On September 2nd, I finished watching Crime and Punishment. The pen "Fun" www.biquge.info watching a passage between Petrovic and Dunya. It occurred to me that when I was writing a book review for a fanfic on Neverwinter Nights, I pointed out that writing a certain plot would be very pleasing to the reader. And the kind of plot I envisioned is very similar to Petrovic's mentality. Dostoevsky is a true master.

Suddenly, I had the idea to write this article. Conceived on the way, and when I got home, I didn't open any games, but started typing after the forum was flooded. It seems to be the first time I've written a first-person novel (if I don't count my essays in middle school)

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"I don't know what motivated me to put pen to paper. Is it the will of someone in the dark? Or is it forced by my inner conscience? I don't know. I'm not one of those sick criminals who like to admire my masterpieces from afar and then tout myself in my diary. Besides, didn't I get help from the diaries I found many times to deal with the owner of the diary? Didn't all the cultists and the likes of Velliver have all fallen into the hands of their own diaries? Not only that, but how many people's secrets have I obtained from the diaries? Isn't it Erebes' diary that told me about her betrayal? But I still have to write these words, which are not confessions, nor the boasting of arrogant criminals, nor are they shameless self-justifications. I'm just documenting it all for real. ”

"Now, I am a famous hero and the savior of Neverwinter. I know there are many, many people who sincerely praise my name and pray for me. Yes, I found the antidote, freed Neverwinter from a terrible plague, and found out who was behind it. I also dismantled the berserk armies, defeated the fallen paladin Erebes, and saved Neverwinter from its destruction. And it's not just the people of Neverwinter who are praising me. Even the warriors of the barbarian tribes sang my praises with their rough throats. From the Eagle Tribe to the Elk Tribe to the Black Lion Tribe Tribe, isn't that all the same? Even in addition to humanoids like humans, elves, and dwarves, I have a noble reputation. The mother-making dragons knew who had slain the ancient red dragon that had plundered the eggs, and they could rest assured. ”

"But I know who I am. An egoist in the truest sense of the word. People know that I am a druid. But they would only shrug their shoulders and say that the hero's penchant for running into the woods was just an innocuous fetish. Elves or other druids will extend a friendly hand to me (I still have a ring that was awarded for defeating the strongest druid in that camp). However, they didn't know what a druid meant to me. Next, I will write down everything in my past truthfully. ”

"From a very young age, I realized that I was different, and the wilderness called to me. I fantasized countless times that I was a wolf child, running through the bushes with my wolves, chasing prey and fending off enemies. As I grew up, I became disillusioned. But I found another path: I trained to become a druid. Being a druid is a perfect fit for me. No, I'm not interested in destroying the weird or undead. I think "existence is nature." "Human cities are as natural as beaver dikes and termite anthills. If you want to hunt an animal or something, let them go. I scoff at the so-called maintenance of natural balance. Nature, does it really care about that? I trust nature's ability to self-regulate. ”

"The biggest attraction of being a druid for me is the natural transformation. I've transformed into different animals countless times, and then felt their joy in their form. I've transformed into a wolf running across the endless grasslands, or I've transformed into a bear to destroy trees to exert my strength and gain pleasure. I, too, will take the form of a leopard, hide in the shadows of the trees, and patiently lurk for hours before making a terrifying raid. I've also become a giant eagle or a dolphin and enjoy flying and swimming. Turning into a beast brought me so much joy that I began to get tired of living in human form. ”

"We all know that as a human being, you can't do whatever you want. The ego has always suffered from the repression of the superego. Repressed people can only release their hopes through dreams. But as a beast, you don't have to worry about that at all. In the forest, I can do whatever I want. I could do a massacre on a whim, kill two dozen wild goats in one fell swoop, and eat only one afterwards. Feel free to do something else. The life of that beast fascinates me so much. Eventually, I broke through my bottom line. ”

"That day, I saw a skilled hunter come into the mountains to hunt. He is a tough guy in the real way, and with his bow and dog, he is able to live in the forest for half a year without any supplies outside of his body. As an ordinary person, he is already strong. But for those of us who stand above ordinary people. It's so easy to wipe him out. A single killing spell can wipe out his life. But I didn't do that, I did that, what fun did I have? I simply turned into a wolf and challenged him. ”

The haughty hunter was enraged. He couldn't bear the fact that every time he bent his bow, a wolf howl scared his prey away. He couldn't stand the fact that his traps were broken every time, either the bait was cleverly eaten and the trap was not used, or the pungent wolf urine always appeared next to the painstakingly dug trap. He swore an oath to heaven that he would slaughter with his own hands the evil wolf, which had the wisdom of a fox, and make his new mattress out of its skin. In this way, he excitedly threw himself into the pursuit. ”

"In that area, the wolf I incarnated as had a great reputation. I have visited the village many times before as a wolf. Hunting and killing domestic animals, and even deliberately knocking over villagers' pots and pans. Those villagers had set countless traps and put countless poisonous bait, but none of them hurt me. They called me a wolf with the help of the devil. Naturally, the hunter had heard of my reputation, and he would have imagined how much fame he would bring if he could capture me. It seemed to irritate him, for I noticed that on a few occasions when I had deliberately teased him to make him think that he had almost succeeded, he trembled with excitement like a leaf in the autumn wind. ”

"He was destined not to catch me. Although I am in the form of a wolf, I have the wisdom of a human. I cunningly lured him deep into the barren land. Gradually, he was dragged down. His clothes were tattered and his weapons were damaged. His face was also emaciated by this hard life. But his eyes still sparkled and burned with an unyielding flame. ”

"Later, I succeeded in luring his dog away. That stupid brute, whose loyalty to his master could not resist his instincts, turned into a she-wolf and lured her out while the hunter slept. Then, when the impatient dog tried to climb the crotch, I turned around and bit it precisely by the throat. ”

"The hunter who lost his dog was so miserable that he tore his hair and slapped himself. Eventually, he came to his senses and realized that he was alone. He was scared and flinched. But how could I have let him go? My mind was completely dominated by bestiality. I followed him, waiting for him to break down. He was tenacious, but in that environment, his courage was gradually worn out. Slowly, he became really afraid of me. And just when he was crushed to madness by fear, I jumped to my feet and ended his life with his white fangs. ”

"For some time after that, I was reminiscing, reminiscing about what it was like to kill a spirit in the form of a beast. That gave me great satisfaction. For some time after that, I didn't kill any more intelligent beings. That experience has given me great satisfaction. ”

"One day not long after, something unexpected happened. That day, I turned into a crocodile and lazily basked in the sun. I never saw any wild crocodiles because it was too far north for the temperatures to sustain the life of this cold-blooded behemoth. And I, too, get my heat by basking in the sun. ”

"With my eyes closed, I heard a sound of footsteps, and I deduced from the lightness that it was a two-legged creature, with a petite body—and sure enough, I soon saw the owner of the footsteps, an elven maiden. ”

"She may be older than me, but she still has a childish face, which is one of the characteristics of her race. Innocent, kind, pure...... Although I have been isolated for a long time, I can still tell that in most places, she will be popular because of her beauty. ”

"If there's a villain lurking there, and she's hormonally stimulated, she's worried. She will cry, she will plead, she will try to fight. But that won't help. And the villain will have a satisfying day, and he will give vent to his hopes on her. After that, she would be left behind, taken to a slave auction, or simply become the villain's personal belongings. It all depends on her fate. But it was just me who was there, and I was lazily immersed in the water, not at all interested in that kind of thing. For me, her curvaceous body was too slender and I didn't like it. The object of my liking is the opposite sex with outstanding characteristics. ”

She stretched out her little white hand and brushed away the fallen leaves from the water. Then rinse the water over your face. After washing with water, her face looked even whiter and tenderer. And her gestures are all full of childishness. Probably, she was a naughty girl who ran out secretly. ”

But I didn't care about that, and just as she was about to wash her long hair with water, I jumped up and bit her calf. Just when she was still amazed, "that rotten piece of rotten wood attacked her". I've dragged her underwater. ”

"I didn't use the crocodile's infamous trick of death rolling. I just kept my mouth shut. Completely submerging her in the water, I was going to enjoy the experience slowly. Her hair fluttered in the water like aquatic weeds, and her eyes were filled with fear. She smacked me weakly with her little hands and kicked me with her fawn-like calves. But that didn't help. Soon, she will not be able to hold her breath, and then, the water will soak into her lungs and take her out of this world. ”

"But that didn't happen, an eagle swooped down from the sky, and then transformed into form in the air - another druid! He was stronger than me, and I was forced to let go of the elven girl and fight him, and soon I tasted defeat. I'm no match for him at all. All the killing techniques I used were in vain, and his advanced stone skin technique combined with tree skin technique effectively stopped my hand-to-hand attacks. As for the Lightning Summoning Technique, he has his own elemental protection to block it. The only thing that can damage him is the Flame Strike Technique, and the attack of the divine attribute cannot be resisted by any method. But what's the use? He didn't care about the damage! Then he saved the girl, and I became his prisoner while I was dying. Since then, a new chapter has opened in my life......"

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However, what kind of femdom is the most annoying! And what kind of conspiracy the protagonist will carry out on Erebes, just watch "Crime and Punishment".

The death roll of the crocodile, I can see the crocodile on the video on people. Thankfully, the performer who put his hand in the crocodile's mouth was not in danger of his life, if it was his head......

PS: It's a shame that I watched "What to Do" before watching "Crime and Punishment". Otherwise, it's like watching "Lucky Star" before watching "The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya"