readx; readx; Nelly's expression was relaxed, and her voice was relaxed, as if she was talking about an interesting incident from the past, and even occasionally showed a rather funny щww{][lā} However, it was obvious that it was not interesting at all, and it was by no means interesting to anyone, so Pannis clenched her fists tightly, and her face was as gloomy as the sky before a storm, and the more relaxed Nelly became, the more gloomy Pannis's face became. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

Pannis is not an idiot, he will never believe that anyone will like this feeling, maybe someone will claim to like solitude, it can only be that the person who said so simply does not understand what real loneliness is. Sitting in a warm room, using flowery rhetoric to praise lonely people, it is precisely the people who are least likely to fall into loneliness, it is precisely because they have no opportunity to experience it, they will beautify it because they do not understand, people who have really experienced loneliness, will never do this, they don't even want to mention it, because it will be the deepest wound in their hearts, even if they just think about it, they will feel the pain that seems to penetrate the bone marrow.

In the process of more than 100 years of self-exile, Pannis has experienced loneliness more than once, which can be regarded as a way of self-punishment for him, so he knows very well how painful real loneliness is, the bitterness of the whole world that only exists by himself, abandoned by everyone, forgotten by the whole world, far beyond people's imagination, only pure madmen will like that kind of thing.

Nelly is certainly not crazy, even if she claims to have been crazy for a while, and then she has successfully returned to normal, so it is obviously impossible for her to like that painful experience, let alone feel relaxed about it, the ease she showed at this time may only be to cover up the painful emotions in her heart due to that memory, so as not to worry too much about Pannis, that is, the more relaxed her performance, the more it can show how terrible the pain she suffered at that time, for this reason a wave of anger rose in Pannis's heart for no reason, but this anger could not find a target, perhaps, the only one who should bear this anger is only himself。

"Don't be so nervous, in fact, if you think about it, those days were quite interesting. Nelly, of course, felt the anger and guilt in Pannis's heart, but she didn't understand the reason for this anger, and still tried to hide it in a brisk tone: "Every morning, I put some bones in a standing position, pretend that they are ready to work, and then put them in a lying position at night, and pretend that they go home to sleep, I spend a long time in this kind of game, it is quite fun." ”dudu1;

"Enough, it's not interesting at all. Pannis took Nelly into his arms, squinted his eyes and said, "Sure enough, my biggest mistake was not to stay here with you." ”

"Actually, it's just that I'm stupid, I don't know how to use the power of the gods. Nelly found that her disguise had the opposite effect, and secretly stuck out her tongue, and immediately changed the subject: "As far as I can remember, I should have been able to use some of the power of the Grim Reaper at that time, because Danacus has not reacted, and I am the one who controls the body, so I can steal some." However, I didn't know it at the time, and you know, in some ways I was relatively sluggish, and I didn't even know my own state, so I had to be stupid and endure this loneliness. If I had known that I could already use the power of the gods, there would have been so much to play with, and I wouldn't have felt lonely and miserable at all, let alone crazy. ”

"Then when did you start knowing that you could use the power of the gods?" Pannis forced to hold back his emotions and said in a calm tone as much as possible, "How did you find out?"

"Well, that's when it happened. Nelly recounted: "The first time I woke up, I ended up with my own madness, the thoughts that filled my mind at that time, except that I wanted someone to talk to me, the rest was that I wanted to see the outside, the outside world is not as monotonous as the inside, I didn't think it before, but after losing it, I suddenly realized that the outside world is so beautiful, so full of temptation." ”dudu2;

"It's ...... Seventy or eighty years ago. Finally distracted by Nelly, Pannis focused on what she was saying, tentatively asking, "Or a little earlier?"

"Hehe, you think of it right away, but I fell into madness earlier than you said. Nelly nodded with a smile: "However, the time it took for me to wake up was about the same time as you said." ”

"That's right. Pannis nodded: "It seems that your will once again reacts automatically before your brain commands, should it be said that it is really you, even becoming a god is so individual." ”

"Don't say that about me all the time. Nelly glared at Pannis, still smiling, and said, "But you guessed it, when I woke up from my madness, I realized that my wish had come true, and although no one was communicating with me, I could see the outside world, which made me feel incredible." Later, after a closer look, I realized that it was because there were several children in the outside world who were influenced by me, and I could peek into the outside world through their eyes. ”dudu3;

"Anne and fawn, right? Pannis seemed to be asking a question, but in fact he had already gotten the answer he was fighting for, and slowly: "They replied to the consciousness at that time." ”

"It's not just the two of them, but there are also a few undead with good strength. Nelly nodded, "At that time, they weren't conscious, but they could carry my gaze." With this change, I didn't bother to think about why this happened, and I didn't have time to study why I slowly recovered from my madness, and the only thing I did at that time was to greedily observe the outside world through their eyes. Although they were all in uninhabited places, at least the environment was not as monotonous as it was here, which was very satisfying for me when I had just woken up from a nightmare. ”

"Oh, haven't they regained consciousness at first?" said Pannis, "that's what happened after you left." ”

"Well, I've been peeping for years before I retract my gaze. "But the problem has arisen, that after carrying my gaze, they can no longer return to their previous state of unconsciousness, and their minds, because of my will, are slowly becoming self-aware undead. I still remember the results of the previous instances of autonomous undead, so I thought I had made a big mistake. ”