Chapter 309 Let it be
Yan Rin asked with a little trepidation: "Rongxiang, you are really, not angry with me at all, you ......"
Rong Qian smiled and shook his head: "If it was before I was injured in the hunting ground, maybe I would." I&Read? At that time, I still didn't know how to fully respect your ideas, and I still always made decisions and plans for you according to my own thoughts. I will be self-righteous for your good, and then reprimand you, tell you what is right and what is wrong, what should and what should not be, and without asking your opinion, I will use my means to semi-forcibly make you go according to the path I have arranged for you, I will think that it is good for you, in order to make you sober and calm, so quietly withdraw from your world, and then feel that this is a sacrifice for the country and for you, and I feel great to watch you suffer alone. ”
Yan Rin trembled slightly, and the few words that Rong Qian said lightly, as long as he imagined it, he already felt extremely terrifying.
"However, everything is different now, Yan Rin, this disaster has made us all realize our mistakes. I promised you that I would no longer deceive you and force you for reasons like your good, that I would respect your choice at all times, and that I would be honest with you about anything, so I came to you last night......"
His eyes were clear, and he looked deeply into Yan Rin's eyes that were a little frightened, a little uneasy, a little expectant, and a little eager: "Yan Rin, in fact, you and I are very stupid people in some aspects. You are the emperor, you have no parents since you were a child, and although there are many relatives of other clans, you are afraid that the hostility is far better than family affection. There are a lot of underground people around. But all are afraid of obedience. Although Mr. Wang is close to you, the difference between master and servant is still the difference between heaven and earth, and Shi Jingyuan is your friend. But relationships have never been equal from the beginning. I'm the only one left......"
He sighed slightly, a little emotional. But he was also a little happy: "Only me, who has always been there, is the person you have been close to since childhood, unrestrained and not careful." Now that I look back on the past, I realize that you once cherished and longed for me like that. But ......"
Rong Qian smiled bitterly: "I'm also a stupid person." Yan Rin, you know that I am also an orphan, and I have no relatives since I was a child, and I have never married a relative, nor have I ever had a favorite woman. I never even knew what it was like to be someone. Although he is a minister, because of his height, he has many subordinates and many friends, but there are almost no real friends. Speaking of which, you are the only one who I have always cared for and cared for wholeheartedly and always cared for and cared for at all times. None of us have much experience with people. There are few opportunities to be with others. ”
He shook his head slightly: "You work so hard, so hard, in addition to wanting to be a good emperor, you just want to make me proud of you." Happy for you. And me. So dedicated, so dedicated. In addition to wanting to make this country better and better, I just hope, Yan Rin, if you and I are in an ordinary environment, just ordinary people, ordinary teachers and students, maybe, we will have a deep relationship, but we will not have the kind of feelings you think. But since you are Yan Rin, and I am Rong Qian, since things are already like this, then no matter what your feelings are, you don't have to be ashamed and regretful, and I ......"
He thought for a moment before saying, "Maybe it's not exactly the same as you." However, I am not repulsed, I am not bothered by this, I am willing to accept it, although I may not know how to respond. I believe in you, and will never do anything that makes me reluctant and embarrassing me, and I just want to make you happier, I ......" He finally frowned, and suspected that he was beginning to be unable to speak.
Alas, this kind of thing is really too complicated.
He still thinks that if it weren't for Yan Rin as the emperor, there would be too few people and things around him who could communicate with him, and he might not have some unreasonable feelings for him, but since he already had this feeling, it wouldn't be a big deal.
Rong Qian is a person from a small building, in his time, people can live endlessly, the physical body can be replaced at will, life can be controlled in a scientific way, at will, the human family, marriage, have basically died, and family, marriage, fertility-related ethical concepts, naturally, have gradually disappeared.
In the era of Xiaolou, although not everyone slept for thousands of years like Han, trying not to contact the outside world, the relationship between most people was also very indifferent, and there was almost never too deep emotional bond. After joining the WTO, most of the time, Rong Qian also had a more detached state of mind, condescending to do papers, and all his thoughts were spent on taking care of national affairs and taking care of children, and basically, there was indeed not much time to exchange feelings with people.
In previous lives, he also married a wife, but it was all the order of his parents, and the words of the matchmaker were basically a husband and wife relationship maintained by family affection. Relatively speaking, the relationship between Yan Rin and Lechang is almost the same.
The only difference is that he never takes concubines and doesn't marry a little wife.
After a few lifetimes like this, although Xiao Rong is also a thousand-year-old demon, his emotional cognition is still pitifully poor, if it weren't for Fang Qingchen's thunderbolt, he would never have thought that Yan Rin's feelings for him might not be pure.
But now that he has recognized this fact, he does not have any repulsion and anxiety, but naturally accepts it.
Although, in fact, until now, he is not sure that this is really the love that Fang Qingchen said, or that this so-called love is not necessarily the same as the love in Zhang Minxin's mouth, or the love that the world often says.
Rong Qian has never loved, and he doesn't know what love feels like. He is an honor student, but he is extremely lacking in common sense in some aspects, does not watch movies, and no, does not like to listen to other people's gossip.
What is love? There is no earth-shattering, no passion, no day not seen, such as every three autumns, no dry mouth, no heartbeat.
Even when he saw Lechang and Yan Rin holding the child together, he would not feel any pantothenic acidity.
What is not love?
This life. He came for Yan Rin, well, maybe just for his thesis, and the motive was not pure and kind. But it is true that he spent more than ten years to create that child wholeheartedly.
All love. All the attention, all the effort, was poured out on the man, rejoicing in him, worrying about him, rejoicing in him, worrying about him. Deliver yourself to the altar for him. He will be punished for committing a foul, he will not be able to get out of trouble for 50 years, and he will suffer from disability for the rest of his life.
If he can't see Yan Rin, although he won't be restless, when he sees Yan Rin. The mood is always pleasant. When Yan Rin is happy, he is also happy, when Yan Rin is worried, he is also troubled, and when he is together, all worries are eliminated and his mind is clear. is disabled and painful, there are grievances and regrets, and I have never regretted it.
Compared with. Yan Rin treats him, maybe his heart is more sincere and his feelings are more tangible. This child, all love and hate, all intense. Deep. The real emotions were poured into him only, and. More exclusive than him, more jealous and uneasy. But Yan Rin will no longer let himself be affected by this negative emotion to hurt him, let alone try to control him, restrict him, still respect him to the greatest extent, give him freedom, even if he regrets it, he still refuses to force him to do anything.
So, is this what Fang Qingchen said about love?
Rong Qian wasn't sure.
If this is also love, then there are really many kinds of love in the world.
Not every kind of love is like Fang Qingchen's love, so fierce and decisive, brilliant and gorgeous, not every kind is like between Han and Di Jiu, the deeper the love and the heavier the suspicion, the stronger the love and the more jealousy, because there is love, so the pain is deep.
Rong Qian only felt that no matter what was between him and Yan Rin, there had been enough pain and twists and turns, and all he needed in front of him was joy, peace, warmth, and peace. Yan Rin's intentions, with Yan Rin's status and role, since he has not hurt anyone, what is there to be suspicious and accuseful? He himself has always been at ease with what he encounters and treats each other calmly, so why can't he accept it?
In fact, this layer of paper, even if no one ever pierces it, he and Yan Rin will never be enlightened, and they may not be unhappy. But now, now that I have seen it, there is no need to escape, no need to suffer myself. There is nothing unseemly and unspeakable.
What kind of love, which love, does it matter?
The important thing is that they both know that each other is the most important person who cares about each other, and while cherishing and caring for each other, they are also willing to respect and trust each other, and because they have such happiness and such happiness, they are willing to cherish all the other good things in life with a bright and open mind.
The country, the people, the loyal ministers, the responsibility, the morality, the principles, the wives and children, the friends, the sisters, everything is what they are willing to cherish and care.
These thousands of thoughts are in his heart, and Rong Qian himself actually doesn't know how to explain it, he just wants Yan Rin to feel at ease, not to worry, not to suffer himself. At this time, he felt that he was exhausted, and seeing that Yan Rin was still looking at him blankly, he couldn't help but sigh: "Fool, don't I understand?" What else do you want me to say, so I can understand! ”
Yan Rin was shocked, and suddenly shouted softly: "Rongxiang!" ”
A very soft voice, actually choked a little, he repeated Rong Qian's action just now, stretched out his hand, and hugged him. I don't know if he has always respected Rong Qian too much and didn't dare to make too many times, or because he was afraid of hurting Rong Qian too hard, he didn't try too hard, and didn't dare to hug it too tightly, in fact, he still hugged it very lightly, but he didn't let go of his hand immediately. Just leaned his head lightly on Rong Qian's shoulder, his arm was wrapped around Rong Qian's back, his chest was close to his chest, his breath melted into his breath, and he didn't separate for a long time.
Rong Qian hesitated for a moment, but immediately smiled and stretched out his hand, gently patted Yan Rin's shoulder, and then slowly to his back, hugged him not particularly hard, and then patted slowly, as many years ago, comforting the frightened child, his movements were calm and peaceful.
He may not understand all this very well, and he is not very familiar with it, but he really does not resist, and will try to accept and understand...... Response.
In the future, maybe your life will be a little different from before, right? Perhaps, it's just a subtle change, and the big way of getting along with each other may not change, but change or not change doesn't seem to be too important, it's just ...... Now that you have woken up, seen through it, and understood, I am afraid that you will have to deal with some possible troubles and avoid some possible consequences.
Rong Qian thought like this, but he still smiled indifferently, but he didn't think that there would be any qualitative changes in the way he and Yan Rin got along.
After all, he clearly knew that between him and Yan Rin, and Fang Qingchen's so-called relationship, I was afraid that there was still a huge difference, but unfortunately, I was afraid that many people didn't think so......
He thought about it casually, and inadvertently raised his eyes to see the sun outside the window, oh my God, it was already in the middle of the day......
According to the time, Qingchen should have already left, and he actually patronized and talked to Yan Rin about his heart, just thinking about not letting Yan Rin have any depression in his heart, but he forgot about the fox.
Rong Qian sighed, he could imagine how many times he would be complained by Fang Qingchen in the future, and he would not be loved by his classmates.
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