"This is hell!"

After saying this, Zhao Siyu raised his head suddenly, a trace of despair flashed in his eyes, and he continued, "I was in deep despair at that time, hated the world, hated all people, and finally in the noise, I felt that my chest was tight, and I fell to the ground in a muffled voice, unconscious, I fell to everyone's expectations, I fell to all the ridicule, I fell to this hell on earth......"

Honggu looked at Zhao Siyu, who was deeply in memory, listened to Zhao Siyu's words, and arrested Zhao Siyu's every look, even if it was a flash of despair in Zhao Siyu's eyes, she didn't hide from Honggu's eyes at all, and Honggu also recalled the past because of this, and was silent for a while.

Zhao Siyu smiled bitterly a few times, and then said, "After I woke up, in the face of everyone, the people who loved me, and the people who laughed at me, I had a unified attitude, refusal, refuse, refuse, because when I saw these people, I couldn't help but want to recall the past, when my mother was alive, when I was still called a genius, and when I was held in the palm of everyone's hand...... Until" Zhao Siyu paused and said, "Until Zhang Ren woke me up, his sentence" Finding the truth of my mother's death has allowed me to find the purpose of life, the truth of what happened three years ago, the truth of my mother's death, is the only goal of my life and the only motivation for my continuous practice, although I have untied the knot on the surface, I have chosen to face everyone and things, but my heart is still like ashes, and I will always think, if I really know the truth one day, the truth is really like a rumor, saying that my mother was killed by someone, and I slash the enemy, next, what will happen to me, what will happen to me who has revenge”

Zhao Siyu raised his head again, took a deep breath, and then said with a wry smile, "Fate is always so ruthless, my heart is like ashes, I finally found the motivation to live, but I found that I have been three years, three years, the third order of Wuyuan, it is like a curse, cursing me, consuming my patience little by little, all my fantasies and possibilities for the future." On the one hand, I want to give up, I want to end myself, so that the people who are alive and love me are also free, let my father be freed, and no longer face the gossip of everyone in the family because of me, let Feng Yu be freed, I know, I understand Feng Yu's feelings for me, and I also like her very much, but I didn't dare, and I didn't dare to make any promises, so that Feng Yu was also free from my hopeless ending...... Having lost my elemental attribute, I always ask myself in the dead of night, am I still qualified to live......"

"No" Honggu received "Why didn't you die, are you afraid of pain?"

"Haha" Zhao Siyu smiled bitterly a few times, then nodded and said" Yes, I should be afraid of pain, on the other hand, I want to live, the truth is that when I think about myself many times, the only reason for myself to survive, and those who love me and care about me treat me better, the deeper the pain in my life, until I no longer have any excuses and reasons to escape, to watch those who love me and the people I love are sad because of me, and are hurt in the slightest, Hua Linglong's appearance made me see my own weakness, let me see the whole family that my father has always been protecting me, the dilemma when all forces oppress, let me see because of my own cowardice, because of my own escape, because of my own incompetence, the people I love and those who love me are in crisis, in danger of my life, I am not reconciled, in order to get strength, I am willing to sacrifice everything of myself"

"Even if it's a deal with a demon," Honggu asked.

"Yes, as long as I can get the strength, I am willing to do anything" Zhao Siyu's eyes were firm, and he said without hesitation, "Now I still have no regrets about agreeing to you, to kill someone, and to gain strength, if I am killed that day, it is also my own choice, fists cannot solve all problems, but fists can protect the people I love from being harmed"

"Well, strength is the norm of this world," Honggu said lightly.

Zhao Siyu nodded, "When I was on the verge of death just now, I thought a lot, and I also saw my happy and painful memories in the past, in just seventeen years, at that moment, I saw more clearly, I saw more clearly, I was more convinced of my choice, there will always be good people in this world, and there will be bad people, and I am the 'good person' with blood on my hands, as long as I can protect the person I love, how much meaning does black and white have, I am the guardian of the person I love!"

Saying this, Zhao Siyu suddenly opened his eyes, and the Tai Chi Yin and Yang diagram under his feet suddenly began to rotate again......

Honggu looked at the current Zhao Siyu and nodded, "This is your path, the fate you choose ......"

......

"Drive—"

Zhao Fuan left the inn and hurried east along the edge of the Ten Thousand Beasts Forest.

"Whoosh"

Suddenly, the hidden weapon flew out, blocking Zhao Fuan's way.

"Phew—"

"Who!" Zhao Fuan said vigilantly.

"Don't go any further," said the man in black, walking slowly out from behind the tree, "Go further, but you will die."

"Who are you?" Zhao Fuan asked.

"It doesn't matter who I am, it's what I'm going to tell you next," the man in black said lightly, and then "threw something out of his hand."

Zhao Fuan took the thing, looked at the iron piece in his hand and said, "This is ......"

"This is the Gray Wolf Mercenary Group Pass, with this pass, you can leave here smoothly"

"Pass?" Zhao Fuan was puzzled, "What does this have to do with the Gray Wolf Mercenary Group?"

"It's a big deal" The man in black said, "I know that you are going to chase people now, even if I tell you that Zhao Siyu is now being chased and killed by the gray wolf mercenary group, you won't believe it, take this iron piece and ask yourself, but I advise you to still take this iron piece and rush back to Zhao Mansion in time to report the news, with your strength, you are not Dong Cheng's opponent......"

"Who are you, why do you want to help our young master," Zhao Fuan asked.

"I can't tell you who I am, I'm just an undercover agent, but I can remind you that my surname is Song" The man in black replied, "Things are in your hands, believe it or not, it's up to you, the life of your young master is in your hands"

"Song!" Zhao Fuan said in surprise, "You are—"

The man in black interrupted Zhao Fu'an's words and said, "It's good to know, but I advise you to leave quickly, this time, the gray wolf mercenary group has come out, and your young master has killed a terrible person."

"What, killing? This is impossible" Zhao Fuan shook his head and said, but he was still very surprised by all the words of the man in black in front of him.

"The words stop here, you can do it yourself, the life of your young master is in your hands" After the man in black finished speaking, he disappeared before Zhao Fuan could ask a few more words.

Zhao Fuan looked at the place where the man in black disappeared, thoughtfully, then looked at the pass of the gray wolf mercenary group in his hand, nodded slightly, and then rode his horse all the way to the east......