22 April 2007

That Sunday afternoon, I went to visit Zhong Pei on behalf of myself and Zhang Hengli. The head of Zhong Pei's class called on everyone to visit Zhong Pei together, and even those who could be regarded as friends from other classes were called. Of course, no one notified me directly, they notified Zhang Hengli, Zhang Hengli didn't want to go, so he asked me to go on behalf of the two of us. Zhang Hengli didn't want to go because he really didn't like that kind of miserable scene. Moreover, although Zhang Yi was discharged from the hospital, he still needed to be taken care of, and he and I had to act separately. Of course he is willing to accompany Zhang Yi.

When I arrived at Zhong Pei's house, their living room was already full of people. Yi Xu didn't come. Zhong Pei sat on the sofa and listened to his classmates talk about the new and interesting things that happened in the class. He had lost a little weight, and his eyes were a little tired, like flowers that hadn't been watered for days. He listened attentively and laughed with everyone from time to time. I was too embarrassed to interrupt the atmosphere, so I handed the fruit to his mother.

His mother knew that I was not in the same class as them, and she stayed in the corner silently, so she took me to Zhong Pei's room to chat with me. Many of the paintings in that room are painted according to the easy continuation of the paintings, but I don't know why they are painted are defeated little yellow flowers. When my aunt heard that I was not familiar with Zhong Pei's girlfriend, she closed the door and vented her dissatisfaction to me. said that a college student doesn't even understand the basic common sense of turning on the gas to ventilate, this damn, well, put his son in, and I don't know how long it will be delayed, and what the delay will become!

I had to comfort Zhong Pei that he was a very cheerful person, and if he was given some more time, it would pass. My aunt began to tell me how Zhong Pei was born, how he grew up, which schools he went to, and which teachers he was praised for, and those relatives were envious of having such a son in their family, but it was a pity that he was delayed by a little girl!

As she spoke, my aunt began to ask me about the situation at home, what do my parents do, where do they live, whether the house is rented or bought, how is my parents' income, and do they have any brothers and sisters...... I was 18.33 years old at the time, and I was in awe of my elders, and I didn't dare to disobey what I asked. Later, when I met Funny in Germany, I learned that some elders were used to disobey.

My aunt was asking about my parents' personality traits when the door suddenly opened. Zhong Pei was so frightened that he called softly, "Damn!" ”。

I was also so frightened that he actually followed Yi Xu. When we met on a narrow road, no matter how brave I was, I couldn't win, and every cell became nervous.

"Why are you here?" Zhong Pei stood at the door and didn't go inside: "When did you come?" ”

"It's been a while!" Auntie said.

"There are too many people, so I'll come in and talk to your mother." I scribbled and explained, a short sentence that I could barely speak fluently.

The living room was quiet, I didn't dare to look at Yi Xu, so I pointed to the direction of the living room and asked Zhong Pei: "No one?" ”

"It's all gone." Zhong Pei said, his eyes half-squinted, with a mockery in his eyes that wanted to watch a good show.

I complained, "It's not a class!" ”

Zhong Pei made a slug voice and said, "It seems that you care about our classmates very much!" ”

I suddenly felt like I was being lifted, put on a hanger, hung in the air and admired, and it was very awkward to hang there.

His mother hurriedly helped me play a round: "You kid, people are kind enough to come to see you, how can you talk cynically, pay attention to politeness, don't treat your ass as a steamed bun, can't tell the smell of fragrance, and make people and girls weird and sad!" ”

Auntie's analogy is both butt and steamed buns, which makes me feel even more embarrassed. My face started to heat slightly.

I just wanted to tell my aunt that this is the way we young people speak, and it doesn't hurt.

Zhong Pei was faster than me and said, "Mom, you don't know, she doesn't care about our classmates, she cares about a classmate in our class!" ”

His mother was behind me, walked up to me, smiled and asked me, "Who?" ”

His eyes were full of surprise and hope, and the crow's feet at the corners of his eyes were almost flying into the sky. I finally understood that the questions she asked before were not because of the age gap and I couldn't find other topics, but because I wanted to help Zhong Pei quickly find a girl, distract my son, and comfort his heart.

I didn't want her to misunderstand, so I raised my arm and pointed at Yi Xu. Yi Xu was so shocked that his right shoulder ran back at least five centimeters, as if I was pointing a sword at him.

I'm just confessing to you, not declaring war with you, what are you afraid of?

The aunt rested her head on my shoulder, carefully determined the direction of my fingers, and after knowing that it was indeed not her son, she sighed and went out.

This is a mother full of helplessness, the child is only eighteen years old, how many mothers still think that it is too early to fall in love at this age! She wants to encourage her children to live in a way that encourages love.

Neither Yi Xu nor I spoke for a long time. Zhong Pei said that the embarrassment of the two of us was about to collapse their house and drove us away. Before going out, Zhong Pei's father gave Yi Xu two keys, saying that this one is a wooden door and this one is an anti-theft door.

"Why did his dad give you the keys to their house?" As soon as the door closed, I hurried to find a topic.

I found a problem, when I faced Yi Xu alone, there was a lot more righteousness and brightness in my bravery.

Yi Xu put the key in his pocket and said, "They are afraid that when I come, I just happened to meet Zhong Pei who was in a bad mood and didn't open the door, or even something worse." We walked up the stairs as we spoke.

"No, I think he's in good shape!"

The soles of our feet made a clattering footsteps, not loud, but the frequency was the same, and the overlapping sound came out.

Such a simple agreement can also make me secretly happy.

"The emotions are bursts and bursts." "His parents haven't been to work with him for two weeks, and now it's much better, otherwise he wouldn't be able to go to work tomorrow," he explained. They hoped that I could visit Zhong Pei more when I was not in class, just in case. Hey, this kid is quite pathetic. ”

I'm close enough to Zhang Yi and Zhang Hengli, right? No one has the keys to anyone's house.

"The keys to the house are given to you, how much trust does this have? Do you know his parents well? ”

"I guess I had to do it! I also came here to see Zhong Pei to meet them. Less than two weeks. ”

"How many times have you been here?"

"He was picked up and came every day." He continued to speak at a rapid pace, as casually as if he were memorizing a multiplication formula.

But every word touched my heart like that, and I stopped, and he stopped and looked back at me. He's already walked half a floor more than me.

"What's wrong?"

"You're so nice! It's better than buying me ice cream! ”

He laughed quietly, laughed and bent over, and finally raised his head and said, "I bought you ice cream because I was in a hurry to go to the toilet and needed to buy that pack of tissues, and you stuck in front of me." ”

I was slightly dissatisfied, I didn't like it when he denied his soul like that, it was something I loved.

"Why are you like this? It's common to make excuses when you do something wrong! I don't care, I think you've done good deeds and you're a good person! I said stubbornly, as if he had made some unfair assessment of me.

He nodded thoughtfully and asked me, "Are you a good person?" ”

"Sometimes it's and sometimes it's not." I say.

"When wasn't?"

I thought about it, but I couldn't remember the specific event. Should I call Zhang Yi and Zhang Hengli? They must have done a lot of bad things to me.

"For example, when you stole a cup and smashed it?"

I was shocked: "Your teacher found out?" ”

"No, I saw it."

I breathed a sigh of relief and proudly said, "I was a good person at that time!" ”

"Why?"

"He gave you the wrong score, didn't give you a chance to find out the truth, and actually criticized you, and the words and tone were so ruthless, I stole his cup and smashed it, which can be regarded as revenge for you! You can't say that I'm not a good person in this matter, it's like killing people is a crime, but killing RB devils when resisting Japan is a hero, and we must protect our family and defend the country! ”

When you see me smashing the cup, do you feel as proud as I do?

He grinned, what a beautiful smile! After laughing for a while, he finally said, "You didn't hear him criticizing me, he was talking to another student on the phone, I don't know what the specifics were, and as soon as we went in, he asked me to find the paper by myself and check it myself." ”

"So did you prove yourself to be a 62?"

"Proven. How do you know everything? ”

"When I wanted to visit Zhong Pei, I met your classmates."

"Understood."

"I've done a lot of bad things, and now I can't remember it, and I'll tell you when I think about it. Or I'll go back and ask two of my friends and ask them to write a memoir with a conservative estimate of a million words. ”

"No, no, I'm talking about playing, I don't have to be so honest." He waved his hand and said, as if I was a fraudster on the side of the road, and he was afraid of falling into a trap.

"Why not?" I asked disappointedly.

Why not? Am I bad to be honest with you? How hard it is for me to be honest with someone, why do you refuse?

"You never lie, do you?" He asked me, his eyes brightening. If he had an ancient fossil in front of him, he would be able to tell the age at a glance.

"Say, say often!"

Didn't I just say I did a million words of bad things? How many people who do bad things don't lie?

"But I promise I won't lie to you!" I say it with all sincerity.

I didn't know at the time, people have to lie, lying is not necessarily a bad thing, lying is not necessarily harmful, I worked in a German bar, so I lied to Yi Xu, I told him that I worked in a souvenir shop. In order to protect Zhang Yi, and also to not let him worry. Lying, sometimes not because it's bad, it's for love.

"Why?" He asked without thinking.

This also asks?

Well, if you dare to ask, I will dare to answer!

I looked into his clear eyes and said, "I like you!" ”

I don't know if it's my delusion, but I actually saw his face flush slightly for a moment. The two of us didn't speak, and suddenly the air was taken over by embarrassment again. Yi continued to go down, and I followed suit.

"Have you ever panicked with your mother?" He finally spoke again.

Thankfully, I'm too embarrassed to find a topic.

"Often! I failed last semester, but I told her I had passed it all. ”

"Don't you like your mother?"

I was stunned, how could it be? How can anyone not like their mother?

"I like it!"

He looked sideways at me, smiled meaningfully, and suddenly asked, "Then you lied to her?" ”

"If I don't lie to her, she'll get in trouble with me. Liking a boy is not the same as liking your mother, you want him, he is not yours, even if she doesn't want me, I am hers. You may get someone you like because of lying, and you may lose him because of lying, but your mother is different, she will never leave. And if you had a mother like my mother, you would know that lying is an expedient measure, and it is a way to survive. ”

I didn't dare to look at him, I lowered my head, I wanted to see it, but I was afraid to see it, I was entangled in every way, I slowed down my speech: "I think, if you like a boy, it's better not to lie to him, I like you as a boy, I don't want to lie to you." ”

He stopped suddenly, I looked at the back of his head, and his voice drifted into my ears again: "That cup died so unjustly, do you want to pay one back?" ”

"Isn't that self-defeating?"

I wanted to tease me in a joking tone, but he didn't answer, did he think my moral character was corrupt?

I felt like I had been bitten by myself, and it hurt from the bite, and I couldn't fight back.

We finally walked out of the building, and the sky was drizzling for no apparent reason. I didn't even dare to look up at the disappointment in his eyes.

"It's raining, I'll go back first, 88." I say.

After saying that, he took a step forward.

After walking a few steps, I heard him say from behind: "I have an umbrella!" ”

I stopped, didn't turn around, and my immediate reaction was to pat my ears, because I was so awake that I knew I wasn't awake enough, and I suspected that I was hallucinating.

A few seconds later we were already under the same umbrella. Yi Xu didn't have a backpack, he seemed to have conjured an umbrella.

Growing up, I had a high chance of getting caught in the rain because I never brought an umbrella. Zhang Yi always has an umbrella in her bag, and she is a rainy day type. Zhang Hengli often brings an umbrella to the sun, and if he doesn't bring it, it rains, and the weather forecast is the same as those women who dumped him, always making trouble with him. Yi Xu sometimes gets drenched in light rain, and he must have brought an umbrella in the heavy rain.

We walked along the path of the community, drifting diagonally from the far left to the far right, but luckily it was not on the street, otherwise ten lives would not be enough! I was so nervous, I was so afraid that I would step on him, and I was afraid that I would mess up even walking such a part! So I kept drifting out. He held an umbrella and floated with me without saying a word. The rain is getting heavier and heavier.

I was almost out of the road, when suddenly a hand was on my right shoulder, and I was so happy in my heart! I was brought back on track, and Yi Xu's hand was withdrawn. He continued to walk forward with his umbrella, but I was so happy that I didn't know how to follow, the rain was dripping on my head, and he pulled me under the umbrella, put his arm around my shoulders and led me forward again. His arm gave a light weight, and my most delicate and abundant nerves immediately gathered in my shoulder, and I felt incomparable excitement and warmth.

It was a long, long road, and I was savoring it every second. It was a very short stretch, and I wanted it to go on and on. But there was a time when we had to say goodbye, and we got to the bus stop. I was standing there, with cars brushing by on the road behind me, and in front of me was my beloved boy. I pinched my fingers as hard as I could, not to mention such a good opportunity!

I puffed up and said, "I have three questions for you. ”

"Okay." He said.

"Can I not return that cup?"

"Yes."

"I'm not good at moral, intellectual, physical, aesthetic, and labor, can I?"

"Huh? Oh, you can! ”

"Can you be my boyfriend?"

He did not speak. There's a reason he didn't speak, because my voice was so small that I couldn't even hear myself, and I didn't spit out all the words in my mouth! On the streets, there were cars and people, and the noise everywhere stifled my volume.

I think I'm so angry, I hate myself! I really had the urge to move the fingers that pinched each other to my neck, and I committed suicide! But it's still not good to think about it, such a way to die, the long tongue hanging out is weird and scary, I can't bear to scare him.

He looked at me, I couldn't see his face clearly, the rain refracted the dim street lights into his eyes, the thief was bright and the thief was bright.

When I saw the light in my eyes, I plucked up my courage again and said, "You ......" The words behind it are like sticking all-purpose glue! He finally asked, "Huh? ”

I bit my lower lip and said, "You...... I ......"

I know how embarrassed I was, my hair was messy and a little wet, my trousers were wet, and I didn't finish a sentence for five minutes. But then I went **** luck, Yi Xu tilted his head and smiled, hugged me and let go at a fast speed, gently knocked my head and said: "Don't you, you, me, I hug you, you are my girlfriend!" ”

Wow!!! The sky is falling apart! Then form a more beautiful splendid mountains and rivers in an instant! I jumped up and hugged him quickly: "I hugged you, you're my boyfriend!" ”

The rain that night was very beautiful, and then in Hamburg, Germany, I saw 300 rains 365 days a year, which I had never seen so beautifully.

Later, Yi Xu and Zhong Pei both told me that it was not an own goal, and that they were going to change the venue in the second half, so Yi Xu blew up not his own bunker. Zhang Yi said very dejectedly that he was illiterate, I insulted her and said that I just love you to death You are illiterate, otherwise how would I open it with Yi Xu?

Later, when Yi Xu heard the story of "Happier Than Me", he only frowned, and I completely isolated the song that I had listened to for more than two years and regarded as a treasure. From the second I met Yi Xu, my red heart could only flash for him.

Later, later, later, I sang that Italian song to Soeren, one of his native speakers, and he said, "I don't understand."