Chapter 39: The son wants to raise but does not wait

When I woke up, the strange bird was gone. It's like a dream, maybe we'll never see each other again in this life!

Ah Ren didn't know how the strange bird left, he only remembered that he drank a lot of wine with it, and when he woke up, it was already dawn, and he was lying on the bed in the bedroom, while Chen Jie was lying on the side of the bed and fell asleep. The head hurts a little, and the water placed at the head of the bed is drunk, and it is still a little warm, it seems that Chen Jie took care of himself all night, and he was tired and fell asleep just now, it was really difficult for her, Ah Ren gently hugged Chen Jie to the bed, covered the quilt for him, and walked out of the bedroom gently.

The departure of the strange bird made Ah Ren full of confusion about the future, he was used to the existence of this guy, and his sudden departure really made him feel a little lost. However, there is a good saying, "There is no feast in the world", even if your parents and children will have a moment of separation. Alas, people have to run around in order to live, and the reality is so cruel, but they have to face it.

Simply put his salute away, glanced back at the villa, and turned to leave.

The company has been prepared, I believe that under the leadership of Zhang Yu, it will slowly get on the right track, and then Qing'er will realize the ideas left by herself one by one, and it is difficult for the company to think about it, and the company's affairs do not have to worry about themselves.

The school has nothing to do with me, so I just need to wait until the graduation certificate is mailed directly to my home in the future. As for the family, Ah Ren didn't dare to go home to face his mother's reluctant eyes, so he was ruthless, leaving only a letter and stepping on the train to Kyoto.

The train was speeding away, and the trees that flashed by outside the window came into view, and then they were forgotten so that they could not even remember what they looked like. Ah Ren couldn't help but think: Life has been rushing for decades, everyone is so small, for this vast universe, aren't the living people just like these trees? The giant wheel of the universe is spinning so fast, who can remember themselves, human beings, after all, are still insignificant!

Just as Ah Ren was thinking nonsense, he heard a low cry from the seat next to him, and the voice came from next to Ah Ren.

As soon as he got on the train just now, Ah Ren found that this person covered his face with a hat, which would show his face, and Ah Ren saw clearly that this was a middle-aged man about 30 years old, unkempt, very sloppy, his beard had not been trimmed for a long time, his hair was also knotted, and there were some weeds mixed in his hair, and the clothes that looked good were also black and white, and the whole person looked very decadent and very vicissitudes.

"Hey, big brother, are you okay?"

Ah Ren tried to ask the man.

The man still sobbed quietly, and from time to time he put his hands in his messy hair and scratched hard, crying and laughing.

From the perspective of a normal person, this person must be a mentally ill person, and no one will pay attention to him, but Ah Ren is different, since he met the strange bird, Ah Ren has several times more observation and experience than others, Ah Ren can see that the man in front of him must have experienced some painful things, so that he is deeply trapped in it and cannot extricate himself.

Ah Ren tried to speak: "A man, no matter what difficulties he encounters, even if he doesn't want to face them, the first thing he should think about should be how to stand up. Because, no matter who you are, you don't live for yourself at all, especially when you are in the golden age when you should start a family, and there are still a lot of people standing behind you who need your care, look at you as a person, a ghost or a ghost, your relatives will definitely feel heartache for you!"

Ah Ren doesn't know what kind of pain he has experienced to make such a strong man sad like this, but at this age, it should not be love, because this age has long passed the period of you and me, since it is not love, it is a career or family, such as: business or some reasons bankrupt, or because of some accidents, what changes have occurred in family members, in short, these two, no matter which one is unacceptable.

The man was stunned when he heard Ah Ren's different persuasion, and then he cried bitterly, crying to the realm of forgetfulness, he actually lay on Ah Ren's shoulder and cried, the man's action, immediately attracted the attention of the entire carriage, Ah Ren quickly apologized to everyone with gestures, everyone thought that this was a father and son, and originally wanted to come forward to persuade him, but when he saw the man's dirty outfit, he immediately dispelled his thoughts, and they all raised their own worth, too lazy to worry about these two people.

The middle-aged man lay on Ah Ren's body and cried for about ten minutes before slowly relieving himself, Ah Ren took out a newspaper and handed it to the man, the man took it and wiped his tears (in that era, it was not yet widespread to the point that toilet paper was everywhere) and rubbed his nose again, and finally threw the newspaper in the garbage basket, and did not say a thank you to Ah Ren during the whole process, and Ah Ren didn't care, just looked at the man quietly, and fell into silence around him.

Just as Ah Ren guessed, the man slowly told his story after calming down a little.

He is the only college student in their village, his parents save money to provide him for college, the year of graduation, he said goodbye to his elderly parents to go to Kyoto to struggle, before leaving the vow: "Father, mother, wait for me, when I have a house, a car, I will take your daughter-in-law, take your second elder to Kyoto, filial piety to your second elder, let your second elder enjoy the blessings to repay your second elder's nurturing kindness."

Year after year passed, and he wrote to his mother: "Mother, I have been promoted again...... Now the company is very busy, and I can't just ask for leave....."

Mother: "I know, it's not easy for people with the ability to ask for leave.... Son, you're doing well!"

Year after year passed, a phone was installed at home, and he called his mother: "Mother, I bought a house and a car, I asked for leave from the leader, but the leader still did not approve, I only recently embarked on a new project, I am responsible, and the leader is not at ease to let others ....."

Dad: "Son, your mother is busy outside, she has time to call you back, you are always doing well, will you not come back for the Chinese New Year this year?"

"Dad, I won't go back this year, and there are a lot of people at the station when I go back, so I'll go back to see you when I'm done." ”

Dad: "Son, pay attention to your body, everything is fine at home, don't worry about us." ”

He worked hard for a few more years, and finally reached his expected goal, and in the past few years, he got married and had children.

When I got married, I wanted to go back to my hometown to do the marriage, but at that time, my daughter-in-law was pregnant, and my hometown was far away, and finally totaled, after all, friends and colleagues were in Kyoto, so I held a banquet in Kyoto, and the wedding was very lively, and he called his mother that night, but his mother rested early, and he drank a lot of wine, and hung up the phone after a few simple words with his father.

When he got married, his daughter-in-law was already more than five months pregnant, and after getting married, she couldn't bump around, so she didn't go home; later, after having a son, she didn't have time to go back, and in a flash, her son was already three years old, and during this period, he didn't go home a single time.

That day, when he dreamed at night, he dreamed very rarely, his father and mother, and dreamed that they were sitting at the door waiting for him to come home, and when he met people, he said how great and developed their son was, but in the dream, he saw the sarcastic smiles of those people in the neighborhood, as if to say: "I have raised such a big son, and I haven't returned home for so many years, and having a son is equal to not having a son, shouldn't I be out and about?"

At that time, it was a very ironic word to let his son go to another family only when the family was poor and couldn't afford to eat. In the old society of ancient times, the eunuchs who entered the palace could almost be compared with the eunuchs who entered the palace, because they were all men who could not be passed on, and it can be said that these two kinds of people had almost no dignity.

And in his dream, he saw his father very angry and reasoned with others, saying that his son was a famous college student in a nearby village, and his job was good, how could he be rich, but the neighbor pushed his father back with a word, "If you don't get rich, why don't you see your son come back?" The father burst into tears, and the strong mother also secretly wiped her tears.

When he woke up from the dream, he was already full of tears, looking at his three-year-old son, thinking of his parents, who worked hard to raise him as an adult, teach him the principles of life, and provide him with education, in order not to affect his work, the old couple would rather be alone at home than cause him trouble, just imagine, if you let your son leave him... Not to mention that after so many years, even for three days, he will not think about it.

"How many years have I not been home?" he calculated, eight years and three months.

Oh my God! Am I still human? "The eagle has the feeling of feeding, and the sheep has the righteousness of kneeling and suckling," and what about him? For so many years, he only cared about his own career and family. As everyone knows, the two old men who were waiting for him in the distance were also his family, and the three broken tile houses were his home!

After waking up in the middle of the night, he couldn't sleep, and there was nothing to stop his desire to go home, so he called the company, directly asked for a month's long vacation, took his wife and son, and embarked on the journey home. It was only at this time that he realized that his wife also wanted to go back to his hometown with him. It was only at this time that he found that only at this moment was his heart the happiest, most relaxed, and most excited, and he felt more solid than even rising a few levels.

Although he came back a few years late, he returned to his hometown in the end, so he drove a small car, hummed a small tune, took his wife and children, and embarked on the way home to take the second elder to Kyoto for the elderly, in order to surprise them, he did not call his parents in advance.

"Hmph, didn't you say that I was in the rich? Let you see, my current status and status, is it used to get rich?"

At this moment, his heart is undoubtedly proud, and he is also the only college student in the village, who can work in the capital, buy a house, and marry a wife in the capital, no matter which one will be enviable.

And the reality is cruel... Despairing... Miserable...

When his elderly father led him like a gentleman to a lonely grave, he realized why his mother had never answered the phone in recent years, and when his desolate and remorseful cries pierced the silent ravine, he could never recall the only woman in the world who could love him regardless of anything in return. Even he himself was thinking, he hadn't heard his mother's voice for a few years, and with his own shrewdness, hadn't he thought about it?

Although reluctant to admit this fact. But.but.. But...

The fact is: he didn't take his parents to heart at all, but if he had a little filial piety, how could he be so careless?

At this moment, he regrets that he can't dig out his heart for his mother to take a look at, and he would rather die for 20 years than see his mother again, but all this has become a luxury.

"Your mother said that it is the pride of our whole family that my son can go out of the mountains and go to work in the capital, so I don't want to disturb you, let alone call you back. And your mother said that when you come back, it will be time for you to return home, for your mother says she knows her son best. ”

Listening to his mother's last words, he couldn't help but cry out to the lonely grave: "Mother..."

How much pain, remorse, and reluctance is contained in this heart-rending cry....

The sound resounded in the empty valley for a long time.

"The tree wants to be quiet but the wind does not stop, and the child wants to raise but does not wait. ”

For a moment, he forgot his mother's appearance, he could only recall his mother's loving smile by looking at the photos on the tombstone, he didn't know if his mother would forgive him for his unfilial piety, anyway, he himself would not forgive himself, remembered the bits and pieces of his childhood, remembered his mother's earnest teachings, remembered that he didn't dare to sleep alone when he was a child, and the stories his mother told her beside her, he couldn't bear it anymore, he cried in front of his mother's grave for three whole days, and finally, his behavior touched the whole village, and the whole village came to persuade him, saying that if his mother had a spirit in heaven, it would be more distressing to see him like this, and said that if his mother saw that he was so capable and so filial, she would definitely laugh in heaven.

Hearing these comforting words, his heart was dripping blood, what a good villager, they are still excusing themselves at this time, and they hate themselves for dreaming and being angry with them!

"Mother, my son can't stand you! My son still wants to come back and prove it to them, my son is not rich, but you are no more, who else can I prove it to!"

According to local customs, when the old man dies, the children are all going to fall the old basin, and the old basin of his family has not fallen, just waiting for him to come home. He called his friends and colleagues in the capital, wanting to hold a beautiful funeral for his mother. However, except for a few subordinates of his company, few people agreed to come to mourn, because he was very disappointed that everyone was settling economic accounts for more than a thousand miles back and forth.

The person who should be with her the most has no companionship, but she thinks about herself all the time, until her life comes to an end, and she is still thinking about herself.

The last thing that should be accompanied is that I have been with me for half my life, but I can't even make my heart, which is really sad in life.

No matter what, even if he is the only one left, he will send his mother away in style.

Fortunately, many relatives came to his daughter-in-law's mother's house that day, plus several of his subordinates, and his mother's funeral was also completed.

The days returned to peace, and after he stayed in his hometown for more than ten days, the tireless phone calls in the company could not make him continue to be so silent, and finally he had no choice but to go back.

When he proposed to take his father to Kyoto, make amends and honor his father, his father refused, he insisted on accompanying a lonely grave in the mountain, because he didn't want his wife to wait for his son alive, buried in the ground and waiting for him, he didn't want his wife to sleep unsteadily underground because of waiting... When he said this, my father was already in tears. Who said that the old people don't understand love, the love of the old people has long been transformed into indelible family affection, and has already become a community that relies on each other.

On the one hand, there is a heart-piercing pain, and on the other hand, there is the helplessness of reality.

Parents love their children, but they don't sew them.

Children love their parents and have no time.

The late filial piety regrets two generations, but it is still being performed silently from generation to generation.

Relatives, be filial piety in time!