[74] The mind is destroyed
I couldn't find it all the way, but in a blink of an eye, I was outside the palace. The palace doors were wide open, as if they knew I was coming.
Biting my lip hard to keep myself from being attacked by sleepiness, I whipped up my horse and rode into the palace.
Standing outside the main hall, Fan Chou helped me into the hall.
The little emperor Liu Xie sat high on the main hall, and Princess Wan sat on his left.
"In this game, Hongu won." High up, Princess Wan smiled like a flower.
"With Dong Zhuo's strength, do you want to move him with a few killers who don't enter the stream?" I try to make myself look calmer.
Lu Bu is far away in Luoyang, no matter how much Princess Wan calculates, she can't let Lu Bu's clone come back.
"What if Dong Zhuo is bent on death?" Princess Wan raised her lips.
"What do you mean?" The answer was about to come out, and I began to get scared.
"Actually, I know that my smile can live well without my protection, and my smile is a strong child......" is such a gentle and warm, cotton-like voice...... It's so far away......
"I'm relieved, in this troubled world, only by being ruthless can I survive, my smile, I can survive without my protection, it's so good......"
Dong Zhuo's voice sounded in my ears...... Isn't that a dream? What does he mean...... I started to get scared.
My body shook slightly, and I almost fainted.
"Whoever kills Dong Zhuo, he may fight to the death, but he is the only one...... He would rather die than hurt her in the slightest. Princess Wan smiled faintly.
Clenching my fists hard, I covered my heart.
What happened? What's going on?
Could it be, Zhong Ying...... Do you think I'm going to hurt you? Do you think I'm trying to kill you?
"Miss......" Fan Chou's voice sounded in my ears.
I was taken aback and forgot about my feelings...... It was given by Wang Yun.
I...... Damn it......
"Go quickly, take me to Dong Zhuo!" Pulling Fan Chou, I turned around and was about to go out.
Zhong Ying, don't believe what you see, don't believe what you hear...... Zhong Ying, don't die......
"I'm going to tell him that I'm not going to kill him...... I didn't...... He can't die......" I muttered, holding Fan Chou's hand, the sensation in my legs fading......
"Catch them." Coldly, I heard Princess Wan's voice.
One by one, the palace doors closed tightly in front of me.
But I suddenly quieted down, slowly raised my head, and I met Fan Chou's eyes. He stood still, motionless, looking at me in silence.
After thousands of calculations, I missed Fan Chou. No third person but him knew of my plans; Apart from him, who else could rob Dong Zhuo at that time......
Guo Yan is the plank road of Ming Xiu, and Fan Chou is the secret crossing of Chen Cang. I thought that he was the only person around me who I could trust and help me, but it turned out to be ...... Or am I stupid.
"You, hate Dong Zhuo?" My voice is soft.
Fan Chou looked at me with a complicated expression: "I don't hate him." ”
"Then why?"
"Before Ling'er died, please ask me to avenge her."
The memory returned to that day, by the moat of Liangzhou, Ling'er was poisoned, and black blood overflowed from her mouth, but she clinged to his shoulder tightly, opened her mouth several times, but no sound came out.
Now that I think about it, it's all very clear. Ling'er's mouth, she was saying, help me get revenge.
"Huh." I chuckled.
I've been holding back, but at the last moment I was given a fatal blow, Ling'er, it seems that you still won.
Fan Chou clenched his fists and stopped looking at me: "I only want Dong Zhuo's life, and Her Royal Highness the princess promised that after the matter is completed, it will relieve your poison." ”
I laughed, a little miserably: "I thought ...... You know......"
Fan Chou stiffened slightly.
"I thought you knew...... This life, in this troubled era, there is no reason for me to cherish it at all......" As she spoke, I stopped looking at him, turned around, and looked at the little emperor and Princess Wan in the high position, "Let me out." ”
"Dong Zhuo, you will definitely die." Looking at me, Princess Wan's eyes were a little cold.
"Why do you have to force him? He promised me that I would not embarrass the royal family again, and he promised me not to kill again, even ...... I can be incognito with him...... Why do you want him to die?! I gritted my teeth, my eyes dripping blood.
"Because he has dishonored the dignity of the royal family; Because, he is a lone star. Princess Wan sneered.
"Liu Wan, I curse you, you will never be happy!" Unconscious, I looked at her with hatred.
"I don't need to bother you to curse, happiness and that kind of thing...... Hongu has never had an extravagant dream. ”
I lost consciousness all of a sudden......
When I woke up, there was no one around. Memory, little by little. I got up suddenly, and then fell to the ground, my legs so paralyzed that I didn't feel the slightest feeling. I thumped my legs in anger until I felt a pain in my legs, and then staggered to the door.
"Is there anybody? Let me out......"
There was a terrible silence all around.
"Actually, I know that my smile can live well without my protection, and my smile is a strong child......
"I'm relieved, in this troubled world, only by being ruthless can I survive, my smile, I can survive without my protection, it's so good......"
"Whoever kills Dong Zhuo, he may fight to the death, but he is the only one...... He would rather die than hurt her in the slightest. ”
All sorts of sounds intertwined in my ears, and I felt like I was going crazy......
Dong Zhuo, he thinks I'm going to kill him?
That night, I fed the pill into his mouth, and he knew it, he knew there was something wrong with the pill...... But he didn't say anything......
"Let me out! Let me out! Hoarse, I slammed the heavy wooden door.
One by one, like Zigui crying blood.
Only, in response to me, was a deathly silence.
Carved wooden couch, painted gold embroidered quilt...... In such a magnificent room, at this time, I was in a golden dragon and phoenix, and magnificent, but I was embarrassed.
That heavy vermilion lacquer gate, isolated, will be forever separated from me and Dong Zhuo's heaven and man!
Zhong Ying...... Zhong Ying ...... "My hands were clenched into fists, and I almost despaired as I slammed on the wooden door.
Little by little, my strength disappeared, and I slowly sat down on my knees.
The door opened suddenly.
The goose feathers and snow blew in the wind violently, and I flinched, and suddenly looked up, and met a pair of gentle eyes.
Wang Yun.
He stretched out his hand and lifted me up, his eyes filled with compassion and coldness.
I pursed my lips and stared at him.
"Although, Dong Zhuo won't want you to see him like that, but I think you should want to see him for the last time." Slowly, he spoke.
His hands were cold.
My heart is colder.
"Forgetfulness Pill?" My voice trembled, but I didn't cry.
Wang Yun's eyes were deadly silent: "It is a heart-shattering pill, which can make people's hearts and veins occluded." ”
"Where is he?" I spoke, and my voice was impossibly calm.
"Outside the palace gate."
"Thank you." I said slowly, my voice low and invisible, and I tried to raise my lips, but to no avail.
But I don't even have the strength to do it now, and damn sleepiness is blowing over me. Wang Yun stretched out his hand to help, I shook off his hand, took out the silver arrow that had been broken that day from my arms, and raised my hand and stabbed it into the leg in front of him.
Wang Yun froze, and little by little, the death-like pain stained his usual gentle eyes.
The pain dissipated the fatigue, and I limped out of the room.
Blood...... Leaving a sinuous curve behind me.
The cold wind was like a blade, cutting my face painfully, and my steps became more and more urgent, stepping on the snow on the ground, making a "creaking" sound.
It's been a long and hopeless road, and after so many things, am I still his smile? Oh, I can't even tell who I am, it's sad.
Why, do I want to see the people around me change their appearance one by one, and go to a dead end one by one?
Rush all the way, rush and rush.
I stopped my footsteps, and I stared blankly at the pale snow not far ahead.
In the ice and snow, he was wearing only a pair of pants all over his body, lying on the snow, and there were countless scars on his body.
On his belly was a candle flame. Is this the light of the sky lantern?
Dark red blood spread strangely with the pale snow......
I could barely stand on my feet, my mind went blank, and my eyes were full of the man lying naked in the snow. What a proud person, but even death, without dignity?
Crazy, I rushed forward, but my feet were weak, and I suddenly fell on the snow.
A chill seeped into my bone marrow as my fingertips gradually penetrated my limbs.
With my hands and feet at the same time, my face covered with snow, I crawled to his side in embarrassment, brushed away the candle flame placed on him, and the pain in my hands was scorched by the fire, but now it seemed that there was only numbness.
His belly was ...... All that's left is charred black.
Snow, one by one, one after another.
I shivered and took off my coat and wrapped it tightly around him, holding my body that had been burned out of shape by the candlelight, and my chest, which had been so warm, was only cold......
Holding on tightly, tears finally broke down the embankment.
"Zhong Ying, Zhong Ying...... It's not me, it's not me......" Reaching out slowly, I gently stroked his cheek, and I murmured.
He closed his eyes tightly and ignored me, but the corners of his mouth were actually smiling.
Why laugh? Why laugh!
It's not me who designs to harm you! Not me. Don't die with a smile like this, don't do this, why don't you even give me a chance to explain......
Even if he has done everything in the world, but only for me, he sees it more than his own life, but I, I really never wanted his death!
Now, it's really stinking for 10,000 years......
"It's not me, it's not me! Zhong Ying ...... "Holding him tightly, I screamed, hysterical.
Knowing my cunning, he took me in his arms with wishful thinking. A sucker...... Why don't you understand me......
He has ambitions for the world, but he is willing to put down the butcher's knife because of me. I'm his nemesis.
Between the sideburns, the double fly is still there. At this time, he had no breath.
I lowered my head against his forehead, and the blood on my leg slowly flowed out, intertwining with the red on the snow to form a brilliant and eerie picture......
"Zhong Ying." I call.
He didn't answer me.
"Zhong Ying, why don't you ignore me...... You've never ignored me...... I'm smiling, I'm Zhong Ying's smiling...... Angry...... Are you angry with your smile...... Laughing is wrong, don't dare to be naughty anymore...... Please...... Don't ignore me...... Don't ignore me......"
I leaned against him as if I were ...... It has become a corpse.
Who else in this world would prepare a gift for me on a snowy day?
Who else in this world would defend me with his life?
In this world, the man named Zhong Ying...... It's gone......
In Chang'an City, which was covered in silver, I sat in the snow and hugged the man who had no breath at all, crying loudly......
He never opened his eyes again...... Never wiped the tears from my cheeks again......
He didn't say anything to me again, smiling......
He didn't move.
Without Dong Zhuo, I wouldn't be smiling; There is no Dong Zhuo...... Me, who do you laugh at?
"Zhong Ying, wait for me ......"
"Don't go too fast, on Huangquan Road, wait and laugh......"
The sky is getting brighter, and the snow around is gradually melting.
On the street outside the Chang'an Palace, I hugged him tightly......
I thought that the story ...... And so it ended.