Chapter 231: God as a Horse
Cheese once read the analogy in a book from a foreign land, where the human body is a chariot, and the horse pulling the chariot is the human mind. Thoughts can be interpreted into many concepts, just as the body can have multiple meanings, and from the perspective of the existence of the soul, the so-called thoughts are not ununderstandable as the flow of the soul. Is it just that the soul really exists? Is there really some kind of reliance on which the spirit can manifest itself in its entirety after leaving the body completely? At least Cheese is not so sure of this, and it would be too simplistic for the body and consciousness to explain it that way.
Therefore, when his body gradually became lighter and he rode on horseback and rose to a high place, the mage was not sure which part of himself he was rising, and where this aimless ascent would take him. To put it mildly, the consciousness of the living is attached to the consciousness of the deceased, and the result is likely that the living are taken to the world after death and cannot return, as mentioned in many stories and manuscripts collected in the Gray Tower Library. The person who had been sitting next to the newly deceased body for a long time suddenly became unaware of the outside world, and did not suddenly recover until a long time later, and had no memory of everything that had happened before the recovery. There are even some who never recover, leaving only an empty shell still functioning.
Negative thoughts stalled Cheese's consciousness, and he nearly fell off his horse. It is not quite right to say that they are falling, because the people and horses around them are not what they look like in the real world, there are no up and down, left and right, no earth and sky, no references, it is dark and secluded, as if they are in the sea, and it is just like throwing themselves into the night sky. It is impossible to describe, and there is no way to describe it, and the so-called ascent is only a subjective imagination, and the mages sitting on horseback can't actually tell whether they have actually moved. If you fall here, where will you fall?
Optimistically, it may return to the body. Of course, Cheese's instinct faintly felt that things would not be so easy, and if he was separated from the spirit of the war horse here, his consciousness would probably wander in this indiscriminate chaos for a long time, and time may not even exist in this chaos, so if he was lost here, it might mean that he was lost forever. The vigilance made him straighten his posture again, or rather the state attached to the spirit of the war horse, and he did not really slip off the horse's back. Now is not the time to think, this chaos does not welcome thinking, because thinking has to be clear, but chaos is not clear.
Knowing the demands of Chaos, Cheese's mind calmed down, he no longer tried to understand the situation around him, and he no longer consciously controlled himself to let himself ride on horseback, this feeling was very much like the calm before falling asleep, between losing and not losing. Trance, perhaps it is the interpretation of this state, in this trance, Cheese faintly sees, it should be said that he has experienced certain situations that have never happened to him, those scenes are very real, not like the random plots of the dream brain, they are more like memories that suddenly come to mind. Memories that don't belong to cheese.
In those memories, Cheese walked through familiar and unfamiliar buildings, and the reason why I say familiar is because the materials that make up the building and the spiral steps indicate that it is the gray tower where he grew up. The Gray Tower in memory is not the Gray Tower that the mage has personally experienced, the details, the furnishings, the rooms that have never been seen before, or the rooms in the same location but the use of the room have changed. He almost thought it was an inexplicable vision, until a figure appeared in that memory, dark blue, with no edges and corners on its body. Ah Fu, an arcane servant summoned by Clark, the lord of the Grey Tower, and the keeper of the Grey Tower, is able to take care of all the needs of the grey robes at the same time. Cheese is one of the most familiar existences. But Ah Fu has disappeared with the death of the Lord of the Gray Tower.
The memory came to an abrupt end, and at the same time that he saw the blue figure that was no longer there, Cheese's consciousness was also detached from the subtle state between thinking and not thinking, and his thoughts became clear again, and even the surrounding scene was no longer a blur, and the bright starry sky was displayed in front of him. A few of those stars were exceptionally bright, and their brilliance echoed each other, drawing a block in the vast starry sky, and the outline of the block gradually regularized, and the starlight in the outline gradually solidified, and finally, the light became a substance, a circulating entity, an entity in the shape of a horse.
The entity seemed to have seven colors, some of which seemed to be pure white and black, and its body had no specific organs, its skin and muscles were all made of light, and it was experiencing annihilation and rebirth every moment. This is the spirit of the horse, or this is what the spirit of the horse chooses to show in front of the cheese's eyes. It does not feel majesty or gentleness from the body composed of light, and it does not feel the vitality of living beings, but it is subtly different from dead things such as rocks, and it is also an existence that cannot be described in human language. Interestingly, in the face of such a presence, Cheese's mind is unusually calm.
"My companion and I hope to get your help. Cheese wanted to speak, but found that he had no mouth or throat in the starry sky, so what he was emitting was not a sound, but some kind of more intuitive information. It was a lot of fun, and if he could, the mage would be curious about what he was looking like in the starry sky, but he wouldn't have had a chance to see it.
The spirit of the horse moved, although there was no land under the four hooves, but it did not appear abrupt at all, it naturally approached the existence as the main body of cheese consciousness, and seemed to be looking at him. Cheese had no way of knowing what he was like in the eyes of Ma Zhiling, there was no reflection in the eyes, and he even doubted whether the other party relied on vision to recognize him. The silent inspection lasted for an unknown amount of time, for it was as impossible to keep time as chaotic as it was, and although the distant stars twinkled brightly and darkly, the stars became unpredictable when the mage tried to count them.
Finally, the results of the examination were visually apparent, and the spirit of the horse deflected its body in front of Cheese, revealing one of the two sides in front of him. In an instant, the stars in the sky became vibrant, and Cheese suddenly realized that where the stars were, they were clearly horses similar to the spirit of the horse in front of him! There was no starry sky here, this was their pasture, this was the place where they ran. Now, the galloping horses were called and began to gather here, and they arrived at the same moment, near and far, and then thousands of glittering horses all crashed into Cheese!
Starry sky, shattered.