he has read countless people, but he can't see through the meaning of this play.
It's like a saying on the Internet, what about slipping him to play, what is this?
The stone in the heart of the Mu family fell to the ground.
Mu Zhan's mood was not high all day, he was often in a daze, Mu Shiyan was not at ease, let him rest, Mu Zhan always shook his head silently.
After dinner, Mu Zhan finally couldn't help it, he said something to Mu Shiyan and ran out.
He also admitted that she worshiped money, he also admitted that she fell into the well, he also admitted that she had never loved him, as long as she agreed to come back, he would treat her well and make up for the wrong things he had done before.
He couldn't forget her laughter, her tears, her shy appearance lying in his arms, the fragrance on her body, and she was all open and closed.
He wanted to see her.
Mu Zhan rushed to Fumeiyuan by car, but hesitated, every time he took a step forward, his heart seemed to be pinched a little, he was afraid, afraid that she would not come back, afraid that she would not want him.
He didn't know if she was with Zhou Yanshao now, he didn't dare to think about it, he didn't dare to explore, and he hid not far away to peek at the house with the lights on.
As if sensing his desolation, suddenly snowflakes fell in the sky, and he let those cold and desperate snowflakes fall on his head, his body, motionless.
I don't remember how long it was, she came out, he thought she was lying to him, he could tell that she was not happy.
But he wasn't sure, did he really know her? In the moment of hesitation, he knew that he didn't seem to know her at all.
Yes, she doesn't understand, her behavior obviously doesn't look like what she says it is, maybe she's pretending to be good, no, can't think so, isn't it......
He didn't understand the pain in her heart, he didn't know how much she hurt.
He should forgive her behavior, just like An Yu said, she is too tired and painful to live, and he will never understand this humiliation.
She was in a daze, and he accompanied her in a daze.
He wasn't sure if she was unhappy because of him......
After all, it is still a step towards hope, heavy and full of hope.
Not far from her, Mu Zhan stopped, grabbed the snowflakes in his hair with his frozen red hands, and patted off the snowflakes on his body before continuing to approach Xia Xingkong.
She didn't notice him standing in front of her, maybe she didn't want to find out, so he had to squeeze out a voice in his dry and aching throat, "Starry sky." ”
Her eyes widened, as if she had found something very frightening, and she looked around, was she afraid that Zhou Yanshao would see it? Was she afraid that he would misunderstand?
He couldn't care so much, he just wanted to be with her, he couldn't live without her.
The result was still the same, her attitude was very cold, disdainful of him, as soon as Zhou Yanshao came over, she was in a hurry to explain, he didn't believe it was true.
Later, he believed it, and when he was beaten, she didn't even want to look at it, did she hate him so much?
He fell to the ground, snowflakes piercing his face like needles.
Perhaps God thought of it when he pulled that rib out of Adam. He thought that a woman could always take a man's life. She can make you live or she can make you die, because she used to be the rib that protected a man's heart, she could protect your heart, and she could pierce a man's heart.
His ribs wanted his life.
He believed that she really didn't love him anymore.
Otherwise, she wouldn't have let him be beaten.
She won't ......
Later, I learned that he saw it on the news when he got engaged, and it still hurt so much that he couldn't breathe.
The two people in the photo are smiling harshly, or his delusion, he thinks she is unhappy, she shouldn't laugh like that.
However, everything has nothing to do with him, he doesn't know what is true and what is false.
He was scared.
In the end, he couldn't resist his heart, and he was drunk at night, and the three roommates cooperated to carry him back to the dormitory.
His roommates have all seen Xia Xingkong, and they commented on her, "This person should only be in the sky, and he can see her a few times in the world." ”
After knowing that they broke up, they also sighed secretly.
Da Niu has a straightforward personality, and the next day he woke up in a daze, and Da Niu said directly: "That kind of woman is not worth it, if you want to drink, we will accompany you to drink, and you will not return if you are not drunk." ”
It turned out that he said one night yesterday, "Xia Xingkong, don't want me." ”
He turned his face away, but he had already burst into tears.
He also wants to forget, but he can't.
After that, he would go to Q Da almost every day, just to be able to see her.
Just look at her like that.
He knew her route, it was nothing more than a classroom, a dormitory, a library, and he could always see her when he hid not far away.
She was sometimes with her roommate Ling Lan, and sometimes by herself.
He thought she was busier, but not real.
If the one he knew her before was real, she's really unhappy now.
But he was no longer qualified to ask.
After he knew from Ling Lan that she was happy, he never came again.
She has a new life, and he will bless her.
He lived without her with a broken heart.
He kept her deep in his heart.
Seeing Zhou Yanshao's lace news, his heart still twitched hard, he was such a precious girl, and she was nothing in the eyes of others.
He didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
Those unforgettable pasts put aside his heartache.
Han Yu and the others all knew these things, and they called him every time to comfort him.
He didn't even care, "I forgot about her." ”
His previous sadness was simply not worth it.
She wants to be cheap herself, and he will no longer be with her.
He no longer misses classes, no longer gets drunk and dreams, and attends classes well.
In her youth, he was just her passer-by, why did he accompany her to the end of the world.