When she said this, she suddenly remembered something, and her voice became a little lighter: "Oh yes, I met Xie Congliang for the first time that night..."

"And then he saved you?"

"Nope! That's a plot that only appears in the movie, the boss of the club hit the girl in distress in his car, and then the hero saves the beauty? Forsythia snuffed out the cigarette and smiled more lightly, "He didn't save me, I got up from the ground and found a private clinic, at that time I knew that I was pregnant, the child was 13 weeks, I didn't know it for three months in Paris, I didn't know it for three months, I didn't have a menstrual period and thought it was just because of the change of environment, but overnight I suddenly had an extra child in my belly, Feng Lixing, do you know how I felt at that time?" ”

She finally stopped smiling, the light texture at the corners of her lips flattened, and a pair of cold eyes cut at Feng Lixing.

He finally mustered up the courage to shake her hand, but she forcibly blocked it.

"I really wanted to die, standing on the road and watching the traffic come and go, I really wanted to go over, but I was afraid, I was afraid that the car would not kill me, who would clean me up, so I didn't dare to die, and I didn't have the courage to live, you think about how to live, I was only 18 years old, I was still a student, and I suddenly found out that I was pregnant in a foreign country where I was unfamiliar with life, and I didn't know who the child's father was, Feng Lixing, I didn't know, I didn't see you clearly that night, and you were no longer in the room at dawn, except for the blue stone in his hand, there is nothing ......"

Forsythia recalls the scene of that night, and her body still trembles uncontrollably.

"I thought that the night would be over, I had to survive alone in Paris, but in the end it gave me such a cruel blow, I was scared stupid, I didn't dare to go back to school, I rented a room in the 19th arrondissement, and wanted to beat the child, but the doctor told me no, my uterine wall is thin, and the child of more than three months can easily lead to heavy bleeding...... I am not allowed to live, nor to die...... fate forced me to give birth to An An, but what should I do if I am born? I was only 18 years old at the time, and I couldn't support myself, so how could I raise another child? ”

Forsythia's emotions became a little excited, the scar in her heart had actually not grown, and now she needed to uncover it to show Feng Lixing, the executioner, how much courage did she need?

I couldn't help but throw away the cigarette that had long been extinguished in my hand and smoke another one.

Feng Lixing pinched her arm: "Don't smoke!" ”

"I can't talk about it if I don't smoke."

"Then don't talk about it, I won't ask again!"

"No, I have to finish it, Feng Lixing, this is a debt you owe, and you have to settle it in one stroke." After Forsythia finished speaking, he took out his lighter, lit the cigarette very skillfully, slowly spit out the mist in his mouth, and showed that light smile on his face.

"It took me a night to figure it out, I couldn't take the child, I didn't dare to take this risk, so I stopped going to school and started working around to save money, I couldn't do coolie because I had a child in my belly, but I still had a face, standing on the side of the road in the red light district peddling pirated DVDs, wearing revealing clothes to make a reality show for sex toy stores... I have done a lot of things, dirty, cheap, Feng Lixing, I have tasted everything in those months, the world is full of people, all living beings are warm and cold, going to Paris for a few months is worth the 18 years I have lived in the past, so that how much I suffered at that time, how much I hated in my heart, but who can I hate? I don't know who made my belly bigger, I don't even have the object of hatred, I can only hate myself, I began to give up on myself, take drugs and gamble, I thought it would be good to die, I was a hundred, but I didn't die, but I hurt An An, and I was born with heart disease......"

Feng Lixing couldn't listen to it at all, recalling that he asked PERRY to check the information of forsythia in Paris, which showed that she was expelled from school after only one year, and even skipped school for several months in the middle, which should be the months when she hid in Huai'an.

"Don't talk about it." Feng Lixing reached over to grab her cigarette, but she was unwilling, and her cold gaze pierced.

"Don't want to hear it? Don't dare to listen to it? But the cruelty is yet to come. Forsythia simply stood up, stood under the wisteria trellis, his slender body wrapped in a layer of moonlight, and turned around and looked at Feng Lixing: "Fortunately, I met Xie Congliang later, and my life was a little better, he even helped me arrange what happened after An An was born, knowing that I couldn't face this child, so as soon as An An was born, he arranged for someone to send him back to Yecheng Guiye Tang, and by the way, An An's birth date was pushed back by a while, just so that I could not find out about my head in the future, but I still thought too simply, After all, it was the flesh that was cut from my body, and I began to have nightmares all night long, dreaming that An An came to me covered in blood, and shouted at my mother not to leave me......"

Forsythia snorted softly, her eyes flushed.

"So when I was confined, I already had depression, not postpartum depression in the general sense, it was depression forced out by my own conscience and sins, that feeling that life is worse than death, I want to be safe during the day, I have nightmares at night, I have to rely on marijuana to survive, and I committed suicide by hiding Xie Congliang several times..."

The days were a mess by her, whether she dreamed or woke up, Forsythia during that time was like a living madman, frightened and driven crazy by the sins she had created, and she had no idea of living at all......

Forsythia took a puff of her cigarette, took off her coat, and raised a wrist, the scars on her wrist terrifying in the moonlight.

"There are two deep ones here, which are the major arteries that I cut, and I almost die every time, but I was rescued by Xie Congliang, and the rest were carved by me, sometimes I couldn't stand it at night, so I cut it on my body with a blade, and I saw the bleeding dripping, and I felt the pain before I had the courage to live, otherwise my whole person was muddy, and it was numb......"

Feng Lixing finally couldn't stand it anymore, and walked over and pulled Forsythia into his arms.

She was already so thin that she was shaking so badly, Feng Lixing felt that there was really a god when he looked up three feet, he played sex all night, leaving her with five years of despair and scars, and now she came back and showed him the wounds, but those scars were so hideous, one was a knife.

She cut a few knives on herself back then, but now she cuts them all back to his heart at once.

This is retribution, going around in circles, and returning it all without a single bit.

"Forsythia... Forsythia ......" Feng Lixing's voice whimpered, but he didn't even have the strength to cry bitterly, Forsythia left the child and came back to ask him for the debt.

But will he be able to pay it off?

"Don't say I'm sorry, a word of sorry is too light, and these injuries on my body are too light." Her tone regained her calm again, but she half leaned on Feng Lixing's shoulder, "An An has suffered in Guiye Hall over the years, how damned I am, so what are my scars, I am not worthy of being his mother at all, and you are not worthy of being his father." ”

Her tone was light, but her meaning was particularly resolute.

The reason is not right, he showed mercy all night, harmed Forsythia, and harmed An An.

"But fortunately, I met Xie Congliang, if it weren't for him, it is estimated that I would have died many times, and there would be no current An An, so Xie Congliang is my benefactor, and I am An An's sinner."

If Xie Congliang heard this, he didn't know whether to be relieved or sad.

Daqing once drank too much, and when he was bold, he once said: "Brother Liang has been smart for half his life, but he blamed all the confusion on that woman." ”

"That woman" refers to forsythia, and once turned Xie Congliang upside down, almost to the point of "people and gods are angry", but Xie Congliang still has to rely on it, but in the end, he only got a sentence of "benefactor", is it worth it?

Feng Lixing straightened the person on his shoulder, and there were too many emotions flowing in Forsythia's eyes, and he couldn't grasp it at all.

"So what can I do now?" He was completely overwhelmed and asked Forsythia to make decisions so bluntly.

Forsythia paused: "I originally wanted to hide it from you for the rest of my life, but since I can't hide it in the end, I can only let An An decide, after all, you are his father, and he has your blood on his body, but he still refuses to call me Mom, so I can't help you in the back, it depends on your ability." ”

Feng Lixing breathed a sigh of relief after hearing this, and thankfully, this was already the most merciful decision for him.

"I will make amends, although I know that I will not be able to repay the suffering he has suffered in the past five years, but I will do my best." Feng Lixing went to hold Forsythia's hand again, her hand was even colder than his, "As for you..."

"As for me, don't make decisions for me without authorization, Feng Lixing, I haven't thought about a lot of things clearly, I was stunned by a bullet from you before, and you still blocked the bullet for me, so I'm sad or painful, it's just a momentary emotional reaction, but calm down and think about it, I think there are still many problems between us."

"About Erbao?"

Forsythia frowned.

"Yes, about Erbao."

He still doesn't know Erbao's life experience, Forsythia understands that she can't hide it at this time, but the opportunity is not right, and it's very strange, she always feels that there is still a hurdle in her heart, she can't cross it, and the grudge between her and Feng Lixing can't be released.

"Forget it, it's too late, you've been downstairs for too long, go back." Forsythia snuffed out the cigarette in his hand and came out of Feng Lixing's arms.

Feng Lixing really couldn't stand for too long, and the wound in his chest was a little painful.

Forsythia saw that his face was not very good, and smiled reluctantly: "Let's go, go upstairs and sleep." ”

The grievances are not a day or two, the accounts are not clear, and the coming days are long, so you need to settle them with him slowly.

That night, Forsythia slept on the small bed in the ward, and he slept surprisingly soundly.

She had hardly slept once all night in the previous two months, and she had to get up several times every night, always feeling that Feng Lixing would wake up suddenly, so she got up again and again to see, and now that he finally woke up, Forsythia had been strained for two months, and his nerves were relaxed, and it was rare to have a good sleep, and he slept very peacefully.

But Feng Lixing couldn't sleep.

An An's affairs, Forsythia's memories in Paris, these are completely beyond his imagination.

At that time, he really just wanted to have fun, and with a little revenge selfishness, but who would have thought that this little girl would be so attractive when she drank wine, he was not prepared at all when she rushed into the bathroom, and he was not prepared at all when his soft body pounced, everything came too quickly, like a little spark igniting the whole grassland.

Feng Lixing remembered that he asked for her directly in the bathroom at that time, and the taste of burying it was too devastating, and he didn't even have the strength to roar, only gasping and the desire to burn more and more, how could he care about taking measures.

The second time he was in bed, Forsythia was in pain, drunkenly crying and shouting and beating him with his fists, he had to deal with her little minions while enjoying her beauty, at that time he couldn't take care of anything, he wanted her as if he was addicted, and naturally he lost his control, and he made a big mistake overnight.

It's just that these are not reasons and excuses, and he can't tell Forsythia.

Wrong is wrong, forsythia and An An's suffering over the years is real.

Feng Lixing turned his head to look over, the face on the small bed next to him slept peacefully, and then in an instant, he was actually happy that he took her from the bar to the hotel in the first place, this may be fate, although it is evil, but at least it connects them together, otherwise how can there be a place for him in her life.

Feng Lixing's situation is improving day by day.

Zhou Hongsheng specially hired a nutritionist for him.

Before, he could only eat liquids, because he was in a coma for two months and only relied on infusions to maintain, and his intestinal function was already very weak, so he could only drink gruel and rice soup at first, but the dietitian conditioned him for a while, and gradually he was able to eat some thicker porridge and meat soup.

Forsythia doesn't need to stay in the hospital every day, after all, there are two treasures at home, and Feng Lixing is reluctant to let her stay up in the hospital every day, so she basically comes over to accompany him for a while every day, and spends the rest of the time in Crescent Bay.

Zhou Shen didn't come much to the back, because of his embarrassing identity, with forsythia on one side and his nephew on the other, and a second treasure in the middle.

Although he wanted to tell Feng Lixing the truth several times, considering that he had promised Forsythia before, he didn't say it without permission, and besides, when things came to this point, the rest was all between Feng Lixing and Forsythia.

The case of Pei Xiaoxiao and Yang Zhongting was finally closed.

Yang Zhongting was shot dead by the police on the spot in the name of "resisting arrest" and "taking hostages", because he was still carrying the identity of a LA'MO shareholder at the time of his death, considering that it would affect the company's image, so Zhou Hongsheng came forward to suppress the case in the media.

Pei Xiaoxiao was shot by Yang Zhongting at that time, but fortunately she was injured in the knee, and there was no major problem, and she was re-transferred to Yecheng Women's Prison after recuperating in the hospital for more than a month, but because she had cooperated with the police as a tainted witness, her sentence was commuted, and the sentence was changed from indefinite to fixed, which is also a good deed.

Towards the end of September, Yecheng began to cool down.

Feng Lixing's examination results in all aspects were good, and his condition was stable, and he couldn't stay in the hospital anymore, so he asked Forsythia to go through the discharge procedures for him.