Hearing that Zhao Siyu was depressed, Honggu did not hesitate to come to Zhao Siyu again, with a "snap", Zhao Siyu sobered up a little, covered half of her face and shouted, "Honggu, what are you doing!"

"Is your kid fucking going forward," Honggu glared, "It's not for you to say that you're not dead, he's still fucking pretending to be deep here!"

Zhao Siyu sighed helplessly, and after a short silence, he nodded and said, When I was young, I occasionally thought about what I lived in this world for, just to live, what is the meaning of living, is it to become stronger, yes, to become stronger, because at that time I was tightly wrapped and praised by the people around me, and was called a genius by all the people, I was happy, I was so happy, I thought I was really different, I was the happiest person in the world, I enjoyed this feeling, I enjoyed the people around me very much, the envious and adoring eyes of my peers, all focused on myself, at the moment after the Wu Yuan Festival, Wu Yuan test, standing in the middle of the square, I listened to all the people under the stage, are exclaiming that I am a genius, that feeling, really, really really beautiful, like standing on the top of a cliff, looking down, all the people are smiling......"

Zhao Siyu sneered a few times, his gaze was far-reaching and indifferent.

"Humans are such an animal, and their blind worship and trust in the victor is really pitiful and ridiculous," Honggu laughed.

"During my time, I even felt that I had always needed friends, thinking that friends were a burden, and the people who could really let me see in my eyes were only my respected parents and relatives, as well as Feng Yu, until I met Zhang Ren, I lost to my peers for the first time, I was frightened, I was afraid, my heart was full of hostility towards Zhang Ren, even hatred, I felt that my self-esteem had been hurt like never before, I would lose to a fucking Zhang Ren who was three stages away from myself, my hatred for Zhang Ren even had an urge to kill him, I didn't allow myself to have a black spot in my perfect life setting, none of them were allowedI even thought to the extreme that this was all deliberately arranged by my mother! I felt that I had to resist, and I would not allow myself to fail! Later, it was my mother who saved me and made me realize my mistake, although there was a voice in my heart that said that my mother was right, there are people outside the world, and there is a sky outside the sky, but another voice in my heart said that Zhang Ren's existence was an insult to his dignity, and I would kill him and do everything to erase the stain on this life."

"Then why don't you kill him with your hands," Honggu laughed, "I think you can't kill him."

"Yes, I can't kill it, Zhang Ren is indeed very strong, very strong" Zhao Siyu smiled slightly, and then said, "I chose, I chose which path my mother pointed me out, I want to win with dignity and regain my dignity ......with dignity!

"Are you sure you can win?" asked Honggu.

Zhao Siyu shook his head and said, "Now, I don't know"

Zhao Siyu looked up, and after a short thought, he continued, "When I was a child, I always felt that I was so strong, what a friend was, it was just a burden, but under the arrangement of fate, I met Zhang Ren, at first just to know why Zhang Ren is so strong, and intentionally or unintentionally contacted him, and slowly contacted more, only to find out that my mother wanted me to be friends with Zhang Ren's true intention, I have to admit that Zhang Ren is indeed stronger than me, and he has a strength that I have never had."

"What's the strength," Honggu asked curiously.

"A lot of energy, tenacity" Zhao Siyu frowned slightly and said, "This strength makes Zhang Ren not afraid of losing, not afraid of danger, what he decides, he has to do it with all his might, and I hesitate a lot, my mother asked me to make friends with Zhang Ren, maybe I saw the shortcomings of my character, I hope that because I have the company of a friend like Zhang Ren, I can overcome my hesitant and easy to break character."

"I think what your mother said is very wrong," Honggu said seriously.

"Isn't it right?" Zhao Siyu asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?"

"You're not hesitant, it's easy to break in trouble," Honggu smiled and said, "You're fucking underdrawn!"

Zhao Siyu smiled awkwardly after hearing this.

"It's all fucking that you're still alive, and I still don't believe it," Honggu laughed, "I have to smoke you a few big mouths, you won't fucking be sober!"

Zhao Siyu nodded undeniably, took a deep breath, and then said, "Honggu, what you said is right, I am indeed easy to be depressed, I encounter obstacles that I can't overcome, and I can't think of things that I can't understand, that is, I will think about the bad things and close myself off, which can be regarded as an escape, until there is no way to escape......"

Saying such words, Zhao Siyu felt a little more relaxed in his heart, and continued, "Knowing Zhang Ren, knowing Feng Yu, having such two friends, maybe this life is really enough."

"This life is enough, I don't think so, I think your kid's love seed is a lot," Honggu laughed.

"Where is it?" Zhao Siyu pouted and said, "I only have Feng Yu in my heart."

"Cut" Honggu glanced at Zhao Siyu disappreciatively.

Zhao Siyu was helpless, he smiled and continued, "Happy and beautiful days are always too short, and I can't bear to let people recall, because they are too beautiful, every time I think about it, I can't breathe because I feel heartache, this kind of pain makes me ......" Zhao Siyu sighed long and said, "This kind of pain makes me can't help but want to escape"

Zhao Siyu's face was solemn, he rubbed his eyes, and continued, "I originally thought that everyone in this world was good and so friendly to themselves, but at the Wuyuan Festival three years ago, when the four big words "Wuyuan Third Order" appeared on the Wuyuan Stone, I couldn't believe what was in front of me, and the ...... in front of me said this, Zhao Siyu's face was painful, "Everything in front of me, I was crazy to test again, test again, test again...... I don't even remember how many times I tested it, but the "Third Order of Wu Yuan" on the Wu Yuan Stone The four big characters, like a boulder, oppressed myself, I panicked, I was afraid, I just lost my mother, I don't know what happened, I still don't know what happened, what should I do, I was alone, tears came out of my eyes, looking at the cynicism of the people around me, I felt that my world collapsed instantly, I was confused, I was stunned and overwhelmed, I looked at the people around me, familiar faces, unfamiliar faces, hideous faces, so ugly, so sinister, how could this be! I kept asking myself, I kept asking myself, I felt my chest tight, I heard everyone's accusations against me, everyone's ridicule of me, I felt the indifference of the whole world, the ugliness of the whole world......" Speaking of this, Zhao Siyu lowered his head, pressed his forehead with both hands, and after a short pause, continued, "This is hell!"