I am a person who pursues perfection but has no flaws, for example, when doing one thing, I usually do not pursue the process of things much, but I will find fault with some details and pursue ideals. Just the pursuit, it seems, is the demand of the living.

It's been a long time since I've spoken to superfluous people, and the superfluous people I understand are those we've walked through for many years.

It's not because it's really redundant, I'm afraid. Afraid of those who were and are present.

I don't stay in the same place for more than half a year, I'm a veteran who has learned a lot, management, sales, marketing, analysis. But none of them are proficient, I don't regard myself as an all-encompassing person, because most of such people have capital, and I don't think there is, what I said is not that kind, it's just not enough, and I feel that I am not qualified in my heart.

I've been hiding in this world of reverie for too long, and I've lost all contact with everyone outside. To be honest, I have low self-esteem and a fragile heart. It seems to be powerful in the eyes of others, but it has never really been powerful. I have tried to be brave and be the person I want to be, but there is no way, it is still not enough, maybe God knows that I am an unqualified person, and it will give me more tests.

Later, I had a very good friend, I would often tell her some secrets in my own heart, and she would ruthlessly complain about everything I was dissatisfied with at critical times, and analyze my cowardice and unwillingness. In fact, I hate myself very much, I used to hold on too tightly, I couldn't let go, and I forgot to be comfortable with myself.

All these years have passed like this, and sometimes I forget every step I have taken over the years, everyone I have seen, and everything that has happened, it is a dream, and I have compiled myself into a beautiful youth that others think. No one reminded anyone like me who didn't care about myself, because I ignored their concerns. I don't want to think about my past self, and I don't want to be a better version of myself, but reality will not let everyone go, and how many times he has bloomed in your life, he will fall as many times as he has been. You can't escape, you can't hide, and sooner or later you have to pay it back.

In this way, the forgotten things are exposed beyond recognition in everyone's eyes, but it is always a person who bears it. I didn't dare to tell Luo Bing, I didn't dare to tell Wang Meng, and I didn't dare to see my parents. Parents will feel that this is not a matter of incompetence, and there is no substantive solution to the problem of first education or education. My friends and they knew my pain and sadness, but I didn't want to see them, because seeing them would only make me more miserable.

I thought that the first person to find me would be our best friend Wang Meng together, she had seen all my injuries and scabs, she knew everything about me, but she couldn't bear it for me, but what I didn't expect was that the first person to see me was Chen Nan. I have lived here for nearly two years, I have seen Wang Meng once, far away, she saw me, I also saw her, but I didn't go to say hello to her, because she understands, I don't see her, I don't see her, there is no reason, no one is wrong, but the facts are ruthless. She wouldn't force me to see the facts in front of me.

I remember that the weather was fine that day, the breeze was coming and there were no clouds. I just got off the company's elevator, my whole body was clean, no decoration, and I was ready to stay as usual, and at the moment I went out, I saw Chen Nan, she still looked beautiful, generous, and confident as before. And as you can see, she does a good job in terms of work. Through the turnstiles, she watched me walk down the stairs of the company until I reached her. She calmly walked up to me and said, "Would you like to have a drink?" I didn't refuse, although I had a reason, but I didn't want to shirk it, so I went with her to find a nearby bar and began to listen to her quietly.

There are a lot of vacant seats in the bar, and it is not yet time to start opening, I went a little early with Chen Nan, but the waiter still accepted us and found us a wide space, she asked for a glass of French Bordeaux, and gave me a glass of Scorpio Palace, I usually don't drink much, so I don't evaluate the wine much. It's very different for people, especially for the person in front of me. I'm not that mean, it's not me.

I didn't plan to speak first, I was waiting, waiting for her to start, she was very polite, first drank a glass, and then prepared a drink, is it all I don't know how to say the opening remarks need wine to help the atmosphere, otherwise the two people sitting will really be embarrassed to death, I think, wine is really a good thing, when drunk a thousand glasses pour.

Chen Nan rubbed the wine glass in his hand and started the topic leisurely, I instantly felt that a beginning like ours would be a very embarrassing beginning, who would know what kind of story there would be when two people like this sat together. But I didn't expect that I thought too much about myself, no matter what moment it is, the generous side has an advantage, just like treating the person I like.

Chen Nan rolled his eyes, didn't look at me, stared at the table, as soon as he opened his mouth in the first sentence, was he okay?

How are you doing? How's it going? I laughed, this is the way I hate the opening, how can someone be so blind, even the opening is so boring, how could I not find out before, how could I have been friends with such a person for so many years. I wondered if my brain was flooded. I didn't answer, looked at the long hair on her forehead, and waited for her to follow.

She seemed to be wording, or she was in a daze, and it took a while to say, "I'm sorry." She can say anything, I just didn't expect that as soon as she opened her mouth, it was like this, and instantly a cocktail in front of her was poured on her face, and my face was expressionless as soon as I stretched out my hand, I thought she would be angry and throw the wine in my hand, and then scold me for being a madman, and then leave me alone and embarrassed. But it seems to be a little different from what I expected, the above are all my conjectures about others, they haven't moved at all, and they still look very educated. It seems that I still don't know enough about the other party, it's all like this, and I'm not angry, it's really underestimated. To be honest, I don't have Chen Nan's generosity, at least in front of her, no.

I was a little surprised that the things I should have waited for didn't come, when did Chen Nan become so docile, from before to now, I clearly remember that she hasn't changed at all, maybe it seems that people are more mature and stable. I haven't been a bad guy before, but now that I'm trying to do it, I feel like I'm really inappropriate. Look at yourself, how can you have the momentum to blackmail others, thank God if others don't bully you, thank God, thank you for it. There is also the mind to oppress others.