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Before Li Yi's spirit was completely crushed, he realized that if he continued like this, his spirit would probably be crushed.

When faced with unbearable torture for a long time, the human sense of self-preservation operates subconsciously. Under the control of this unmanipulated consciousness, human beings will blur their consciousness in order to protect themselves. Then after the pain has passed, the brain automatically forgets this part of the memory. And then...... When this part of the memory is suddenly restored in the person's mind for some reason, the person's temperament is likely to change drastically.

Then, when the mood gradually stabilizes, this memory, including what was done after recovering the memory, will be forgotten again, which is called schizophrenia.

Then, Li Yi, who was on the verge of collapse, realized that he was likely to be schizophrenic if he continued like this.

Then, in order to prevent himself from becoming a psychopath, he began to use his subjective consciousness to dilute this memory. It is not that he forgets it, and if he forgets it completely, then the change, whether subjective or subconscious, will turn him into a schizophrenic neurosis.

It's just that it is downplayed in the mind, so diluted to the point that if you don't take the initiative to think about it, you won't think about it. In this way, perhaps his personality will also change when he remembers this memory, and it will make his usual personality change. But the change is manageable, and there is no loss of memory.

But the biggest problem with this was that he had to downplay everything that was associated with the memory. For example, he is a genius, his character that can think calmly at all times, his heart that will not give in at any time, and his pride that defies everything......

It sounds incredible, but it's like manipulating your own consciousness.

Almost everyone thinks that their consciousness is manipulated by themselves at will, but this is not the case. You'll think of things you don't want to think about, you'll be angry when you're spitted in the face, and you'll be terrified when you're spitting on supernatural events...... Human minds have never been dominated by themselves, and all we can control is thoughts and actions.

Incredibly, he succeeded, and he successfully went from being a sperm patient to a paranoid patient. After seven days of sleeping in his bed, he held it all to himself. Just as he had thought before, as a price, along with this memory that could crush his spirit, he buried some of his emotions.

That proud, calm, strong, wise......

Then, every time he concentrates on something, these emotions and memories reappear in him. In order to avoid this memory, he gradually began to fade even his thinking, in short, from a genius to a heartless pen.

To put it simply, after that, he became the one who bullied the weak and feared the hard, had no self-esteem, was full of nonsense, greedy for life and afraid of death...... This is not right, he was originally afraid of death. I always fantasize that I have a dark side, and when I occasionally recall it, I immediately press it back......

He no longer cares about other people's lives and deaths, other people's opinions. He also began to resist mature beauties, women are creatures, no matter how beautiful they are, as long as they are mature, they are not attractive in his eyes.

What hasn't changed is that his freewheeling, to be precise, has become more excessive. In the past, he would be afraid of other people's opinions, but now as long as he wants to do it, what others do about him.

In this way, he gnawed on the old for ten years without worry, but he was a rich second generation, and he originally planned to gnaw for a lifetime......

And now, he has a desire to get things done. Go to the one who is willing to help him with his life. To fulfill that promise, the only one he wanted to fulfill among his many promises. He had to let his brain, which had been lazy for ten years, turn again, and of course, he still didn't have the courage to face everything. Now he has only lifted a thin veil, although he knows everything that happened at the beginning, but the details are very vague. Even after ten years, even if it was vague, that memory still made him shudder. However, in order to win the Holy Grail War, this ability to think is necessary.

......

"My hands are already full of blood...... Li Yi looked at his palms and muttered.

"That's right, after all, it's a legendary heroic spirit. Raphael replied softly.

The room suddenly fell silent, and Li Yi put down his right hand and closed his eyes. Raphael hugged his legs and his chin rested on his knees.

After a long time, Raphael's voice came from the bathroom again: "Actually, I also have a wish that I want to fulfill. After a pause, Raphael continued: "I have heard that in the west of our country, there is an incomparably huge country. There's a lot of good food there, and I want to ......."

"If you eat too much, you will become fat, and you will not be beautiful by then. So, don't go. Li Yi suddenly interrupted Raphael's words.

"My desire is not to find a boyfriend. ”

"Well, let's make a deal. Li Yi said lightly.

"Deal, if you don't kill me, you won't be able to get the Holy Grail at all, what else is there to trade. ”

"If I kill you now, I may not get the Holy Grail. Li Yi tried to sit up from the sofa again, this time it didn't hurt as much as before. Enduring the pain, Li Yi slowly sat up from the sofa, and then spoke: "In order to ensure that I can definitely get the Holy Grail, I must first deal with all the other servants. If I'm not mistaken, you Einzberen also have two magicians, twin maids. ”

"Well, they're the maids sent by the family to help me, and they're very obedient and delicious. Raphael replied.

"It doesn't matter who they are, they'll follow your orders anyway. Although I don't know your status in the Einzberen family, it certainly won't be low. The deal is simple, I won't kill you now, you order those two twin maids not to attack me at the same time, and of course their servants as well. ”

"And then after you kill them one-on-one, do you do it to me? ”

"Not true. Li Yi denied: "Use your life to bet on whether I can beat them." ”

The room fell silent again, and a minute later, Raphael's voice rang out again.

"On another condition, you can't do anything to me until all the other servants are dead. ”

"No problem. ”