Extra: Be open and honest 4
"After coming back from the family temple, I am afraid that you will not be able to understand, so I want to wait until the matter is done before telling you...... From making you the queen to the decision that I want to depose the harem...... I want to surprise you and make you feel relaxed instead of making you feel scared all day long......"
What he wants is to solve the problem once and for all, not to drag the mud and water. Just like how he "tricked" the ministers to Luoyang back then.
Only by solving the essential problem can the part come into being.
"Only then can I truly protect you. Miao Lian, you don't have to be afraid of anything from now on. ”
She couldn't help it.
Tears moistened his heart.
How hard it is.
Thousands of hesitations, at this moment, I was relieved. That was when she came back from the family temple, and she really felt a moment of relaxation - no love rivals, no political enemies.
All this, he stood in front of himself.
Well, anyone who wants to deal with themselves, then come on.
At least, he was in his way.
is like the oath he made when he was a childhood sweetheart - no matter in the wind and rain, in the sword and the sea of fire, he will stand by his side and never give up.
At this time, they are truly one alliance.
He hugged the woman with tears in his arms, and suddenly felt relaxed in his heart.
This time, the words from the bottom of my heart came out.
There is nothing to scruple about anymore.
Between them, they have never been so frank and honest, and there are no more secrets and ** general—at least, on his side, there are no more.
Moreover, he also believes that there will be no one on her side. Because her hand was so tender and so hard to grasp his—full of unreserved, unreserved warmth and comfort—yes, she wanted to comfort him, and at this moment, she felt that he was weak—
She was so shocked when she was always such a strong man, and occasionally became so weak.
Because of love, I am anxious to be comforted.
Because of pity, I took the initiative so much.
A woman's initiative, if not for flattery and favor, then it is a kind of deep friendship from the bones.
Therefore, my heart is full of joy.
It was as if the joy would swell.
The two of them were silent and lay down for a long, long time. There was silence at this time, but it was not estranged, as each other's heartbeats merged, trembling and trembling, and the beat was combined.
The hand also gently rested on her stomach, stroked it slowly, and cried out in surprise: "Miao Lian, you see the child move...... I feel my child moving...... It must have heard us...... Good boy, do you hear your father's voice? My father loves you very, very much, and I really want to see your cute little appearance soon......"
The stomach was throbbing slightly, and I wondered if it was the little one lying in the warm darkness who was gently turning over?
Did it also know about the reconciliation of its parents and became extremely excited?
Or did it feel the strong love and expectation of its father?
"Miaolian, in more than three months, the child will be born, I am really looking forward to it......"
She whispered: "I'm looking forward to ...... too"
He suddenly asked her, "Would you like to be a boy or a girl?" ”
She didn't hesitate: "I hope it's a girl." ”
He didn't even ask what he liked. Ideally, he should like girls. The world longs for sons, but when it comes to the struggle for power, in order to reduce the number of entanglements, it is not a suitable way to have daughters.
"I wish it was a girl...... If there is a spirit in heaven, I wish it could be as I wish......"
He laughed and shook his head: "Don't say that, the child will be unhappy when he hears it." Whether it's a boy or a girl, I'm happy, it's a kid we've had so hard, isn't it? ”
This time, she suddenly understood what he meant, and understood it thoroughly.
It's not a dumb riddle, but a real understanding that it's a kind of determination and an attitude, and when he really wants to do something, no one can stop him.
"Miao Lian, I firmly believe that you will educate your children like the Queen Mother. As long as this child grows up with such an education, then he is the most ideal person in the world. Alas, Miao Lian, even if I'm selfish...... I wish it was a boy......."
She didn't refute—and didn't want to—the resistance she had against him in her heart disappeared without a trace. No matter what he said or did, she would no longer think on the bad side, only on the best side.
Even the most feared inquiry in the heart has become less unbearable.
How strange is the human mind!!
When there is suspicion, everything is not afraid to speculate in the direction of the worst.
But once I let go, I found that this world is not as complicated as I imagined.
After a drizzle, there was a chill in the autumn day.
Yaoguang Temple does not set up any fence around it, nor does it have any construction signs, and even does not restrict the entry and exit of all idle people, incense is around, people are boiling, and the Bodhisattva is even more busy, so many people pray to God and worship Buddha every day, ask for promotion and wealth, ask for husbands not to change their hearts, ask for sons, ask for children to be born...... Feng Miaolian is always very strange, a thousand things, can the Bodhisattva be busy?
Her footsteps stopped in front of a small courtyard in the middle of the room.
The chrysanthemums have bloomed, and the ground is golden.
A lonely figure walked out, followed by two palace maids.
She stopped when she saw Feng Miaolian, her eyes were only staring at her stomach, but it was not as vicious and murderous as before.
She didn't even look at her at all, with a very disdainful look.
Feng Miaolian sighed secretly and stood in place.
Feng Miaozhi was very haggard, this autumn, she was almost ten years old, and even her clothes were changed into gray shirts - just like when she saw Feng Miaolian who was seriously ill for the first time in the Feng Mansion.
The age of the flowering season, but the experience of a person's life.
Falling from the highest position, I saw that the lonely path of life began from here.
The large-scale dismissal of concubines has just begun, and they still have big families fighting for them and resisting, but she didn't. As a deposed former queen, no one dares to ask if she is dismissed at any time.
She looked back at the Yaoguang Temple where she lived, thinking that this place would be an opportunity to rise again, but once she got out of this palace gate, she knew that all this was impossible.
The dream of the queen can never be done again.
Never before has a deposed queen regained favor – there has never been such a precedent.
Condescendingly, you can see the steps and wide road outside Yaoguang Temple, paved with stone slabs, and a carriage is parked on it, driven by an old coachman from Feng Mansion, and the waiting steward has been probing his brain.
These two have been in the Feng Mansion for many years, so long that even Feng Miaolian knows them well.
Feng Miaozhi's face was very pale, and she only walked over after a moment of silence, and did not stop when she passed by Feng Miaolian's side.
Seeing that she was about to walk over, Feng Miaolian called in a low voice: "Sister." ”
She sneered and didn't answer.
This is the first time she has called her sister, and after many years, no matter what, she is also her own sister.
"Sister, I'm sorry for you."
"Why does the queen want to come to the cat crying mouse fake mercy at this time? This world is already yours, don't you feel disgusting if you behave like this again? ”
Feng Miaolian sighed: "I'm not qualified to ask you to forgive me. Nor am I ready for you to forgive. I'm just telling you that after you return to the Feng family, all actions are free. ”
"Freedom?"
That sounds so unfamiliar. What freedom can a deposed queen have? Isn't it waiting for death in the lonely family temple? What freedom can there be in this life?
Feng Miaolian's voice was very low and fast: "If I say this, you may not be able to accept it...... Still, I have to say. Sister, you are only 24 years old, you are still young, there is still a long way to go in life, if you want, you can choose other people......"
She paused, not knowing what to say.
Feng Miaozhi also paused, a night of drizzle, falling flowers and colorful, the slender petals of chrysanthemums paved the path of the lonely Yaoguang Temple. Especially the last one, which almost covers its instep. She just thought of the phrase "You're only 24 years old" - it turned out to be 24 years old!! Why is he already older than 42 years old?
She held back tears.
Feng Miaolian's eyes were also moist, don't look over, she didn't dare to look at her at all: "My father and I have already arranged, more than one hundred and fifty miles away, you will have a ** fiefdom." Taishou here is a good friend of his father, he has never met you, and his father will arrange for you to be his goddaughter. There, no one knows you, knows your past, and you can be incognito...... Perhaps, this way there is a chance to meet other better men......"
Feng Miaozhi's eyes widened in disbelief.
It turned out that they wanted her to be incognito and remarry.
If it is the identity of the former queen, naturally no one dares to marry.
However, becoming an ordinary woman, quietly going to a strange place, burying all her past, and only appearing as a rich lady, in this way, she can also find a good match, and with her Feng Miaozhi's appearance and talent, it is not uncommon to marry into a wealthy mansion.
After a long time, he roared: "Feng Miaolian, are you crazy?" ”
Feng Miaolian was very calm: "Your Majesty also knows about this matter, and it was his idea. He doesn't want to delay your life. ”
It is very common for Xianbei women to remarry, and no one sees it as disgraceful and shameful.
However, Feng Miaozhi is not an ordinary Xianbei woman.
Moreover, all this, I almost can't even think about it - my husband has arranged a life journey for himself to remarry? What is this?
She was so insulted that she almost screamed, "Are you telling me to remarry?" Even if I am a deposed queen, I am still a queen! Who are you to insult me like that? ”
Feng Miaolian hurriedly said, "Sister, I don't want to insult you...... Your Majesty...... He doesn't have you in his heart at all, so there's no need for you to be protective of him. You are a Xianbei person, not a Han person, do you want to learn from the Han people's three obedience and four virtues? When you meet a lovely man, you will naturally have a chance to be happy......"