Today is July 20th and it's hot. Showers began to fall at 8:45 p.m., but they still couldn't wash away my depressed mood.

I turned on the computer but didn't care to code words, my mouth was dry, I had a high fever for several days, I was used to the uncomfortable feeling of various viruses fighting every cell in my body, and imagined the scene of their group fighting.

A few months ago, I began to think that the chickens had eaten a lot of paint to lay their eggs, and I had eaten those eggs with harmful ingredients, which led to all kinds of suspicions, and at some point I could hear some words from a distant house. At one point, I thought it was an auditory hallucination, but it wasn't.

When listening to songs, you can hear the sounds that are deliberately synthesized by various editors to "disturb" people's minds, but guess why the editors are like this? Surround sound, stereo sound, etc. are all music synthesized from various materials.

About this, I vaguely remember that there is a documentary, which tells about the production methods of film and television sound effects in the film studio, and the sounds in the big war are all from life, through the whimsy and skillful hands of the teachers. At that time, I felt so shocked, very shocked. The sound of the Jin Ge Iron Horse may be the sound of bottles and cans on the table colliding or sliding to the ground. The bottles and cans contain different substances such as sand, stones, beans, rice grains, water, oil, etc., which will become the voice of different scenes in different sports, or the sound of the ventriloquist who tries many times. (It seems to be a feature film about the original film and television soundtrack and song of "Romance of the Three Kingdoms".) ）

At the moment, my heart hurts, I don't know why, it's like a needle stabbing my heart fiercely.

Yesterday, I finally wrote out the little cutie "Migu" conceived a few days ago in words, I remember waking up in the middle of the night that night, according to the drawing method of three-dimensional painting to extend the "preview" of the most basic lines painted on the wall, and came up with a few images about "Migu", and finally chose the cute appearance.

Because I didn't learn how to draw three-dimensional paintings with geometric figures, I learned how to use my eyes to see the "masterpieces" drawn by those super masters. In particular, the complex floor plan of the geometric figure often hides the three-dimensional painting, and according to the "focus" and movement path of the eye, it will produce transparent three-dimensional figures, and even more can move. (The specific way to see the deciphered masterpiece is to treat the specified two points as one point, and within a certain period of time, a three-dimensional floating image will appear on the plan.) In layman's terms: cross-eyed. ）

Recently, I've been thinking that maybe in the era of super masters like Van Gogh and Leonardo da Vinci, there was already computer graphics special effects software, so they could first design a three-dimensional map, and then reverse thinking to select the trajectory and effect of the line of sight, the effect includes cropping, puzzles, various scene effects, etc., and finally copy the image pattern.

Why are their paintings valuable, because they were painted according to the requirements of the financier, and there is a designated artistic code hidden in it, and to understand the password, it is necessary to know the "steps" and various "artistic effects" when he designed the painting, and to know the background of the time and the various complex reasons that followed. In order to restore the original design concept and decipher the password.

How can you look at a painting in such a simple way as looking directly?

In those days, I figured out a question, that is, why my family didn't let me continue to learn to draw. Because I liked to draw people when I learned to sketch. A few years ago, there was an artist in Sichuan who painted tigers, and he was famous for "the girl riding a tiger," and that painting received mixed reviews. Praise claims that the paintings are delicate and charming. The voice of the troll, focusing on the nude, physical girl in the painting, said that he is not as good as a beast, and actually painted his own daughter.

When I was at a loss, I frightened myself that somewhere that I thought might be strange, there was the hungry tiger, which ate the girl in the painting, and I wanted to find out, but I was afraid that the tiger would come out and I could not deal with it. Coincidentally, I ate steak in the cafeteria the next day, and the large pork ribs made me mistakenly think they were tiger ribs. So I relaxed a little. The pressure in my heart decreased, and I thought that the girl who had been swallowed alive by the tiger had been rescued. So I secretly walked around the street around the house to see if there was the girl.

One day at noon, I continued to look for the girl, looking out of the window at the people in the new factory with blue and white sparks. He is very similar to his childhood classmates, who met him when he was in the Iron Statue Temple, but on the day he met for more than 20 years, he was very busy, and after a hurried greeting, I went to deal with many complicated things. I was very impressed by him because the photos he took when he was studying abroad were very beautiful, which aroused my yearning for those advanced rural areas abroad. In addition to this, the fashionable beauty photos he took on the streets of Italy are better than the street photos in magazines.

That day, my head hurt and my body was very weak, lying on the table in the last row watching TV, he walked to the door and called my name softly, I looked at him blankly and weakly, and smiled lightly.

I had worked hard to pretend to be strong and smile at him. During that time, I didn't know what was wrong with me, what was going on in my unknown world, except for weakness, I kept crying and even crying.

Later, on a sunny day, I was feeling better, and just after walking through the well, I saw a pair of parents driving a car parked in the place I was passing by, and the child's mother took the child about 1 year old out of the car and let her walk on her own, and I asked her: Why didn't you put pants on her?

She smiled lightly and said: I just didn't wear it, it was too hot.

And I immediately remembered what the Penguin said when she was chatting with the children in "Mad League" after she was lost, "You weren't wearing pants when I was here." ”

Immediately after that, the boy in pink called me a vest, and I wanted to go to the side of the road to sit with them on the cement pier to cool off, but the uncle who was guarding the door immediately pressed the switch and closed the gate. I saw that the door was closing slowly, so I stepped on the iron frame in my slippers and climbed out of it. I'm sure the iron door is moving, but I don't know why it's so slow, and I don't know where I got the guts to turn down the door in front of everyone, or if it's a moving door. It's funny to think about now, but it wasn't like that at the time.

I'm all out in the shade, why don't you want me to go out?

Can't you just sit on the side of the road and talk about the wind like them?

Am I not a prisoner?

......

The sunset there is so beautiful, and the red light up the sky. There are a few days in particular when a particularly bright light suddenly flashes in the sky and illuminates the clouds.

Yes, and some are like mushroom clouds.

At night, the stars hang high, and occasionally planes pass in the sky, drawing a particularly strange "landscape painting".

But I was very sad at night, and I cried silently for some reason.

One night, when fireworks like red lanterns kept falling from the sky, and there was a deafening "roar", I thought that my life was short, so I wanted to tell many people that I loved all the people I met in my life. I don't know anything other than love. I don't know how to learn those so-called jealousy and hatred, in addition to complaining, time is super short.

When I took out my mobile phone and wanted to call to report my safety, I just pressed "1", and I was so frightened that I lost my phone. Because it was a coincidence, after the mobile phone voice reported "1", a plane immediately rushed into the sky, which made me mistakenly think that I was left in a strange world, or that the area of my hometown was a super spaceship, and after I left, he went to the universe and abandoned me, and I will never see him again. At that moment, I regretted that I had the idea of going to experience cotton picking.

I hurriedly took my medicine, went to the well to fetch water and washed, and saw that the plane was accompanied by the stars in the sky, outlining a very beautiful picture. But I was scared, I didn't know if I could go back to "Earth", the place I was in at that time was like the movie "Mars Rescue", and I was still thinking about whether I would find a lot of potatoes to plant next to the well and store them for the winter. Or go to the Wild Eagle Bean in the African desert, which is featured in National Geographic, the most drought-tolerant plant in the world, surviving more easily than potatoes and wheat.

Anyway, I was at a loss, hating myself for not watching the documentaries about survival in the wilderness around the world, and all kinds of equipment I lost when I moved, such as binoculars, Swiss army knives, water bottles, magnifying glasses, compasses, hundreds of blackberries with global offline satellite navigation maps (that is the same model as Obama and the same model as "The Vampire Diaries"), brass Zhibao lighter, wind oil essence, cooling oil, dexamethasone ointment, erythromycin ointment, eye drops......

Suddenly, I felt that I had left in too much of a hurry, and that all the important things had been pulled off, as well as the hand-carved daggers and hand-turned leather gloves made in Yili...... What if I am left there and don't have those things for the winter? Will I encounter wolves, or Tibetan mastiffs? But I don't have a dagger, how can I kill them?

I suddenly remembered the boy I saw at the airport who was rushing back to Shanghai, and he also reminded me, "Amazon can buy blackberries for more than 1,000, and it will be off the shelves in a few days." I still stupidly said: "I used to buy blackberries second-hand, but it was cheaper to buy books on Amazon." ”

That day, I suddenly realized that I had wasted a lot of time, especially not reading well. The car repair book sat quietly and brand new on the shelf for years, and I didn't read it until I moved. But when I was on the Gobi Desert, I felt that I hadn't even learned survival skills, and if I drove, I would break down halfway and I couldn't deal with it. If a movie like "The End of the World" happens, you can only sit and wait for death, and you don't even have the ability to escape. Even if you escape, you won't be able to survive in the wild. I don't know biology, I don't know medical treatment, I don't know machinery, I don't know weapons, I don't know how to domesticate wild animals, I don't know how to use herbs, I don't know ......

Anyway, it's useless, and the most bad soy sauce tricks in foreign blockbusters are countless times stronger than me.