[xxxi] livelihood
In summer, the days are long and the nights are short, and in the evening, the sky is still bright, and the temperature has not subsided for half a minute.
The western sky was like blood, accompanied by the colorful glow in the sky, and in the hoarse sound of the carriage axle, Cao Cao and his party finally entered Luoyang City, the capital of the Eastern Han Dynasty.
Reaching out and gently lifting the curtain of the car window, I looked up at the high city gate, which was naturally not comparable to the set in the movie.
Even if the yellow scarf is in turmoil, even if the world has become a troubled world, but at the foot of this son of heaven, it is still a song and dance, splendid and prosperous.
Guo Jia didn't ride a horse, so he sat in the carriage and accompanied me, looking at his cautious appearance, probably because I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to find a short time.
It's stupid, how could it be. How can a person like me, who is greedy for life and afraid of death, seek death? If you are as smart as Guo Jia, will you also anticipate people's hearts?
"Stinky scholar, what is Cao Cao doing in Luoyang this time?" Anyway, Cao Cao wasn't there, so I called him by his first name. Luoyang is so complicated, according to the calculation of time, it should be the time when the Empress Dowager Dong and Empress He have a dispute over the establishment of the crown prince. Originally, those things that were so far away from me, those things that should have been sealed in the dust of a long history, happened in front of me one by one.
"Brother Meng De was summoned to Beijing this time, but although he was nominally rewarded for his merits and deeds to repel the Yellow Turban Army, he ......" Guo Jia replied honestly, and he hesitated a little here.
I knew that he had a guess about the identity of the man in black just now, but it was inconvenient to say more, so I changed the topic: "What have you done all these years?" He opened his mouth lightly, only this sentence, there was some meaning of seeing each other, and after getting along for so many days, until this time, there was a feeling of nostalgia.
Guo Jia looked a little happy, and for the first time, he felt elated in his always clear and delicate appearance: "I listened to Master's words, and I have traveled around all these years, and then I know that the world is so big, and it was really a frog at the bottom of a well before." ”
I smiled at Guo Jia in front of me, who was happy like a child, and thought of his ending, slightly gloomy.
"Later, I met Brother Meng De, and he ......" Guo Jia frowned, as if wondering how to describe it.
"A traitor in troubled times, a capable minister who rules the world." Unconsciously quoted Xu Shao's evaluation of Cao Cao in "Romance of the Three Kingdoms", I said lightly, and then regretted it.
Guo Jia's eyes lit up, and he grabbed my hands: "You think so too?!" ”
I was slightly stunned, then chuckled and nodded. Not that I think so, it's the way it is.
His hands were a little thin, cold and cold, his nails were neatly trimmed, and he was very comfortable to hold, but in such a hot weather, his body was so cold, it was really healthy.
Realizing that he had been holding my hand, Guo Jia unconsciously blushed again, and withdrew his hand as if he had been burned.
I smiled indifferently. But I was secretly thinking in my heart, I can't go back to Liangzhou, since this is the case, I should think about how to go in the future.
Cao Cao is destined to leave a name in history, he is a winner, but his city is too deep, follow him, I can't be stable, and bloody killings are inevitable. Or do you want to wear it back again? I can't change Dong Zhuo's history, and I don't want to witness it with my own eyes, that kind of ending will make me heartbroken, so I'd rather be a coward, return to my own world, read the script, continue to act in my play, and then look at the fat and fierce middle-aged man in the crew who plays Dong Zhuo, and tell myself that everything is history, just history...... Then hypnotize yourself like an ostrich and escape from what happens......
But I had already deduced in my mind for the hundredth and first time the possibility of this crossing had caused this crossing, but I didn't even have a clue...... The phone has been tried before, but there is no response at all.
So the conclusion is that the possibility of crossing back is almost zero.
If I can't go back to Liangzhou, and I can't go back to my own world, then for me, the best outcome is to live in seclusion, out of sight, no longer participate in any history, and no longer have any entanglements with anyone in this era......
Because then, I will never recover.
Because, I am an outsider, an outsider who does not belong to this era.
"Goddess?" Guo Jia stretched out his hand and shook it in front of me, looking at me with a worried expression.
When I came back to my senses, I realized that the carriage had stopped, in a place that resembled a post house.
I pulled a smile to say I was okay and lifted the curtain and jumped out of the car.
"Please rest first, Lord Cao, and wait for the emperor to summon you tomorrow." At the door, a man in a brocade robe hunched his waist, his voice sharp and thin, indescribably weird.
"Got it." Cao Cao spoke lightly, as if he was very disdainful of the man.
When I looked closely, the man in the brocade robe, his skin was as smooth as a woman, and his demeanor was strange and tight, and he couldn't help but look at it twice, uh, could this be the legendary ...... Eunuch?
Well, it should be called a eunuch.
"Then the slave ......" The man made a smile, then brushed his sleeves, and was about to leave in the carriage, when he looked up, he happened to see me who had just gotten out of the car, and he couldn't help but be slightly stunned, and then his face showed disgust.
There is a kind of person in this world who has an aversion to things that are not beautiful. Unfortunately, the eunuch should be that kind of person, and I have become an unbeautiful thing.
Cao Cao turned around with his gaze, and when he saw me, he immediately frowned and said coldly: "Zhang Changshi, please go back." ”
The eunuch replied with a dry smile, turned around and boarded the carriage and left, although he was very respectful to Cao Cao on the surface, he didn't seem to take Cao Cao in his eyes.
The disgusted eyes of the eunuch did not cause any psychological shadow on me, and I didn't want to get involved in Cao Cao's affairs, so I bowed my head and followed them into the post station.
The acquaintance outside the window kept screaming, adding a touch of irritability to this summer night.
In the flickering candlelight, I sat in front of the bronze mirror and looked at myself in the mirror steadily. The large piercing scar on the smooth cheek looks a little weird, it would be a lie to say that I don't care, women love beauty, not to mention that in the past twenty-nine years, I relied on this face to eat.
I gently stroked my cheek with one hand and sat in a daze for a long time, I finally let out a long sigh, picked up my long hair slightly, covered half of my face, and then stood up, ready to leave the inn at night. I looked around and tried to pack my luggage, only to find that I had no long things, not even a single piece of clothing, and I was still wearing Guo Jia's clothes.
Turning his head to look at the room, there was nothing of value, so he had to stand up helplessly, ready to take advantage of the night.
Quietly pushed the door open, and there was silence outside the house except for the chirping of cicadas. This post house is a little dilapidated, and I didn't see anyone guarding the door when I came, and Cao Cao and his party were already tired all the way, and now they shouldn't be guarding the door, so I walked out from the main gate.
All the way out of the inn, I let out a long breath and looked up at the sky, although the weather was still hot, but the moon hanging in the sky was a little cold.
An Ruo, it's another person. It doesn't matter, I have been single for twenty-nine years, not bad this time, Yue Lao must be drunk and take the wrong red line. Hidden in the city! Let's fight for a comfortable future!
Rubbing my nose, I lifted my spirits and prepared to support myself in the capital of the late Eastern Han Dynasty.
I was in a state of excitement when I felt something bite the hem of my clothes, and I immediately thought of an animal that had a deep grudge against me......
Without the courage to bow my head, I waved my hand like a fly, and I was about to flee.
As soon as he turned around, he met a pair of eyes that were as clear as water, and there was a smile in those eyes that seemed to be able to see through people's hearts.
"Stinky scholar?" I screamed in surprise, and sighed in my heart, fortunately it wasn't Cao Cao. When I looked down again, it was a hairless donkey! It's biting at the hem of my clothes, and if it's wrong, its sparkling eyes have a gloating expression!
"Where are you going?" Looking at me, Guo Jia asked.
I raised my eyebrows: "I'm supposed to be free, right?" ”
Guo Jia nodded, but said the same thing: "Where are you going?" ”
My eyebrows twitched slightly, and I gritted my teeth and said, "Die." ”
"I'll accompany you." Don't care about my bad tone at all, Guo Jiadao.
"Die with me?" With a smile on my face, I choked on him.
"If you're going to die." He added idly.
This guy! Will you die if you pretend to be stupid once in a while?!
"So smart, be careful not to get a wife!" I cursed with some caution.
"Huh." He smiled good-naturedly and patted the small bag on his waist casually.
My eyes lit up as I stared at the pouch around his waist, which was not what I needed most at the moment...... Money!
Money is not everything. But without money, it is absolutely impossible. This is a wise saying.
And now, I'm penniless.
"You guessed it." Holding the pouch around his waist with a smile, Guo Jia looked like a villain.
But that damn villain is so cute. It's good to have money.
I rolled my eyes and calculated in my heart, why don't I wait until I get the money and then get rid of him? Uh, what a despicable idea. But if he doesn't follow the truth that wealth is not revealed, then I can't rely on me for my covetousness.
The cruel reality has forced my three views to death!
"I can cook and do laundry." Guo Jia softened his voice, and while I hesitated, he continued to lobby, "I will help you make money......
Will it make money? I looked at him suspiciously, this treacherous boy was really smart. If he were a hen with an egg in her arms, I could snatch the egg and dump him. But if he were a hen that lays eggs, I would have raised him willingly, and raised him for me to make money......
Besides, now that I am standing at the door of the inn, if I don't leave with him, and he raises his voice and shouts, my plan to leave will be declared bankrupt.
There is a saying that those who know the times are Junjie, right?
Without further speaking, I lifted my foot and stepped on the back of the hairless donkey, ignoring the mournful eyes of the little hair, and pulled its ears as revenge, and laughed heartily: "Let's go." ”
Guo Jia smiled and nodded, not for the poor little hair, flicked the wide sleeves and followed.
"God ......" Guo Jia followed me and spoke.
"Call me Anruo." Faintly, I spoke.
The word goddess made me fearful, afraid of the existence of some prophecy, maybe the scar on my face was just an excuse for my cowardice. Whenever I dream back at midnight, the sound of the tinkling silver chain and the prophecy of the "nemesis" are the reasons why I really dare not face myself......
At the end of the day, I'm still a despicable person.
I can't bear Dong Zhuo's destruction, and I can't bear his destruction because of me.
Even though, that's just a prophecy.
"An Ruo?" Guo Jia was slightly stunned, puzzled.
"Hmm." I replied lightly, and I didn't explain much.
"Anruo." Guo Jia immediately changed his words obediently.
"Good boy." Sitting on Xiao Mao's back, my hands were not idle, patted his head, and smiled.
Guo Jia didn't protest either, just smiled.
The two of them walked around Luoyang City for one night, and in view of the need to prepare for the long-term war of resistance, I planned what to do to make a living.
So, at my call, the next day, the pastry shop opened in full swing.
"Ruoruo ......" Under the stove, Guo Jia looked at me pitifully, with black mud on his face.
I was dressed in a coarse cloth skirt, my long hair was thick and coarsely pulled up, and only a few strands covered my left cheek, and I didn't look at Guo Jia, but just greeted me hard: "Come on, come on, the newly baked rouge cake ......"
After greeting for a long time, the shouting was so loud that the throat was smoking, and there were people coming and going on the street, but no one patronized.
"Ruoruo ......" puffed out his cheeks and blew the stove vigorously, Guo Jia looked at me sideways, full of grievances.
Seeing that Guo Jia was really pitiful, I couldn't help laughing, pulled him up, raised my sleeves and carefully wiped the dirt on his face, only to see that his delicate face was smoked red by the stove.
Guo Jia didn't move, his clear eyes looked at me, and obediently let me ravage his face.
"You just run away with me, won't Cao Cao chase you?" Straightened his long, somewhat messy hair, I said.
I laughed a little wickedly in my heart, if Cao Cao knew that I had abducted his advisers, he would definitely regret saving me in the first place, I am not revenge.
"No, Brother Meng De is a reasonable person, I have a book to explain everything, and he will understand." Guo Jia shook his head and said.
I smiled, and then raised my hand and took a piece of rouge cake and put it to his lips: "Alas, it's a pity that no one appreciates my craftsmanship, you can taste it, should it really be unappreciated?" ”
Opening his mouth to swallow, Guo Jia shook his head and said: "This smell should only be in the sky, and it is rare to smell it in the world." ”
I couldn't help but laugh and raised my hand to flick his forehead lightly: "When did you become so flamboyant?" ”
Raising his hand and stroking his forehead, Guo Jia also smiled.
"This ...... How to sell? Suddenly, there was a voice, a little timid, but also a little reasonable.
Got customers? I hurriedly left Guo Jia behind and turned to greet my first customer with a smile on my face.
Standing in front of me was a very cute female doll, who looked to be about ten years old.
"Try it first?" I picked up a piece of rouge cake and greeted me with great enthusiasm.
Seeing that I was so enthusiastic, the little girl took a step back as if frightened, and then timidly took the delicate pastry in my hand and carefully put it in her mouth.
In my infinite expectant eyes, she chewed carefully, and then lived up to my expectations and turned back and announced: "Sister, this thing is delicious, ...... than the palace."
"Stupid!" Another female doll jumped forward, it looked exactly the same, and she slammed her pink fist on the head of the female doll who was eating, "We live in the palace, how can we say this kind of thing casually!" ”
Belch...... Looking at the two identical-looking girls in front of me, I couldn't help but shake my eyebrows, held back a smile, and handed a piece of rouge cake to the sister.
The so-called rouge cake is a white sugar cake with red bean paste, which looks very good, tastes excellent, and most importantly, it is the only pastry I can make successfully! And I used honey instead of white sugar, which tastes better.
My sister greedily stuffed the rouge cake into her mouth, and her beautiful big eyes lit up all of a sudden: "It's delicious, let's buy some and go back to the emperor's brother." ”
"Sister...... You said that you can't mention the affairs of the palace outside......" my sister said aggrievedly.
Looking at the two living treasure-like girls in front of me, I laughed.
"Presumptuous, laugh at anything, wrap it up!" My sister frowned and scolded a little coquettishly.
I wasn't annoyed, I smiled, and wrapped the steamed rouge cake according to my words, the customer is God, not to mention that the two rich dolls in front of me are not the masters I can mess with, they call the emperor my brother, so it should be the princess.
Princess, princess! That kind of historical term will actually appear in front of me.
"Brother, you can try it too." The girl who had been reprimanded by her sister turned around and shouted.
I followed the girl's gaze and looked at the corner not far away, where stood a pale young man, dressed in brocade clothes that could not hide the paleness on his face, as if he had not seen the sun for many years.
He stood far away, with no expression on his face, and did not come forward.
Retracting my gaze, I handed the pastry wrapped in my hand to the two girls: "Please take it, a total of sixty yuan." "I smiled, was very amiable and authentic, and was ready to welcome my first income in the last years of the Eastern Han Dynasty.
"Money?"
Looking at the identical faces of the two girls, the exact same questions, the corners of my mouth couldn't help but twitch. These princesses and grandchildren don't know what money is!
Automatically and spontaneously withdrew the smile on his face, I suddenly missed Zhao Zilong a little, because now I can definitely understand his love for money! Sure enough, I don't know how expensive oil and rice are at home.
I didn't realize how terrible my face was when I couldn't receive money at this time, not to mention that the entire left side of my face was buried in the shadow of my hair......
A strong resentment......
The two little girls both stepped back in fright, looking like they were about to cry.
"Ruoruo ......" Guo Jia pulled my sleeve at the right time, "Forget it......"
I turned my head and looked like a late mother: "Forget it?" How do you calculate it? If everyone only eats and doesn't give money, why should I find myself guilty on a hot day? ”
"Here you go." A white hand suddenly came to me and spread out.
I took a look at it, and immediately smiled, and in the palm of my hand was a jade pendant, and the texture was definitely worth a lot.
"Is there enough money for pastries?" A faint voice sounded.
Only then did I notice that it was the young man in brocade standing on the corner of the street, looking at me with a look of disdain.
Reaching out to take the jade pendant, I ignored his disdain and nodded with a smile; "Enough is enough." Of course it's enough, it's enough to buy my whole shop.