December 12, 2012

Yi Xu said that when he was a child, his aunt always pulled him to take pictures, and when he washed out the photos, he also liked to pull Yi Xu and said, "Look, these eyes, this mouth, are exactly the same as your mother and me!" ”

But suddenly one day he found that his aunt hadn't taken pictures with him for a long time. One year, during the Chinese New Year, he took her to take a photo, and when she washed it out, she was extremely disappointed and said, "It doesn't look like me anymore." ”

Since then, he no longer forced his aunt to take pictures with him, and gradually he disliked taking pictures more and more, always feeling as if he would disappoint his mother when he took pictures.

He always thought that his aunt didn't mention his dad and just thought he was regretting the breakdown of the marriage, until I called back and said that Funny had been taken to the emergency department and would be back a few days late. Yi Xu happened to be in her office when she received my call, and as soon as the phone hung up, she suddenly went crazy, raised her hand and dropped a cup and a photo frame, and hated him for being stupid, and actually believed my lies! Yi Xu saw a few bean-sized tears jumping out of his aunt's eyes, he will never forget that scene, more than 20 years, he didn't know until that moment that the outgoing and optimistic mother actually had such a big pain in her heart.

It took him a lot of effort that day to calm her down. The next day, my aunt lay in bed without eating or drinking, and always had big eyes open and did not sleep. In the evening, Yi Xu invited a doctor to come to her home and hang two bottles of glucose for her, and she fell asleep. On the third day, Auntie was better and was able to go out for a walk, but she avoided talking to Yi Xu. Yi Xu asked Manager Liang to accompany his aunt for two days.

In those two days, Yi Xu quickly reorganized some information:

First, after he took over the company, the business trip system and reimbursement standards were reformulated, and the company's business trips in the past three years were studied before the formulation, and he found that his aunt rarely left Changsha, and he always said that business trips were not true, and he thought about two possibilities, first, the aunt was in love. But this possibility was immediately overturned, and he has always encouraged his mother to start a family again, and his mother has no need to hide it from him. The second possibility is that the mother needs an independent space as an independent woman, and at the same time, she also gives Yi Xu independent space to grow into an independent man. Yi Xu is going to take over her company in the future, if she can't live independently, what career will she talk about? Yi Xu didn't dig deeper, he understood this matter that his aunt deliberately concealed as privacy, and he couldn't snoop on it.

Second, his aunt did not approve of him going to Germany to study, and last summer she prevented him from going to Germany for a vacation on the grounds that he wanted to expand the company, and the real reason may be that she did not want him to go abroad.

Thirdly, whether it is a house, a car, or anything, my aunt has never bought it with a loan. This is probably not self-confidence in one's own financial resources, but a lack of security.

Fourth, when Yi Xu mentioned me in college, my aunt was always happy and generous. But since I went to Germany and mentioned me again, she always frowned. Yi Xu used to understand that his aunt felt sorry for him and his love relationship between the two places. Later, I figured out that she didn't like to go abroad, but she was actually a person who didn't like to go abroad, she opened a foreign trade company, but never participated in foreign exhibitions, and she had a shadow of foreign countries. So Yi Xu went to check, his father went to Russia in 89 and never came back, and his mother's shadow of foreign countries came from a broken marriage, and even more from her husband who never came back after going abroad.

Fifth, the most terrifying thing for Yi Xu was the day of the 8th.

That day, the aunt went out early, saying that she would go downstairs to wait for Manager Liang to come, but he found that the aunt rented a car near her home and bought oil, rice, flour, longan, peanuts, bread, biscuits, sesame, etc. in several supermarkets. It seems that the driver is not the first time to deliver for her.

Yi Xu took a taxi and followed the car, and when he arrived at the place where he was almost about to leave Changsha, it was a two-story small farmhouse, and an old woman came out, and the driver moved all the things in the car into it and left. Yi Xu pretended to borrow water to drink and entered his grandmother's house.

The old grandmother is a little senile dementia, and she can tell Yi Xu a lot of previous things for a while, and then she forgets who Yi Xu is and how she is at her house. She remembered things from a long time ago, and the more recent she was, the less she could remember.

Yi Xu wanted to figure out the relationship between her aunt and her, and deliberately guided her to look through the photo album. In his grandmother's second album, he saw a photo of his father in his early teens, which was a young version of himself. It was a group photo, a dozen children in coarse cloth shirts.

The grandmother said that when this was the orphanage, the orphanage was demolished many years ago, and the children did not know where they went. Yi Xu pointed to his mother in the photo and asked, do you know where she is? The old woman pulled him up to the second floor, pointed to a room with a closed door, and said that she was in it. There is also a black-and-white photograph of my aunt as a teenager on the door. It should be posted by the aunt to prevent the grandmother from being confused for a while and breaking into her room. Yi Xu told the grandmother that she hadn't come out for a long time, let's send her something to eat, she must be hungry! The old lady said yes, and took the key to open the door for Yi Xu.

The room was simple, a bed, a cupboard, a desk, and a computer on the desk. Yi Xu pressed the display screen, stunned, it was a remote monitoring, monitoring everything in the living room and dining room at home. It turned out that there was no neighbor, and it was this computer that monitored his time when he came home! From the perspective of the picture, Yi Xu surmised that the camera was on the refrigerator.

He returned to the city center and immediately made an appointment with a more authoritative psychiatrist, he did not tell the psychiatrist aunt's question, he did not want his subjective judgment to affect the doctor's diagnosis, not to mention that this involved his mother's privacy, it was better for her to say it herself. The aunt didn't sleep well in those days, and Yi Xu persuaded her to see a doctor because of the treatment of insomnia. On the first day I went to see a psychiatrist, my aunt was very nervous. I had to prescribe sleeping pills and make an appointment again. But before the time for another consultation came, the murder happened.

Yi Xu was made out by Zhang Yi, who sent him a postcard with a photo of a playground on the front, a Ferris wheel in the distance, and a merry-go-round in the distance.

Zhang Yi wrote on the back: Zhang Hengli is going to the playground, and I will take Xijia to accompany him. Fate to reunite. Zhang Yi.

The postmark on Zhang Yi's postcard shows that she sent it on the 6th, and that she had planned to commit suicide on the morning of the 7th. The letter from the detention center needs to be reviewed, so it arrived in Yi Xu's hands on the morning of the 10th. She asked me if I had mentioned Zhang Hengli's uremia to Yi Xu before, and she asked me to only send Yi Xu an envelope with white paper for at least a week......

She planned everything.

Yi Xu saw the playground on the postcard as she envisioned, and panicked and flipped up my letter from the latest one, three in a row, one on a blank sheet.

The envelope can be written in advance, and the content of the letter is only blank paper, is it because Xijia can no longer write?

He quickly found several letters mentioning Zhang Hengli's illness. He quickly withdrew all the money from his account, bought cigarettes and gave them to the prison guards, asking him to help call me. I had already thrown the card away, and the prison guard called and it was turned off. He didn't remember the numbers of Zhang Yi and Zhang Hengli.

So he asked the prison guards to help call the police, and the police of 110 rushed to Zhang Yi's community, and the community doorman told them that Zhang Yi no longer lived in this community, the house was sold, and the cleaner hired by the new owner was cleaning the house!

When the police came to my house, the doorman of my community said that I went out safely in the morning and there was nothing abnormal, so the police determined that Yi Xu was messing around. Yi Xu finally thought of the people from the Criminal Investigation Brigade, he gave them the address in their aunt's rented house, and the people from the Administrative Brigade moved the computer.

They got the video, and they also got a special approval from the court, canceled the trial, and directly released Yi Xu in the detention center.

Yi Xu went to my house first, and there was no one in my house. My parents have gone to Hospital X to look for me. He didn't know where Zhang Hengli's home was, and I didn't mention in my letter which hospital Zhang Hengli lived in. Yi Xu thought of his home, and when he arrived home, he saw my dad and the community doorman knocking on the door. My mom came home, afraid that I would go home and there would be no one at home.

Yi Xu quickly opened the combination lock, and my dad followed him in, calling my name, and they knew who the other party was. The doorman didn't know what second he disappeared without a trace, maybe Yi Xu suddenly appeared and scared him, or maybe he was afraid that as soon as he opened the door, there was another corpse lying inside!

Yi Xu saw that there were no medicine bottles or paper medicine bags around me, and speculated that I had not eaten, so I borrowed sugar and water from my neighbors to give me some energy temporarily.

In this way, according to the script written by Zhang Yi before his death, we met again peacefully.

Yi Xu said that he has no memory of the days in the detention center, and every day is like a walking corpse, and his mind is only blank. Before he came out, a few people in the cell grabbed him and asked, "When will you pay us back?" What kind of money does Yi Xu say? They say you don't eat well, you don't sleep well, and you sit in bed in the middle of the night and nibble on our snacks! Yi Xu said he didn't remember at all.

Mom died, and he didn't seem to know how to live. Everything was emptied, and the cold, the noise, the uniform, the squalor, the fatigue, the dogma, the bars could not wake him up; Manager Liang, the lawyer, me and the human instinct for survival could not wake him up; He became a brain-dead man, breathing and unconscious.

Mom died, taking all his abilities with him, he didn't know how to live, how to die, and he didn't care whether he lived or died.

Mr. Lao She said that even if a person lives to be eighty or ninety years old, he can be a little childish if he has a mother. If you lose your loving mother, you will be like a flower in a bottle, although it still has color and fragrance, but it has lost its roots.

In the past, Yi Xu liked to say that others were "children" and "little girls", but in fact, he was younger than Zhong Pei, smaller than Zhang Hengli, smaller than Zhang Yi, younger than Soeren, and a few months older than me and Gao Run, but he was always meticulous, comprehensive, rational and fair to help us analyze and solve problems;

He is versatile but mediocre, charismatic but has found a good-for-nothing girlfriend like me, he judges himself whether he is good or bad, and he is so mature and steady that he surpasses our peers many, many times;

He is brave enough to be an adult outside, and that's because his mother is here, and there is always a place where he can go back to be a child at any time. But when his mother suddenly died in front of him in that way on the eve of his 24th birthday, his whole world collapsed.

Mom is gone, and he's no longer anyone's child. Mom is gone, and she has taken away all his skills as a human being - whether as an adult or as a child.

He hadn't read any of my letters, he had forgotten that someone would write to him, that it was called an envelope, and that there was something in the envelope that needed to be read. Until the "playground" on Zhang Yi's postcard woke him up.

Zhang Yi may not be sure, but she still tried once, she can die for Zhang Hengli, she wants to try, can Yi Xu live for me.

She died for Zhang Hengli, and Yi Xu also came back to life for me.