"Twinkle Twinkle Twinkle"

Jiang You × Shen Xingheng

You and I that day on that hill

Singing the song of that year

Memories like that are enough

Enough for me to taste loneliness every day

- May Day "Contentment"

"They all say that it's a shameful thing for a man to like a man..."

In June 2008, the evening wind blew exceptionally gently, gently caressing the trees on the opposite side of the rooftop, and gently churning up a layer of turquoise waves.

Shen Xingheng and Jiang You stood side by side on the rooftop of the school, overlooking the entire campus. Today's college entrance examination is over, all the graduates have packed their bags and are about to leave school, and in a group of carnival students, there are occasionally one or two girls wearing black-rimmed glasses with thick lenses showing a depressed look, probably because they feel that they have not performed well in the exam...... But all this has nothing to do with the two of them, they are just nestled on this not very spacious rooftop, wearing the same pair of headphones, one left and one right, sharing the secrets in the Walkman.

In the headphones is their two favorite "Contentment".

"Why do you suddenly say this?" Jiang You just smiled, and suddenly grabbed the rusty railing and poked out most of his body, so that he could face the wind and blow his cheeks, which had just played and had not yet faded the beads of sweat, were no longer so hot.

"Oh... It's okay, I'm just... It's just that suddenly my brain is hot, and I said it. Shen Xingheng covered himself hesitantly, but he was very puzzled in his heart, why his face was hot when he didn't play.

He simply followed Jiang You's example, and stood on the railing himself, so that when he turned his head to one side, he could just see Jiang You's good-looking side face, and the small mole that could only be seen at such a close distance at the corner of his left face.

"Hmm. Jiang You replied softly and stopped talking, as if he was concentrating on something.

Shen Xingheng suddenly remembered that Jiang You was also like this at the end of the summer of his first year of high school, with a calm look, he rescued him from a group of school bullies.

"Jiang You ......"

"Huh?"

"The last big question in math... What is the answer..."

"I won't. ”

After listening to Jiang You's words, Shen Xingheng's heart was stunned, he jumped off the railing a little anxiously, and even the earphone on Jiang You's ear was vigorously ripped off, "But haven't you always wanted to go to Qingda, haven't you always wanted to get rid of the family?

Jiang You looked at the person in front of him who was so anxious, and he also came down from the railing with some tears and laughter, obviously this was his own business, why was this person more anxious than him.

He reached out and wiped the beads of sweat from his forehead, then hunched slightly to pick up the earphones that had fallen on the ground and stuffed them back into his ears.

"Actually, I think Jiang Da is also very good, it's so close to home, and..."

"And what?" Shen Xingheng waited for his unfinished words with blank eyes.

"And," Jiang You paused again, "and I'm too lazy to run so far, you have been with me for so long, will you not know that I am the most afraid of trouble?"

Shen Xingheng seemed to be a little happy and a little disappointed by this answer, he smiled wryly, and continued to climb the railing awkwardly, standing side by side with the people around him.

How could Shen Xingheng not know how afraid of trouble he was, so he stayed by Jiang You's side for the entire three years of high school and took care of him like a worried nanny. Every morning, he would prepare an extra portion of sandwich bread with jam and hot milk that had been scalded repeatedly with hot water, and Jiang You probably wouldn't know why the hot water in the thermos cup had never been interrupted in the past three years, and the sneakers he threw in the dormitory because he was dirty after playing ball would be clean and placed on his shoe rack in a few days...... Shen Xingheng thought, this guy is used to being served by him, so he is spoiled, so he can even throw away the dream he has been insisting on so easily.

Shen Xingheng was a little happy, because if Jiang You didn't know how to do the big problem of mathematics, maybe he would never see Jiang You, with his qualifications, it was impossible to continue to follow Jiang You to Qing University anyway, but Jiangcheng University, he was still sure that he could go with Jiang You. But while he was happy, he was also very sad, because before Jiang You said the reason, he thought to himself that Jiang You stayed because of him. But after thinking about it, no matter what he said, he stayed, and Shen Xingheng convinced himself that he should learn to be content.

Listen, the phrase that's playing in the headphones,

"The joy of contentment makes me endure heartache. ”

"So you lied to me, didn't you?"

On the way back from Shen Bijun's newly opened love therapy room to deliver the flower basket, Shen Xingheng, who was sitting in the co-pilot, suddenly woke up from his sleep and grabbed Jiang Youzheng's hand holding the steering wheel while waiting for the traffic light.

"What are you talking about?" Jiang You didn't understand Shen Xingheng's brainless question, so he turned his head to look at him, but he was looking at him extremely seriously, not like he was doing some role-playing game.

"I mean, on the day I graduated from high school, what you said on the rooftop, you said that you couldn't do the last big problem in mathematics, that you didn't want to go to Qingdao University because you were troublesome, it was all a lie to me, right?" Shen Xingheng just dreamed, he dreamed of everything that happened on the rooftop on the day the college entrance examination ended, and dreamed of what Jiang You said to him completely, but now that he thinks about it, he is really suspicious.

The green light is on. Jiang You took Shen Xingheng's hand down, and continued to drive intently looking ahead, but at this time, Shen Xingheng saw it clearly, and the corners of his mouth were faintly hidden with a smile.

"Look, you're so stupid, you really can't get into Qingda. ”

Shen Xingheng heard Jiang You speak, and only then did he know that he was burying himself.

"I think you're a dead duck with a hard mouth, in fact, you already liked me that day, and you liked me so much that you couldn't do without me at all, right? Shen Xingheng snorted lightly and clasped his hands around his chest, looking straight ahead arrogantly, "You are really annoying." ”

"Still, you're wrong. Jiang You's calm tone was as good as ever.

Shen Xingheng was not convinced, Jiang You didn't want to admit it at this point, "What did I say wrong?"

"I really chose Jiang University because I was troublesome," when the car turned, Jiang You drove seriously, paused for a while, and only continued to speak when he returned to the straight, "If I go to Qingda, you will forget me after a long time, and it will be really troublesome." ”

"You ......" Shen Xingheng didn't know how to refute Jiang You perfectly as soon as he opened his mouth, was he being teased by Jiang You!

"There's one more thing you've been getting wrong all along. ”

"What else? I warn you, if you run the train with your mouth full, I'll jump out of the train!"

"I didn't like you in college, but it wasn't the day I graduated from high school. Jiang You's face finally showed a smile, and he seemed to be in a good mood, and he only realized at this time that Shen Xingheng, a fool, really didn't know anything.

"When was that?" Shen Xingheng turned his head a little eagerly.

"When I first saw you. ”

Jiang You remembered that when he saw Shen Xingheng for the first time, he was obviously just weakly cowering in the corner and being bullied by a group of people, but he was already a little flustered, only when he could see clearly that his sad eyes were shining with dazzling light, like a brilliant galaxy, would he be so unconsciously attracted to him.

Love at first sight, what a wonderful thing.

"Jiang You, I ......"

It was another traffic light, Jiang You stopped the car, and this time he turned his head to the side to look at Shen Xingheng very seriously.

"What about you, Shen Xingheng, when did you like me?"

Shen Xingheng was slightly stunned by his question, and then remembered that Jiang You hadn't asked him this question for so many years.

"That was much earlier than you. Shen Xingheng raised the corners of his mouth a little proudly, maintaining a sense of mystery.

"Oh?" Jiang You was also suspicious, he didn't remember what contact they had before that siege was lifted, "Tell me about it?"

"It's the first year of high school. ”

Shen Xingheng was very happy now, he still pulled back a game.

In September 2005, when the school first started, the weather was still very hot, and the head teacher of the first (2) class of high school seemed to be in a hurry, so he grabbed a student in the corridor and stuffed the things in his hand into the student's hand, "Classmate, please hand this over to our classmate Jiang You, the teacher has something to deal with now." ”

Shen Xingheng didn't react to what happened at all, so he was hastily entrusted with a heavy task, he nodded stunned and looked at the things in his hand after the teacher left, it was a boxy little red book, printed with a golden national emblem and two lines of Chinese and English words, "People's Republic of China Passport".

That was the first time Shen Xingheng had seen something like a passport, that kind of thing was too far away from him at that age, he couldn't help but be curious, so he opened the boxy red book, so Jiang You in the photo, snow-white shirt, clean short hair, and good-looking smile, all appeared in front of his eyes, and also appeared in the sunshine that day.

"Hello classmate, I'm looking for Jiang You from your class, can you help me call him out?"

"Jiang You?" The girl at the door of Class 2 looked into the classroom, but didn't find the person in the last position by the window in the innermost, so she turned around and said, "He doesn't seem to be there, he should be on the rooftop, this week, and today should be no exception." But what can you tell me, I'm the class leader. ”

The whole class knew that Jiang You was a weirdo, although everyone didn't know each other very well at the beginning of school, but they knew this classmate who loved to blow the wind on the rooftop.

"Oh... It's nothing. Shen Xingheng clutched the passport in his arms tightly, and always felt that it was better to hand over such an important thing to him, so he turned around and went to the rooftop.

It was also this chance that 16-year-old Shen Xingheng met 16-year-old Jiang You for the first time.

On the rooftop that was not very wide and there were many tattered tables and chairs, Jiang You was leaning against the railing, holding a small half bottle of mineral water in his hand, but it was not difficult to see from his wet and dripping hair that the purpose of the bottle of water was not to drink to quench his thirst, he should have just played ball. He didn't notice Shen Xingheng, who was hiding in the corridor and secretly looking at him, but continued to flush the rest of the water on his head, and shook his hair hard, and the crystal water droplets became more translucent in the sun, spilling all over him. Together with his water-soaked shirt, it clung tightly to his body.

Shen Xingheng was stunned, but his heart was beating so hard that he no longer had the strength to take a step forward.

He heard that Jiang You's walkman on the ground was playing, "If I fall in love with your smile, how can I collect it and how to have ......it?"

That day, Shen Xingheng still didn't hand over the passport to Jiang You personally, but only asked someone to hand it over again, so Jiang You didn't know Shen Xingheng that day, and he wouldn't know that Shen Xingheng that day fell in love with Jiang You that day.

It's just that later, Shen Xingheng's distant cousin silently added a song to the walkman. It was the song "Contentment" that was released on August 26, 2005.

Shen Xingheng has always regarded that one-sided meeting as his best secret. So today, he still didn't tell Jiang You what happened that day.

"You've always been so mysterious. Jiang You couldn't resist him, if Shen Xingheng didn't want to say it, he naturally wouldn't force it, so he continued to drive away, "I think, if I hadn't found out half of the poem you left from Jiang Qi, wouldn't you have told me never?"

Later, the two people who went to college did not successfully confess to each other. Because in his freshman year, Jiang You took Shen Xingheng home to attend his sister Jiang Qi's 18-year-old coming-of-age dinner, he never thought that it was that time, and he was involved in his sister.

Jiang Qi, who was in love for the first time, also fell in love with Shen Xingheng at first sight, she just stumbled into her brother's room by mistake on the night of the coming-of-age ceremony, and saw Shen Xingheng who was obediently staying inside... Otherwise, everyone says that God loves to play tricks on people, but it can only be said that the aesthetics and tastes of their brother and sister are too consistent, or that Shen Xingheng always has this kind of charm that makes people fall in love with him at first sight, which makes the three of them become such a ridiculous relationship.

Between their brother and sister, it was tacit, only Shen Xingheng always stupidly thought that they all regarded him as good friends. Jiang Qi went to Jiang University as soon as she graduated from high school, in fact, long before she went to Jiang University to study, she went to Jiang University from time to time to pester Shen Xingheng to play with her in the name of looking for Jiang You. It's a pity that Jiang You didn't understand at that time, the reason why Shen Xingheng was willing to accompany Jiang Qi every time was because he regarded Jiang Qi as his sister, or because she was Jiang You's sister and loved Wu and Wu. He thought that Shen Xingheng would not accept a man's liking, as he said on the rooftop on the day of graduation, it is a shameful thing for a man to like a man......

But fortunately, in his junior year, Jiang You accidentally saw the half-sentence poem written by Shen Xingheng in beautiful block letters in Jiang Qi's room, especially when he saw the words at the end, he understood it all, not to Jiang Qi, but to Jiang You!

"The mountains have trees and trees have branches", this is the half of the poem that Shen Xingheng left him.

I guess I can't describe his mood that day.

Later, they got together smoothly, but the good times didn't last long, and in addition to Jiang Qi, the next difficulty was Shen Xingheng's mother. In the second year after graduating from college, Shen Xingheng took him back to see his mother, but Jiang You still couldn't resist her old tears and forced her to die, giving up the opportunity to be by Shen Xingheng's side. Because in addition to love, he is also afraid of bringing the slightest harm to Shen Xingheng. After that day, it was he who went back to beg his sister to fake a marriage with Shen Xingheng to deceive Shen Xingheng's mother, and he, from that day on, disappeared from their lives, and left Shen Xingheng and Jiang Qi on Nanlu Island.

"Jiang You, what are you thinking?" has already arrived home, Jiang You listened to the car for a long time but did not move, just holding the steering wheel, looking preoccupied.

Shen Xingheng had already gotten out of the car, carrying the ingredients he bought by the way, he was about to open the door only to find that he didn't have the key, so he turned back to where the car was parked, and saw Jiang You who was still in a daze through the car window.

"Oh, it's fine. Jiang You came back to his senses, unfastened his seat belt and got out of the car, "What's wrong?"

"I didn't have the keys with me. ”

"Well, let's go. He responded so gently.

Shen Xingheng stared at him suspiciously when he saw him, "What's wrong with you?"

Jiang You was amused by him when he heard him say this, Shen Xingheng really looked like an angry little daughter-in-law, but when he took out the key to open the door, the joy on his face retracted again, "I'm really sorry to leave you alone for so long." ”

Is he apologizing? Is he repenting? Shen Xingheng looked back at Jiang You with an inexplicable expression, these things have passed, but he has long been out of the question, "Okay, okay, if you feel sorry for me, hurry up and cook me a big meal! By the way, crab roe porridge, I want to drink crab roe porridge, and eat Coke chicken wings, as well as your unique Jiang's cream grilled fish... And there's..."

Shen Xingheng in front of him seemed to be completely immersed in the food, and he vigorously reported the name of the dish without noticing that Jiang You had taken something out of his pocket.

"Shen Xingheng!"

"Huh?" Interrupted by Jiang You so suddenly, Shen Xingheng thought he was begging for mercy and being lazy, so he glared at him impatiently, "Don't you want to repay the bill!

"I'm not going to pay for it. Jiang You suddenly grinned.

He smiled like this, but Shen Xingheng felt a little creepy, and his spine was cold, "What are you going to do?"

"Shen Xingheng," Jiang You shouted very solemnly this time, insisting that Shen Xingheng's eyes look at him before he spoke again, "Let's get married." ”

"You... What are you talking about?" Shen Xingheng thought he had misheard, but in fact he had heard everything, otherwise how could he have chuckled in his heart and was so frightened that everything in his hand fell to the ground.

The man in front of him is proposing!

"I said, let's go get married, go abroad to get married!" Jiang You took out a ring with a plain ring from his pocket, and on the inner wall of the ring was engraved SJ, the initials of their names.

Shen Xingheng was completely stunned, although he had long thought about spending the rest of his life with Jiang You, but he never dared to expect it in such an upright way. It's okay if he is scared stupid, Jiang You seems to be very happy, he is stupid, he can put the ring on Shen Xingheng's left ring finger like this, so that he has no chance to refuse.

"In the future, you can have the surname of your husband, surnamed Jiang Shen. Jiang You put on the ring for Shen Xingheng three times and divided it by two, and then held his hand in his hand with satisfaction for a while, it turned out that he had already worn the same other ring.

"No!" Shen Xingheng's abrupt voice scared Jiang You.

Didn't this man want to regret it? Jiang You's whole nerves tensed......

"I don't agree with the surname Jiang Shen, why isn't your surname Shen Jiang!"

There was a false alarm, it turned out that Shen Xingheng was entangled in this thing.

"Look, Shen Jiang Shen Jiang, if we take the homonym, it is ginger, does this sound like a cp name, ginger cp," Shen Xingheng chattered more and more satisfied, "Ginger cp, it's so good!"

"You. Jiang You shook his head helplessly, stretched out his hand and gently led the person in front of him into his arms, he gently kissed Shen Xingheng's forehead, and then smiled and agreed, "Okay, listen to you, I will be surnamed Shen." ”

In fact, during the years of waiting for Jiang You, Shen Xingheng preferred the song "Time Machine" released on November 11, 2003. He likes to listen to Ashin's simple and warm voice singing "Time Machine", as if he is telling a story, as someone said, "Every time I listen to it, I forget when the tears flow."

At that time, he was always thinking that if he could also have a time machine, what he wanted to do most was not to go back to the day when Jiang You said goodbye to stop him, but to go back to September 2005, when he saw Jiang You for the first time, he would definitely hand over his passport to him personally, and then said to him with a smile, "Hey, hello, my name is Shen Xingheng, the star that flashes and shines." ”