Tan Mingtao was very calm, and at this time he knew to find a doctor first, instead of messing around like Mu Xinyan.

"Gu Feng, don't be afraid, I'm here, and the doctor will come to examine you soon." Mu Xinyan patted the back of his hand and comforted him.

When the doctor came, Mu Xinyan and Tan Duotao stepped aside, so that the doctor could examine Gu Feng, and after careful examination, the doctor said to Mu Xinyan and Tan Mingtao: "The patient is no longer in trouble, just rest and recuperate." ”

"Thank you, doctor."

Tan Mingtao sent the doctor at the door, and saw Mu Changqing coming, still carrying breakfast in his hand: "Mingtao, this is breakfast." ”

Tan Mingtao came in with Mu Changqing: "Uncle Mu, Gu Feng, he's awake." ”

"Awake?" Mu Changqing's eyes lit up, "It's good to wake up." ”

Mu Xinyan had already brought hot water, twisted a towel to wipe Gu Ran's face, and wiped her arms: "Gu Feng, what do you want to eat, I'll buy it for you." ”

Mu Changqing stepped forward and put the thermos bucket in his hand on the bedside table, and smiled lovingly at Gu Feng: "Gu Feng, this is Auntie's porridge, it's delicious." You are weak, eat a little more. ”

"Uncle, Xin'er...... I don't have a taste. Gu Feng couldn't eat anything now, he looked around, "I'm not dead?" Why am I still alive? ”

"Gu Feng, what stupid thing are you talking about? You can't spoil your body like that. Mu Xinyan frowned, Gu Feng's eyes were still gray, "Gu Feng, you can't give up yourself because of your mother, you know?" She has her way of making trouble, you have your way of living, you don't care too much about other people's eyes. You should care more about the feelings of those of us who love you. We love you, so we're afraid of losing you. ”

Mu Changqing also said earnestly: "Feng'er, no matter what your mother does, you are still my son." You can live in this house with peace of mind. We're still a family. Don't think about the unhappy things anymore. ”

Gu Feng's eyes lit up: "I didn't think much about it, Uncle Mu, you go to work." ”

Mu Changqing looked at Mu Xinyan and Tan Mingtao, there was someone here to take care of Gu Feng, and he also left with peace of mind. Mu Xinyan opened the thermos bucket and filled two bowls of porridge and some side dishes: "Fourth brother, you can have some breakfast." Then she put the bowl on the coffee table, and then picked up a bowl and prepared to feed Gu Feng.

Gu Feng did not refuse, and cooperated with Mu Xinyan to eat half a bowl.

Mu Xinyan also ate some, and then went to wash the dishes and clean up. Gu Feng was silent most of the time, either he closed his eyes and rested, not wanting to speak.

Tan Mingtao went out for a walk, and then changed to Mu Xinyan.

Tan Mingtao, who came up again, saw that Mu Xinyan was not in the ward, and only Gu Feng looked at the treetops outside the window alone, it was already autumn, and the weather was relatively cool. Tan Mingtao walked over and sat on the single sofa in front of the hospital bed, he stared at Gu Feng's thin face: "Gu Feng, how did you get poisoned?" They don't ask you because they don't want to mention your wounds, but why are you poisoned? ”

Gu Feng didn't withdraw his gaze, and the bright light stained his pupils: "Mr. Tan, you don't need to know how I was poisoned." I just don't want to live anymore. ”

"Why? Will you be able to go to the United States for the most advanced treatment in no time? Not even the slightest glimmer of hope should not be given up. If you do this, it will only make Xin'er and Uncle feel heartache. Tan Mingtao frowned, "They have paid so much for you, how can you choose to die so lightly?" And what about their efforts? It's all in vain, do you still want to end up with a person gone? You're so selfish like this! ”

Gu Feng's pupils flickered, and he gradually withdrew his gaze: "I'm selfish, but I want my heart to be happy even more." Don't you love her? Why save me, if I die, she can marry you. I don't want to make it unpleasant between you because of me. I owe her so much, I don't want to drag her down, I want to keep happiness in my heart......"

Tan Mingtao suddenly felt that he had nothing to say, everything this man did was for Mu Xinyan or for her happiness. Then he still has reason to blame him for his selfishness. He felt like his throat was blocked, and his throat was astringent.

"Don't you want to see her happy?" Tan Mingtao looked at the man on the hospital bed who had already shone.

"Whether I can see it or not, I know that my heart will be happy, because you will not treat her wrong, and you love her." Gu Feng's eyes were full of belief in Tan Mingtao.

"So yesterday you told me to give her to me, and you were relieved. Actually, I want to talk to me, but I want to tell you in person, I will be good to my heart, so that you can commit suicide with peace of mind, right? Tan Mingtao thought about it before and after, and suddenly realized that Gu Feng had already had this idea, but he ignored his strangeness, "Yesterday, when you turned pale and said that you wanted to rest, the toxin had already attacked in your body, wasn't it?" Why are you so stupid? ”

In the past six years, Gu Feng's feelings for Mu Xinyan are not no longer in love, but more and more in love, increasing day by day. For her to give her life, use her life to fulfill her happiness.

"I said I don't want to drag down her happiness......" Gu Feng smiled again, because he was sick, his vitality was greatly damaged, and he was a little weak, "I just want her to be happy, so let me be selfish for a while, okay?" ”

"Gu Feng, if you make a mistake, your heart will definitely be heartbroken. If she knows that her happiness is the fulfillment of your life, do you think there is still a possibility between me and her? She's already lost you once, it took her six years to get a new life, this time, maybe she'll take longer than six years, and you can't bear to see her like this? Gu Feng, you can't think like that, you can't attribute all the bad side to yourself. You only have your shoulders, you can't handle so much. ”

"Mr. Tan, don't talk about it, it's good that she can come out one day, it's better than always being with me, a wasted person." Gu Feng seemed to have made up his mind, "Mr. Tan, help me once." ”

"Impossible!" Tan Mingtao interrupted him coldly, what kind of request is this.

"Then I'll figure it out for myself." Gu Feng's lips were bitter, "There is always one of a hundred methods that can work." ”

"Gu Feng, calm down, not all problems can be solved with death--" Tan Mingtao really didn't know what to say.

"I'm a wasted person, I can't do anything, I can only lie here and wait to die, I have to die anyway, it's better to die early and get rid of it early, it's just a torture for me to go on like this. I'm already like this, why do I have to suffer all this, why is even death a luxury? Gu Feng raised the decibel level excitedly, as if he was questioning Tan Mingtao, and as if he was questioning God, "It's better to die, and it's a hundred." For me, death solves the problem. ”

The air was so quiet that there was mourning, and only the cold sound of instruments could be heard.

At this time, Mu Xinyan in the bathroom was washing fruits, and when he heard the conversation between Gu Feng and Tan Mingtao, she was still crying, breathing too tightly, so tight that it was astringent, and the sourness was washing in her chest. She bit her lip and dug her nails into the apple. Both men in this ward have affection for her, and no matter what choice she makes, she will be sorry for the other one, and it is all wrong. But you still have to make a choice!

Mu Xinyan wiped the tears on her face, let herself pretend that she didn't hear anything, came out lightly, and then pretended to come in from the outside, and raised her lips: "I just went to buy some apples, which are sweet and crunchy." I'll cut one for you to taste. ”

Mu Xinyan picked up the fruit knife and began to peel the apple, there was something in her heart, and it was inevitable that something would go wrong, so she accidentally cut her finger. Mu Xinyan frowned in pain: "Ahhhh

Tan Mingtao immediately got up and went over, pulled her bleeding soft fingers, put them in his mouth and licked them gently, licking her fingertips with his soft tongue, his tongue wrapped her fingers tightly, rubbing them carefully, and the rough touch on the tongue coating rushed straight into Mu Xinyan's brain like an electric current, making her blush and heartbeat, but she tried hard to calm herself. And the smell of blood spread on Tan Mingtao's taste buds.

Gu Feng stared at them so closely, and felt that they were the most suitable pair. But Mu Xinyan bumped into Gu Feng's gaze in a panic, and the red egg became even hotter: "Fourth brother, it's okay." ”

Mu Xinyan hurriedly lowered her eyelashes and took her fingers out of Tan Mingtao's mouth.

"I'll go get the medicine and gauze." Tan Mingtao got up from in front of her and walked out of the ward.

Gu Feng looked at Mu Xinyan who was hanging down her eyelashes: "Xin'er, he is very good to you, cherish it, there are not many good men like this." ”

"Gu Feng, promise me, no matter what happens, don't despise your life, if you have to seek death this time, I will never marry in my life." Mu Xinyan warned him that as long as he lived, there would be any kind of miracle, and when a person died, there would be nothing.

"Xin'er, you can be different--" Gu Feng frowned.

Mu Xinyan interrupted him: "I'll add one more, if you die, I'll die with you, I don't want to care about anything." If you're dead, you're gone, and you don't have to think about it anymore. You'd better take my words to heart, and do what I say! ”

Gu Feng frowned even more helplessly: "Xin'er, don't be like this." ”

"Then you promise me." Mu Xinyan glared at him, really angry.

Gu Feng nodded in embarrassment.

Tan Mingtao had already turned back, took cotton swabs, disinfectant and gauze from the nurse, and put them on the table. He sat beside Mu Xinyan, took her hand, rubbed the potion on his wound, and disinfected her. Then wrap it with white gauze until it's done.

Tan Mingtao because there were only three days to go this time, when he was about to go back, Gu Feng had not been discharged from the hospital. And she had to go. Mu Xinyan saw him off: "Fourth brother, settle Gu Feng in the United States and I'll contact you again." ”

"Okay." Tan Mingtao once again left the woman he loved.

Mu Xinyan looked at Tan Mingtao looking back at her at the security checkpoint, and that smile, gentle and shallow, was engraved in Mu Xinyan's heart and will never be erased. His back disappeared from her sight, and Mu Xinyan let the fine crystal shine on her pupils.

Fourth brother, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......

A week later, Mu Xinyan and Mu Changqing took Gu Feng to the United States, and they had already contacted a hospital, so they could just go directly.

After Gu Feng was settled, Mu Xinyan stood in front of the window, looking at the night, her heart was cold. Before she left, the letter she wrote to Tan Mingtao should have arrived. What kind of expression will he have when he receives it? Anger, pain...... But it won't be a pleasure. Because she let him down after all.

But only when she accompanies Gu Feng, he won't be cranky, and he won't give up on himself. And Gu Feng's condition does not get better overnight, maybe five years, ten years, or even a lifetime...... She didn't want to talk about Mingtao waiting for her like this, that would make her feel even more ashamed of him. Maybe only by letting go of each other can he give up on himself and start a new life for himself.

She may attract a lot of scolding if she does this, after all, she is such a good man, she just gave up. She doesn't know what to do! But life is higher than one qiē. Love doesn't have to be together. She'd be thinking about him all the time, but wouldn't let him know.

When Tan Mingtao returned home, he was still wearing a camouflage training uniform, and the military boots on his feet were stained with mud. He took off his hat, changed his shoes, and walked inside, and saw his mother Fang Huaqin knitting a sweater, which was knitted for the baby in Fu Xiangwan's belly. She's a grandmother preparing for a qiē.

"Fourth, there is your letter on the table, which was written to you by Xinyan." Fang Huaqin's gaze fell on the letter on the coffee table.

At this time, Tan Yali came out of the kitchen with water: "Fourth brother, you and your fourth sister-in-law are really romantic, and you are still in love." I really envy me. ”

"Then you can find one too." Tan Mingtao bent down to get the letter and went upstairs.

Tan Mingtao didn't rush to read the letter, but put the letter on the coffee table, went to take a shower first, and changed into home clothes before he sat down on the sofa and opened the seal.

Mu Xinyanjuan's delicate handwriting came into view: "Fourth brother, allow me to call you like this for the last time." Fourth brother, when you received this letter, I had already arrived in the United States with Gu Feng, you don't have to look for me, because I won't return to China, I want to accompany Gu Feng here, start our past again, and continue our future. Fourth brother, I'm sorry, let all your waiting come to naught, whether you scold or complain about me, I don't complain. I also know that I am very selfish, I don't care about your feelings, I just care about Gu Feng, but now Gu Feng needs me more than you. After all, Gu Feng and I have accompanied each other through the most beautiful time of our youth, and our relationship is very comparable. I hope he lives well, and I can't afford him to die again. Fourth brother, let it go, thank you for giving me so many good times, let's break up......"

When Tan Mingtao saw this, he couldn't take it anymore, and the letter slipped from his fingertips and fell on the carpet. It was already impossible to tell what it was like in his chest, as if all the uncomfortable feelings had accumulated there in an instant, drilling into his heart fiercely.

He immediately dialed Mu Xinyan's mobile phone, but the sound of turning off the phone came over and over again. The cold mechanical female voice stung his diaphragm again and again. She chose to leave him in such a way, and disappeared into his world in such a decisive way.

He can understand her, but he can't accept such a unilateral decision to break up!

Tan Mingtao sat there quietly, his hands clenched into fists and put them to his mouth. He kept a position, no crying, but there was a terrible smell of sadness in the air.

It wasn't until Tan Yali came up and knocked on the door and asked him to eat that Tan Mingtao took a few deep breaths and adjusted his affection and went downstairs.

Today is Friday, Tan Xiyue and Fu Xiangwan also returned home and sat around a table, and the atmosphere was very lively.

After dinner, in the living room, grandfather Tan Zhengru asked Tan Mingtao: "Fourth, what do you say about the marriage between you and Xin'er, what does the Mu family say?" You've been on two trips here, why haven't you heard a word? ”

"Yes, fourth, when will you and Xin'er get married? Your mother and I are waiting for your words, and then get ready. Grandma Tan also asked him.

Tan Xiyue was holding a glass of water, and his eyes fell on Tan Mingtao's face, the fourth brother at the dinner table today was not very interested.

"Xin'er and I won't be married for the time being." Tan Mingtao didn't want to hide it from everyone, telling the truth, but he still found a white lie, "Because I have been very busy in the past few years, I don't have time, and Xin'er is also ready to continue her studies, and I also encourage and support her, so she went abroad." When my work is no longer busy and my heart is back, we will talk about getting married. ”

As soon as these words came out, there was no doubt that the power of an atomic bomb exploded, and everyone in the Tan family was stunned. I haven't woken up from such news for a long time.

Father Tan Qide frowned: "Fourth, we all support you if you have something to do, but this marriage is also a major event in life." I'm busy with things at work, but this marriage is not without a time to get married. I'll tweak it for you and make some time. There is no longer too late to get married and go to further study. ”

"Dad, we'll arrange the marriage ourselves, can we give us some time? Anyway, we won't be married in a few years. This is our common decision. Tan Mingtao's tone was a little tough, and he didn't want everyone to continue on this topic.

"I obviously said that I wanted to get married, why is this thing so messed up? Fourth, is there something wrong between you and Xin'er, you are a man, be generous, and have something to say. Fang Huaqin also persuaded his son, "Coax more, if it doesn't work, apologize for the mistake." ”

"Mom, what are you coaxing, the fourth brother and Xin'er are good, it's just that they have a strict plan for their lives." Tan Xiyue opened his mouth to help talk about Mingtao, "Their marriage is just pushed, there will be no problem, don't think about it." ”

The people who talked about the family didn't know about Gu Feng, so they couldn't figure out how big a problem had arisen between Tan Mingtao and Mu Xinyan.

Tan Mingtao got up from the sofa: "Grandpa, grandma, parents, I'll go upstairs first." ”

Tan Xiyue also followed Tan Mingtao and gently helped Fu Xiangwan to go upstairs. He stopped Tan Mingtao: "Fourth brother, let's talk." ”

Tan Mingtao turned his head and smiled faintly, thanking Tan Xiyue for helping him out just now: "Go to my room." ”

The three of them entered Tan Mingtao's bedroom, and after sitting down, Fu Xiangwan asked anxiously: "Fourth brother, what happened between you and Xin'er?" ”

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I know that everyone must have opinions, Ye Zi's arrangement has its own deep meaning, please don't get too excited.