All the good, memorable things that I once had from him are now gone, and they are like bubbles in the sun, colorful, but it will not be long before they burst into countless droplets.

Eventually, everything will disappear, and there will be no trace left.

I don't have to suppress the sadness and sadness in my heart anymore, I can vent it all out loud.

So I suddenly felt weak, and then I fell to the cold ground. This time, no one was going to pick me up, and no one was going to care what I was doing.

The only thing I know is how ridiculous I am now, how pathetic I am, no one will ever treat me like Qin Han again, I have lost him......

From now on, there will be no more person named Qin Han by my side......

Qin Han left, he finally left, he didn't do it voluntarily, but was forced away by me.

The house my father left me was not very large, but when I was alone in it now, no matter how I looked at it and how I felt it, it still seemed too lonely after all.

I think half of this loneliness comes from the fact that there is no one around me who can accompany me, but more because of the loneliness and loneliness in my heart.

After all, before that, I had so many people around me, and they all cared about me, protected me, and never wanted to hurt me. But I drove them away from me one by one.

At first, Lin Xun and Chen Tang, I used all the cruel words I could to force them away, let them down, and let them down, so that they were completely desperate, so that they would never care about me again.

Then there is Qin Han, this person I love so deeply and can't do so inseparable, but because of the grievances of the previous generation and his deception of me, I can't tolerate it, and I will definitely not endure it anymore.

So I also spoke coldly to Qin Han, and I also said all the cruel things I could to him to him, and I even told him to get out of this room, telling him that it was best for us not to meet again from now on.

Obviously, Qin Han was still a little hesitant before, and even when he opened his mouth to me, all this could be recovered.

I can see that he doesn't want to leave me, and I know very well that I don't want to leave Qin Han, I don't want to lose him, and I don't even know how to live after I lose Qin Han.

I obviously want to be by his side for the rest of my life, and I want to be by his side for a long time.

But for too many reasons, I couldn't allow myself to do this, I pushed him away, hurt him so badly, and let him leave in front of me with blood all over my body, all of which was my fault.

Even though I knew that it was possible for him to leave, and that when we met from now on, we would never be able to smile at each other as gently as before, and we would never be able to reach out and touch each other's faces, but I did it without hesitation. Extraordinarily resolute.

For me and Qin Han, long pain is better than short pain, rather than the two of us continue to suffer like this, it is better to end these things earlier, so that it is the best choice for me or Qin Han.

I can't do what he said, the grievances of the previous generation have nothing to do with us. In my opinion, no matter when it happens, we, as juniors, should bear it, and we should all have the obligation to get back everything that belongs to us.

So I know that one day, Qin Han and I may stand in opposite directions, so I would rather draw a line with him now, in case the two sides will be more painful and inseparable from each other at that time.

Therefore, when Qin Han left, even though I desperately wanted to keep him, I still held back.

I just burst out crying after he was gone, and my cry echoed throughout the room, but no one would come to comfort me.

In their eyes, everything I'm doing now is nothing more than self-inflicted. Qin Han and I could have had a happy ending, but this was ruined by my own hands.

As for whether I regret it or not, I can't give a definite answer right now, because there are so many things I have to do.

After Qin Han left, I began to cry loudly, I don't know how long I cried, I just felt as if the strength in my body had been drained, and only tears kept overflowing from my eyes.

Now no one would gently wipe the tears from my face again, not even myself, as it slowly blurred my eyes, climbed up my cheeks, and finally made me embarrassed.

I don't know how long I cried, but I felt like my head was splitting at the end, and my whole body felt like it was going to explode, which made me moan in pain, and then I fell asleep unconsciously.

But for me now, falling asleep may be the best option, because only in my dreams can I not think about these heart-wrenching, desperate and sad things.

I wasn't the only one in the room, and I didn't know how long I had been asleep, and the reason I woke up was because there was a quick knock at the door.

At first, I was still asleep, and even thought that the knock on the door might come from a dream, in the dream Qin Han came back again, I happily stepped forward to open the door for him, but after opening the door, the door was empty, it turned out that everything was just my fantasy.

It made me so sad that I almost cried again in my dreams, until another knock at the door pulled me back to reality.

I woke up with a start, opened my eyes and looked out the window, and the outside was exactly the same as when I was asleep, still daytime, still the same gloomy.

It made me suddenly feel a little confused, did I just wake up from my sleep, or was it the next day?

But there was no time left for me to think, for just as I could not think clearly, there was another knock in the direction of the door, and each time it became more rapid and violent.

This startled me, my body trembled slightly, and then I looked in the direction of the door, and before I could get up from the ground, there was a voice of anxiety outside the door.

"Xiao Ci, are you in there? Are you in the house right now? If you don't speak, I'll call the police later, what the hell is going on with you? Why don't you open the door, hurry up and open the door for me, you come here! ”

"What the hell happened, why didn't you answer the phone all day yesterday, do you know how worried Xu Yi and I are, you hurry up and open the door for me now, hurry up, otherwise I will really call the police!"

The voice from outside the house made me wake up suddenly, I knew very well that the person standing outside and yelling at the house now was Lin Xiangtian, but how could he come here, and why did he think that I would be in danger?

As I thought, I tried to get up from the ground with my hands propped up, but just as I tried to stand up, I fell to the ground again, because my legs were already unconscious because I had been in the same position for too long.

The pain of kneeling on the ground again made me can't help but moan, Lin Xiangtian outside the house seemed to hear it, he paused slightly, and then the knock on the door became rapid again, even more intense than before.

"What's wrong with you, what's wrong with you now? I heard your voice, what the hell happened to you, hurry up and open the door and let me in quickly, I am about to worry about you to death before I know it. ”

"Come on, I'll go open the door for you, don't be too anxious......" In order to reassure Lin Xiangtian for the time being, I could only rub this calf while shouting in the direction of the door.

After Lin Xiangtian heard me say this, the sound of knocking on the door finally stopped for a while, but I knew that this did not alleviate the worry in his heart.

So after making sure that I wouldn't fall again, I still supported my body to get up from the ground, and my calves were still a little numb, but this didn't affect my walking, so I limped to the door to open the door for Lin Xiangtian.

It wasn't until I was throbbing that I noticed that my head was a little groggy, and I thought it must have been because I had been on my knees for too long, so I had a cold.

But now I can't care about it so much, because if I don't open the door again, Lin Xiangtian's mood will probably be even more excited than before, and I don't want to wake up all the other residents directly in broad daylight.

So I could only quickly walk to the door and take another look at the cat's eye, and after making sure that the person standing outside was Lin Xiangtian, I opened the door for him, and he finally saw me, and the worry in his eyes became more obvious.

Looking at the worry in Lin Xiangtian's eyes when he looked at me, and the look of relief that he breathed a sigh of relief after making sure that I was safe and sound, I only felt puzzled and frowned slightly at him.

"What's wrong Lin Xiangtian, why did you suddenly come to me, do you have anything to do with me? Why did you knock on the door so quickly, do you really have something urgent to look for me? ”

Lin Xiangtian didn't answer me immediately, he just glanced at me meaningfully, then sighed slowly, walked around me into the room, closed the door and walked towards the living room.

I was very puzzled to see Lin Xiangtian walking to the living room without saying a word, but there was no way to make him say it, so I could only follow his steps and walk into the house together.

I watched him sit on the couch, but the look in his eyes was more worried and concerned.

In order not to let Lin Xiangtian see the abnormality, even if my calves were still a little numb, I could only slow down my speed as much as possible, pretending to be casual and walking to the sofa, wanting to sit down with him.

But as careful as Lin Xiangtian, even if I have tried my best to disguise, maybe if I were Lin Xiangtian, I would not have found the details, but he paid extra attention.

Because before I could sit on the sofa, Lin Xiangtian suddenly frowned when he looked at me, he looked me up and down for a long time, and finally focused on my calves.

"Xiao Ci, why are you walking a little wrong, what's wrong with your calves? Isn't it hurt, come and let me see. ”

While speaking, Lin Xiangtian had already stretched out his hand towards my calf, which shocked me a little, so I hurriedly took two steps back, Lin Xiangtian saw me retreating, so he stopped, and looked at me suspiciously.

"What's wrong?"

He asked me softly, not seeming to think there was anything wrong with what he was doing.