"Chu Qiao, Chu Qiao......" Lin Yifan muttered in a low voice, muttering such a name that seemed to be with him for a lifetime, such a name that would pop up from time to time to eat his heart. Lin Yifan didn't know what Lu Dao was doing, and he didn't know why Lu Dao would be willing to say her name today, maybe as Geely said, it would be easier to say it, maybe he could sleep a little more peacefully tonight, isn't this exactly what Chu Qiao wants to see!

Geely returned a warm hug to Lin Yifan, gently stroked Lin Yifan's back and said, "Is her name Chu Qiao?" She must be an unusual woman! ”

"Yes, she's such a beautiful woman!" Lin Yifan sighed, he knew that he shouldn't praise another woman in front of a woman, especially in front of a woman who likes you. But for Chu Qiao, Lin Yifan is deeply in love, and his praise for her is never stingy or hidden.

"Oh, yes!" Ji Li didn't show displeasure, and after answering, he asked, "Are all your pain now for her?" ”

"My pain is nothing, she is the one who really suffers a great deal of pain!" Lin Yifan said.

"What happened to you? Have you abandoned her? So you regret the pain, don't you? Geely's curiosity was seduced and she asked a barrage of questions.

"Do you really want to hear this story?" Lin Yifan confirmed.

"Hmm!" Geely pursed her lips and nodded.

"Alright then, then turn out my ugly soul, I'm afraid that you will disdain to be with me then!" Lin Yifan said. I thought to myself, maybe this is the best way to reject auspiciousness.

"No, I believe my eyes, you must not be that kind of person, you must not be!" Geely affirmed.

"Where do you start?" Lin Yifan pondered and recalled, and gradually his eyebrows stretched, "I remember that it was a few days after I entered the university, and it was the first time I met Chu Qiao at the hometown meeting organized by Xiao Li, and it was the first time I saw her," Lin Yifan paused and said, "The first time I saw her, I was deeply attracted to her." ”

"So, she's also from Linjiang?" Gilly interjected.

"No, she is from the city of Huizhou."

"I guess she must have fallen in love with you at first sight?"

"I don't have that much charisma!" Lin Yifan laughed at himself, "It was Xiao Li who attracted her for the first time, I can see it, but I also have a good impression of me!" ”

"Xiao Li? Xiao Li who is still drinking inside? Geely was a little surprised.

"That's right, it's him, he was the public lover of all the girls in our school at that time!" Lin Yifan continued proudly, "But after a few contacts, Chu Qiao fell in love with me. ”

The sweet memories of his first love made a smile float on Lin Yifan's eyebrows from time to time, and he used all the beautiful words to describe Chu Qiao's character, temperament, speech, demeanor, and artistic temperament, Geely felt that he really couldn't compare, but is it really so good, Geely was somewhat unconvinced in his heart.

"What is lost is the best thing to lose!" Ji Li said quietly, but she regretted it as soon as the words came out, she finally made this man a little happier, how could she return the topic to a heavy weight because of her own jealousy.

Sure enough, Lin Yifan's face became solemn again.

Geely stood up, took Lin Yifan's hand and said, "It's a little late, let's go back 1"

Lin Yifan said: "Let's sit down again, don't you want to hear what we will separate for?" ”

To tell the truth, Geely wants to know more about this man, the more the better, not because of curiosity, but just to comfort him a little more, because I like him, so I want to understand him more deeply, share his joys, and share his pain. But Geely really didn't want him to bring back any heavy memories, so she struggled.

"Do you know Lu Dao, she is two years older than me, so she graduated before me and got a job as an art editor in Huizhou's "Delta" magazine, although I still have a year and a half of courses to take, but at that time we were already looking forward to the days of the beautiful two-person world in the future, but who would have thought that everything would change when she came back from a trip to Yunnan that summer......" Lin Yifan's voice was low.

"What's the matter, did she meet someone better?" Geely doesn't know why even if he exhausts his imagination.

"How come, we love each other so much!" Lin Yifan's tears swirled in the frame of his eyes, "After returning from Yunnan, I found that I was unwell, and I went to the hospital for a check-up......" Lin Yifan choked up and couldn't say any more.

Geely took out a handkerchief and gently wiped the tears from the corners of Lin Yifan's eyes, but his heart sank with Lin Yifan's narration, and he couldn't help but worry about Chu Qiao.

"It's cancer...... "Lin Yifan finally said the name ......of the devil.

"What?" Geely exclaimed.

"It's **cancer!"

"How can someone get this disease at such a young age?"

Lin Yifan continued: "This is fate, even the doctor didn't have an exact explanation, just said that there may be genetic factors, maybe it may be ......" Lin Yifan hesitated.

"Maybe what?" Geely asked anxiously.

"Maybe it's also due to inappropriate crowds." Lin Yifan finally said it.

"You, did you do a good thing?" Geely asked angrily.

"Chu Qiao was pregnant once, but she wasn't ready at the time, so she didn't ask for it and took it away!" Lin Yifan said.

"You killed her, and what happened later?"

"In fact, there was still a chance for surgery before she went to Yunnan, but she didn't take it too seriously, and she didn't go to the hospital for examination, she just thought it was a general gynecological disease, but she didn't expect it to be delayed!" Lin Yifan snorted and said.

"And then?" Geely couldn't care about Lin Yifan's feelings anymore, she was only worried about Chu Qiao.

"I can only take the whole ** out, although my life is saved, but the next thing is endless chemotherapy, her hair ...... It's all gone! Lin Yifan choked up again.

"What is chemotherapy, what is it if her hair falls out, ** if it's gone, that's what will kill her!" Geely's tears also rolled down like pearls with broken threads, and his hands couldn't help but pinched Lin Yifan's arms desperately, "Do you know what ** means for a woman?" ”

Lin Yifan seemed to be numb, let her torture, and only read in his mouth: "I know the way, I know the way ......."

"Do you know what to say!" Geely stood up abruptly and sat down at the other end of the stone chair, far away.

"Of course I know what it means to a woman, that's why she left me!" Lin Yifan said gloomily.

"You left you? You can't be the one who abandoned her, right? Geely suddenly distrusted Lin Yifan.

Lin Yifan smiled bitterly, and did not deny it: "It's about the same, it was indeed a feeling of collapse for me at that time." Lin Yifan recalled, "But it finally got over, especially the most difficult time." Life goes on like this, day after day, I rushed between the school and the hospital, and then between the school and Chu Qiao's house, time flies quickly, in a blink of an eye is a year, I thought everything was over, but when I was busy defending my thesis and looking for a job, suddenly one day she disappeared. ”

"Gone?" Geely asked.

"Yes, it's gone, even her parents are gone, I went crazy all over the world to look for her, but their family is like evaporating from the world, leaving no trace."

"It won't be an excuse for you to be busy looking for a job during that time, you must have deliberately coldened her, women are very sensitive, especially in her situation, the psychology is extremely fragile." Geely's heart was also very chaotic at this time, and he really didn't know how Lu Dao should look at such a man in front of him who originally thought he was excellent.

"Maybe, maybe I really have this kind of thought in my subconscious, I don't know the way, I really don't know the way. So my soul is ugly! Lin Yifan buried his face in his hands in pain.

"You just gave up and stopped looking for her?" Geely has hope for Lin Yifan in his heart.

"I've been looking for all her relatives, all her colleagues, all her classmates and alumni, no, just no. In order to find her, I even gave up my job at the Huizhou Evening News. ”

Geely looked at Lin Yifan's appearance, and a sense of sympathy arose, as if she saw Lin Yifan under the scorching sun, wandering helplessly in the wind and rain without success.

"It wasn't until one day I received a letter from Chu Qiao that I decided to give up." Lin Yifan turned his head to Geely and said, "If a person is sincere in trying to avoid you, no matter how hard you try, you won't be able to find her." ”

"It seems that she has been paying attention to you, Zhilu said that you are looking for her?"

"Yes, she said in the letter that she has been watching me, even if I am in the sky, my heart will always accompany me, and she told me not to look for her."

"Didn't she explain why she left you?" Geely seemed to gradually understand Chu Qiao's thoughts.

"She said that leaving me was completely her reason and decision, and if she lost her **, she would no longer be a complete woman, she just wanted to give me the best of herself, because she loved me, so she left me, and she also told me to forget her, don't have any burden in my heart, find a woman who loves me to live well, I am happy and she is happy."

"Yes, she is a great woman, she left you because she loved you, and seeing that you still miss her until now, she should feel that it is completely worth it!" Geely is full of respect for Chu Qiao.

"But I'm ...... I don't know what the Dao is, I really don't know what the Dao is like in my heart, in a trance, when I obeyed Chu Qiao's will to give up on her, I actually had a sense of relaxation, really, I really felt so relaxed. ”

"That's because your strings are too tight. Perhaps, this is the best result. Geely relieved Lin Yifan.

"No, maybe I was originally a person who didn't take responsibility, in fact, I don't have confidence, I don't know how long I can hold out, I can't guarantee what will happen in the future." Lin Yifan summed himself up and said: "So ......"

"So the two of us don't fit, do we?" Geely took over.

"Yes, I can't verify who I am, and I can't guarantee the future. So let's not go that far, it's good to be friends! Lin Yifan said.

"Then you also listen to me, in fact, I can't guarantee what will happen tomorrow, maybe tomorrow I will be tired of you saying goodbye to you, but at least I have a good impression of you now, I just follow my feelings, after listening to your story, I just want to love you well for Chu Qiao now and take care of you, understand?" Geely stood up, hugged Lin Yifan's head, and imprinted a warm kiss on his forehead and said, "Don't you want to get rid of me, don't even think about it!" ”

Lin Yifan was stunned, what else could he do but smile bitterly.