I sobered up.

Maybe I should have told myself this sentence a long time ago, and the reason why I didn't say it may be that I felt that the timing was wrong, and from now on, I really had to be myself. In this long river of life, be the most unwronged yourself. Like the clouds of the sky, like the birds of the clouds,

Three days after Luo Bing returned to China, I made an appointment to meet him, it was a sunny afternoon, I called a taxi, called Luo Bing, asked him to dress better, buy a bouquet of roses by the way, told him that I was waiting for him at Lingqing Temple, and asked him to set his mood when he came, and the shock that I didn't say to control him.

When I was about to reach the entrance of Lingqing Temple, I got out of the car, grabbed the prepared roses and three cans of beer, and walked to the lobby to pay respects to the worshippers. As soon as I got out of the lobby, I received a call from Luo Bing, who said, what tricks are you two playing, I don't see Lao Tzu Lao Tzu *Ben anymore. You who save it have to be scolded. I said to him, come to the mourning hall, I think, he will be very happy. cut off the phone and waited quietly for Luo Bing's footsteps.

There was no one in the quiet mourning hall, the old eaves and mottled windows, the vermilion door was wide open and two or three bells reached my eardrums, the incense in the furnace was swirling, and there were tablets in front and on both sides, on which were written the dates of life and death, and the signatures of the deceased, and the sorrows of those who were still alive.

Just when I looked at Luo Hui's tablet, I saw Luo Bing, he saw the name of the tablet in front of me, yes, it was Luo Hui's, a person I like very much, Luo Bing admires it very much, Wang Meng admires it very much, and Chen Nan loves it very much. At the end, only a cold wooden plaque was left, without consciousness and temperature, but it deeply stabbed the eyes of all of us.

Two lines of tears flowed from the corners of Luo Bing's eyes, and he asked me, "What's the matter, Luo Hui, what about people?" Why is there only a wooden plaque, and he? Looking at his face, the sunglasses blocked my eyes, tears slipped to my mouth, I smiled at him, smiled very seriously and said, "This is Luo Hui, come on, give him your flowers, he will be very happy As long as it is a rose, he will know that you have come to see him." ”

He said, "Why? ”

I said, "He hopes that you will succeed in your studies and return to China as soon as possible, and then you will create the future together and create a piece of hope that belongs to you."

He said, "Why? ”

I said, "Luo Hui's wishes will be fulfilled for him one by one, including his expectations for me and his protection of me." ”

He said "why"

I said, "When you calm down, I'll tell you everything, and I'll be with you." ”

Luo Bing didn't ask why, nor did he say what to do, he was a little different from the simple and clean Luo Bing I knew at the beginning, and now he looked more brave, wise, and calm. Perhaps over the years, he has learned how to live tenaciously and grow against the wind in this complex social environment.

Many times in my memory, I often dream of the three of us, that is, Luo Bing did not go abroad, Luo Hui and I did not know Chen Nan, whether the life trajectory of the three of us has always been tied together, watching each other get married and have children, watching children and children become adults, watching us support each other with a self-loving person in our twilight years, watching the beautiful sunset in the sunset, cherishing the time in our hands, and knowing the moment when our lives disappear.

It's just that there is no if, no but, no original and later, I don't complain, I want to use what I have to protect all this I am grateful for, which is the best reward for myself.