I hugged the columbarium and took a taxi to the detention center. Called my mom on the way and my dad answered. I said, are you and your mother okay? My dad said yes, your mom had so much fun that she couldn't go back! I said, as long as you are good, it is better than the best thing in the world!

I hung up the phone, curled up, and leaned my head against the window. Zhang Yi called, and I started sobbing when I answered the phone. She was silent for a long time and said, "If Yi Xu didn't send his mother to the playground, he would be in a hurry to come out and see him for the last time." ”

"If you don't send it, can't there be another reason?" I asked her rhetorically.

"Impossible." She said coldly: "He is just cotton rotting on the ground, he can't be saved!" ”

"Why can't it be? You are so good at math, you tell me, how many permutations and combinations can there be in the three numbers 1, 2, and 3? Why is there only one possibility that a case involves three people? ”

"There's only one possibility!"

I put my hands over my eyes and cried, "Do you know what you're talking about now?" You're talking about murder and motherhood, it's a son who kills his mother! Isn't this speculation too cruel? Even if Yi Xu betrayed me, there is something called righteous anger between him and you, right? He's helped you! Take 10,000 steps back and say, okay, even if you are strangers, then can you respect the judicial system and the spirit of the law, Yi Xu has not been tried and has not been convicted, no one has the right to identify him as a murderer, such a simple truth, do you really not understand? If I hate him, doubt him, and deny him, as you wish, who will save him? His girlfriend didn't know where she died, and she didn't give the money or receive her aunt's body, so she sent in a few clothes! Zhang Yi, do you know, I love Yi Xu, I believe that when Yi Xu, the soul will be much easier! It's much simpler to love him, believe in him, than to hate him, doubt him! Love is nature, it is habit, it is something that exists in the blood and bones without having to do anything. But hate, you have to deliberately remember the voice you made when you told me, and you have to desperately imagine what it was like for Yi Xu to be with other girls. Even if I try hard to replay your voices over and over again, and then use my imagination, it will be too difficult to bury the three and a half years of deep love and love and two years of deep longing! ”

I wiped the tears from my face and continued, "I sent his mother away today, and I was the only one!" His only relative in the world is gone, no one has appeared, I am probably the only person in this world who loves him, if I don't love him anymore, then how pitiful he is! ”

"You love him, he doesn't love you, it's useless." She said.

"I have parents, you, and Zhang Hengli. Yi Xu will let me down again, and I will be happier than him! ”

"He doesn't deserve to be happy if he fails you!"

"I know you're right. Just one day, I just need today to remember that we love each other. I'm going to send someone out of this world, and I can't tell her that your son loves you and say that your son is not a thing. Is it the last consolation for a deceased mother? ”

"Stupid and ambitious!" Zhang Yi scolded and hung up the phone.

I was crying and the driver threw a box of tissues from the front.

"This ashes belong to Yi Xu's mother, can you send them to him?" I cried and asked the people in the detention center.

The two staff members were embarrassed and handed me tissues.

"If the ashes can't be sent in, they certainly can't be sent in." They don't speak as strangely as they did the first time.

"What then? There's no one at home, I can't find his girlfriend, I don't know where to take his mom back, what should I do? ”

"Why don't you write him a letter?"

"Write a letter?"

"yes, he might write back to you when he sees it, you remember to write your address on the envelope."

I took the pen and paper they gave me and kept shaking. Except for the fact that I was forced to copy a few "lucky letters" when I was young, this is the first time I have written to someone, and this is the first time I have written a letter to Yi Xu:

Easy to Continue:

I'm Xijia. I am back.

Today I sent my aunt away, she is very beautiful and serene, you have to rest assured! I will not leave the whole process, all the time, I will help you say goodbye to her, she will hear, she will smile, she will go to heaven! Also, there are a lot of colleagues and friends, and everyone says that your mother is a beautiful, cheerful, kind and good person, and she will be happy in heaven! Everyone is reluctant to her, but we all hope that you will settle your grievances as soon as possible and return safely.

Also, your girlfriend, she's probably busy with the lawyer for you, and I'd love to meet her so badly.

You know me well, right? Do you think I'd be so easy to believe that you've betrayed me? No, I don't believe it! Even if Zhang Hengli and Zhang Yi are as categorical, they still can't convince me. I'm just scared, the reality of you being caught in a murder makes me afraid, relying on memories, habits, and feelings to insist on trust, and there is a reason not to insist on it. I think what they said must be hearsay and misunderstanding, but now that it involves one of your lives, Zhang Yi is not a person who likes to make up pranks and pretend to be ghosts, in such a grim situation, if I want to help you, I must believe them! If you don't believe it, you have to force yourself to believe it. You're in the middle of a murder, and I'd be stupid if I didn't show my sense to face the problem head-on! Easy to continue, I'm pushing myself. This is a bigger and simpler question than 1 or 2, which is more important, the relationship between the two of us or your life? Your life, of course.

So, sanity, I accept that you have a new girlfriend. I asked to see her, and I would calmly meet, talk and cooperate with her, and how I would like to do my part to help you. I may not be able to do anything, but as long as I can get in touch with her, my heart will not be so painful because of the worry of not having a direction.

How I wanted to get an answer from her – she and her lawyer were working effectively and powerfully.

You must have a way to tell her, and she must have a way to find me.

I waited for her message because it was your message.

I took my aunt back to my house first.

Easy to continue, you must come out as soon as possible and safely!

1019

It's a pity

I walked out of the detention center holding the urn and looked back for a long time until I found that someone had been following me. It was the driver who had just sent me here.

"Didn't I give you the money just now? I'm sorry, I'm so sad. ”

"You're using me as a taxi driver?" He pointed to the car on the side of the road in surprise: "It's still a black car driver!" ”

I wiped my blurry eyes and realized that I had been in someone else's private car.

My head will be split into four petals: "I...... Who are you? ”

"Easy to continue colleagues." He said: "I went to the memorial service, and as soon as I stopped on the side of the road, you got in the car, crying so intently, I was too embarrassed to disturb you." ”

A mixed feeling of sadness and shame surrounded me: "I'm sorry, there is no memorial service, no one comes." It doesn't matter if no one comes, I don't have any money, I can't afford to drive. ”

"You're the old classmate of Yi Xu who called me yesterday, right?"

"Yes. Thank you for coming. ”

"You're pretty sentimental! Crying like this! Hey, I heard you say those things on the way here just now, you're not just an old classmate, aren't you? ”

I squeezed a sentence out between my clenched teeth: "I'm his ex-girlfriend, he's my current boyfriend." "I coughed violently for a while, like sand in the air, rolling into my throat and lungs, and if I didn't cough them out, I would be uncomfortable and painful.

He didn't laugh or laugh: "The more I listen, the more righteous I am!" It's just a bit unrealistic. Is this a martial arts story or a mythical story? ”

"True story." I looked at him, "You came to the memorial service, did you bring some money?" ”

"It's my first time participating, and I don't know how much money is appropriate."

I said, "Twenty-nine." ”

"Okay, you wait!" He said that, drove his black car, raised a puff of ash, and galloped away.

When I got home, Zhang Yi was helping Zhang Hengli up from the sofa and letting him sleep in the guest room. She didn't want him to sleep on the couch anymore.

Without taking off my shoes, I hurried to my room, vacating a small compartment in my closet and hiding the urn inside. so as not to scare Zhang Hengli again.

I'm going to help Zhang Yi.

"What's wrong with him?"

"After taking the medicine prescribed by the hospital, there were some side effects, and a few minutes ago I started to become in a trance and drunk."

"Sorry!" Zhang Hengli fell on top of me when he saw me: "Before I fainted, I heard that you were scared by 20,000 nine, did you have no money?" ”

"Still, don't worry I've got another way."

I think I'll be able to find something else to sell.

Zhang Hengli grabbed my shoulders with both hands and shook me back and forth: "As soon as you leave, Zhang Yi forced me to do a lot of examinations, I was reluctant, damn, it's too expensive!" She has to force me, there are so many of them, I have to go tomorrow if I don't finish it today! But I have to lend you money, you used to buy me steamed buns to eat, and now it's my turn to buy you steamed buns! Have you hired a lawyer? Do you not have the money to pay for the lawyer's fees? You have to pay, the lawyer is expensive, but you have to give as much as he wants, they are expensive, but they use it, and they are now the crops of the saline-alkali land, whether they die or not, whether they live or not, and torture you to death! You are not farmers, how do you know how to deal with the crops? So you have to hire a lawyer to save Yi Xin, no matter how much money you have! If he can't get out, how sad you two will be! ”

"I know you have righteousness, praise you, I'm not short of money, I've found a way, let's go to sleep first, I'm tired." I comforted him.

I glanced at Zhang Yi, and when she received my eyes, she immediately helped Zhang Hengli into the guest room with me.

Zhang Hengli fell on the bed and sat up again, pointed at me and said, "Zhang Yi, did you lend it to her, I knew that you wouldn't let Yi Xu go to the playground!" ”

"Yes, Zhang Yi also has righteousness, just like you." I soothed him and told him to lie down.

"That's not righteous anger!" His head shook from side to side on the pillow: "That's love!" You are always noisy, on the surface, it is a flute with a gong, and it doesn't sound together, but it is actually a grasshopper tied to a rope, Zhang Yi also likes to continue! ”

"When did Zhang Yi start liking Yixu?" I asked reflexively.

"From the very beginning, Yi Xu can always settle Zhang Yi with one sentence, don't you really know? You go to Germany, the front foot just left, she went to Yi Xu's company on the back foot, I also saw it once on the street, she followed Yi Xu three streets behind, that's not like, what is like? ”

Zhang Hengli suddenly laughed as he spoke, and pointed at me: "Zhang Yi, do you admit it, do you admit it?" ”

"I'll admit it, you'll have to sleep." Zhang Yi said that her eyes refused to leave Zhang Hengli for a second.

"If you admit it, I'll sleep!"

"Well, I'll admit it."

Zhang Hengli smiled: "I sleep, I like to sleep, and the world will get better when I fall asleep." Zhang Yi, I know you best, you see what you said to Xijia today, the more ruthless you say, the more painful your heart hurts. Do you know Xijia, I know her better than you! ”

Zhang Yi sat on the edge of the bed and held him down to prevent him from moving. Slowly, Zhang Hengli also closed his eyes and slept well.

I locked myself in the bathroom and turned on the showerhead, trying to rinse away all the dust, exhaustion, pain and questions, and the 15 hours had been so much that I couldn't understand the heartbreak.

People are self-grieving.