When I was unhappy, I thought of the gods in the online literature circle, and I instantly became happy.

Forget it, Xie Zebo, I don't want to talk about it when I was a child.

But I had to remind you of jumping into the pool to save me in front of many of my friends and readers.

First, it would prove that I didn't make up anything about the so-called relationship between us, so as not to make your beauties jealous or your concubines to attack me personally, and second, I also sincerely wanted to thank you for jumping into the water at that critical juncture to save me.

As I said earlier, when someone enters my text, he will never see him again in this life.

In retrospect, whether it was too arbitrary.

At the same time, I kept calm and said to classmate Qin, for you, I don't involve feelings, and only talk about work, isn't it inappropriate?

Anyway, neither language nor words can represent a person's true feelings, they are too light and general, as superficial and tasteless as a leaf in the river.

Hehe, what's the matter?

That's just what I want to say.

Although I really want to be that gentle and elegant woman, reality and ideals are always full of many contradictions and conflicts.

Recently, I have understood where so many sad springs and autumns come from.

In a person's life, he will actually care about many people, like many people, and love many people.

That's true for everyone, isn't it?

There is no point in fighting for a win or a loss.

You don't care about me, I also feel a little sense.

Thank you!

At the beginning of '13, we missed a chance encounter, and at the same time, I missed the class reunion at the Deyang Hotel.

I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, all my classmates.

It was I who locked my own heart, and I don't know why that cheerful Qin Mi'er became like this.

The past is no longer important, and I don't want to talk about it anymore.

I've loved you.

In all my purest and best youth, you filled all my heart and gave me the motivation to work hard when I was desperate......

No one can replace this emotion, but it seems like you can never grasp it, right?

Qin Mi'er

February 14, 2016

Qin Mi'er, who was sitting in front of the computer, burst into tears, and gave up when she wanted to type the words "I still love you".

She sneered softly at the words on the computer, looking at the hands that were gradually disappearing, and her heart ached.

In fact, she still has a lot to say to him, how can such twenty years of lovesickness be replaced by her short letter?

However, her arms hurt and her fingers hurt and she couldn't type more words on the keyboard.

She smiled helplessly at the endless darkness, tears flowing into her mouth and into her turtleneck, the liquid flowing down her neck like the breath he had breathed from her neck. Lingering, gentle!

She cried even harder.

His voice kept ringing in her ears.

"The living room of the Shepper family is bigger than all our houses. The TV in his house is also huge. ”

"Your teacher Wang went to work as a tutor for Xie Boer during the summer vacation, and he rode a racing car back and forth every day. ”

"Xie Boer's father is going to repair a house on Sanxing Street, it's a leap, do you want it? 150,000 yuan can buy a house and a shop, if you want it, your father will buy it for you." ”

"In the future, Dad won't come to pick you up from school, you go to the school gate with Xie Zebo after school, and his dad drives a red Santana, and you take his dad home in his car. ”

"Why don't you study hard, why is your learning declining?"

"Do you like anyone anymore?"

"What are you going to do without a dad in the future?"

"You take the money yourself and save it in your name with the credit union, and from now on, you have to learn to save your own money and manage your money?"

"Why don't you go home with him, didn't I tell you, which car he gets into, you will go with him." ””

"You should study hard, instead of learning how to play and how to play? You can't associate with a classmate who teaches you to eat, drink, and dress up, you can only go out of school with him, do you know?"

......

She felt that the world was spinning, and this "magic sound" filled her life for ten or twenty years, like a nightmare, which she could not forget for a long time.

In the dark room, she seemed to be back to the evening that made her confused and sad.

Qin Yitian suddenly called Mianzhu, Qin Miao'er was preparing dinner at home with her godmother, and when her godmother answered the phone, she said distressedly: "In-laws, it's so late, why don't you send her back tomorrow." ”

Qin Mi'er approached the phone and heard her father's unprecedentedly tough attitude on the phone, so she hurriedly packed her schoolbag and said to her godmother, "I'll take a ride back now." ”

She was very timid, and went back to the countryside.

As soon as he got home, Qin Yitian said coldly: "Follow me upstairs." ”

So Qin Miao'er buried her head and came to Qin Yitian's desk.

But Qin Yitian took out the slip in the drawer and made calculations, and ignored her.

When he put all the ordered money and bills back in the big drawer, he turned around, looked at her, and said lightly: "Why has learning declined?"

Qin Mi'er was at a loss, and forced her words, "The ranking is a difference of a few tenths of a percent." ”

"So you always chat with the girls at your table in class?"

"Hehe, do you say West? We only talk occasionally. ”

"You also bought the same backpack as her, and you don't need the schoolbag that you bought at home?"

"I ......"

Qin Yitian counted Qin Miao'er's "crimes" in school this year.

......

"Do you have someone you like?"

"Nope. ”

"How dare you lie!"

A slap flew on the left side of Qin Mi'er's face, and a few finger marks appeared in an instant.

Qin Miao'er glared and looked at her strange father - after all, Qin Yitian had never been so fierce to her since she was a child, let alone beaten her.

She held back her tears, smiled and hugged Qin Yitian's neck, and said coquettishly, "Dad, what's wrong with you?"

But the tears flowed uncontrollably, even though she laughed heartily.

After all, just like playing with his father once, he accidentally hit the Shanghai mechanical watch on his left hand on his elbow, causing the watch cover to shatter and insert it directly into the skin, and the blood did not stop, and he did not hear his father's scolding.

But now, this nameless fire doesn't know where it started.

Qin Yitian pushed her away indifferently and said coldly, "Do you know that you are wrong?"

Qin Mi'er was terrified, standing there motionless.

"Get on your knees!"

Qin Mi'er stared at him puzzled, "Why do you want me to kneel, what did I do wrong?"

Qin Yitian looked at the dazed Qin Mi'er, the whites of his eyes were red, and it was obvious that he was about to hold back his emotions.

Qin Mi'er cried quietly and said lightly: "You said that my studies have declined, and I will work hard next semester." But why are you hitting me? And my classmates are more talkative and play together, so is that called liking? In this way, I like a lot of people. I think each student has their own characteristics. ”

......

"You asked me to go back with Xie Zebo, but every week after school, I packed up my things and went to their classroom, and he left. I followed him out of school that day, and he got into his father's car so fast that I was embarrassed to tell him to wait for me. ”

Qin Yitian listened coldly to Qin Miao'er's cry and remained silent.

"He's taller than me, and he's a boy, so I can beat him. If you think I'm not doing well, I'll just tell him next semester and let him wait for me after school. Qin Mi'er changed her breath, held back the grievances in her heart, closed her eyes, gritted her teeth and asked, "Dad, don't you want me?" So you always let me go home with him. ”

Qin Yitian looked at Qin Miao'er, who was bleeding tears and snot, and didn't know what he was thinking, but obviously he gritted his teeth and said in a deep voice: "Kneel." ”

Pu Xiu, who had just been discharged from the Army General Hospital, rushed upstairs, pushed open the door, and said with difficulty: "If you want her to kneel for you, I'll kneel for you." ”

Qin Yitian was furious, glared at her, and roared: "You go out, close the door, I will talk to her, you don't have to listen." ”

Pu Xiu had to kneel in front of her, but Qin Mi'er blocked her and said lightly: "You go out, I'll kneel." ”

After Qin Yitian saw Pu Xiu go out, he closed the door and calmed down for a while before turning his head to look at Qin Mi'er who was dazed.

Qin Miao'er, who didn't know what was going on, stared at Qin Yitian in confusion, and knelt on the cold purple floor tiles with a "poof".

She was crying incessantly, and her head felt like it was going to explode.

"Now that you're older, you should be able to distinguish people before you make friends, you know?"

"Hmm. ”

"If you like someone now, it's called early love. That's not allowed in school because you're a junior high school student. ”

"But Dad, I think that's normal, boys and girls also have buddies, why do you only think it's love. ”

Qin Mi'er was apprehensive in her heart, because it was obvious that he had kissed herself.

But instead, she thought to herself: he had also saved himself by diving, and he couldn't tell his father about it. Otherwise, we will all be reprimanded by our families.

......

After a while, Qin Yitian took out a few stacks of money from the drawer, "You take the money to the credit union and save it in your name, from now on, you have to learn to save money and manage it yourself." ”

"Dad, I don't. ”

Qin Mi'er cried very sadly, and her heart was as cold as water.

She was just a little girl under fourteen years old, and she had no idea what was going on.

"If you don't go, you'll be on your knees until the day you get the notice. ”

Qin Mi'er sobbed, counting the time blankly in her heart. Do you want to kneel for four days?

Qin Yitian took the stacks of money and said coldly: "In the drawer is the remaining shipping money, which I wrote on a note." Get up for me right now. ”

Qin Mi'er knelt motionless on the ground and cried, shaking her head constantly.

She saw her father's determination and cried breathlessly.

Her mind was full of the next semester or the day she got the notice on July 4, maybe her father would leave her at school and let her go back with Xie Zebo by herself.

She was very sad and puzzled, why did her father, who had always loved her very much, suddenly stop herself?

Qin Yitian suddenly got angry and threw the money on the desk, causing his pen to roll around on the desk a few times.

Qin Mi'er stood up trembling while holding her knees while crying.

Reluctantly picked up the stacks of money from the desk, put them in the small backpack, and went out on their backs.

But she cried very sadly.

She knew that Qin Yitian had already decided not to want her.

Instead, let her go home with him, and it will never be a rhythm from then on.

All this, she didn't know exactly what it was for.

If it was because of early love, my mother would never say that she would kneel, would she?

When he walked to the small arch bridge in the backyard, there was a sudden lightning and thunder, and raindrops as big as a thumb were raised, Qin Mi'er stood on the small arch bridge and was drenched in the rain, her clothes were almost wet, and she turned back upside down.

"Dad, it's raining, maybe the credit unions are closed. Shall I go tomorrow?"

......

That night, at two o'clock in the morning, Qin Yitian took poison, drank alcohol, and committed suicide.

When he went to the hospital, he didn't want to, he wanted to continue to finish writing his will.

But he told his brothers what he had not finished.

And in the hospital, he spoke to his brother-in-law again.

When leaving, Qin Yitian wanted to pull Qin Miao'er's hand, but he didn't want to leave her.

He loved her daughter.

With all his love, he gave her a happy and sunny childhood life and set an example for her.

When he hugged the pillar head downstairs, stretched out his right hand, and kept calling: "Qin Mi'er......"

He cried, he cried so loudly that snot and tears were mixed up.

Qin Mi'er stood about two meters away from him and said calmly, "Dad, you go to the hospital." ”

When the uncles dragged him away, Pu Xiu found a brown bottle with a dusty skull out of nowhere, "He drank this pesticide, and drank a lot of wine." ”

Pu Xiu was very excited and cried hoarsely. She opened the bottle to drink, but there was no pesticide in the bottle at all. "I haven't farmed for so many years, and I don't know where he found the pesticides. ”

Qin Miao'er, who had lost her soul by this inexplicable thing, looked at Pu Xiu's appearance and said in despair: "Drink, you are all dead, I will go to the orphanage." ”

Qin Mi'er knew very well that all this would never have anything to do with herself.

Even if you like your classmates, that's normal. Normal interaction between classmates, why not.

......

Thinking of this, Qin Mi'er felt cold all over her body, wiped away her tears and snot, and asked in the endless darkness: Dad, do you think that I went to school in the city and couldn't protect myself, so I was asked to go back to the countryside to go to school?

She cried and giggled as she realized that time was far away.

Suddenly, waves of air struck, and the space in which she existed shook.

She cried silly at the words on the screen, feeling like she had finally turned the page.

But suddenly, a wave of invisible qi surged, and she was torn into thousands of pieces and floated in the air......

When her consciousness dissipated, she mockingly said to the Endless Void: Unclean self-love will not only harm herself, but also implicate her children and grandchildren!

In an instant, the universe shut down this space.

It's as if this earth never existed.

Han Bing has never visited this earth.

Perhaps, he is still immersed in the sweet dreams that Qu Liuji gave him......