"Mijia, I must have been dead when you heard this recording, I originally wanted to leave you a paragraph in the form of a video, but I couldn't say anything when the video rack was in front of me, looking at that camera I was thinking maybe you didn't want to see my face at all."

Mi Jia listened, her teeth bit her lip tightly, and even her hands were clenched tightly, at this moment, she had an indescribable love.

Jiang Heshan's voice continued to come from the small voice recorder.

"There are some things I have always wanted to say to you, but I have never had the courage, and I confess that I have always hated you from the beginning, or more accurately I hated your mother, because she made me lose my only son.

I have always placed the blame on your mother for your father's death, and if it weren't for her connection, my son wouldn't have died, and if it weren't for her, my son wouldn't have betrayed me, or he would have taken over the 'Jiang clan' from me by now.

I have never changed this concept, even eighteen years after Ah Heng's death, I still hate your mother as much as I did at the beginning, even including you.

I thought I would never be looking for you in my life, until Xiaojie's illness later, I found you again, you refused to donate bone marrow to Junjie, you accused me of saying that the tragedy of your parents was because of my stubbornness will cause an irreparable situation, and the most hated and complained is never me but you, I didn't take this sentence to heart, I even thought how ridiculous what you said at the time, obviously it was your mother and daughter who caused me to lose my best heir, and the most pitiful person was me, but you have to point your nose and say no.

It wasn't until later that I looked at the emaciated and pale Junjie from the hospital bed, and I hated God for being so unfair to me, that he had already made me lose my only son, and now he was coming to take my only grandson, and that I had to suffer twice from the white-haired man to the black-haired man.

Seeing that Junjie thought he was weak after chemotherapy, I swore in his bed that I would let you save him, at any cost.

But he looked at me and shook his head, and said that the last thing he wanted to save him was you, and he said that he owed you too much, that he had taken too much from you, and that he would feel so sorry for you if he had saved him against his will, and I couldn't understand why he thought that way.

He lay on the hospital bed and asked me not to say anything to listen to him alone, and I couldn't refuse his request, so I nodded and agreed. ”

Speaking of this, Jiang Heshan in the recorder suddenly coughed violently, listening to the voice, he seemed to be very painful and uncomfortable......

"Ahem, ahem, ahem......"

Sitting on the bed, Mi Jia listened to the coughing sound coming from the recorder, and her heart was a little unconsciously involved for him, and when she just wanted to say something, she remembered that it was just a recording he had left before, and the person had already passed away a week ago, even if he wanted to care, he had no chance.

Thinking about it, he bit his lip tightly and put his hand down again.

After a long cough, Jiang Heshan's voice came out of the recorder again, which sounded much more relaxed than the heaviness just now, as if he didn't want her to worry, and said with some self-joking, "People are old, and some old problems that some don't have will all come to the door, hehe." ”

Mija bit her lip and continued to listen to him.

"Junjie's boy told me that he had always blamed himself for who he was, that he had always felt that he was an aggressor, that he had taken too much of what was not his, and that you were the one who was plundered by him.

He said that you are the rightful descendant of the Jiang family, even if you are not surnamed Jiang, you will have the blood of the Jiang family, and he said that if it wasn't for his mother, maybe I and you, Ah Heng and your mother, would not have become like that, he said that it was not because of his mother's relationship at all, and the biggest relationship might be because of him.

He said that he believes that Ah Heng and your mother are truly in love, because only if you really love someone with sincerity, you will do anything for her, and Ah Heng does not want his family, even wealth and status for your mother, if you really use any standard to measure, maybe the qiē he did for your mother at the beginning is the best measuring stick.

He said that if it wasn't for his relationship, even if it was a stalemate, one day I would accept you and your mother, he said that parents are always good for their children, and no parent will really put their children in a desperate situation.

I don't understand why Junjie's child is so precocious, he is obviously a teenager, but he can see more clearly than I have lived for decades.

Junjie's child's words made me start to reflect on my own behavior, he said that no parent will really bring his child to a desperate situation, but I am the kind of parent he said could not have, because I really forced my own son, that is, the father of you and Junjie, to a dead end, just to bring him back.

It was only on that day that I realized that I was not a good father at all, that I had never considered your father's preferences, that I had always imposed all my will on him, that I had pushed him too hard, that I had arranged all my life for him, that this was the best thing for him, but that I had never considered whether he would be willing to accept it.

At the beginning, because of Ah Heng's resistance and insistence on marrying your mother, I kept persecuting, thinking that as long as I was decisive enough, sooner or later he would come back to me and realize his mistakes, so I cut off his funds, and even cut off all the ways he could make money, suppressed him everywhere, and really forced him to a dead end, it took ten years to finally wait for him to turn back, I even ignored what he said when he came back to me, he said that he could listen to my return to Jiang, As long as I don't deliberately suppress your mother.

I don't really understand what he meant, he came back just to want your mother to congratulate you on a better life, not because he didn't love, but just for the sake of love.

It was in that situation that I even knew that the woman was not in the right mind and kept her by his side, so that he could let go of the mistakes that men were prone to make when he had a wife and daughter.

It was only at that moment that I remembered the words that accused me, and you said that I caused what I am now, and that was not a slander against me, but a real accusation, that the loss of my only son was the result of my own actions. ”