Chen Feng was sad.

After being injured for a while, Chen Feng picked up the quilt to wipe away his tears, looked at Hao Jiali and Hao Jiaming on the bed, Chen Feng reluctantly reached out and stroked Hao Jiali's face and touched Hao Jiaming's head, and then grabbed one hand of the two sisters and brothers in his palm and no longer let go, Chen Feng was close to his two children, because the days of such closeness are less and less day by day, and there may be no chance in the future.

As soon as the day when all the rice at home was eaten, Chen Feng thought about it, first ending the lives of these two children, and then ending her own lives.

Chen Feng thought about this idea countless times, starting from the leg injury Chen Feng thought of this final way, Chen Feng knew that this family would eventually come to this day, but Chen Feng would not take this step before this day came.

"My child! Mom brought the two of you into this world, Mom has made the two of you suffer so much, if you want to leave, Mom will take the two of you with her, Mom will not leave the two of you to suffer in this world. Chen Feng looked at the sleeping faces of Hao Jiali and Hao Jiaming and said.

But after saying that, Chen Feng was strained by her own thoughts and the fact that she would do this soon.

How much Chen Feng wants her two children to live.

Since her son Hao Jiaming was born, she was snubbed by her husband Hao Guang, and these two children are Chen Feng's courage and strength to live.

And soon asked her to end the lives of these two children with her own hands, Chen Feng remembered that she was pregnant with Hao Jiali and her brothers in the belly of the ecstasy of motherhood for the first time, to the second month of being tortured by the pregnancy reaction of the sisters and brothers, to the seventh or eighth month, she had a big belly and swollen feet and walked hard, and when Hao Jiali and her brothers were born, she was so painful that she called her father and mother, Chen Feng didn't know how much she had eaten along the way, and finally watched Hao Jiali's sister and brother grow a little bit like a mouse and cat to now so big, Chen Feng knew that it was not easy for her, she couldn't give up letting the two sisters and brothers leave this world all of a sudden, which would make Chen Feng pierce her heart like a thousand arrows.

But if you don't take this road, there is no road for this home.

Chen Feng knows that her legs are like this, and she can survive like this, and then force Hao Jiali to find a way to support her family, she can't bear it too much, she must no longer become the burden and burden of Hao Jiali's sisters and brothers, this year or so, she has dragged these two sisters and brothers enough, if she drags down these two sisters and brothers again, I don't know what kind of bad luck will be in the days to come, this year, watching Hao Jiali like an adult, with her thin shoulders and thin body to pick up the burden of supporting the family, Chen Feng felt ashamed.

Originally, Chen Feng and her husband Hao Guang were two healthy and mentally normal adults at first, but in the end, they made the burden of survival and life on their underage children, Chen Feng felt that she and Hao Guang were not worthy of being mothers and fathers at all, and she and Hao Guang were bastards and scum compared to their children by parents in this world.

Therefore, Chen Feng has no shame to face the long-term discussions and eyes of his two children and the villagers, and he doesn't want to drag down any of his relatives anymore.

Chen Feng thought about it, since her husband Hao Guang has been able to be so ruthless to her and their children, then Chen Feng is as her husband wishes, after this time, Chen Feng will no longer force Hao Jiali to find a way to support this family at a young age, this year, Chen Feng knows that she has forced Hao Jiali to the point that she can't breathe, forcing Hao Jiali to be covered with scars, and there is no way to force Hao Jiali to death if she continues to force it to death.

Through today's events, Chen Feng knew that she was going to stop in moderation, she could no longer bear all this with an eight-year-old and six-year-old child, these two sisters and brothers could not afford to hurt their small bodies, and in the future, these two sisters and brothers would encounter accidents like today for their mothers and families, Chen Feng thought that the best way for this family was to let this all end, and everything would be relieved when everything was calm.

Even Chen Feng is still reluctant to let Hao Jiali's sister and brother leave this world, Chen Feng also thought about leaving this world by herself, these two children are innocent, Chen Feng thought that if she left this world alone, Hao Jiali and Hao Jiaming's sister and brother Cao Juying and Chen Qinghui will take one home to raise, and the burden of raising one of them alone is lighter than raising Chen Feng's family of three, so that Hao Jiali and her younger brother Hao Jiaming will not have to suffer so much in order to live from now on. At most, two people will become children who have no father and no mother's pain, but at least they can keep their sisters and brothers alive.

It's Chen Feng who suffers from himself, and he pities himself.

Chen Feng remembered that before she got married in her mother's family, she was the youngest in the family, and she had the love of her brother and parents, since she married her husband Hao Guang, how could she have suffered so much, and finally ended up unhappily, Chen Feng felt that her life was really miserable, she didn't know what she did wrong.

"What am I doing wrong? God, fate, life is going to punish me like this! "Chen Feng always asks himself in the dead of night."

And listening to Cao Juying's words, Chen Feng has worked hard to bring her two children to this age over the years, Chen Feng knows that if she leaves this world early, she will never see the growth of Hao Jiali's sisters and brothers in the future.

And it won't take many years, Hao Jiali is now eight years old, Chen Feng himself will stay up for another eight years at most, Hao Jiali will be sixteen years old, and sixteen-year-old Hao Jiali can go to work in the production team as a main laborer to earn work and divide the money and food of the production team according to the work.

Hao Jiaming is two years younger than Hao Jiali, and then another two years, Hao Jiaming is also sixteen years old, so if the two sisters and brothers don't study and all go to the production team to earn work, Chen Feng himself is forty years old at that time, and Chen Feng will also earn work points by doing some work done by older people in the production team.

Then when she reaches the age of fifty, maybe she doesn't have to be fifty years old, Chen Feng doesn't have to do any work and is supported by her son, daughter-in-law, daughter, and son-in-law, Chen Feng takes her grandchildren and nephews at home every day, and lets a few little butts follow her like a frog with a group of tadpoles, how happy and sweet such a day is!

But if you end your life like this, then you will have to conceive a child, give birth to a child, and the hardships you have endured to raise a child will be in vain.

Parents give their lives to live, not to commit suicide.

When a person comes to this world, if he dies badly, God will take him away, and if he dies by suicide, it is not worth it to show people jokes, Chen Feng knows that he is still so young, not yet thirty years old, and there is still a lot of time and days in his future life, Chen Feng is unwilling to leave this world like this.

Everyone has a share in this world, and everyone can enjoy it.

Chen Feng also thought that if her husband Hao Guang did not die, she did not divorce her husband, her husband Hao Guang could not marry another woman outside, at most, there was a good match, and he didn't even have an illegitimate child, which woman who had never been married dared to give him a child, the world would not tolerate it, not to mention that the crime of bigamy would drown this woman if she committed the crime of bigamy, not to mention that public opinion and saliva would drown this woman, so, Chen Feng thought that as long as her husband Hao Guang lived, he would return to this home one day, this is Chen Feng who calmed down after receiving her husband's telegram and thought about it herself, finally, This family will still be reunited as a family of four.

However, no matter whether her husband Hao Guang will go back and go home in the future, or her two children will grow up, Chen Feng can't wait, after eating this bit of rice at the bottom of the tank at home, after a few days, everything in this family will change.

Because Chen Feng is tired, he is also tired of such a life and life.