IX 1
In the few days after talking to Wen Xiu, Fei Feng felt that there were four transparent walls surrounding him wherever he went, and wherever he went, the wall moved. But I don't know when this wall will stop and let myself hit it miserably. So Fei Feng always felt depressed.
It had just rained that day, and the ground of the city was still wet, and Fei Feng was walking around the street in two thin clothes. Occasionally, a gust of wind blew, which made him a little unbearable cold. It stands to reason that this time should not be so cold, and I don't know what happened this year, the weather is always abnormal.
Just when he was bored, he saw a familiar figure in a café. I saw this man looking down at the palm of his right hand, but he didn't move.
When Fei Feng saw this, he immediately pushed the main entrance of the café, and hurried to the seat opposite the person and sat down. Although he was in a hurry, Fei Feng didn't speak after sitting down, just waiting for the person to find out for himself.
A long time has passed, and this person sighed lightly and raised his head, it turned out to be Mei Linxiang who suddenly disappeared five years ago. Lin Xiang saw that there was suddenly one more person in front of her, so frightened that she even took a step back with a chair, and then looked at it and found that it was right or wrong, and her mouth opened in surprise, and she immediately covered her mouth with her hand, as if she could hide her surprised expression.
Lin Xiang quickly regained her composure, and said to Fei Feng, who was smiling in front of her, You don't say a word when you come over, it scares me so hard.
Fei Feng couldn't stop laughing and said, I can see that it scared you, but for some reason, I'm still very happy.
After hearing this, Lin Xiang also laughed, but tears flowed out of her laughter. Fei Feng handed over the tissue, and Lin Xiang gently took it.
Although the sun came out as soon as the rain stopped, the wind could see through the glass windows that there was still standing water on the street. Fei Feng turned his head to look at Lin Xiang again, but his smile was already stagnant, only a faint sadness remained, Fei Feng said slowly, you have been gone for five years, where have you been all these years. If I hadn't met you on the street by chance, we wouldn't have had the chance to meet again in this life.
Lin Xiang wiped away her tears and stopped crying, but laughed genuinely, and she could clearly see the temperament that time had left on her. Lin Xiang said, after graduation, I chose to go to Mingcheng for further study, I didn't inform you, mainly because I wanted to be quiet. Sure enough, I did become a lot quieter, and I finally learned how to accept and face it.
Fei Feng said, how many people have been sad by your sudden departure, how can we break off the relationship after we have been together for so many years.
Sad? Although Lin Xiang's tone was surprised, her expression was disdainful, and she continued, if you are really sad, if you really want to find me, how can you not find me in this era? If you really have a heart, you can ask someone to check the details, and you can ask someone to check the records, and you can know where I went, but no one knows.
Fei Feng didn't know how to answer when he heard this.
Lin Xiang went on to say that everyone has their own life, circle, important people or things, and I am just a passerby in other people's lives. If everyone talks more well, they say that they are confidants, and they say something important, and they don't have to take it seriously.
Fei Feng said, how can you think like this, even if everyone really hasn't looked for you, but it's really because you are hiding from everyone, if you really have the heart to hide, where can we find you. But then again, we are all equal, and it is true that no one will give themselves for the sake of another, unless there is something unspeakable.
After the two of them finished speaking, they both laughed, and Fei Feng said again, tell me about your experience in Mingcheng over the years.
Lin Xiang barely stopped laughing, and said, Actually, it's nothing, it's just a few years of school, doing what I like, thinking about the memories I like, and time has passed in a hurry, I haven't had time to feel it, you see, five years have passed. Five years ago I was an eighteen-year-old girl, and five years later I was almost twenty-four, and I always felt that this was not my age, because I was not mentally ready.
Fei Feng followed Lin Xiang's words and said, who is not, we haven't allowed ourselves to mature yet, and it's time to take responsibility. You see, some people are already fighting for their families, some are working hard for their families, and some are starting new families. Everyone was busy, regardless of whether it was really what he wanted.
Lin Xiang only smiled lightly and said, Are you talking about Jiaping and Yuanyuan, they should be very happy, you see. Saying this, Lin Xiang paused, as if something was blocking her throat and making her speechless. Lin Xiang stopped smiling, and looked at Fei Feng in a daze, her face full of despair.
Fei Feng had already felt it, and said calmly to Lin Xiang, You came back this time because they were going to get married.
Sure enough, as soon as Fei Feng finished speaking, Lin Xiang's emotions that she could still control no longer wanted to be restrained, but she couldn't stop crying. With her hands spread out, palms facing herself, Lin Xiang just looked at them. With his mouth open, it's as if he can't breathe without opening his mouth. She only suppressed her voice and screamed. If it is not windy, it does not interfere, but only quietly accompanies it on the side. I don't know how long it took, but Lin Xiang finally barely stopped crying, but her speech was still intermittent. She said, my five years in Mingcheng, so quiet, I don't want to do anything, I don't care about anything, although I think about it occasionally, although it is sentimental, I can see through, I think I am mature and can bear it, no need to be afraid anymore, it turns out that I lied to myself.
Lin Xiang also said that sometimes longing becomes a habit, and it is easy to be ignored, and if you ignore it, you think that you are no longer trapped by it. But once this habit is turned out, it can be turned upside down. I met Jiaping when I was thirteen, when we were both so young and his family had just come out of poverty. He only had his father, and my parents were, but it was like they didn't have parents. I was so desperate at that time, and I wanted to do something to make my parents happy and stop arguing. But it's really difficult, it turns out that I don't understand their world at all. No one cares about me, and no one needs me to care about.
Fei Feng knew that Lin Xiang's words were not finished, so he still didn't speak, but listened quietly.
Suddenly she laughed again, laughing and saying that he had never left me. He doesn't know it himself, but I know because I live in his world every day. I'm so stupid, I just heard that he was getting married, so I sneaked back to take a look, and it turned out that this glance could still kill me.