Whenever the night sky is bright and we look up at the stars, we feel small. The mystery of the universe, the vastness of the universe, no one can explain. Countless people throughout the ages have praised and been fascinated by it.

In 2021, Huaxia Kingdom, Shenzhen, Hanjing Jiulongtan Garden Villa Area, the wide balcony is full of vibrant potted plants, it is late summer, the fragrance of flowers hits people, the night is deep, the weather is very good, the outdoor lights on the balcony are not on, and the sky is full of stars.

Xie Zhixuan lies in a custom-made wheelchair and looks up at the starry sky, and on the balcony there is an American Startron Astronomical Telescope, which was bought many years ago, but a year ago Xie Zhixuan can no longer use it to observe the starry sky.

Because now Xie Zhixuan has completely lost the ability to move. Only faint breaths remained.

Even the eyelids that were still fluttering two days ago with the best efforts had lost the ability to control them.

"Brother, I'll push you back to the house. Xie Zhili, who was accompanying and guarding next to him, said to him softly.

A gentle voice lingered in Xie Zhixuan's ears, but his brain was numb. The ability to perform the simplest analysis of sound has been lost.

His life was coming to an end.

Xie Zhixuan was born in a wealthy family in Shenzhen, his father Xie Bingtian has a large company, nearly 1,000 employees, and his mother Yuan Ke teaches and educates people in the Department of Physics of Shenzhen University......

Xie Zhixuan, who is in his third year of college, feels that he is becoming less and less energetic. However, he has been thin and weak since he was a child. Because he was born prematurely, he didn't pay special attention to it.

Although his health has always been poor, he has been excellent in character and learning since he was a child, and he is optimistic. He has always been a good son in his father's heart.

After the senior year, the symptoms became more and more obvious, and gradually the hands and feet did not obey the call. It was not until he went to the hospital for an examination that it was found out that he was suffering from amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, which is often referred to as ALS.

Since then, the young Xie Zhixuan has lived a life in a wheelchair, but fortunately, his family is financially wealthy and has no worries about food and clothing. He was also angry and annoyed, but he could only bear the injustice of fate in silence. Just when he was at his most depressed, his mother bought him an expensive astronomical telescope, and he became madly obsessed with astronomy.

The charm of the universe, the complexity and unpredictability of the universe, countless star clusters, countless galaxies. He has been with him for 13 years.

Until today.

The slightly opened chest had calmed down, and Xie Zhili's eyes, who had already sensed something, slowly burst into tears.

Xie Zhixuan has no sense of the physical body. But I feel so comfortable. The numbness and powerlessness seemed to disappear at once, and it became a feeling that it had never felt before, a feeling that could sense the presence of objects around it, and as if those images were directly mapped to the depths of the soul, as opposed to seeing with the eyes. I don't know how to describe it.

"Am I dead?" the numb brain seemed to regain its clarity all of a sudden, and the sense of thought that could no longer think was active again.

Xie Zhixuan felt "himself" paralyzed in a wheelchair, and felt his sister holding "himself" hand and crying silently. He wanted to talk to his sister and tell her that he was fine and that he had been liberated. But I don't know how to express it.

"It seems that I am really dead, is this what it feels like to die? So what am I now? Soul state? If this is soul state, I have no brain, why can I still think? I have no five senses, why can I feel the world? Even more clearly than when I had eyes?"

Xie Zhili silently pushed Xie Zhixuan to the room, and called his parents who were already asleep, and the three of them cried bitterly around Xie Zhixuan. Although this moment has been expected for a long time, when this moment comes, it is still unacceptable.

The loss of a child in old age is one of the three major misfortunes in life, Xie Bingtian and Yuan Ke, who are close to the age of sixties, recalled the difficulties of Xie Zhixuan's birth, the well-behaved youth, and the pain of adulthood. At one point, I almost fainted.

Xie Zhixuan quietly "floated" there. A few years ago, Xie Zhixuan had lost the ability to speak with his mouth. You can only communicate with people through a computer by blinking your eyelids. But now he had lost even the only means of communication.

He really wanted to tell his relatives not to feel sorry for him, and that death was a relief for him.

Xie's father dialed 120, the ambulance arrived, and a group of doctors tossed around Xie Zhixuan for a long time, and finally pronounced him dead. His body was placed in an ice coffin.

The next day, relatives and friends who received the news came to offer condolences, but there were many relatives who came, but few friends. When I was a child, my classmates have entered middle age, and they have forgotten about Xie Zhixuan, who has been paralyzed for more than ten years.

Silently "watching" all this, a great sadness hit. Looking back on this life, I have studied hard since I was a child, and I am full of hope for the future. Until he knew that he had a terminal illness, he was disheartened, and he didn't even talk about a girlfriend in his life. I feel very uncomfortable.

Two days later, Hsieh's body was cremated. The relatives and friends who came to pay their respects have dispersed. My parents and sister are no longer so sad, and although everyone still laughs during the day, they still cry secretly at night.

At this time, Xie Zhixuan already felt that he was getting weaker and weaker. From being able to clearly "see" everything around me at the beginning, it is now becoming more and more blurred. And there is already a feeling of exhaustion, which seems to be slowly dissipating.

"Isn't the state of the soul long-lasting? Also, if the state of the soul can last for a long time, so many lives will pass away throughout the ages. But where did they go?"

"But, I'm so unwilling, I don't want to disappear forever, this world is so wonderful, there are still many unknowns waiting for me to discover. If it is gone, then why was I born, why was I studied, why did I feel the beauty of life, but fate abandoned me so cruelly!"

Even though he has been paralyzed for 13 years, in the past 13 years, with the company of his parents and sister, Xie Zhixuan has not been lonely. Before his condition deteriorated, he would also go online and chat with netizens. He is no more lacking than others in his love for the world. In particular, there is astronomy, which he is obsessed with, and because of his terminal illness, he cherishes time more than others and understands the preciousness of life better.

It's just that I owe it to my family. Over the years, it was his parents who encouraged him and his sister who took care of him. It was only when he came out of the hospital that he learned that he was terminally ill that he came out of the fear, anger, and complaining that he came out, and learned to face reality and face everything.

"Time is the best healing medicine, and perhaps after the passage of time, the family will slowly ease their grief. After all, my parents still have my sister's daughter, and I might be better off without my son. ”

"I feel weaker and weaker, and I may not have much time left. Let's take a good look at the starry sky. Farewell, Dad, Mom, Xiaoli, I hope there will be an afterlife, and I can be with you again, goodbye. ”

Thinking upwards, as if "seeing" the infinite starry sky, slowly, Xie Zhixuan felt himself floating. Getting higher and higher. Without the bonds of the flesh, it seems that it is no longer affected by the attraction of the earth.

"Watching" his home slowly getting smaller and smaller, Xie Zhixuan has only one thought, that is, to "see" the starry sky and "see" the real universe before he is completely unconscious.