Chapter 230 But that's it
Qian stared at the young man who was trembling silently, waiting for him to slowly wait for him to muster enough courage to face himself, waiting for him to show enough responsibility to face all the mistakes of the past.
Yan Rin, I'm trying to learn to believe in you, so you have to learn to trust me too.
Tell me, let's not run away from it, let's face it together.
The inner sanctum was eerily quiet.
Only Yan Rin kept talking.
In the empty hall, his voice alone, empty, low, and slow, made the whole world more silent.
And Rong Qian has been just listening quietly.
The whole world seemed to be quiet, the wind outside the window had stopped, and the birds in the treetops seemed to have stopped chirping in amusement. Between heaven and earth, only Yan Rin's voice remained.
He spoke slowly, dryly, almost mechanically, about the truth of the time.
He said it upside down and chaotically, it wasn't too long, it wasn't too complicated, and after so much time, he still couldn't tell it in an orderly and normal way.
There are no twists and turns, and there are not too many emotional ups and downs. He didn't even know how to justify himself in his narration, nor did he know how to express deeper remorse. He just recounted the facts.
In fact, he has always been thinking about how to tell Rong Qian the truth. He couldn't accept that he had done such a bad thing, and he had always continued to accept Rong Qian's love and recognition like an innocent person, and he never felt it. I am also qualified to escape all the consequences that come from it.
It's just that now Rong Qian's physical condition makes him dare not make a mistake, and he doesn't want anything to affect Rong Qian's calm state of mind when he is recuperating from his injuries. So he dragged on like this day by day, and he had to talk and laugh with Rong Qian every day as if he had nothing to do, as if he had never been disappointed or harmed. There has been no suspicion, no temptation.
But he knew that the deep wound had always been there. Stretched out hideously, waiting in the darkness for the moment when it would be torn apart again.
All he didn't know was that this moment would come so early, so early that he didn't even have a chance to prepare.
However. As long as Rong Qian opened his mouth to ask him, he would no longer be able to say half a word of lies, just say the truth sentence by sentence.
Until the last word is spit out. He stopped, looking at Rong Qian a little numbly, and his heart was actually blank.
The feeling is so familiar. At the beginning on the hunting ground. I was shocked to see Rong Qian's injuries attack. He kept screaming at him frantically. But the heart is actually like this, blank. Numbness, no ability to think, no ability to feel. He only knew that he had been screaming, but he didn't even know what he was calling.
He was in the carriage, guarding Rong Qian's side, except for a continuous call, still not doing anything, thinking nothing.
Vaguely, he also sensed that his situation was wrong, pulled out the sword on his body, stretched out his hand to hold the blade, and the sharp blade cut into the palm of his hand, hoping to get rid of the numbness and shock. But it was clear that the blood had flowed beside Rong Qian, but he was still unconscious.
It wasn't until later, when he entered the Tsinghua Palace and guarded Rong Qian in a daze, that he slowly gained the ability to think, slowly understood perception and analysis, and slowly began to understand chagrin and panic, so he would guard Rong Qian and say some inexplicable words over and over again.
And now, the blankness and numbness of the day and earth have once again quietly occupied his body and mind.
When he had said everything, he could only stand there in a daze, like a stiff stone, unable to move at all.
Rong Qian stared at him quietly, his eyes dark and deep that it was inexplicably terrifying. Then, Rong Qian said softly: "You come here!" ”
With such a low call, Yan Rin may not be able to hear it clearly, and even if he hears it clearly, his numb and blank center of the earth at this time may not be able to understand. However, the man looked at him with such dark eyes, and as if he had been bewitched, he approached step by step, and walked straight to Rong Qian.
Rong Qian suddenly smiled slightly, and gently hooked his fingers: "Bend down!" ”
Yan Rinmu bent down in a daze, although in his heart, he still didn't know what he heard, but his body seemed to be natural, and he didn't know how to disobey that person.
Rong Qian raised his hand lightly and patted Yan Rin on the face very slowly and weakly...... Or...... This one...... Grudging...... It can be considered a slap in the face, right?
"Silly boy, are you awake?"
Yan Rin blinked slowly, and her thoughts and sanity finally returned, but her expression was still a little dull and clumsy.
Originally, in his heart, after knowing the truth, Rong Qian should have any angry expression, but such a fluttering palm, coupled with a smiling tone, finally made him a little stunned.
Rong Qian looked at him stupidly and stupidly, reacted slowly, and laughed in his heart: "Don't be complacent, although I don't have the strength now, but this account has to be written down with you, and when I get better, I will always beat you up." ”
Yan Rin looked at his smile without a trace of gloom in a daze, and listened to his slightly negative voice, but with more doting voices, in his stiff and sluggish heart, this can really regenerate all kinds of feelings and emotions.
It was only at this time that Yan Rin, who had been telling everything in a dry tone, became unsteady in her voice: "Rongxiang, why aren't you angry with me?" Why, no matter what I do, you are always not angry with me. ”
Rong Qian glared at him, gently stretched out his hand and knocked hard on his head: "Who said I wasn't angry, I was so angry that I wanted to beat your ass with a big stick, but unfortunately I can't do it now, otherwise you think you can still stand here safely." ”
Thinking that Rong Qian was so injured that he couldn't even use a little strength, Yan Rin felt uncomfortable again, and his face became more and more ugly.
Rong humbled him
"What kind of face do you put on me, shouldn't you be beaten for what you did?"
Yan Rin hung his head gloomily: "I naturally deserve to fight." ”
Rong Qian looked at him amusedly: "So, do you know what you are doing wrong?" ”
"I shouldn't have done such a ghostly thing from Rong Xiang, let alone ......"
Rong Qian was so angry that he rolled his eyes in his heart, and he really wanted to grab a stick and hit him on the head: "The most hateful thing about you is now." Haven't figured it out yet, what's wrong with you? You are the emperor, and many times, for some purposes, it is inevitable to use some tricks and tricks. But you are wrong, you dare to take the risk yourself? ”
I wasn't so angry at all, so to speak. There was really anger rising in his heart, he glared at Yan Rin, and said angrily: "Aren't you just trying to find an excuse to do something to martial arts people?" Isn't it just to plant a crime for the people of the rivers and lakes? What means can't be used, you have to joke with your own life! Say what is well prepared. What do you say that there is treasure armor and a repeater? Do you really think that you are the true son of heaven, so with the protection of God, you don't have to be afraid of anything? Don't you know that there is such a thing as an accident in this world, is there such a word? How precious your identity is. How big is the body, how dare you come so recklessly? ”
Yan Rin looked at Rong Qian blankly, the more annoyed Rong Qian was, the more sour his heart became.
"Appearance. Why, until now, you are still angry only for my disregard for my own safety? ”
You don't care about your own safety. Shouldn't I be angry? Rong Qian knotted. It's really uncomfortable to look up at Yan Rin like this and speak. He impatiently straightened his hand and pulled Yan Rin's chest, pulling it as hard as he could.
Yan Rin obediently bent her knees beside the wheelchair. So that he can easily look at himself.
Rong Qian stretched out his hand and knocked heavily on his head: "As long as you care about you, people will be angry, and they will be so angry that they want to beat you hard." However, if you are annoyed, angry, or beaten, that's it. Do you know what a loved one is? It's a broken bone and a tendon, no amount of anger and resentment can be separated......"
He stretched out his hand and wanted to knock him again, but he felt that this kid's head was harder than his own hands, and in vain, it seemed that he could only ask for hardship, and changed knocking to kneading, and he rubbed Yan Rin's long hair into a mess very badly, feeling the soft black long hair between his fingers, his lips were still smiling, but his eyes were a little deep; "You kid, just looking forward to me and hating you for the rest of your life?"
Yan Rin only felt that there was also a big hand rubbing his heart out of thin air, his face was gloomy, and he slowly shook his head: "Rongxiang, you don't understand ......"
Rong Qian sighed: "It's you who I don't understand, right!" ”
"You don't understand, I ......" Yan Rin closed his eyes, and after a while, he had the courage and strength to finish his words.
"At that time, I could have issued crossbow arrows before you made a move, but I didn't make a move, I deliberately ......"
"Of course you did it on purpose." Rong Qian smiled bitterly. "Aren't you just afraid that I will scold you?"
Yan Rin was stunned and opened his eyes.
Rong Qian was helpless: "I arrived at that time, if you cast a crossbow in your sleeve that shouldn't appear in front of me, I can immediately detect something wrong, and after the fact, how can you hide it." If I had known about this stupid thing you have done, I would have spared you. ”
Yan Rin looked at Rong Qian in a daze, opened her mouth, but it took a long time to know how to make a sound: "I, I'm just for this ......"
"What do you think you're for? To tempt me, to trap me? Rong Qian was angry and funny: "If it is a temptation, from the beginning of the layout, it should be aimed at me." And at the last moment, the crisis is just around the corner, and all your reactions are just made by the instinct to protect yourself, where is the calculation. Protect your life from threats, protect yourself from being exposed, scolded, beaten, and taught a lesson. Your dark crossbow will naturally be unstruck at once. ”
Seeing that Yan Rin was still a little dumbfounded, he shook his head and smiled: "A person, the change of mind between lightning and flint, is more based on intuition and instinct, rather than calculation. On the contrary, you think too much and too much after the fact, and you have to think about yourself as the worst person in the world. ”
"But...... At that time, I ...... "Yan Rin muttered for a long time, but there was no reason to come." In those days, he locked himself in darkness, thinking about it over and over again, the more he thought about it, the more he thought about it, the more he felt that he was despicable and vicious to the extreme, but he never imagined that his heart knot in his chest was the simplest thing in Rongqian's opinion.
It's just a daring child who did something bad without telling his family, and was afraid of being scolded, so at a critical moment, he was determined to hide it to the end, and that's it.
However, the appearance is ...... You have been tortured for this, and life is worse than death!
"Originally, this whole thing, except that you were too nonsense and didn't care about yourself, there was no big problem, but it turned out like this, what do you think, what is the problem?" Rong Qian asked in a deep voice.