Chapter 8 Psychological Imprints and Comparison Psychology

As if knowing the result, the military doctor pushed the door in, stepped on the flat white leather shoes tied up with dustproof shoes, walked in front of me, replaced the extension tube and infusion set on the infusion pump, and then said to me with a blank face:

"Chakolos is here."

The military doctor hurriedly packed away the wedding dress of Huanglong, folded it and hid it in a corrugated box under the monitoring bed, and took away all the traces left by Xiaokui.

I quietly watched him clean up everything, the sunset outside the window became more and more fiery red, and the thin silhouette of the camphor tree outside the window became hazy in the red sunset background, like molten gold, as if it was about to merge with the sunset.

When Shakolos walked in, he dragged a long emerald tail, like a peacock with an unopened screen, of course, the long-tailed peacock was male, but she was a beautiful girl. As if the tail of the mesh material was covered with cut-out lace appliquΓ©s, the retro long tail elongated her body, the green straps tied four bows behind her mid-waist, and the slim skirt waist that was close to her model-like curvaceous curves.

She was beautiful, as beautiful as a water willow.

In the molten light of the setting sun, she walked towards me like a dream.

I suddenly didn't dare to look directly into her gaze, but just looked away.

The military doctor stepped forward and instructed Shakoros on something, Chakolos nodded, stretched out her jade arm, and the thin needle pierced under the soft skin, and the crimson blood flowed out of the veins and into the micropump along the infusion tube.

I was silent while Chakolos sat on the edge of my bed.

I thought that according to Chacoros's character, she would speak, but what I didn't expect was that after a long time, she didn't speak, and in the end, I couldn't help it, and turned my head away, only to find that she had been staring at me with one hand on her cheek.

My gaze met the clear eyes of Chakolos.

"Are you feeling better?" She asked me.

I didn't know what to answer, but I hummed softly.

"Your eyes are wet and you've cried?" Chakolos said. "Is it because of me?"

My heart jumped.

I didn't answer, just looked at her.

Chakolos lifted the corner of the wedding dress and wiped it for me.

"I don't like men who cry."

I was stunned and smiled:

"Where am I crying, it's just that the sunset is too dazzling......"

Chakolos finished wiping my eyes, put one hand on his cheek, stared at me without blinking, and said:

"Then you promise me that from today onwards, you won't cry again, okay?"

I looked at Chakoros quietly, at her water-streaked pupils, and then nodded slightly.

"Okay, I promise you...... I'm not a crying person anyway. ”

Chakolos smiled, her pink lips curled slightly, she looked at me, and said:

"Hehe, I really want to see what you look like. Speaking of which, from the time I met you, until now, I haven't seen what you look like, I'm really curious. ”

My heart touched slightly, but when I think about it, it is. The first time I met Chakolos, it was in a dark freezer, and I left before she could wake up. Later, when she saw me in the hospital, my face was covered with bandages, and then when I was rescued from the water during the battle of the three women, my face was covered in blood, and she probably didn't see my face completely before I was put into the ambulance, and from beginning to end, Chakolos didn't even see my face, which is really an incredible thing.

"How could it be, when I persuaded you at that time, didn't you see me from afar?" I asked.

Chakolos shook his head:

"At that time, my eyes were full of blood, and I had to keep laying eggs, and my vision was blood-red, and I couldn't see your face at all, I could only see a rough outline."

Speaking of the other girls, Chakolos and I bowed our heads together.

After a moment of silence, Chakolos grabbed my sheet and said:

"I don't know how you met them...... I don't want to know either. But when I saw them like that, I knew that they must really like you, and they can't fake it. Actually, when Xiaokui rushed into the bathroom at that time, I had already guessed that she was not a debt collector, she was here for you, so I was very angry, very angry, I didn't want to lose to her, and I didn't want you to be taken away by her......"

"I've always felt that I'm a person who can give everything for the person I like, I like to seek excitement and I want a big love, just like a movie I watched before, Titanic. I think that kind of love is beautiful, it's great, and I want that feeling. If there really is such a man who is willing to give his life for me, I will definitely fall in love with him at all costs. You were in the freezer that day, and you gave me all your few clothes for me, but you were freezing, and I was really touched. At that time, I felt that you were the lover I was looking for, and if you treated me like this, I was willing to give everything for you. ”

"But I found out I was wrong." "Just now, when the doctor said that saving you with a third of your blood might cause me to bleed too much and die," said Chakolos, "Just now, when the doctor said that saving you with a third of your blood might cause me to bleed too much and die...... But Xiao Kui didn't think much about it, and it was very decisively unified. At that time, I was really surprised and angry. I'm jealous of her, obviously I should love you the most, but why do I really have to use my life to save you, I am so hesitant, like a coward, but she is so simple...... I really hate myself, I hate ...... I used to think too highly of myself, but in fact, I was a selfish and timid person......"

I laughed, shallowly:

"Actually, I think it's normal for you to be like this, I've always thought it's strange, how can you like me, you should be the kind of girl who doesn't tie her heart to a stake, there are so many handsome guys you like, and there are so many handsome guys around you. You haven't even seen my face, what if, I'm not a handsome guy, I'm an ugly man? Didn't you lose your life? At this point, even I couldn't help but laugh, the bandage was tightly pressed against my face, airtight, and when I laughed, I felt my face both stuffy and swollen.

Chakolos laughed mockingly:

"yes, I like handsome guys. As soon as I see a handsome guy, my heart will be blazing, and my heart will beat faster. But I think that there are many, many handsome guys and beauties in this world, and in a person's life, there will be many, many handsome guys and beauties, so many that they are like stars in the sky, and they can never be counted, but the person who really loves you may only find that one in a lifetime in the vast sea of people. It's like two leaves fluttering in the sea, and if you pass by, you will never meet again. ”

"If you love a lot of people, it just means that you don't love any of them. In this world, there is only one person who can really enter your heart, and that person will leave a mark in a corner of your heart, which is like a candy that has been taken away from the hands of a child, like a doll that can no longer be found anywhere, and that mark will move you and accompany you for a lifetime. You may forget it for a while, but then you will suddenly remember it on a rainy day, and it will last for a whole rainy season. That kind of emotion may only be for a short moment, but you will never forget it for the rest of your life. Maybe you'll want to find the same feeling in someone else, but at the end of the day, you'll know that you'll never find that feeling again. It feels like that once in a lifetime, and if you let it escape, you'll never find it. ”

I looked at Chakolos blankly and muttered:

"Why do you know so much?"

Chakolos smiled:

"Because I was summoned to this world because I heard the voices of countless men and women immersed in love. In this world, perhaps no one understands the love between men and women better than me. ”

I looked at Chakolos blankly, for a moment, I didn't know what to say, watching the blood in the infusion tube enter my wrist little by little, I raised my head, looked at the pair of natural and smart eyes in front of me, and said with a wry smile:

"Want to see ...... My face? Actually, my face may be a little more handsome than you think. You can rip the bandage off. ”

Chakolos was silent, his lips slightly open, and his eyes were shining like rhinestones.

"Okay." She smiled, dimpled, and reached out like a plucked flower and pressed it to my cheek, two slender fingers grabbing one side of the bandage on my face, and then gently tugging.

With a hint of tearing pain, I felt a short horn of the bandage wrapped around my face, and Chakolos's eyes were shining, and I could feel the twitching of her fingers, and I knew that she was very excited.

She was expecting, expecting to see my face.

The hot and humid breath blew on my cheeks, I looked at Chakolos opposite each other, I looked at her bright eyes, waiting quietly, the room was quiet, the military doctor had already consciously left, the setting sun rendered a red world, as if out of the window, it was the surface of the sun.

Then, Chakolos's hand stopped in mid-air. I thought she was too excited that the bandage's thread slipped and fell, but in the end, Chakolos withdrew her hand, and she reverted to the posture of holding her cheek with one hand, sighed with relief, and said:

"Forget it, what do you look like, what does it matter. What I like is just a man who can silently protect me, keep me warm, and even give his life in a cold and dark freezer. When I think of him, I think of that dark freezer and his warm body temperature. It doesn't matter what he looks like. ”

"I know a lot of people are saying behind their backs that I like handsome guys, but what about now? I've gotten rid of so many handsome guys who have been around me all day long to please me, but I'm in love with a man who hasn't even seen a face, what else can they say? ”

Chakolos said loudly, his eyes shining with pride and his voice full of pride.

I looked at Chakolos steadily, and I noticed that her lips had faded slightly, and her face was a little pale, as if she had donated too much blood.

"Are you alright? You're looking very bad, so forget it, don't donate blood to me anymore......"

Chakolos rubbed his forehead and shook his head with a smile:

"Don't worry, I'm fine, I'm fine. Hey, let me ask you, if one day we were trapped together in that dark and cold freezer again, or if it was just the two of us, would you still keep me warm? Just like that day. ”

I looked at Chakolos and nodded without hesitation:

"Yes. Of course I would. ”

Chakolos smiled with satisfaction, tears sliding gently from the corners of his eyes. She wiped the corners of her eyes and said:

"It's good to have your words. It means that your heart for me is still the same as when you first met me, exactly the same, not the same at all, doesn't it? ”

"Hey, Xiao Shiyilang, have you heard, on the other side of the Indian Ocean, there is a beautiful small country with four seasons like spring, called Seychelles, there, there is a kind of tree, called ** love tree, I heard that when the lovers of that country get married, they will make a wish under the love tree, so that they can get the blessing of the tree god, always together, forever happy. When you get better, let's go to the Seychelles to find the love tree and make a wish, shall we? ”

"Okay." I looked at Chakolos lightly and said with a stiff smile. "When I'm well and your body is well, we'll go together. We sailed across the ocean together, rode the wind and waves, to that small country at the end of the Indian Ocean, where the seasons are like spring, the flowers bloom without thanks, and then we make a wish together under the love tree......"

"Hmm...... Let's go together...... Let's go to ......"

Chakolos seemed very content, she was happy, her eyes looked at me without blinking, she pursed her lips, hummed a little song, and suddenly, she leaned down, her moist lips lightly covering mine, and the sudden wetness caught me off guard.

"Close your eyes and I'll give you a gift." Chakolos, who was close at hand, said with a wink.

I closed my eyes obediently, and all I could feel was the warm breath of Chakolos gently on my face and the soft warm touch on my lips.

I kept my eyes closed, didn't open them, just silently felt the temperature of Chakolos, and her warm and fragrant scent. Chakolos kissed me for a long, long time, and that sweet lips never left me, never ......

I don't know how long it took, maybe five minutes, or fifteen minutes, or half an hour, but I felt the lips that covered my lips gradually cool, and I opened my eyes in horror, only to see the pale face and completely faded lips of Chakolos, who was as white as a layer of frost.

"...... Chakolos?"

Shakolos's cheeks were covered with sweat, but she still smiled reluctantly, her eyes under her long eyelashes squinting and full of happiness, and one of her hands rested on the flow adjustment knob of the infusion water pump beside her.

I suddenly understood something, turned my neck stiffly, and then, I saw the blood flow rate on the infusion water pump.

My heart beat wildly, and when I closed my eyes, Chakolos doubled the speed of blood transfusions!

Shakolos looked at me weakly, his frosty white face no longer bloodless.

"That's ...... I love you more than Aoi, right? Isn't it......" Charkolos showed the joy of victory, and then her body suddenly trembled, and the whole person softened as if she had collapsed, lying on the bed, she couldn't even open her eyes, and she didn't move for a long time, and after a while, she said in a trembling voice, "It's so cold, why is it so cold...... Iβ€”Am I in the freezer again? It's so cold, it's so dark......"

With great difficulty, I put my arms around Shakolos and took her into my arms, tears streaming down my cheeks like open floodgates.

"It's okay, I'm here...... I'm here, right next to you...... We've always been together......"

Chakolos snuggled tightly into my arms, closed his eyes, grasped my hand, trembled, and said dimly:

"Yes, with you by my side, I can feel it, it's so warm, it's so warm...... Hey, I seem to see the island in the Seychelles, I see the flowers blooming, and the love tree, wow, there are birds flying in the sky, do you see it? Do you see the island of Seychelles? ”

"I see it...... I saw ......," I hugged Charkolos and murmured, a warm tear rolling down her cheek, "of course I saw it...... Because, where there is you, everywhere is spring in the Seychelles. ”

The pale green wedding dress exudes a shining light, like a gust of wind blowing, and the leaves of the love tree that have not yet entered autumn are fluttering up one after another, facing the wind, whirling, rising in the wind, with the blessing of the girl, singing the hymn, slowly drifting to the other side of the sky......

I think I've heard this song and seen the lyrics of this song, which is in the excerpt from Lin Yayue's novel:

If there is an afterlife, make a tree,

Stand for eternity. There is no posture of joy and sorrow,

Half in the dust,

Half fluttered in the wind;

Half sprinkled with shade,

Half soaked in the sun.

Very silent, very proud.

Never rely on, never seek.

If there is an afterlife, it will turn into a gust of wind,

An instant can become an eternity.

There are no sentimental feelings, no amorous eyes.

Half free in the rain,

Half traveled in the spring light;

Lonely, lonely to go on a long journey,

Take away the faint thoughts,

Never miss, never love;

If there is an afterlife, be a bird,

Fly through eternity, without the distress of being lost.

There is a fiery hope in the East,

There are warm nest beds in the south,

Retreat the remnant sun to the west and awaken the fragrance to the north.

If there is an afterlife,

Hope that every time we meet,

can be turned into eternity.

……

The singing gradually stopped, and the tears were not dried on the sheets.

The sunset is still there, and the embrace is still warm.

Everything remains the same, not the same.

It's just a girl in her arms, but it's long gone.

"Chakolos is gone." Lin Yayue's thin voice was like curling smoke, drifting into my ears.

"Hmm." My hands gripped the sheets, and the flat sheets were clutched into a ball.

"Xia Kolos is very similar to Qi Miao," Gu Qingcheng's cold voice came through, "It can even be said that they are exactly the same from the inside out, they are both innocent children." ”

"What do you know?" I asked softly.

Gu Qingcheng's voice came:

"Listen to what Qi Miao said for yourself."

"Xiao Shiyi Lang ......" Qi Miao's voice came, her voice was exactly the same as Chakoros, which once gave me the illusion that Chakolos had not left yet, but unfortunately, I knew that Chakolos was really gone, Qi Miao was Qi Miao, Chakolos was Chakoros, they were two completely different people.

"I can feel your feelings, and the mood of Chakolos...... Actually, I think if I were Chakolos, I would have made the same choice. Actually, I don't like handsome guys as much as everyone thinks...... When I was young, my grandmother often told me that every woman will meet many excellent men in her life, and there will be men who make them excited, but they don't belong to them, and that is not the other half of their lives. There is only one person in everyone's life who will be with her for the rest of her life, and if you meet him, you will know that he is the person you have been waiting for. ”

"When I was a child, I was actually a very savage girl, and I was not interested in handsome guys at all, because I believed in my grandmother's words, and one day I would wait for the person I was destined to have a vigorous love, and then get a happy marriage. But as I grew up, all my friends around me had their own boys, and even had someone to date. I panicked, I was scared, I felt that I was getting more and more lonely, gradually isolated, and my friends around me found the man they loved, driving on the road in a sports car, holding hands and wandering around the mall...... I was the only one left, standing there for more than a decade, silently waiting. My best friend said that I could find a boyfriend, but I refused, because I felt that I hadn't waited for the person I had been waiting for, even if I forced myself, I was just a bitter gourd that was twisted, and I wouldn't be happy for a lifetime. You say, I'm stupid, like a child? ”

Qi Miao seemed to want to make the atmosphere more relaxed, but I couldn't laugh.

"So, you've been lying to people that you like handsome guys, and then you're playing the image of a nymphomaniac?"

"yes...... I think that if a girl likes a handsome guy when she sees her, then she must be treated by no one. That way, I can spend a little more time waiting for the person I was destined to be. Even if it's one more day, one more year, I'm willing. ”

Speaking of which, Qi Miao couldn't go on, maybe she couldn't find the words, but I already knew her intentions.

The words that Chakolos didn't finish had already passed to my heart through Qi Miao's mouth.

There will always be such a person in everyone's life, who will let you out of the childhood greenhouse that you have been holding on to for many years and are unwilling to move, and volunteer to blossom for him.

I don't know my past, she doesn't see her future. My encounter with Chakolos may have been just a fate of fate, but I met the right person at the wrong time, and left a wonderful time as short as a dragonfly, this short time of misfortune may be the meaning that some people are willing to spend their lives pursuing.