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Tu Xiaonian, no matter how long it has passed, I can still recall the first time we met.

I knew how ordinary I was a long time ago, like a raindrop falling from the sky, and after merging into the sea, I could never find a trace, but there is a process between the sky and the ocean called the world. Tu Xiaonian, I met you in the world, and I began to have a dream, I fantasized like every adolescent girl that there was a boy to end my loneliness, I thought that person was you.

The scene you appear in line with all my fantasies about the word "love at first sight", on a hot September afternoon, the sun is shining on the stairs, and since the fifth verse onwards, I am up and down, I am holding a large pile of new books, and I am about to lean down to tie my shoes, when suddenly I hear the sound of something bounce on the ground, and I look up after tying my shoes, but I see you staring at me dumbfounded.

You look really good, just like a prince in a fairy tale, with sword eyebrows and starry eyes, and a noble temperament, I looked at you stupidly, and you suddenly stomped your foot and pointed at my chest and said, Gone, gone, gone.

I LOOKED DOWN AND SAW THAT THE BUTTONS ON MY SHIRT HAD DISAPPEARED AT SOME POINT, AND THE TWO HELLO KITTY ON MY UNDERWEAR WERE VIOLENTLY OPEN IN BROAD DAYLIGHT. My face turned red with a bang, and my blood was surging, and I wanted to find a hole in the ground to bury myself. I covered my chest and quickly covered my face, so annoyed that I wanted to cry, why should I lose this face in front of such a handsome person?

You are so kind, if I were you, I would never waste time with such an ordinary girl, but you smiled and gave me your wide basketball uniform, saying, put it on, I didn't see anything.

I know you've seen everything, but I still have to say thank you. With a wave of your hand, the hero saves the beauty, and there is no need to thank you. After saying that, he jumped up and down and slapped the ball and left. I've been standing on the steps with that pile of books in my hands, watching your back disappear, and a special feeling wells up in my chest. I didn't know who you were then, but I was grateful to you from the bottom of my heart.

Actually, I'm not a beauty anyway, but you're a hero. That is, from that moment on, I forgave the two sisters, who doesn't want to be a princess, as long as she really meets the prince.

The next day at the class meeting, I sat in the corner and turned the pen in my hand boringly, and it fell to the ground with a bang, I picked it up, turned it again, dropped it, picked it up and turned it again, and the person in front finally couldn't help but turn around and say to me, please be quiet, okay?

It's you.

After the meeting, I found your name on the roster and chased you out, Tu Xiaonian! When will I return your jersey? You paused for a moment and winked and smiled, it turned out that the person yesterday was you.

Although you have a smile that is not worth your life, I still have a little sadness in my heart, it turns out that you don't remember me, how melancholy.

B

Later, we got acquainted, every day in class I went to occupy a seat for you in advance, and during class I took crazy selfies with your mobile phone with a prime of up to 2 million, and sometimes you would joke and say, don't shoot, no matter how you shoot, it's not a beauty, don't waste my memory.

I'll admit that you're right, but rosy dreams aren't a sin. Tu Xiaonian, I have a little sinister idea, I hope that others will see so many photos of me in your mobile phone and misunderstand what is between us. But do you have to be so vicious? I know I'm not pretty, and I don't need to be reminded of that, even if it's a joke.

Tu Xiaonian, you won't understand that girls who are not beautiful in this world have a sensitive heart.

That's right, I really like you, but you're so good, so good that I can only stay by your side quietly without saying anything, and I feel very satisfied when I see your smile every day, this may be our limit, no matter how greedy I am, it's useless.

I hang out on weekends, and when I cross the street, I clutch to your sleeve, and your palms are constantly wet, and you look at me and gently take my hand and walk across the zebra crossing. You told me that if you cross the zebra crossing and walk in the white place, you will be happy all your life. My eyes widened, I didn't expect you to have such a childish side.

In the crowded streets, you have always held my hand, and never let go for a moment, which makes me feel at ease, in the eyes of passers-by, we are an ordinary little couple, no different from those who love each other in the world, but why do my eyes seem to be tearful, is it because this moment is too rare, and even being misunderstood makes me feel precious.

There was a little sister holding a basket of roses in front of us, and said in a sweet voice, "Brother buy flowers for his girlfriend, how beautiful my sister is."

You laughed, rubbed my half-short hair and said, little sister, you are not honest, this sister is not beautiful at all. Besides, she's my sister. I was so angry that I threw off your hand and rushed forward, and I didn't pay attention to you calling my name behind me. Soon you caught up with me, frowned and grabbed me and asked, what's wrong with you, I'm just joking, do you need to be angry?

I suddenly said loudly, I'm not pretty, what's in your way, do you need to taunt me in front of strangers? What's so great about you being handsome, you can bully people if you're handsome, tell you, ugly girls also have self-esteem.

There was a momentary pause in your expression, and I could see that you wanted to laugh, but then you hurriedly comforted me, don't cry, don't cry, it's embarrassing, do you know?

I couldn't stop my tears, not only the grievances of saying that I didn't look good, but also the sadness of not being your girlfriend and the touching of you holding my hand across the road. More and more people on the road are looking at us, and you are so anxious that you pat your chest, miss, can I invite you to Pizza Hut?

I said pitifully, it's good to go to KFC, it's a family anyway.

You shake your head helplessly, but a pizza from Pizza Hut is worth six burgers from KFC, and if you want to eat it, you have to eat it well.

Tu Xiaonian, in addition to being mean, in fact, you are still very good to me.

C

But I know you're not so nice to me anymore after you have a girlfriend.

Your girlfriend's name is An Jinyan, her name is nice and beautiful, she is the kind of beautiful person who walks in a bunch of people and immediately makes people distinguish what is a chicken and what is a crane, with long burgundy hair, white skin like a vampire, and the worst thing is that she still has a nose hole, she goes out in a short skirt on a cold day, and there is a striking rose tattoo on her bare collarbone.

Everything about her is breathtaking, I think it's not just you, no boy can withstand such a girl.

It's she who chases you, standing at the door of the boys' apartment every day with a cigarette in her mouth and waiting for you, buying you the most expensive ancestor cake for breakfast, skipping her class to come to our classroom to accompany you to class, taking a picture of her beautiful smile with your mobile phone, and saying in front of the whole class, Tu Xiaonian, this girl has taken a fancy to you.

You were very resistant to such a high-profile maverick girl at first, but a day or two after she disappeared, you suddenly said to me seriously, what to do, I seem to miss her a little.

On the third day, she appeared energetically, holding a string of Buddhist beads in her hand and said vividly, Tu Xiaonian, happy birthday. It turned out that she specially went to Emei in Sichuan to pray for Buddha for you and pray for your safety. You struggled for a few seconds and finally hugged her into your arms with great righteousness, and sighed deeply, An Jinyan, I surrender to you.

You invited a lot of friends to dinner that night, and you made it look like guests at a wedding party. Your friends call her sister-in-law, and you smile as brightly as a chrysanthemum. I hid alone and drank sourly, and the 48-degree wine was so drunk that I could drink it as soon as I craned my neck. You finally found me depressed, and ran over to rub my hair, ugly girl, today is a brother's big day, why don't you seem to be happy.

I pushed your hand away and said, I'm very happy, in the future, you don't have to soak with my ugly girl all day long, you can be happy.

You see, I don't say anything, I think I must have drunk too much and hallucinated, or I would have felt distress in your eyes. You picked me up and said to An Jinyan, Xiaolu drank too much, I'll send her back first. I waved at her in front of everyone's eyes, beauty, bye-bye.

The wind in December was really cold, I was blown awake for most of the time, and quietly lay on your back and chatted with you, Tu Xiaonian, do you like An Jinyan? What do you like about her? Is it because she is beautiful? You said in a rough voice, no, I am not so superficial, you see the things she did for me, which one is not moving. And I said, what if she's not pretty, if it's an ugly girl who does what she does, would you be impressed?

This time, you have nothing to say.

My hair fell down to your shoulders, and in just a few months it had grown, like the unspeakable love that had grown in my heart with every silent night. I never told you that I was so greedy for the temperature of your palm on my head, that I was determined to keep my hair long.

You sent me to the door of the girl's apartment, rubbed my hair and said, go to bed early. My nasal cavity quickly became sour, but I still said with a hippie smile, Tu Xiaonian, I want to be a tree in the next life, haha.

You finally laughed, okay, you think of yourself as Eun-hee, let's go inside.

I turned and entered the door of my apartment, and after a few steps, I finally sat down on the ground and cried. It turns out that fairy tales are really deceitful, how can there be so many Cinderellas, when the time comes, the palace will return to the palace, and the kitchen will return to the kitchen.

D

I met you in the square in the center of the city on Christmas Eve, when you were holding An Jinyan's hand and accompanying her to set off fireworks, I looked at you quietly for a while, you are really a good match, if it is me standing next to you, I am afraid that God will really feel violent.

Tu Xiaonian, I'm not sad, I think I have understood that some people are destined to only be supporting roles in the lives of others, and it is useless to work hard, so it is better to send blessings calmly and leave with a smile.

I bounce up to you, put an apple in your hand, and say, This is a Christmas present for you. You scream, you don't have the heart to say, it's just an apple, it's so stingy. I smiled and didn't say anything, An Jinyan glanced at me meaningfully, as if he understood everything.

It snowed heavily on Christmas Eve, and I walked slowly back to my apartment alone. Tu Xiaonian, you will never know that the apple is not as simple as you see. It was worth two dollars and four cents, and was bought by twenty-four passers-by with different surnames for a dime each. A friend told me that on Christmas Eve, if you ask twenty-four people with different surnames for a dime to buy an apple for the person you want to bless him, he will have a safe life. When the strangers smiled and asked me who I was giving it to, I looked up and said proudly, "Give it to someone I like."

I don't have An Jinyan's courage, so I can only love you silently in this way.

Tu Xiaonian, I once told you that I want to be a tree in the next life, this sentence is not the same as Eunxi's sentence. I think that if I made a tree, you wouldn't think I'm not pretty, and who would say that a tree is beautiful or ugly?

Tu Xiaonian, think about me when you have time, those unbeautiful faces in your phone should have been deleted, I can only be in your memories. If I were to be given another chance to choose, I would still meet you on a sunny September afternoon, take your wide jersey, and look at your handsome face and smile at me, and then turn away.