December 10---11, 2012

When I walked out of the police station, I pulled out my phone card, folded it in half, and threw it in the trash. I bought a new number at the newsstand, and whether it is Zhang Yi's adoptive parents or Zhang Hengli in the future, I don't want to receive any more calls from them.

I transferred 200,000 to Zhang Hengli's account. also wrote a letter to his father, telling him to find a yellow bank card in Zhang Hengli's wallet, which contained 200,000 yuan, and asked Zhang Hengli for the password. This letter and Zhang Yi's letter to Zhang Hengli were sent to the hospital together and handed over to the nurse who took care of Zhang Hengli.

"I don't know when I'll see it." The nurse said, "I'm not awake yet!" ”

These four words, like four huge black bombs, rolled towards me together. My head, my heart, my stomach, my legs were blown open!

Zhang Yi lost his life for you, you are still fucking angry, and you are not awake?

I ran to the ward, kicked the door in, pressed Zhang Hengli's forehead with my left hand, and slapped him with my right hand with the strength of breastfeeding. My hands are numb.

I really wanted to slap him to death, but in the last half second, I still kept a little sanity, I pressed his forehead, and no matter how hard I tried on his face, it would not move the wound on his neck and stomach, and the kidney that Zhang Yi gave him.

His cousin slammed the orange in his hand to the ground and pounced on me. I pushed him hard, and something fell out of his jacket pocket.

He immediately treasured the thing. Picked it up from the ground like a life, completely forgetting that there was a person he wanted to beat, and sent it into his arms.

It's a wallet, LV's.

I finally remembered who he was, the LV wallet that Zhang Yi picked up back then, gave it to Zhang Hengli, and Zhang Hengli took us to give it to him.

This LV is a new model from a year ago, and when it first came out, I accompanied Funny shopping, and Funny was staring at the series in that store.

"What about the LV that Zhang Hengli gave you?"

"How do you know?"

What the do I not know?

Zhang Hengli saw the first famous brand in his life, not to himself, not to his father, not to his mother, and to you like a baby. You can't do it once for him to stare at his phone for a while and listen to an elder's words more!

I snatched half of his purse, which was already in his pocket, and threw it into the trash can in the corner of the room. The wallet hit the edge of the barrel and fell to the ground.

He raised his hand to hit me again, but was scolded by Zhang Hengli's father in time. I raised my hand and grabbed him by the collar and pushed it against the wall, I was not afraid at all, and asked him viciously, "I made a match, what about you?" ”

He was about to resist, but the clinical patient shouted: "Oops, Xiao Zhang is awake!" ”

Zhang Hengli's father immediately went outside to call the doctors and nurses over, and the ward was busy for a while, and I heard Zhang Hengli's father ask Dr. Wu, "Are you okay when you wake up?" ”

Dr. Wu said, "I can't say it, I hope it's a good start!" ”

As soon as I walked out of the hospital, the lawyer called and said that his people had found Yi Xu's mother's rent, but the computer had been taken away, and the landlord and old lady were a bit of Alzheimer's, and she didn't know who took it. He asked if it was the private investigator I was looking for to take it. I called the detective agency and they said it wasn't them, they hadn't found it yet.

The city lawyer sighed and said, "It's not necessarily that it was stolen by a thief. ”

"Can the lawsuit still be won?"

"It's hard to say," he said, "do your best!" ”

On the taxi home, the radio was broadcasting a live broadcast of a ball game. AC Milan played Torino away, and in less than half an hour of the opening game, Milan's players actually made a mistake in the return pass and gave Torino a goal for nothing. I plugged my hands to my ears in disgust, and the driver, thinking I had a headache, kindly turned off the radio.

I pushed Zhang Yi into the incinerator with my own hands.

I haven't even passed my 24th birthday, and I've already turned two people to ashes with my own hands. Why is life so like a bubble that can come to an end in the next second?

I took the urn home and put it on my bedside table.

I told my mother that Zhang Hengli's dangerous period had not passed, and I had been in the hospital for the past two days, and the hospital had toiletries, and I left them a few days ago, so she didn't worry. My mom said it's fine, so you don't have to think about it at home.

Thousands of miles of clouds and storms.

I walked for a long time, and I got lost, so I had to take a taxi and go to Yi Xu's house.

Along the way, my mind was full of the voices of Dr. Wu and the city lawyer: "It's not good to say! "It's hard to say!" "It's hard to say!" "It's hard to say!" ……

I fell asleep on the couch and dreamed that either someone had pointed a cold gun at my heart, or someone had poured gasoline on me, or a treacherous flood had rushed at me. In my chaotic sleep, I was always thirsty, hungry, cold, tired, and had to suffer all kinds of external injuries.

Later, there was a dream that was particularly long: Yi Xu and I walked on the embankment of the Yangtze River, the wind was blowing slowly, we held hands, talked and laughed, walked slowly, and walked until our hair turned white. A small boat in the middle of the river rowed to the shore, and Zhang Yi also climbed up with white hair, she was so good-looking, her hair was white, but there was no wrinkle on her face. She wore a red dress, like a bride. She stood between me and Yi Xu angrily, crossed her waist, puffed out her face, and said: "Zhang Hengli is old, I don't like it anymore, I have a crush on a young man, he is only 55 years old, I will go and live with that young man!" I smiled and bent over, took Yi Xu's arm and said, "I said it fifty years ago, she's just like Funny when she's old, you see I'm not wrong, right?" Yi Xu touched the back of my head lovingly, shook his head with a smile, and said, "I said this, right?" I was about to retort, when suddenly two huge wings grew out of their shoulders, flapping and flapping vigorously. My hair, and the grass around us, were flapped by those two pairs of wings. I was so anxious that I stretched out my arms and hugged them tightly, and with all my strength, I knew that if I let go of myself, they would fly away and never look back! I hugged them, buried my head between their shoulders, and cried and begged them: "Don't go, stay with me, I beg you, I love you so much, if you leave, it will really be like killing me!" Don't kill me, stay with me, let's live together, grow old together, and become old goblins like Funny together! ”

I cried and begged them, and a voice came from a far away and empty place: "Sorry, sorry! ”

It's the sound of continuity. He's right next to me, why is the sound coming from so far away? I'm holding his arm, and he hasn't flown away yet? Why is the sound so far away?

Why does it seem? …… Is that my dad's voice? Is he calling an ambulance? Are you talking about the address?

I couldn't open my eyes, I just felt someone pinch my face and pour some water into my mouth, and it was so sweet and sweet, so sweet that it was so sweet that I hated the taste. Then it was like someone picked me up, it was my dad, and he hugged me like this last time. But my dad's voice wasn't above my head, it seemed to be in front of me, and he said thank you. One woman also said, "Oh, you won't die again, will you?" It's not going to die again, is it?

Something was irritating my eyes, and I finally returned to the familiar darkness. I don't know where I was hugged, someone warmed my forehead with her cheek, and the person who hugged me was not my dad!

Finally, I seem to be able to see a little light. I moved my hand to touch the chin on my forehead. The jaw moved quickly, and I felt the man looking at me.

The lights are so dim, and my eyes are so open, but I still see it, my easy continuation!

My tears flowed down my face, and so much I wanted to see each other finally turned into a meeting! He hugged me tightly and wiped my tears.

"Yi Xu, Zhang Yi is dead!"

He was shocked, but still comforted me: "Don't be too sad! ”

He lifted me up and let my head rest on his warm neck. My tears flowed down his neck.

"I don't want to go to the hospital." I say.

"Gotta go, gotta get a physical exam."

"Don't go to Hospital X."

He said, "It should be an ambulance from Hospital S, which is relatively close to Hospital S." ”

"If it's from Hospital X, don't go, I don't want to stay in the same hospital as Zhang Hengli."

"Okay, we're not going."

He carried me to a bench, pointed to the road, and said, "Xijia, you scared your father, I almost fell twice just now, and my whole body was shaking......"

"I can't see clearly." My heart hurts with guilt.

"You just haven't eaten, have you? Didn't think about it...... I didn't want to kill myself."

"I didn't want to kill myself, I just ...... It's so sad. ”

I looked at my dad waiting for an ambulance on the side of the road, like an ethereal figure in the cold wind under the street lamp, and I made my dad haggard.

My dad is a mountain. But the trees on the mountain will be cut down, the grass will be trampled down, and the stones and soil on the mountain will be hit by the torrential rain, so the father who is like the mountain will also be injured like the mountain.

I hurt my dad.

Dad, I'm sorry!

When I opened my eyes again, I was already in the hospital. It should be early the next morning. Yi Xu's face immediately came into view.

"It's a pity." He reached out and touched my face.

The two of us, who is more emaciated than the other?

But is this a dream or reality? If it's a dream, why is it so real? If it wasn't a dream, how could Yi Xu come out?

As soon as I raised my hand, I had a drip on my right hand. The needle was moved, and there was a pain in the arm. He quickly pressed my hand and looked at the needle.

"Am I still dreaming?"

"Nope." He said.

I didn't believe it, so I raised my left hand and, with almost all my strength, slapped him in the face.

I shouted hoarsely, "Then you write me back!" ”

He was stunned by me for a century, and then borrowed a pen and paper from the nurse who walked in, and squatted beside my bed, the bed was too soft and the tip of the pen was not easy to focus, I still saw the familiar handwriting slowly come out, with the tears that fell on him:

"Xijia, this white dress is all black."