I stopped taking the cigarette from the cigarette case and turned my head to look at Ma Xiaodan. Take the cigarette out of the cigarette case and light it, take a puff and spit out a smoke ring, and the smell of second-hand smoke fills the air. I didn't speak, I could guess why Ma Xiaodan was leaving me. She has been by my side for several years, taking care of my life all the time, and she has no life of her own at all. Now that Xia Wanyu is gone, it's time for her to leave my side and pursue her own life. I put down the cigarette in my hand, watched the cigarette butt burn in the dark night, and asked Ma Xiaodan with a smile on my face, "Do you want to go there?" ”

"Chongqing." Ma Xiaodan said lightly.

"When was it decided?"

"After Xia Wanyu left."

I didn't speak, I picked up the cigarette in my hand and took a heavy puff, spit out a long smoke ring and extinguished the cigarette butt in the ashtray in front of me. Ma Xiaodan looked at a freighter in the Huangpu River in front of him and said: "I was fortunate enough to go to Chongqing once, and I had a good time there, and now I want to go over for a while and try to let me have a little bit of my own life." ”

"Go ahead." I pretended to be open-minded, but there was some reluctance in my heart.

Ma Xiaodan didn't speak, and there was some silence around him. I hesitated to stand up and said, "I'll go to sleep first, and I'll take you to the airport tomorrow." ”

Hao Ren ...... "I was just about to leave, and Ma Xiaodan called me."

I turned my head to look at Ma Xiaodan, but Ma Xiaodan stood up and hugged me and kissed me. Her lips were cold, and there was a smell of wine. The two of us didn't kiss for long, it could even be said that it was fleeting. She looked at me close at hand, hesitated and said, "Take me to the train station, the two o'clock train tonight." ”

I couldn't hold back any longer, reached out and hugged Ma Xiaodan in my arms and hugged it tightly. Ma Xiaodan closed her eyes and was hugged by me, and she didn't say anything more. The imaginary passion didn't exist, the reality was that I let go of her, helped her pack her things briefly, and drove her to the train station overnight. On the way, I asked Ma Xiaodan why he didn't take a plane, but had to take a train. Ma Xiaodan said with a smile: "I want to see the scenery along the way. ”

At two o'clock in the evening, the Shanghai railway station was still overcrowded, and I took Ma Xiaodan to wait in the waiting hall. I told Ma Xiaodan not to wronged himself when he went there, and to call me if he had any trouble, although I didn't have anything to do with it, as long as I had money, anything could be solved. Ma Xiaodan lowered her head and looked at her shoes, with her luggage backpack next to her. Twenty minutes before the drive, the station staff opened the entrance gate, and passengers poured into the platform like a stream of water, and I took Ma Xiaodan's backpack to see her off.

Ma Xiaodan took the backpack in my hand and looked up at me.

I opened my arms to give her the last hug. Ma Xiaodan walked up again, stood on tiptoe and kissed me on the lips, this time she stuck out her tongue and kissed me at the train station. The crowd around us was endless, and the two of us seemed to freeze the frame. After the last moment, she gasped and tried to hug me and said, "Live well." ”

After speaking, Ma Xiaodan turned around and ran into the platform, and his figure disappeared into the entrance passage. There was the sound of a train horn in the distance, and I stood in place, reminiscing about Ma Xiaodan's last impulse, and I felt a little abrupt. The youth of that year, in the streamer of these years, all turned into stars and fixed in the sky of life. You can only look at it from a distance, not touch it.

I left the train station and returned to my car but drove away without hurrying. Sitting in the car, lighting a cigarette, turning on the midnight radio and listening to the soothing songs inside, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. Ma Xiaodan has been by my side for the past few years, as if she has been working as a nanny for my family, and now that she has left suddenly, I am really a little unaccustomed to it. But what can I do if I don't let her leave, everyone has their own life, and I can't tie her to me for the rest of my life.

In fact, I also know that the reason why Ma Xiaodan stayed by my side was for the old feelings back then, but after so many years, the impulse of his youth has long turned into a friendship accumulated over the years. The only thing that can ignite the impulse in our hearts is probably the broken house in our hometown. It's a pity that the dilapidated house was also burned to ashes by Ma Xiaodan, leaving no trace.

After smoking a cigarette, start the car and go home.

Facing the empty villa, I took a shower and lay on the wide bed but couldn't sleep. sent a message to Ma Xiaodan to ask how she was, and Ma Xiaodan said that it was not bad, and there were sporadic lights outside the car window at night. I didn't reply to the message, and when I felt tired, I threw my phone aside and went to sleep.

After Ma Xiaodan left, my life was not a mess. But when I came home at night and faced the empty villa, I felt lonely. Over the years, I have always been surrounded by all kinds of people, and there are people who accompany me every day when I return home, and now I am suddenly alone, and I feel a little uncomfortable in my heart. I want to talk but no one says, and when I'm bored and crazy, I go to the nearby park. But late at night, the park was empty, and I got bored after a long time.

Later, I found out that there was an ancient temple near my house, in the center of Shanghai, which was a tourist attraction, but there were not many people coming and going. Every night in the ancient temple there will be an old monk in the Buddhist hall to chant the scriptures, when I can't sleep at home alone, I will go to the ancient temple to sit for a while, listen to the old monk chanting, go to the fifth day, I know that the old monk is called Yuansheng, is the host in this ancient temple.

The old monk Yuansheng told me that the reason why this ancient temple was preserved in the downtown area. It was because there used to be a city leader's wife who believed in Buddhism and had old friends with him. Hearing him say this, I couldn't help but laugh a little in my heart, as if Liu Meiling, the wife of the old fox, believed in Buddhism, and I didn't break this reason. Occasionally, I will stuff some money into the merit box in the ancient temple, the ancient temple is only a line away from the prosperity of Shanghai, how can the monks here be out of the dust, I stuff some money completely because it can calm me down when I am bored.

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After Ma Xiaodan went to Chongqing, I contacted her twice. She didn't say what she was doing in Chongqing, and I didn't ask. I had a strange feeling that my busy world had suddenly become quiet, that I used to have to deal with all kinds of things every day, and that I had to rack my brains for all kinds of struggles, but now I have only one person in my life, and there is no second person and nothing to do. The company's development has entered a bottleneck, and if you want to break through this bottleneck, you need to look at opportunities rather than actions. I go to work in the company every day, but I am faced with trivial things that Liu Jiyang can handle. I wanted to find someone to eat at night, but found that only Wang Yingli was the only one left in Shanghai who could tell the truth. Although Yang Yang's company is in Shanghai, she has to run all over the country because of her business. But what makes me a little helpless is that because of Mu Mu's problem, Wang Yingli has been very busy at work recently, and often works overtime until more than two o'clock in the evening, so I am embarrassed to disturb her.

The power of loneliness is strong, and gradually the Buddhist scriptures can no longer suppress my crazy boredom. I ran around the neighborhood every night, from the first 10 kilometers to the next 20 kilometers. Later, I ran around the city roads, and finally I found myself traversing the whole city. Rushing to the beach before dawn, sweating all over his body, he didn't know what he really needed. I found myself at a loss, not knowing what I needed and what I was working for. It scared me very much, very scared. I missed Xia Wanyu a little, but I didn't have the idea of flying to the Netherlands to find her. I myself was afraid of seeing Xia Wanyu, and I was even more afraid of seeing Zhang Ling. I had to transfer this fear to the gym, I had a lot of gym equipment in the gym at home, and I was half tired every night before I could fall asleep in bed.

One night Wang Yingli came to see me, I was running at high speed on the treadmill, she came to me and looked at the mileage displayed on the treadmill, and said with a playful smile: "Forty-three kilometers, continue to maintain, and strive to run 100 miles every day." ”

I didn't speak, and the mileage soon exceeded fifty kilometers, a hundred miles. But I didn't mean to stop, but continued to run, Wang Yingli sat on the bicycle opposite me, pedaling slowly. Finally, when I was exhausted, I jumped off the treadmill and lay on the floor covered in sweat and gasping for air.

Wang Yingli stepped forward to take a look, and said with a smile: "Seventy-eight kilometers, not bad." But I want to see what you look like after running 100 kilometers at a time, and then tie sandbags to your legs, so that the run is more powerful and impactful. ”

I was so tired that I couldn't squeeze out a smile, and I felt like my lungs were going to explode as I lay on the ground. Seventy-eight kilometers, one hundred and fifty-six miles. I couldn't have imagined this before, but now I just feel like it's the amount of exercise I need for a day. Wang Yingli took out a cup of hot water from the water dispenser next to her and handed it to me, you can't drink cold water after exercising, otherwise it is easy to drink your stomach.

I took two sips and returned the hot water to Wang Yingli, who squatted beside me and looked at my eyes condescendingly.

"Tired?"

"Tired."

"Stupid!" Wang Yingli scolded viciously with a wicked smile, and she said: "To give you an objective evaluation, you are obviously the result of Wanyu's departure, the sperm has nowhere to vent in the brain, you need to find a woman Zuo'ai now, otherwise if you continue like this, you will hold back the problem." ”

I glared at her, got up from the floor, and dragged my tired body into the bathroom. I was taking a shower inside, and Wang Yingli was talking to me outside. After I took a simple shower, I came out of it and went back to the bedroom to lie down, before entering the bedroom, I turned to look at Wang Yingli, who had been following me, and asked, "You want to go in too?" ”

Wang Yingli hugged her arms and looked at me with a wicked smile.

I sighed helplessly and said, "What the hell are you trying to say?" ”

Wang Yingli said lightly: "Zhang Ling is pregnant with twins, a boy and a girl, two!" ”

I was stunned, but Wang Yingli turned to leave, and said as she walked: "Excessive exercise can easily lead to body aging, you can take it easy, if you have no place to vent, you can think about what you should do most now." ”

When I walked to the staircase, Wang Yingli turned to look at me and asked, "Is your current achievement really great?" Hao Ren! ”——

PS: It's Monday again, everyone has flowers or something to give steamed buns, this week our flowers exceeded 1,000, and the steamed buns are very happy in their hearts. And the VIP also has the Gu Ran brothers who took the lead in voting six thousand, and sorted out the plot tonight, and tomorrow will strive for six chapters and four chapters, and save two chapters. The steamed buns should also be a little saved, otherwise something will happen, and it will be a real headache.