This night, Cheng Yue barely slept, lying on the bed with his eyes open, not that he was not tired, he barely slept during this time because of his mother's affairs, he could feel that his body was at its limit, and it was about to collapse, but even if he wanted to sleep, but even if he closed his eyes, he still couldn't sleep.

Staring at the ceiling for a long time, Cheng Yue didn't know what time it was, the room was dark, and Mi Jia fell asleep peacefully with his arms on his pillow.

Lying like this and thinking about the words that Mi Jia said to him at night, he knew that he had made her worried, and he told himself more than once not to think about it, since the matter has happened, to this point can only be faced, even if it is painful, it can only be faced, and only when it is faced can this matter be really put down.

He understood all these truths, but he never managed to do it, he couldn't forget the scene when his mother's hand slipped from his hand, and he couldn't forget the scene when his mother fell to the ground and bled all over the ground, these images had too much impact on him, and he couldn't get rid of it from his mind for a while.

Thinking like this, Cheng Yue gently withdrew his hand that was pillowed by Mi Jia and let her lie back on the pillow, moving very carefully, for fear of accidentally waking her up.

After making sure that Mi Jia didn't wake up, Cheng Yue lifted the quilt and got off the bed, didn't turn on the light, and walked out of the room directly.

Cheng Yue opened the door and stood in the hallway, but unexpectedly found that there was a faint light in the living room downstairs.

Cheng Yue frowned slightly, and made sure that the light should come out of Cheng Shaohe's room, and went directly upstairs and towards Cheng Shaohe's room.

The door was ajar, the lights in the room shone from the inside to the outside, Cheng Yue gently pushed the door in, only to see Cheng Shao and a person sitting on the bed, still holding a glass of water in his hand, his eyes staring ahead, but his eyes were not focused, empty and without look, and he didn't even notice that Cheng Yue came in.

"Dad." Cheng Yue called out to him.

Cheng Shaohe came back to his senses at this time, raised his eyes to look at Cheng Yue, paused for a moment, and was a little surprised, before asking, "Why haven't you slept yet?" ”

Cheng Yue didn't answer, and asked rhetorically, "Dad, why don't you sleep yet." ”

Cheng Shaohe shook his head, put the water cup in his hand on the bedside table on the side, and said, "I can't sleep." Lying on the bed, he glanced at Cheng Yue and said, "Sit down." ”

Cheng Yue nodded, then sat down on the chair on the side, looked at Cheng Shaohe and asked, pondered for a moment before asking, "Is Dad still thinking about Mom?" "During this time, everyone was used to speaking carefully.

Cheng Shaohe smiled bitterly, didn't look at him, just whispered, "When I closed my eyes, all that appeared in front of me was her." ”

Cheng Yue looked at him, although he had not lived with them for a long time, he had never doubted the couple's feelings for their mother.

I don't know how to comfort me, let alone my father, even if I close my eyes in my heart, my mother's face will appear in front of me, not to mention my father, who has been in love with my mother for more than 30 years.

Looking at Cheng Shaohe with such a haggard look, Cheng Yue was a little unbearable, and persuaded him to say, "Dad, people can't be resurrected after death, some things no matter how unwilling we are to face them, what happens is what happens, and we have no way to change them." ”

Cheng Shaohe turned his head to look at him, closed his eyes in some pain, and then opened his eyes to look at Cheng Yue after a while and said, "I understand what you said, in fact, so many days have passed, and I am much better than the first day, at least I accept the fact that your mother has died, but I just want me to forget about it and start a new life." Saying this, Cheng Shaohe paused, and then continued, "I can't do it......"

Of course Cheng Yue can understand what he said, not to mention his father, how can he not be himself, Mi Jia has persuaded him many times, every time he sees Mi Jia worried about himself, he always tells him that he must do his best to cheer himself up, but he really wants to do it, but he still can't do it, he doesn't want to do this, but he is a little powerless.

"Lately I've been wondering if it was really wrong to do that." Cheng Shaohe on the bed slowly spoke, his eyes did not look at Cheng Yue, he looked straight ahead, and his voice was very soft, as if he was talking to himself.

Cheng Yue didn't answer, just sat quietly and looked at him.

"Actually, I thought about it a few years ago." As he spoke, Cheng Shaohe turned his head to look at Cheng Yue, "When the incident between Cheng Chao and Jiang Yawen happened, I was thinking, maybe I was really wrong, if it wasn't for my irresponsibility, there wouldn't have been so many things that happened later, maybe Cheng Chao wouldn't have become what he is now, he hates me and hates Wen Lan, but he made you a victim." Saying this, Cheng Shaohe slowly turned red, he felt guilty about Cheng Yue, although he had never told Cheng Yue, but in his heart he knew too well that he owed Cheng Yue too much, so much that he couldn't pay it off in this life.

Seeing him like this, Cheng Yue didn't want him to feel uncomfortable, and said, "Dad, don't say it." Although those things caused him a lot of damage at the beginning, but as time passed, those wounds no longer hurt and slowly healed, and for him now, it is just an unpleasant past.

Cheng Shaohe raised his hand, shook his head and said, "I have wanted to tell you these words for a long time, but I have never had a chance, you don't let me say it today, I am afraid that I will not have the courage to talk to you again in the future." ”

When he said this, Cheng Yue could say anything, and without speaking, he sat quietly and looked at him.

"When Cheng Chao made a big mistake, I really thought about calling the police, but because of guilt for his mother, I finally calmed him down, at that time I and your mother ignored your feelings, and at the same time you suffered so much humiliation and asked you to do such an excessive thing, from the day you packed up and left the house, I and your mother both opened their mouths to regret it, regret not considering your mood at all, since that time, I have been thinking about whether it was really wrong to insist on being with your mother, How many people have we hurt for the so-called love of the two of us, and I have always felt that I owe something to Cheng Chao, so I tried my best to make up for it, but I didn't expect that while making up for Cheng Chao, we were still hurting you. Cheng Shaohe said this, tears couldn't help falling, he closed his eyes and looked up, trying to calm his somewhat excited feelings at the moment.

Cheng Yue didn't speak, his eyes were a little red, his hands were on his legs, and he clenched them tightly into fists.