"Damn, I can't live! I can't live! I don't have money, I don't have a car, I don't have a house, I don't have a woman. Tell me, is this world fair? Others, living in mansions, driving sports cars, holding beautiful women, wearing famous brands, and eating delicacies from the mountains and seas, why?"

"He's got a rich or powerful father! What's the matter, you're jealous?"

"Go, not only jealousy, but anger, have a gun, Lao Tzu 'bang bang', see one and kill the other!"

"Hate the rich, people like you can hate the rich, if you have the ability, you can do it, just want to do it, you can use the ball! Do you know what is popular now?"

"What?"

"I like you look upset with me, and you can't kill me!"

"Oh, you flattery, you have no principles, you are the boatman who sees the wind and steers, the grass on the wall that swings with the wind, you are vulgar, you are ambiguous, you are the little devil who pushes the mill, driven by money, and is willing to be a slave!"

"Ha, you are noble, you are principled, you look at your own current virtue, you want money or not, you want no people, what do you have to be said, you give me an example, come, think about it?"

"I was born in the mountains!"

"This is something to be proud of!"

"I mean, I was born in a poor rural ravine, not a rich second generation or an official second generation!"

"So, you blame your parents?"

"Sort of!"

"You're uneducated?"

"Went to school!"

"What grade?"

"High school!"

"Why didn't you go to college? No money or ....."

"Didn't get in!"

"Who is to blame?"

"Blame me!"

"Didn't repeat it, or chose to learn a technology?"

"Nope!"

"Why?"

"I'm an adult, and I went to work in the city during the time after the college entrance examination, the city is full of flowers and neon flashes, which makes me obsessed, what green mountains and green waters, I have seen a lot, and I have seen enough, so I chose society!"

"In that case, what does this have to do with your parents, no matter how many rich second-generation officials there are, are there more than civilian children? You don't look at how many big bosses, the big guys are all from the countryside, this has nothing to do with their background, buddy!"

"The times are different, the rules are different, and the gameplay is not the same! In the past, the rules were to play with the body, the body to fight, the strong were respected, and if they lost, they would at most hurt their arms and retire; now people are playing with their brains and fighting with their 'hearts', and if they lose, they will lose their lives!"

"So don't blame the origin, you blame this era again, don't forget, it's your own choice!"

"But they didn't tell me the consequences of that choice!"

"Smack!" a hot slap slapped.

"Didn't sue you? You went to school, but they didn't tell you, what did you learn?"

"They will only be reasonable every day, and they will be loyal and filial piety, benevolence, righteousness, courtesy, wisdom and faith at every turn!"

"Isn't this just teaching you how to survive? If you practiced any of them, you wouldn't have come to this point, have you practiced it? Loyalty, are you loyal? From the big country to the small family, to the middle to the company, are you loyal? If nothing else, you have changed several jobs just for work. Are you benevolent? If you are righteous, will the people around you abandon you when you are helpless? Li, do you have it? You complain all day long, make all kinds of irresponsible remarks to strangers without thinking, stimulate others, and seek some kind of perverted pleasure, is this fucking called 'li'? Do you have wisdom? If you have, you are even less likely to fall into this situation; as for reputation? You even fucking credit cards show that you are a black account, what kind of credibility do you have? Besides, the most basic filial piety, have you ever had it?"

"I ......"

"I can't tell!"

"Whoever made them give birth to me, I hate this era!

"Bang bang bang" a few fists fell.

"You're coming back to me, being born equal doesn't mean that you are equal in all kinds of material conditions after you are born, it means that your right to be born is equal! The conditions of survival the day after tomorrow have nothing to do with God. ”

"So, I don't hate God, I just hate my parents!"

"Hate your parents, this is the result of your own efforts to get rid of thousands of brothers and sisters, and it is you who rushed into that egg quickly, steadily, ruthlessly, and accurately. When you make a sperm, you've already made the choice!"

"They can knock me out!"

"Damn, people like you really shouldn't have been born in this world, I think, they regret giving birth to you!"

"So, I'm damned, huh?"

"Yes, you damn it!"

"Actually, I thought about suicide myself."

"Oh, when, why didn't you die?"

"I can't remember, I hesitated, I went back and forth, many times, I thought about cutting the veins, but I was afraid of the pain, and I was afraid of seeing my own blood; I thought about hanging, but I had scissors in my hand; I stood on the tracks, waiting for the train to pass, but I heard a rumbling sound in the distance, and I fled quickly; I went to the pharmacy to buy arsenic, but people didn't sell it; I took the electric board apart and turned on the electricity, but I couldn't do it; I wanted to close the doors and windows, unscrew the gas, and I was afraid of dying ugly; but I never knew what I was nostalgic for?"

"You're nostalgic for money and riches, and you think, maybe one day, you're going to be a billionaire, right? If you had money, what would you want to do?"

"If I have inexhaustible money, I will live in a mansion, drive a famous car, eat delicacies from the mountains and seas, drink elixir and fairy brew, and then let the beautiful women make me horses and chickens every day, the same day as a day, today Thai, tomorrow Hong Kong style, the day after tomorrow American, the day after tomorrow British, the day after tomorrow Korean, the day after tomorrow Japanese, and then a hodgepodge!"

"Look at it, look at it, how selfish you are, in these visions of yours, there are no parents, no friends, no brothers and sisters, no colleagues and classmates, some are just cold houses, cold cars, cold food, cold hearts! You are a cold person, you better die!"

"I asked you to persuade me not to die, why did you let me die?"

"What are you trying to live for? What is the use of your life? It's already so cold, do I still expect your heart to be on fire? Die, die, die quickly!"

"Are you really not going to persuade me?"

"Persuade you, you have gone crazy, you have become a demon, you have fallen into the quagmire of money, and you can't extricate yourself! No, you are much more pathetic than those who only love money. Others love money and are willing to take action, but you are only full of fantasies; you are selfish, useless and calculating, sorry for the sky, sorry for the earth, most importantly, you are sorry for your parents, you are sorry for your brothers and sisters, sorry for your friends; you have no money, no power, you have nothing, you always think about it, you get, but you never do it; you are crazy, you are dead, only your body is left, what's the use of keeping it? Hurry up and throw away this skin, maybe, if you die, your dream will really come true! ”

"Even you want to fucking give up on me!"

"I've been thinking for a long time, it's you who have been dragging me in, please, please, hurry up and die! I still have a lot of things to do! Don't delay me, okay, hurry up and die, happy, quickly, jump!"

On the top of a 55-story building, Luo Yansheng was talking to himself, pacing back and forth, asking and answering himself, and his madness was on display; he was howling, laughing, sobbing, pursing his lips, slapping himself, slapping his fists on his head, face, and abdomen, or standing, kneeling, lying, or crawling!

After making his nose blue and his face swollen, he started and walked to the guardrail, standing outside the guardrail, with a dejected face and no love.

I looked at the sky, and I looked at the birds, and when I looked at the ground, it was all ants, dense. In such a world, it is really useless to live, so he jumped out and jumped out.

"This time, I'm finally facing death!"

He smiled, smiled calmly, and there seemed to be a smell in the air, maybe it was the "freedom" after liberation!

Los Angeles, USA, Roth Smith staggered out of the bar with a beer in his hand, shouting, "Fuck.Fucking America!"

Unexpectedly, accidentally, he bumped into a big man, and while he was drunk, he shouted: "Hey, damn fatty, why did you hit me!"

The big man swung his fist over, knocked Rotsmith "full of stars", and said angrily: "I hate when people call me fat!"

"Don't go!" Seeing the fat man leaving, Roth Smith grabbed him and said, "Do you know why I hate fat men? Because they look strong, but they are so weak that you have no strength in your fists!"

When the big man heard this, he swung his fist again, and it hit him until his gums cracked, his mouth was covered with blood, and his body collapsed to the ground.

"What does it feel?" asked the big man, pulling Roth's clothes.

Roth struggled a few times and smiled: "I don't feel it, buddy, I don't feel it at all!"

The fat man said: "If you want to die, just die, don't mess with me!"

Roth said: "Yes, I just want to die, I just provoke you, you have the ability to kill me!"

The fat man made up for the punch, was too lazy to talk nonsense, and turned to leave.

Roth woke up in a daze, on the cold streets, in the cold buildings, the neon faded, the sound of the car was still, there was no engine, no music, no electricity, no light, so quiet, he thought, "Is Satan gone? If not, when you leave, remember to take him with you, he doesn't mind being a devil!"

It is said that the gods and Satan stopped the war because they had signed a treaty to return to God during the day and to demons at night! He waited quietly.

The dawn is coming, a light is appearing, and the gods are coming, which means that Satan is leaving.

He hung his head, he had to admit that he hated the day, because he didn't know what he was going to do, he hated the sun, he hated the state of his life under the sun, he hated the face under the sun, he didn't want to be redeemed. He wants to sink, and he prefers to sink in the dark, because in this way, the expression on his face will not be seen.

The sky was black and white, and he ran madly under the black sky and shouted: "Demon, take me, I hate the world, I hate the United States, I don't want to be redeemed, take me away, take me away!"

A sedan sped up, but Roth didn't see it, and even the sound of the horn was filtered out by him.

"Bang!"

He flew in the air, smiling and feeling serene like never before, and he seemed to smell something, which was the smell of liberation, or "freedom".

From the inside out, there is no wind and no waves, where the heart goes, the body must go.

He felt he had arrived.