"I'm sorry, Xu Yi is sorry, I didn't hold back, I shouldn't have cried in front of you, I didn't want you to worry, but I really couldn't help it, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry......"

I shook my head desperately at Xu Yi, blaming myself in my heart, and at this time I kept recalling in my mind what he had said to me in the car before.

I knew he was worried about me, and that was the last thing I wanted to happen, but now it happened to me.

I had already told me that Xu Yi didn't want to see me crying, so I also told him that I would try my best to control it, but all my promises had come to naught, because I still cried out uncontrollably.

According to my previous agreement with Xu Yi, he should be angry, helpless, and disappointed now, and he should open his mouth to reprimand me and ask why I did this.

Just like he had done at his house before, he reprimanded me loudly and told me what was wrong, but Xu Yi didn't do it, he just looked at me calmly, and finally a smile appeared on his face.

Immediately afterwards, Xu Yi shook his head lightly at me, still wiping away the tears from my face with his hand, so that I could see his expression at this time.

"It's okay little words, I know you must have been wronged, and you must have understood a lot of things you don't want to know, but things will be resolved, so don't be too sad, okay?"

"I've told you many times that what was past is what was past, and it doesn't mean the present, nor does it represent the future, so don't take it too seriously."

"But you know what, I've always been deceived, and from the moment I met Qin Han, it was a scam. Everyone in the Qin family is hiding from me, it turns out that they all know the truth, only I have been stupid, thinking that Qin Han is all my own. ”

I couldn't help but say to Xu Yi, when the grievances were vented, they were out of control, the previous strength had long disappeared without a trace, my legs were weak, and I couldn't help but lean forward.

If Xu Yi hadn't held me up, I think I would have fallen to the ground at this time, and he held me tightly in his arms and patted my back comfortingly.

"It's okay to say a little thing, it's okay. That was all before, maybe Qin Han did lie to you before, but he loves you now, you obviously know it yourself, why do you care so much? ”

"Didn't you come today to put an end to this matter, and now that you've done it, this matter is about to be resolved, so after you leave here, we won't pursue it anymore, okay?"

"In the future, we will still stay by your side, all of us will be with you, and we will never leave you, the truth is already known, but that is in the past, and now you should focus on the present and the future."

I could tell that Xu Yi's every word was trying to suppress him, and he wanted to tell me more than that, but he didn't say anything superfluous, probably because he felt harmful.

I know that he wants me to let go of my past grievances, after all, the relationship between me and Qin Han is too difficult to decide, and if I leave Qin Han now, I don't know if I can do it.

But what can I do? It was they who deceived me in the first place, why didn't they tell me the truth from the beginning, why did they hide the news for so many years and let my father bear the infamy of being pointed out by thousands of people?

I don't understand what the Qin family is doing, they are cold-blooded and ruthless, they only care about their own interests, but they never think about others, maybe that's why JL got where they are today.

I desperately persuaded myself in my heart, it was better to just like Xu Yi said, just let this matter go like this, and agree with what Qin Han's father said, never mention this matter again after leaving the study.

But why, when I tried to convince myself again and again, there was always a voice in the corner crying out heartbreakingly: No, I must not give up so easily!

Every time it screamed, my heart hurt so much that I couldn't breathe, it was clenched together, as if it was being grabbed by a big hand, and when I let go again the next second, only the pain of drilling my heart remained.

So I think I probably won't be able to forget about this matter as Xu Yi said, because I can't forget what Qin Han's father did to my father.

Why is it that my father is still not at peace under the Nine Springs, but he is able to achieve fame?

Now retired at home, I spend my days at ease, never having to think about what happened to me anymore, and I don't feel guilty about it.

It's not fair! It's not fair at all!

So when Xu Yi continued to pat me on the back and opened his mouth to comfort me, I shook my head desperately at him and struggled violently in his arms.

"I'm sorry Xu Yi, I can't do it, I can't forget about it, what they did was too much, why should they deceive me, this deception is so many years......"

I cried bitterly, I didn't care if this was still the Qin family, Xu Yi and I hadn't left here yet, so it was very likely that anyone would see us from anywhere, but why should I care?

There is nothing wrong with this being the Qin family, but now everything that the Qin family has has the shadow of my father, if it wasn't for my father's help back then, would the Qin family be possible today?

So I don't have to feel guilty at all, and I shouldn't forget about it, they should pay back what they have done, this is true since ancient times.

"Xu Yi, I can't forget this incident, I will never forget what they did to my father, I will never forget this lie!"

I opened my heart-rending mouth at Xu Yi, my throat was painful, but I couldn't stop, "So no matter what, I have to pay the price for the Qin family, I want to make them uneasy, I want them to know how sad my father was in the past!" ”

What I said to Xu Yi at this time was not just talking, this was my oath, just like what I said when I stood in front of Qin Han's father.

Since I already know what they used to do to my father, then I can't pretend not to know, I want to avenge my father, this is for him, but also for the Chen family!

Xu Yi listened to my words for a long time without speaking, he still patted my back gently, and then suddenly lowered his voice and asked me softly.

"Xiao Ci, are you too impulsive to do this? Are you going to deal with the Qin family, but what ability do you have to deal with the Qin family, and do you really do it to Qin Han? ”

Xu Yi asked me four questions in a row, and to be honest, I couldn't answer any of them.

I don't know if what I did at this time was too impulsive, I didn't know what kind of strength I should use to fight against the Qin family, and I didn't know how I should go to face Qin Han.

Now my mind is like a mess, but I have one belief that I have always been firm, that is, no matter what I give, I must also make the Qin family unstable, and I will let them taste the suffering of my father.

But as for Qin Han, what should I do?

"Xu Yi, do you know? Ever since I met Qin Han, I have always felt that he will protect me from now on, and he has always done so.

But now his father told me personally that these are all compensation from the Qin family for me, it turns out that Qin Handa has known about this since the morning, how can I accept this? ”

I shook my head desperately at Xu Yi, how I hoped that Qin Han didn't know, my encounter with him was a coincidence, and the subsequent acquaintance and love were also logical, not based on guilt for me.

But what I hope for is only what I hope for, and it cannot be a real thing, and it will never become a real situation.

Maybe there is really no free lunch in this world, I thought Qin Han was sent by God to save me, it turned out that he just wanted to atone for himself.

Qin Han deceived me, there is no doubt about this, since the first day I met him, maybe he has been cheating on me, but I love him so much, don't I?

I love Qin Han more than I love myself, I love him almost to the point where I can't extricate myself, but now someone tells me that everything Qin Han does is fake!

"Xu Yi, you tell me, I like Qin Han so much, but what about him, does he still feel guilty about me now, or does he really love me...... I don't understand, and I probably won't in my life......"

"I thought that when this crisis passed, maybe we could be together in the name of righteousness, and no one would stop us again, but now the reality is isolated from the two of us......"

"So what the hell should I do, you tell me, what the hell should I do to escape such a painful situation!"

I cried hoarsely and kept asking questions to Xu Yi, but how could he answer me, he couldn't empathize with my pain, after all, it wasn't him who loved Qin Han deeply.

Tears ran down my cheeks, flowing into my neck with warmth, and finally became cold, like my heart, although it was beating wildly, but I felt it slowly cooling.

The pain was like a big net, it wrapped me in it, I was so painful that I couldn't breathe, and my whole body couldn't help but tremble, but no one could pull me, no one could help me, not even myself.

At this time, all Xu Yi could do was clumsily wipe away the tears on my face, I could see his panic, I could also see his caution, his helpless concern.

I want to tell Xu Yi, you don't have to worry, I just need to cry, and I will get better immediately. I can even smile at you, I just need you to give me some time......

But when I clung to Xu Yi's clothes and opened my mouth to tell him, all I made was a small cry, one after another, I couldn't stop, and I couldn't suppress it.

I feel so sorry that I have lost my father, my children, and my first home.