"Qingwan, are you worried about me or him?" Helian Chenxuan said with some anger, in fact, with their understanding of each other, how could they not know each other's thoughts, but he still had no way to calm down, after all, when it came to that man, they were all the same irritable.

Yan Qingwan suddenly smiled, she stared at his eyes, and said seriously: "Chen Xuan, I have nothing to do with that person anymore, what I'm worried about is you." ”

Moreover, that person didn't need her to worry at all, I don't know why, in her mind, there was already a thinking pattern that Helian Zeye was more powerful than Helian Chenxuan, and people often sympathized with the weak.

"Qingwan, are you deceiving yourself? How could you not be related. Helian Chenxuan stared at her already bulging lower abdomen and said thoughtfully.

Yan Qingwan understood the meaning of his words, in fact, she had begun to waver in this matter, she needed someone who could be discussed, and it was at this time that Helian Chenxuan was willing to pay attention to her, so she didn't hide it, and said seriously: "Actually, I have been thinking about this issue for a long time, this child is not the right time, I don't know if I should let him live and suffer." ”

The word living and suffering is used on this child, which is quite applicable, this sentence came out of her mouth, Helian Chenxuan still felt a little unacceptable, he never thought that she would have such thoughts, after all, her insistence on the child is obvious to everyone.

However, in just about 30 days, she changed her mind, what caused her to change? He didn't want to think about it, if she married someone else because of Helian Zeye's betrayal, then it would not be worth it.

"The child is innocent." After thinking about it, he could only give such an answer, he didn't want her to regret it in the future.

"Who isn't innocent?" Yan Qingwan murmured softly, isn't she innocent? If there were no accidental crossings, there would not have been so many things, let alone being involved in so many rights and wrongs, but as long as people live, there is no way to be alone.

"Yes! Qingwan, you really shouldn't have been born in the Prime Minister's Mansion, just like I hated myself countless times for being born in the emperor's family. Helian Chenxuan also sighed, in fact, they are not rare to those so-called positions of power, as well as the life of fine clothes and food, they yearn for a warm family, harmonious relatives, and a free and unrestrained air.

"Chen Xuan, I didn't do it on a whim, I'm really confused." Yan Qingwan said softly, she was not ready to end this topic, after all, it was a problem that had to be solved.

Seeing her insistence, he didn't interrupt her and waited for her to follow.

So, she continued: "I have thought about it for a long time, my current physical state is actually not suitable for conceiving life, even if I can succeed in the end, this child will not be born very healthy, and will definitely be accompanied by disease and pain in the years to come, and he will be the eldest grandson of the emperor's family, you should know what kind of identity it is, from the moment he was born, he will not have his own space, there will be no freedom, no friends, and no true feelings."

I don't want my children to experience a colorless childhood, precocious, scheming, having to become cold-blooded and ruthless in order to save their lives, accustomed to killing or adapting to controlling their lives and deaths, that kind of scene, as long as I think about it, I will feel extremely terrifying.

Therefore, I am very hesitant to gamble once, but recently, I am more and more unsure whether my decision is right or wrong, the birth of a child is more painful than happy after all, even if I love him so much, but I can't change the facts I will face. ”

After listening to her words, Helian Chenxuan was extremely shocked, she thought that it was because the man didn't want this child, and the man abandoned her, so she came up with the idea of not wanting this child and wanting to start over, but she didn't expect that the reason for this was so twists and turns, she was indeed a mother who loved her children very much.

"Qingwan, have you ever thought about yourself, if you don't have this child, your life will be very different, you won't be monitored by your father, you can even leave here at will, and then start a new life, if you make up your mind to leave this child, you won't be able to escape from the Forbidden City in your life."

Helian Chenxuan reasonably analyzed the current situation, whether she was willing to stay or not, the child would definitely stay in the palace at that time, and if she had a bond, she would no longer be able to go far away.

Yan Qingwan was very conflicted, struggling in her heart, and her wavering thoughts made her a little crazy, knowing that many things could not be passed without hesitation, sooner or later she still had to make a decision, but she didn't expect that it would drag on for more and more, but it was difficult to choose.

"I know what you're talking about, but how can you make me do it?"

When she said this, tears had already burst out of her eyes, and Helian Chenxuan stood in place, unable to even say words of comfort, yes! Let the mother of a child give up her child with her own hands, and then watch this innocent life pass by, even a big man like him can't care, let alone a delicate woman like her.

"Then leave it to God, and see the will of God."

This was the last answer he gave, but it made Yan Qingwan suddenly stand up and look at the sky, yes! Since you can't make a choice, then leave it to God, child, it depends on your own creation, Mommy is useless, and she can't shelter you.

After returning from the palace, Yan Qingwan was in a state of ignorance, letting Ruyi take care of herself, Mu Xiaoya and Mo Yuqing often came to visit her, just sighed at her, didn't say anything, they knew that she was a knot in her heart, and the bell had to be tied to the bell, they couldn't prescribe the right medicine, instead of adding to the chaos, it was better to quietly observe the next situation.

In the past few days, the movement in the court has become bigger and bigger, and the emperor has become more and more spoiled by King Jin, and many courtiers of King Chen's faction have begun to defect, but the parties seem to be very leisurely, as if they don't care about these.

It's just that the queen mother has spread the news that the phoenix body is violating the harmony, which makes Yan Qingwan faintly feel that something is wrong, but at this moment she has no intention of paying attention to these, but many things are not that you are unwilling to interfere and can stay out of the matter.