After I finished speaking, the room was silent for a long time, and there was no more sound, which even made me a little mistaken if Qin Han really planned to give up like this, and whether he really didn't want to continue to entangle with me.

So with curiosity, I turned my head to take a look at Qin Han's expression, but when I first encountered the sadness in his eyes, I didn't hesitate to immediately avoid it, not daring to look at him again.

Sure enough, the timid person is still me, no matter how hard I talk about this, but it still can't change the truth.

And Qin Han was silent for a long time, and finally just turned everything into a sigh, "If this is what you want, if you really want us to have no contact with each other from now on, I think maybe I can meet your request, and I can do the same." ”

Obviously, what Qin Han is saying now is what I have always hoped for, I hope he can stop having anything to do with me, I hope that the two of us can end like this, but when he said all this to me, it made me feel a little flustered inexplicably.

So I turned my head in a hurry, and without hesitation, I yelled at him, so fast that I couldn't even react to it, and I didn't even know if I was saying it from the bottom of my heart, or if it was just angry words.

"In that case, then you should hurry up, will you get out of here? I don't want to see you anymore, there is nothing between the two of us anymore, can you please not continue to say these meaningless words to me in front of me! ”

"You're right, I just want you to leave me, I just hope you don't have any contact with me anymore, I don't want to have too much involvement with you, don't you understand?"

"To be honest, you shouldn't have come here today, why did you come to see me?

Now you have nothing to do with me, and I won't thank you for coming here, I just think it's all up to you, so leave here now, get out of here! ”

While speaking to Qin Han, I stretched out my finger and pointed in the direction of the door of the ward, the purpose was to force him to leave quickly, because only when he left, I would not be struggling and sad all the time, and only when he left, could I completely accept such a reality.

But obviously I have said it so clearly, Qin Han still has no intention of leaving, he still stares at me with calm and deep eyes, his gaze seems to be as dark as the deep sea in my dream, which makes me breathless, but I can't help but want to sink into it, and I can't wake up again.

His attraction to me was so fatal that he was like a moth to a fire, without any complaints.

But even so, I can't let myself be so willful anymore when I know that it is impossible for me and him, there are too many things I have to do, and there are too many people I am sorry for, so why should I indulge myself again and again?

My heart was constantly struggling in pain, I looked at Qin Han without saying a word, I knew that he was in the same pain as me, and he didn't want to leave, but I forced him again and again, so that he had to make a choice.

And now I have to push him harder to get him to really leave me, out of the situation I don't want to face.

So even though I was extremely reluctant in my heart, I still gritted my teeth, thinking about Qin Han's words and words, it was very likely that it would hurt him again, but I had no choice, because now it was impossible for any of us to go back to before.

"Why don't you leave, am I not clear enough? Do you have to say the most ruthless things to me? Qin Han, for the sake of the relationship between me and you, I don't want to say it too ugly, so will you leave now? Don't let me see you anymore, okay, there's really nothing to say between me and you! ”

"If I want to go, I'll go now, but I want you to ask yourself, do you really think so? Do you really want me to be able to leave you? ”

"Chen Ci, why do you deceive yourself again and again, you know very well what you think in your heart. But you have gone against the truest will of your own heart again and again! ”

Suddenly, Qin Han said this to me. The deadline is for my questioning, for my suspicion, but soon Qin Han himself understood everything, and said the answer directly to me, his attitude was very resolute, as if he had already made up his mind.

I opened my mouth and looked at him with a look of astonishment, and I couldn't say a word in response to him for a long time.

I didn't quite understand what Qin Han meant by saying this to me suddenly, but I had a feeling in my heart that Qin Han always felt that Qin Han seemed to understand my feelings.

He also knew that I didn't want him to leave, even if I said so many cruel things to him, and even didn't hesitate to scold him, but my feelings for him, even if he betrayed me, couldn't change overnight.

I still like him, I like him more than anything else in this world.

The current state seems to be just you hiding from me, Qin Han and I are very clear about each other's state of mind, but neither of us can bow our heads, and neither of us can go to each other to ask for reconciliation again, because we all understand that this is impossible.

In the past, under pressure and persecution, even if we are really still together, we can't go back to the same as before, always thinking about each other, always just thinking about each other's feelings.

So instead of struggling to continue to be together, I think it's better to abandon all this temporarily, only when Qin Han and I are completely cut off, our lives can start again, and maybe I can get a third rebirth.

And now, if I continue to entangle with Qin Han, then in the end, it will only be me who will be destroyed.

So after hesitating and thinking for a long time, I just smiled at Qin Han suddenly, and then nodded lightly at him.

This time I didn't turn my head to face Qin Han, I just looked at him, even if it made me tremble slightly with fear, but I had to understand that Qin Han couldn't be nostalgic anymore, because we couldn't go back.

"I've told you the answer over and over again, but if you still need it, I can still tell you without hesitation, it's all because of our previous relationship, and I hope you don't stay so obsessed anymore."

"Qin Han, now I can tell you very solemnly, everything I just said is from the bottom of my heart, I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore, I hope we can end here, I hope we can stop entanglement, is it really so difficult for you who have always acted decisively?"

"You can judge everything in an instant, why do you continue to entangle now that I have given up on the relationship between the two of us?

This doesn't do you any good and me, even if I beg you, okay, just stop it, there is no future between me and you for a long time! ”

"But don't you think it's too cruel for you to tell me how I should stop loving someone, I can't leave you, and now you're going to push me away from you?"

Qin Han's words made my heart twist, I had never heard a word from his mouth about his love for me before, but now he showed his sincerity in front of me without reservation.

If this was before, when I heard Qin Han say such words to me, I couldn't imagine how happy I would be in my heart!

It turns out that while I have always loved Qin Han, he is also in love with me, which is why he will always stay by my side, never caring about what I have paid.

"Do you really think what I'm doing is cruel? If what I did was cruel, then what did your Qin family do to our Chen family? Can I understand that it is not something that people can do at all? ”

When I opened my mouth to Qin Han like this, my emotions were extremely excited, I only felt that I couldn't confide in my stomach full of grievances, he only felt that I was driving him away now, but did he think about what the Qin family had done to the Chen family, how much harm it had done to me?

It was a wound that could not be erased, and how dare you say such a thing to me now. Is it me who is cruel or whether their Qin family is more cruel, doesn't he know better than me in his heart?

So I looked at Qin Han's gaze, there was even more hatred, I took a few deep breaths, just to let my mood gradually calm down.

And Qin Han listened to me say these words, he didn't say anything for a long time, just stood in place in a slight stunned place, for a long time, there was a slight change in his gaze, but the deep sadness erased it in an instant, so that I couldn't see other emotions clearly.

But now I have no other thoughts than to let Qin Han leave here.

I just want him to disappear from front of me quickly, I don't want to see him again, I don't want to remember the sad past, is it just that simple, he can't do it?

Suddenly, Qin Han's voice was low, as if he had thought for a long time before he came to me with an answer.

"If you really think so, then I will leave here now, but your body has not fully recovered, don't be discharged from the hospital for the time being, and you must follow the doctor's arrangement."

Even though he was ready to leave, Qin Han still didn't forget to tell me, but I would rather believe that his concern for me now was all false.

Because I don't know how I should respond to his concern for me now, if I really accept it, then I will only become more and more entangled with him, but if I am asked to give up so easily, I am reluctant.

However, there has always been a voice in my heart, it keeps telling me, don't be so soft-hearted, you must not be so soft-hearted, once you respond to Qin Han's words now, then all the efforts you made before will be wasted!

So, even with a heart full of entanglement, I still stubbornly missed my head, stopped looking at Qin Han's gaze, and spoke viciously to him again.

"Haven't you finished what you should have said, if you're done, leave now, I don't need you to continue talking here, there's no need for it! It's long since the end between me and you, where is there so much to say! ”

At this moment, Qin Han didn't answer me again, maybe he was already heartbroken by me, he just stood in place and was silent for a long time, until finally I heard his footsteps, it seemed to spread all the way to the door, and then disappeared......