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"The moment I took a step back, I realized what I had done, and I regretted it, so I immediately stepped forward again. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info Because everything happened so fast, almost everyone present only saw the step I took forward, and did not have time to see my instantaneous reaction, and later I learned that only Vral would detect my abnormality in time because he was worried about me and always paid a part of his attention to me. Pannis's tone at this time was extraordinarily calm, as if he was really telling someone else's story, and had nothing to do with himself, and said without any emotional fluctuations: "This is my reaction, and Nelly's reaction is just the opposite of mine, and before I can make a backward move, she is already ready to rush forward." You should know that people who are sensitive enough can predict what the other person wants to do by the contraction of every muscle in the other person's body, so, almost at the same time, I knew that she was ready to stand in front of me and rush towards Danacus, and she also knew that I was about to make a backward move. ”

"That's what happened. Catherine was stunned and muttered, "Did it all happen at the same time?"

"Yes, it was all happening almost at the same time. Pannis nodded and said, "I stepped back, she moved forward, so when I regretted my actions and immediately stepped forward to make amends, it was already too late." If I hadn't backed down at first, maybe I would have had a chance to stop her and face the enemy myself when I sensed that she was going to block Danacus for me, but I backed away and I hid behind her, so even if I wanted to make amends, I wanted to reach out and hold her, but I couldn't do anything. Her speed is so fast, even with my speed, it is impossible to stop her after she has already started, not to mention, I still don't know, I wanted to hold her this reaction at that time, whether it was just to pretend, or really wanted to hold her, if I really wanted to hold her, I would not have retreated behind her at first, let alone finish the backward action after feeling her forward trend. ”

"I believe that it was just an instinctive evasion, and I believe that your attempt to hold her down was also instinctive, not pretending. Catherine sighed and said, "If you really want to hide behind her, and don't forget to pretend to want to hold her, you won't blame yourself for it." ”

"I don't know why, and I'm not sure now. Pannis's expression became a little bitter again: "I just saw my cowardice and meanness in my actions, and saw my unforgivable crimes. ”

"And after that?" Lina asked softly, "What happened again?"

"I don't know, I barely remember anything after that. Pannis shook his head and said, "The last thing I saw was the spear that pierced Nelly's chest and pierced her body, and the blood mist that spurted from the wound, and the last thing I heard was Danakus's angry roar, and the last thing I felt was the death curse he unleashed on me because he was unwilling to fail." In fact, looking back, I could dissolve this death curse, but at that time, I had no ability to think about it at all, so I could only stand in a daze, letting the death curse fall on me, knowing that I was attacked by the curse, I knew that at the last moment, under the interference of Nelly, the effect of the death curse was reversed, and instead became an eternal curse. ”

The girls didn't know what to say, they could only look at Pannis, who had been struggling with Pannis every day for the past few years, and because of this, they couldn't comfort Pannis, who was calmly telling the past, and could only look at Pannis, who looked calm on the outside, but with deep emotional fluctuations in his eyes, with a little pity.

"That's the look, yes, that's it. Pannis suddenly raised his head sharply, looked at the maidens and said, "I will never forget the last time she looked at me, it was this kind of pity in her eyes, if there was contempt and pain in her eyes, I might feel better, but she didn't, she wasn't even surprised, there was only pity and sadness." After that, I left the world of the dead in a daze, and it wasn't until I returned to the world of Yara that I regained a little bit of sanity. Hehe, at that time I would rather not regain my senses, because after I came to my senses, I remembered what I had done before, I would rather keep myself crazy than dare to face my sins, and my only thought at that time was to use blood and death to cleanse me of my sins, so I quietly left the others and escaped into the desert alone, ready to end my life. ”

"It's not atonement, it's escape, Pannis. Catherine whispered, "If you do die, you will regret it." ”

"Of course I knew it was an escape now, but I didn't know it at the time. Pannis smiled wryly and said, "And you also know that my attempt will not succeed, I have found that under the erosion of the eternal curse, I have lost the ability to die, and that is the last thing Nelly left me." I didn't understand why she did this, but after a period of remorse, I began to think that this was her punishment for my actions, and that I would pay for my actions forever. ”

"No, that's not. Catherine interrupted Pannis's speech without hesitation, and said hurriedly: "If it were me, I would do the same as Lord Nelly, it is not a punishment at all, but a manifestation of Lord Nelly's love for you." You just said that the last time Nelly looked at you was the same as us, in fact, it makes sense, Nelly will look at you like that because she believes that you do that, just because of biological instinct, not really cowardly, not really betrayal. , she has a premonition that you will fall into pain because of remorse in the future, so she will look at you with pity. She knows that you will not forgive your actions, and she has guessed what you will do under the madness, but that is not the result she wants to see, she does not want you to escape, she does not want you to die in remorse, she wants you to pick yourself up again, she wants you to live with good memories of her, so, she left you with the reversed curse of death as a final gift, hoping that one day, you can come out of the shadow of the past and face a new day. ”

(To be continued.) )