Chapter 144: Fear of Loss
Although Ruri was born in a high aristocracy, her family belongs to the bottom of the high aristocracy, power disputes, corrupt policies, from a young age, she has seen clearly in the flattering faces of her parents.
Since then, Xiao Liuli's parents have been instilling in her the idea that only the strong have the right to survive in this world, and it was then that she lost her innocence and desire for a better life as a child.
Later, Ruri's parents discovered that Ruri had an extremely powerful talent for magic, and even the potential of the children of the superior nobles.
Since then, her bleak life has gradually left only one purpose, that is, to become stronger, as long as she has absolute power, she can lead the entire family into the superior society.
And then, the enthusiasm for life in her heart was gradually eroded by the cold, but on the contrary, she also gained extremely strong strength, since she was a child, her strength has been the best among her peers, and her family is also highly anticipated by various noble nobles and even royal families.
But for some reason, everything is moving in the direction of her parents, but she can't produce a trace of joy in her heart, and her cold eyes have become a barrier for her to contact everyone in the outside world.
It wasn't until she joined Garland Academy that she met a lady named Luan Caiyi, who was born into a top noble family and possessed a powerful talent that would make everyone jealous.
Since then, whenever Liuli sees Luan Caiyi, a nameless anger will arise in her heart, and this anger has been echoing in her mind, prompting her to destroy everything Luan Caiyi has, and she later understands that this emotion is called jealousy.
She was jealous of Luan Caiyi's alluring appearance, jealous of Luan Caiyi's demonic talent, jealous of Luan Caiyi's powerful family background, jealous of everything about Luan Caiyi, she looked so poor and unbearable in front of Luan Caiyi.
Until that day, her dim heart was as if washed by holy water, and it radiated again, and to this day, she still can't forget Luan Caiyi's warm smile like the sun in winter.
"That's... Your name is Liuli, right, my name is Luan Caiyi, Luan Shu's Luan, the colorful clothes of the seven-colored clothes, if you don't suggest, I can be your friend" That day, Luan Caiyi found Liuli, who had been in a dark corner, and smiled softly like the girl next door.
But at that time, Liuli only felt that this was Luan Caiyi's mockery of her and a charity to her, so she used the most ugly words to rebuke Luan Caiyi, who was gentle to her
"Hmph, put away your hypocritical face, don't be pretty! Don't think I don't know that you are just making fun of me! I have seen too much of a despicable superior like you who likes to look at other people's ugly appearances!"
After that, Liuli was like a child who didn't want to face reality, and kept avoiding Luan Caiyi, but no matter where she hid, Luan Caiyi could find her, and no matter how she spoke coldly to Luan Caiyi, Luan Caiyi would give her a smile like the warm sun in winter.
"What the hell do you want to do! Didn't I tell you not to follow me!Do you just want to see me ugly!" After a long period of emotional precipitation, Liuli finally couldn't bear it anymore and reprimanded Luan Caiyi loudly.
"Are you talking about panic..."Different from usual, Luan Caiyi lost the smile like the warm winter sun on his face, stared intently at the manic Liuli, and said softly.
"Hah?!I'm panicking?Your ear heard me panic?" Under Luan Caiyi's inexplicable words, Liuli pretended to exaggerate and sneered at him.
Under Liuli's ridicule, Luan Caiyi did not show the slightest mood swing, and then gently put his hand on the position of his heart, his eyes flashed with sad fluctuations, and said softly, "It's very uncomfortable... It's always been hard, I can hear it, your heart is crying..."
Under the gaze of Luan Caiyi's sad eyes, Liuli suddenly froze, and looked at the girl she was deeply jealous of not far away, and at this time, her heart that was eroded by the cold suddenly emitted a strong throbbing.
"What do you know! What do you know as a lady born with the aperture of the sky!" Under Luan Caiyi's words, the corners of Liuli's eyes couldn't help but glow with a trace of crystal invisible tears, like a child venting her emotions, shouting loudly to Luan Caiyi.
The bitterness of the past suddenly poured out, and for the first time that day she cried like a child, crying loudly at a strange girl.
But then, a comfortable warmth suddenly came from in front of her, I don't know when Luan Caiyi came to her face, and hugged her deeply, she wanted to resist, but the warmth that Luan Caiyi brought to her made her body unwilling to resist.
"I'm sorry, I can't give you any practical help, and I don't even know what you have been through in the past, but... I don't want to cry when I see your heart, can I be your friend, as the sunshine in your heart?" Luan Caiyi's voice warmed Liuli's cold heart like soft water.
"Really, I'm so gentle even though I don't understand anything, how can I refuse" Ruri choked up with tears flowing like a child.
From this moment on, Liuli found the light in her heart, but it was this light from the hard way that made her extra careful, and she was afraid of losing this light all the time.
So much so that when she lost to Monica, a strong sense of fear suddenly filled her heart, and at that time she even imagined that Luan Caiyi disliked her eyes, and she was once again pulled into the abyss by the dark darkness.
But since then, another teenager named Han Yan has given her hope again, and since then, she has never forgotten the smile that Han Yan showed to protect her self-esteem, and since then there has been a person in her heart again.
At this time, when he heard Liuli's words, Luan Caiyi behind the rock finally couldn't hide his emotions, and walked out from behind the rock excitedly and came to Liuli.
"Hey, wait, hey..."Seeing Luan Caiyi who suddenly moved, Aisen immediately stopped her, but she still couldn't catch up with Luan Caiyi's speed, and finally had to walk out of the rock with her.
"Eisen!, why are you here? You're following me!" Seeing Aisen suddenly appear behind the rock, his cold eyes shook in surprise, and then shouted thoughtfully.
"No, you listen to my explanation..."Then, Aisen couldn't care about Luan Caiyi, who was out of control, and ran to Han Yan with a smoke, and began his long explanation...
"Asai... Caiyi, why are you here, just now... Do you hear that" Seeing Luan Caiyi with an angry face in front of her, Liuli lowered her head a little weakly, and whispered like a mosquito fly.
"I heard it, of course I heard it! Xiao Liuli, I didn't expect you to look at me like this!"
"Why do you dislike you if you fail? Is the friendship between us so unbearable in your heart? Do you really think that I will be indifferent to you because of such a trivial matter?" Luan Caiyi's eyes trembled slightly, and then he grabbed Liuli's arm, stared at Liuli's eyes very seriously, and asked sharply.
"Yes... I'm sorry, Caiyi, you are the light in my heart, I am really afraid of losing your friendship, you are my best friend, forgive me for being as cowardly as a child..."Liuli dodged Luan Caiyi's hot gaze, then lowered her head and whispered softly.
Under Liuli's cowardly words, Luan Caiyi suddenly recalled her past with Liuli, it was she who saved Liuli from the dim abyss, and it was she who gave Liuli the light to move forward, but as time passed, she gradually forgot this.
Thinking that Liuli had been in a life where she was afraid of losing her friendship, Luan Caiyi's heart suddenly filled with a sense of sadness, and after the sadness, she was full of self-blame, and she couldn't help but say secretly in her heart
"What's the difference between Liuli now and when I saw her then, in the end, she still hasn't broken free from the shackles in her heart and found her own freedom..."
"I'm sorry Xiao Liuli, it's my fault, it's me who didn't perceive your heart and ignored your feelings... But I want you to know that I will not give up on the friendship that you and I have forged no matter what!"
"And I also hope that you don't live under the expectations of others, Xiao Liuli, you are yourself, you don't need to live for anyone, whether it's your parents or me, I'm saying... You seem to have taken the first step of yourself, haven't you?" Luan Caiyi gently held Liuli's hand, and then quietly turned his gaze to the cold face of Yu Aisen's bickering on the side, and laughed softly.
Following the direction of Luan Caiyi's line of sight, Liuli suddenly found that the end of her sight was actually a cold face, and under this, Liuli's fair cheeks suddenly rose a touch of pink, and then retorted softly, "It's not what you think... Caiyi, there's nothing between me and Han Yan..."
"It's nothing now, it doesn't mean that there will be nothing in the future, my little Liuli is so good-looking, how can a boy refuse you, and as your good sister, I will do my best to help you" Seeing Liuli's shy appearance, Luan Caiyi couldn't help pinching Liuli's tender and reddening seductive face, and chuckled.
"Oh, Caiyi, don't make fun of me..."Under Luan Caiyi's ridicule, Liuli's originally reddened face became even more ruddy, almost dripping blood.
And the silent contradiction between the two was all resolved, but on the other hand, on Aisen's side, he still tried his best to explain with a cold face...
"Listen to me, Hanyan, I'm just concerned about your safety, that's why I'm looking for you."
"Hmph, if you just care about my safety and will hide behind the rocks to peep at me Yu Liuli, I see that you obviously have an indescribable special habit" Facing Aisen's explanation, Han Yan snorted lightly, and then said as a matter of course.
Seeing this, Aisen didn't know how to explain, in the end, it was his fault to peek at other people's conversations, and when he thought that he was just concerned about his brother's lifelong affairs, he turned his head to look at Luan Caiyi on the side and shouted, "Hey, Luan Caiyi, you help me explain it, aren't we in a group?"