"Well, if you really want me to leave here, then I'll leave right away, I just hope you don't regret your decision, because I may never come back."

Qin Han whispered to me, his tone was full of sadness, I don't think he was joking with me, just like I wanted to force him away from here, and I wasn't joking with him at all.

There is constantly a voice shouting at me in the bottom of my heart, it never stops, it is more intense every time, it is telling me, don't let Qin Han leave, grab him, right now!

It was telling me, you must not let Qin Han go so easily, if he leaves today, then you will definitely regret it in the future, you will definitely regret what you did today, you will definitely regret that you drove him out so easily!

But even though this voice was so obvious, so clear, and so loud, I still had to go against my heart, turned my head and didn't dare to look at Qin Han again, just confided a sentence that seemed to be emotionless.

"I know, I don't expect you to come back, you go, it's better to leave now."

When Qin Han opened his mouth to say these words, I could even hear my heart dripping blood, it curled up in pain, moaning, and the eyes that looked at me were full of resentment and hatred.

This voice sounded again, telling me again and again, why am I so stupid, why do I treat Qin Han like this, why do I hurt the feelings between us again and again.

But what can I do? If I could, of course I didn't want Qin Han to leave, after all, I loved him so much, I couldn't do without him at all, but everything in reality can destroy all the beautiful love.

The Qin family is so important to me, but the sins committed by the Qin family against the Chen family are equally heavy to me. It was like a shackle that burned me so hard that I couldn't breathe anymore.

So no matter how much I love Qin Han in my heart now, what I can't do is what I can't do, and this doesn't change anything.

And after I said this, Qin Han didn't react much. He was silent for a long time, and then whispered to me again, as if he didn't want to believe me even though I had said it so many times.

"Chen Ci, have you already thought it through? That's what you're really thinking, do you really want me to leave here, and be sure that you won't regret it? ”

"If you don't want me to leave, then I'll definitely stay here with you. And wait until the day you need the truth, and I'll be sure to tell you.

So I ask you to think carefully about it, and don't make such a nonchalant decision, which will only hurt you and me. ”

I understood that even if I had already directly stated my attitude to Qin Han, according to Qin Han's current situation, he still wouldn't choose to leave directly, he still wanted to keep and try to make me take back my thoughts.

Maybe in Qin Han's heart, he doesn't know it at all, but I myself understand it very well, whenever he is like this. When I spoke softly to persuade me, I would feel a little soft-hearted, thinking if I had gone too far, should I forgive Qin Han, and think about it.

So as long as Qin Han said this kind of thing, the more I had the confidence that I had managed to build up resolutely, I would be defeated by his words, which made me hesitate again and again, and began to constantly doubt whether what I was doing was right.

However, my heart struggled, all this was unknown to Qin Han, the more he opened his mouth to me, the more reluctant I became, which made me more and more miserable, I just hoped that it would end soon.

So at this time, I gently, gently tilted my head over to look at Qin Han's gaze, and when there was a retention and pleading for me in his gaze, why didn't I treat him like this?

So I smiled softly at Qin Han, and then I saw that there seemed to be something shiny in his eyes, which burned in an instant.

This made me understand that Qin Han had probably misunderstood, because immediately after that, I had to slowly shake my head at him.

"No need, Qin Han...... We really don't need it anymore, don't you and I really understand that it's impossible for us to go on anymore.

The past that happened is really unforgettable, how much your Qin family has done to our Chen family, I will get back from you. After saying goodbye today, we will never be lovers again! ”

I think at this moment, in Qin Han's eyes, I am probably really cold-blooded, no matter what kind of words he says to keep me, the answer given to him is only the same, that is, I will never agree to continue this matter.

To put it simply, when he walked out of this house today, I had nothing to do with him from now on.

When I said these words to Qin Han, an inexplicable feeling suddenly surged in my heart. It was a painful feeling, as if something had been torn alive, but I couldn't scream, because when I did, it was even more painful than before.

My current behavior is originally torturing myself, and I am also torturing Qin Han, but I can't help it. This is the only thing I can do now, the only way to separate myself from Qin Han.

And when I said this, Qin Han looked at me with an incredible look in his eyes, for a long time, until finally he looked at me with mockery and ridiculousness, it seemed that after he hesitated for so long, he finally got a final answer from me, and this answer still did not satisfy him.

But it was only for a moment, Qin Han's eyes, who had hesitated for a long time, were full of disbelief, but more hope was the deep powerless despair after being burned to ashes.

Qin Han seemed to understand what I was saying, so he nodded slightly towards me. He finally stopped struggling, perhaps because he had learned from me what I felt most truly in my heart.

Even for me, everything I express now is against my will, I don't want Qin Han to leave at all, and I don't want to break with him at all.

But in Qin Han's opinion, my disguise may have succeeded in the end, I successfully deceived him, and I was even about to deceive myself.

Qin Han still nodded lightly at me, he didn't say anything, just when I couldn't help but want to ask him, Qin Han finally responded.

"Chen Ci, if what you are saying now is all what you think in your heart, you really don't want me to stay, you want me to leave, then I will do what you want."

As I wish?

When I heard Qin Han say these four words, it made me feel both funny and a little sad.

If it was really what I wanted, I didn't want him to leave at all, but it was clear to me that let him go. However, what exactly do I hope in my heart, Qin Han really doesn't know in his heart?

He just didn't want to say it, just like I wouldn't.

At this moment, my heart was almost dripping blood, but I still pretended to be indifferent at all, and smiled at Qin Han, at least from my face, I couldn't see my sadness at this time.

"If you can really think like that, that's great."

I smiled and responded to Qin Han with a look of satisfaction on my face. I think this expression was enough to make Qin Han feel extremely disappointed in me, so that he could also leave and would not continue to torture me.

"Then since you all understand, there are some things that we should not say any more, and you leave here today, and never come back again, as if nothing had ever happened between us.

That way, it's the best for you and me. ”

"Chen Ci, I have known you for so many years, it's not that I don't know you, but I never thought that today just because of the grievances of the previous generation, can you so easily deny the feelings between me and you?

If that's the case, then maybe I'm really too caring......"

As he spoke, Qin Han shook his head gently, and then he sighed lightly, looking at me with a bit of helplessness and deep despair in his eyes.

"Now that we have explained everything, then, as you said, there is no need for me to stay any longer, I will leave now, and you have to take care."

After finishing speaking, without waiting for me to make any more response, Qin Han immediately bypassed me and walked in the direction of the door.

The moment he passed me, my heart ached, as if a hand was holding it hard, but I had no choice but to watch it be destroyed.

At this moment, I couldn't even suppress my feelings, if it weren't for the nails of my hands being so hard in the flesh that I tried to use the pain to make my thoughts clearer, I think I might have cried loudly in the next second.

I really wanted to go back and see Qin Han, and I wanted to know how he was feeling now, but I didn't dare to ask him, and I wasn't qualified to ask him.

The only thing I could do was force myself to pretend I didn't care, and stood still until I heard the door open not far away.

However, the door opened quietly for a long time, but there was no sound coming from it, which made me a little puzzled, I didn't know if Qin Han was gone or not.

However, just as I wanted to go back and investigate, Qin Han's voice suddenly came into my ears, which startled me, but at the same time, it also made my heart like a knife.

"Chen Ci, I'm really leaving, then you remember to take care of yourself, I can't be with you anymore in the future......"

Qin Han's words were slight, but every sentence was heard in my ears, and then the sound of the door finally closing behind me came, and the moment it closed, my already scarred heart was considered to have a fatal blow, and it was completely shattered.

I understand that after closing the door this time, Qin Han will never come back, I will never see him in this room again, and he will no longer show me gentle eyes, or the corners of his mouth raised.