His own territory can't accommodate himself, so Tao Xiu can only go to other people's territory.

The town next door is called Daliang Town, when he was a child, Zhou Hangyu often rode a bicycle to play with Tao Xiu, so Tao Xiu still remembers some roads, and the most important thing is to remember that there is a shop that recycles mobile phones, which is open 24 hours a day, because it is the only mobile phone store in the town, so business has been very good.

Tao Xiu found the store and sold the only slightly valuable mobile phone on his body, as long as the mobile phone was used, it would immediately depreciate, not to mention that Tao Xiu did not use any brand of machine, just some miscellaneous brands, so in the end it was only sold for dozens of yuan.

Tao Xiu nodded, and took the money to buy a bowl of beef brisket noodles to eat.

"Xiu, I found a very delicious beef brisket noodle shop, just next door to Daliang Town, I'll take you to have supper tonight."

Tao Xiu looked up, as if he saw Zhou Hangyu sitting opposite him, looking at him with a smile.

Tao Xiu ordered another piece of beef brisket powder, pushed it to the opposite side of himself, and dismantled a pair of disposable chopsticks and placed it on the porcelain bowl.

In fact, Tao Xiu didn't have any appetite, he just didn't want to starve to death.

After eliminating the brisket powder in front of him, Tao Xiu looked at the brisket powder placed opposite him in a daze, white smoke rose in the cold wind, and the powder became more and more as time passed, Tao Xiu pulled the bowl of noodles in front of him, lowered his head and continued to eat silently.

After filling his stomach, Tao Xiu opened his eyes in the park of Daliang Town and waited until dawn, and when all the shops were open, Tao Xiu wandered around aimlessly, and finally entered a flower shop.

After watching for a long time, Tao Xiu finally bought the seeds of the kapok tree, and after listening to the clerk's introduction to the planting method, Tao Xiu gave the money and left Daliang Town.

Returning to the big banyan tree, Tao Xiu dug a pit, buried Zhou Hangyu's necklace deep in the soil, and planted the seeds of the kapok tree according to the steps told by the clerk, and planted them less than five meters away from the big banyan tree.

He couldn't go to Zhou Hangyu's funeral, this kapok tree was the last thing Tao Xiu wanted to do for Zhou Hangyu, and let him keep a thought for himself, when he came back in the future, he saw the grown kapok tree, and saw the little red kapok around the branches, he would remember that he had loved and lost so deeply and deeply.

When he returned along the road, he heard the neighbors discussing Zhou Hangyu's funeral, Tao Xiu knew that Zhou Hangyu should be sent to the funeral home for cremation today, no one would ask him to go, if he went, the scene would be extremely ugly, and he would not go, witnessing Zhou Hangyu's complete disappearance in this world, what kind of torment would it be for him, he didn't dare to think.

Tao Xiu left the alley of his hometown and left for the second time, no one sent it, and no one cared about it.

There is no worried eyes of his mother, reluctant eyes of his younger brother, and no hug of Zhou Hangyu's affection.

Nothing.

He didn't even have enough money to take a car, so he had to take a taxi and find a way to pay for it when he got to his destination.

After entering the urban area of L City, Tao Xiu had to report the address of Ding Le's house, at that time, Ding Le's parents had not returned from a trip abroad, and Ding Le was the only one at home.

After Tao Xiu saw Ding Le, he asked Ding Le to help him give the car money first, and then smiled at him reluctantly, "I'll pay you back, thank you." ”

"What's wrong with you? Why are you so emaciated? Ding Le grabbed Tao Xiu's almost collapsed body.

This is the first person in more than half a year to ask him with concern, what's wrong.

However, he didn't know where to start.

Ding Le looked at Tao Xiu's ugly face and the scars all over his body, and didn't ask any more, "Go take a shower first, and then sleep well, don't think about anything, I have extra pajamas at home, and the bathroom is over there." ”

"Thank you......"

"Less nonsense!" Ding Le stuffed his pajamas into Tao Xiu's arms and pushed him into his bathroom.

In the next few days, Tao Xiu temporarily lived in Ding Le's house, but he had nightmares every night, and his mental state was getting worse and worse, if Ding Le was not at home, Tao Xiu would lock himself in the room and talk to himself, Zhou Hangyu's departure made him suffer a great blow both physically and mentally.

The once strong seemed to be pierced by a sword, and the cowardice wrapped in it was revealed.

Tao Xiu's state made Ding Le very worried, and a week later, Tao Xiu proposed to leave, but Ding Le didn't dare to let him go, because Ding Le vaguely felt that Tao Xiu must have experienced some setbacks!

If it is not very serious, with Tao Xiu's character, he will not be so pessimistic.

But no matter how Ding Le asked, Tao Xiu didn't want to say a word more, Ding Le had no choice but to promise to let him leave, but Tao Xiu promised him that he had to go back to school to live.

"I don't read anymore." Tao Xiu shook his head.

"Nope." Ding Le grimaced.

"I can't read it anymore."

"You have to read, the way you are now, if you don't read, what can you do?" Ding Le said angrily.

"No one wants me to be good, they all want me to die like this......" Tao Xiu looked at the sofa next to him with empty eyes.

These days are going on day by day, it's too hard, Zhou Hangyu is his heart knot, he can't convince himself to forgive himself no matter what, and he lives as if he is torturing himself.

But he couldn't just die.

I can only spoil myself desperately.

"How so?" Ding Le shook his head and reached out to hold Tao Xiu, who looked extremely fragile at the moment, in his arms.

The Tao Xiu in Ding Le's memory is not like this.

He is young, has his own pride and dreams, is hardworking and positive, even if he always has a melancholy smell on his body, but that is his unique charm.

At the academic debate held by the exchange school, Tao Xiu used his fluent English to make the representatives of their school speechless, at that time, he was so confident and flying, and the eyes under the transparent lenses always shone with clear light.

Low-key but impossible to ignore, because in learning, Tao Xiu has always been very good.

Ding Le himself is also an excellent person, so his eyes will only stay on the same kind of people as him, so Ding Le has silently liked Tao Xiu since he met Tao Xiu.

It's a pity that although it is a beautiful first love, for Ding Le, this is a relationship that ends without a problem.

Ever since he knew that Tao Xiu had a Zhou Hangyu by his side, Ding Le knew that this relationship was impossible.

Although he hadn't seen Zhou Hangyu many times, he could see Zhou Hangyu's deep affection for Tao Xiu from Zhou Hangyu's eyes when they met for the first time, which was the relationship that had been precipitated over the years, just as Tao Xiu told him, they grew up together since childhood and had a deep relationship.

In Tao Xiu's world, Ding Le appeared for many years, so he had no chance of winning at all.

No matter how much I like it, I have to press it and slowly persuade myself to give up.

"I don't care about you, do I? Doesn't Zhou Hangyu care about you? Ding Le hugged Tao Xiu with his eyes closed.

This time, Tao Xiu went home without a sound for more than half a year, and he didn't contact him once, what happened?

Tao Xiu finally couldn't help it, and said in a muffled voice: "He, he had a car accident in order to save me......"

Ding Le was shocked and finally understood.

It turned out that the reason why Tao Xiu came back alone this time was so painful was because of this unforgettable loss.

Ding Le comforted Tao Xiu silently and gently patted Tao Xiu's back.

Tao Xiu just stood in dead silence, stiffening his body.

"He's here to save you...... You should work together for him to live well, realize your ideals, and work together with his share. Ding Le said bitterly.

Some things are easy to say, but hard to do.

After all, this unretaining love left an indelible shadow in Tao Xiu's heart.

Ding Le didn't know how Tao Xiu survived, but he only knew that even he, an outsider, was very distressed when he looked at it.

Later, Ding Le knew from Tao Xiu's intermittent description that her mother and younger brother had cut off ties with Tao Xiu because of that incident, and I am afraid this was also a heavy blow to Tao Xiu.

In big cities, many homosexuals dare not admit it openly, and can only hide in the dark, let alone in such a backward place, people's knowledge and quality are very limited.

is only a teenager, and Tao Xiu's eyes are already full of sadness.

Tao Xiu seemed to cheer up, read like crazy, and studied his favorite English hard, because Zhou Hangyu also said that he hoped that he could realize his ideals.

His ideal, he wanted to be a teacher.

No one knew that only when he worked hard would Tao Xiu be a little better, and once he relaxed a little, those who insulted him would appear in his mind in turn, whipping his nerves mercilessly.

Such a painful life lasted for several years, and it did not get better until Tao Xiu graduated and stepped out of society.

He just tried to suppress himself, but there was no more expression on his face, and he didn't look like a living person.

Ding Le became more and more uneasy about him, and he would always go to see him from time to time.

Ding Le didn't know if Tao Xiu wanted to open it, but he felt that it was definitely not a good thing for Tao Xiu to suppress himself like this, but he didn't dare to persuade Tao Xiu to see a psychiatrist, for fear that he would be sad.

Ding Le couldn't imagine why no one would let him have a good time with such a young person, not even himself.

Tao Xiu seems to be steady and down-to-earth after work, and occasionally mentions Zhou Hangyu in front of Ding Le, but what he said was before they were together, maybe Tao Xiu regretted it, if he hadn't loved each other and never naively faced the so-called reality, the ending would not have been so tragic, one dead and one injured.

Tao Xiu felt that the only thing he wished was to realize his dream and become a teacher, but unfortunately life did not let him go, and when he thought there was hope, he saw a child in a small town alley in his class.

No, he used to be a child, but now he has grown up, but Tao Xiu still remembers him, and the child also remembers Tao Xiu, because Tao Xiu's appearance has hardly changed in the past few years.

The class was humiliated on the spot, everything in the past was made public, and in an instant, the whole school knew that an English teacher in their school surnamed Tao was a homosexual who liked men......