Tan Mingtao sat in the single sofa, put his hands on the armrests, lowered his head slightly, the light refracted by the gorgeous and bright crystal chandelier above his head sprinkled on his short hair, fainting a soft light luster, and the dark shadow also blurred his deep outline, and he couldn't really see his expression at the moment. Even so, Tan Xiyue and Fu Xiangwan could feel the silent sadness on his body, and it seemed that there was a big problem between Tan Mingtao and Mu Xinyan.

"Fourth brother, what's going on between you and Xin'er?" Tan Xiyue was also worried, he had never seen the fourth brother show sadness so lightly.

Tan Mingtao is a soldier who has received all kinds of the most brutal training, has also been to the most difficult environment, and has participated in the most dangerous missions, and has exercised the most resolute self and strong will. Negative feelings such as sadness or bad ones are impossible to see on his face. A soldier sheds blood without tears.

Now Tan Xiyue saw this sad expression on Tan Mingtao's body that did not belong to him, which can show that the matter between him and Mu Xinyan has reached the point where it makes him painful and sad. Let the fourth brother can't bear it.

"Fourth brother, you speak, we are brothers, Xinyan and Wanwan are like sisters, what can't you say, you are so silent, we are worried about you." Tan Xi is really worried, this is the first time that the fourth brother has seriously fallen in love with a girl, and it is difficult to get out once he is injured.

"Fourth brother......" Fu Xiangwan also called him softly, and there was a trace of anxiety in his voice.

Tan Mingtao twitched his eyelashes for a while, and the color of pain under his eyes also lightened a little: "I know you care about me, but this matter is also very common, as long as men and women are in love, there will be zài." ”

After that, Tan Mingtao handed the letter from Mu Xinyanyan to Tan Xiyue. He choked in his throat, but when the words came to his mouth, he couldn't tell the fact that Mu Xinyan was going to break up with him. He hasn't slowed down until now, it's one thing to understand, it's another to accept.

Tan Xiyue took the letter and put it in front of him to look at it carefully, and Fu Xiangwan also leaned over and looked at it with him. Both of their faces were a little condensed, obviously they were going to get married, why did things take a turn for the worse and fall into the current situation.

"Xinyan is actually going to break up?" Tan Xiyue's gaze fell from the letter paper to Tan Mingtao's cold face, and the lines at his chin were tense.

"Xin'er, she may have her reasons for doing this. Fourth brother, don't be too sad, I'll help you ask your heart, this time I'm on your side. I'll help you get your heart back. Fu Xiangwan assured that since Mu Xinyan was wrong first and hurt the fourth brother, she could only stand on the side of reason. She hoped that Mu Xinyan would wake up immediately, return to Tan Mingtao's side, and go towards their original plan.

Tan Mingtao shook his head, and a light smile appeared on his thin lips: "No need, Gu Feng really needs her, and I respect her choice." And she decided something that no one could change lightly. I don't want to force her, maybe the relationship between us is still subject to the test of God, happiness is not easy to get, in the future we will both cherish the relationship we have, and we will not leave each other lightly. ”

Tan Mingtao put the letter on the coffee table: "Fourth brother, why do you have wronged yourself like this?" Gu Feng needs her support and care, but this does not conflict with you getting married together. Gu Feng needs him, but you also need her! She can't sacrifice you because of Gu Feng and erase your feelings, I can't agree with this approach. ”

Fu Xiangwan also felt sorry for Mu Xinyan and Tan Mingtao when she heard this, obviously she could go to a successful step, but she came to a fork in the road: "Fourth brother, Xin'er broke up with you, why did you lie in front of your grandparents just now?" Sooner or later, they will know that you are separated. Fourth brother, Xin'er is in the United States, right, I'll go over to find her tomorrow. I can't watch her ruin your happiness by making such a decision. ”

"Late, don't go." Tan Mingtao stopped her, "You have been flying for six months, and it is not suitable to take a plane, and emotional matters can only be handled by the parties themselves." ”

"The fourth brother is right, you are a month old, don't run around, and we want to worry about you." Tan Xiyue held Fu Xiangwan's hand, "You just need to give birth to the baby well now, and leave the rest to us." ”

"Although we are separated, we can't break my feelings for her." The corners of Tan Mingtao's lips raised, and there was a touch of bitterness, "She didn't feel sorry for me, she just did what she thought she should do." Everyone has something that they think is right, I can't say she's wrong, and there's nothing I can do to stop her from doing something like that. So the only thing I could do was watch her silently, as long as she felt happy. Don't think too much about love, it's one thing to love each other, and it's another thing to stay together. You don't have to feel sorry for me, and you don't bother her. Just let her live the life she wants, and maybe one day she will figure it out, and she may come back to me. ”

"Maybe she will accompany Gu Feng forever, although she is unwilling, although she is very painful in her heart, it is only my own business. If you love, you love, if you don't love, you don't want to hate someone, hate, you will only make yourself unaware of yourself. There is still a long way to go, and I will go on well. ”

After Tan Mingtao finished talking about the truest thoughts in his heart, Fu Xiangwan and Tan Xiyue both felt distressed, and they also admired Tan Mingtao's broad-mindedness, which was the noble character and demeanor of a soldier. How can there be hatred for the people you love.

"Fourth brother, what are you going to do next?" Tan Xiyue picked up the water cup on the table and poured a glass of water for it

"I want you to keep the matter with Xin'er a secret first, and when I think about how to explain to your grandparents that we are separated peacefully, I don't want them to complain, after all, no one is wrong." Tan Mingtao thought very thoughtfully.

"But the most innocent wronged person is you!" Tan Xiyue pursed his lips.

"I'm a man, what can a man do if he is wronged?" Tan Mingtao took the water that Tan Xiyue poured for her and brought it to her lips, took a sip, moistening her throat, "I'm not so fragile yet." ”

"Fourth brother, you can think about it." Tan Xiyue is also helpless, and he is not easy to meddle in emotional matters.

They chatted about some other things, and it was late, Tan Xiyue and Fu Xiangwan also said goodbye and went back to the room.

Tan Mingtao got up from the sofa and walked out of the floor-to-ceiling window, the window door was ajar, and the night breeze outside blew in, blowing his clothes, and the cold and coolness penetrated the fabric. He looked up and looked at the stars in the night, Mu Xinyan, are you okay over there? Will you miss me as deeply as I do once in a while?

At that time, in the United States, because of the time difference, it was daytime.

Mu Xinyan finished her busy work, opened the window in the ward, and let the fresh air surge.

Gu Feng's complexion was much better than a few days ago, Mu Xinyan smiled and walked over: "Gu Feng, how are you feeling today?" ”

"It's fine." Gu Feng's gaze fell on her eyes, staring straight at her.

Seeing him staring at himself so intently, Mu Xinyan couldn't help but raise her hand to touch her face: "Is there anything on my face?" Let you look at me like this? ”

"Nope." Gu Feng still didn't look away, "Xin'er, have you completed all the formalities?" ”

"That's it." Mu Xinyan nodded, pulled over the chair and sat on the side of the bed, "You can rest assured that you can stay here." ”

"Xin'er, I'm not worried about me, I'm worried about you." Gu Feng wanted to stretch his hand to wipe away the faint sadness between her eyebrows, "You should go back, I'm fine here, you don't need to accompany me anymore." ”

"Isn't it good to have me with you?" Mu Xinyan raised her eyebrows lightly and smiled brightly, but her heart hurt all the time, since she chose this path, then no matter how painful it was, it was self-inflicted, "And I know you better than those nurses, and I can take care of you better." We had a lot to say and talk about our childhood......"

Gu Feng shook his head: "Xin'er, he ...... Mr. Tan is still waiting for you in China, you go back, don't let him wait for a long time. Although it is said that women can't stand the wait, the same is true for men, especially good men like Mr. Tan, who must be cherished and firmly grasped in their hands. If you give up on him, there will be many women lining up to fight you. Go back, I'm really good here, I'll ask the nurse to call you every day, I'll talk to you, you don't have to worry about me. I promise you to be good, and you will be good. ”

Mu Xinyan's eyes were sour and painful, her eyelashes were stained with crystal water, she took a deep breath and suppressed the pain and bitterness: "Gu Feng, let me accompany you." Fourth brother, he deserves a better woman to cherish and give him happiness. I...... Unworthy. ”

Her eyes are very red, and her slender eyelashes have been stained with water, and the water light is rippling in her eyes, which is very moving. Gu Feng looked at her like this, like peach petals wet by rain, which was pitiful, but also stunned.

"Heart, if he loves you, you are worthy. This is the qualification and pride you should have. Gu Feng's lips were pale, "Xin'er, is it because of me, that there was a misunderstanding between us?" If so, you have to go back anyway and come back to him. I don't want to be a sinner who destroys your happiness. ”

"No, Gu Feng, don't think too much." Mu Xinyan held his hand tightly, "Gu Feng, it's my decision to do this, and it has nothing to do with you." Just let me accompany you, as for the relationship between me and the fourth brother, it may be fate that has arrived, and it is time to disperse. We're good to get together and disperse, and that's good. ”

"Good to get together and disperse?" Gu Feng twisted his eyebrows, "But you're obviously unhappy and sad." Xin'er, don't lie to me, although I am injured, but my eyes are not blind, I can see clearly. Go back, come back to him, and trust him to be just as uncomfortable as you are, and he will be there all the time waiting for you. ”

This is the softest heart of Mu Xinyan, she just doesn't want to talk about Mingtao's endless wait for her, so she ruthlessly said the word breakup, so as to cut off the relationship between them and the only connection. She wants to be with him all the time, but Gu Feng can't see the end here, she can wait for Gu Feng, but she doesn't want to talk about Mingtao delaying his life because of her.

"No, I don't want him to wait for me." Mu Xinyan shook her head, "I hope he has another life that belongs to him, a life without waiting." I can't give him happiness and hope someone gives it instead of me. Gu Feng, don't persuade me anymore. You will recuperate here in peace, and I will relax here. I've made up my mind. ”

"Xin'er ......" Gu Feng looked at her with a fair face distressedly, "Why are you so stupid?" ”

"I'm not stupid, I can't make him wait for me, keep waiting." Mu Xinyan picked up the water cup and put it in front of Gu Feng, changing the topic, "After saying so much, it's time to replenish some water." Then you sleep again, and when you wake up, I'll push you out and look outside. ”

Mu Xinyan put the water cup on the bedside table, Gu Feng wanted to say something, but she got up: "I'll go to the nurse and ask you about the inspection arrangements these days, and when I come back, I have to watch you close your eyes and fall asleep, otherwise I will be angry." ”

Before Gu Feng answered, she had already left first. Out of Gu Feng's hospital room, Mu Xinyan leaned against the wall in pain, and the pain in her heart was like a whirlpool, constantly spinning on her heart. She held her body with both hands, her fingertips were cold, it turned out that she was lost, this is how it felt, her whole heart hurt as if it had been hollowed out, but she still had to pretend that nothing happened.

Mu Xinyan looked at the white ceiling above her head, tears welled up, fourth brother, I'm sorry......

This is the most she has said to herself these days, and she blames herself deeply.

On this day, Mu Xinyan helped Gu Feng to sit in a wheelchair and carefully put a thin blanket on his lap. Then Mu Xinyan pushed Gu Qiao out, and the hospital was built as if it was a garden, with lush greenery and flowers everywhere. The air is also fresh, take a deep breath and refresh your heart.

Mu Xinyan pushed Gu Feng to a small artificial lake in the hospital, and the two watched the swans and mandarin ducks in the lake swimming arbitrarily. There are also some aquatic plants growing in the lake. Mu Xinyan sat on the rest bench, and Gu Feng was beside her.

These days, the two of them have never mentioned Tan Mingtao again, Gu Feng didn't want to touch her wounds again, but he blamed himself for dragging her down. And Mu Xinyan wants to pretend to have amnesia, and seal all the qiē belonging to Tan Mingtao, if you don't touch it, it won't hurt, and if you don't want to, it will hurt.

She numbs herself with busyness, so that Tan Mingtao will not be in her mind all the time. Maybe she lived this life like this, with thoughts, pain, and love for him, and let time pass.

"Do you want to drink saliva?" Mu Xinyan withdrew her gaze from the white swan in the distance, took out the water cup she was carrying, unscrewed it, poured a glass of water into the lid, and handed it over.

Gu Feng took a few sips of the water cup she sent to his lips. Probably because he was in a hurry, water escaped from the corners of his lips and fell.

Mu Xinyan looked at him like a big boy, took out a handkerchief and gently wiped the water stains on her lips and chin for her, her eyes were gentle and her movements were gentle.

Far away, Tan Mingtao stood behind a big tree, looking at the two people who were getting along harmoniously and beautifully, the wind was blowing gently and gently, helping Mu Xinyan's simple ponytail, but it swept to Gu Feng's face, tickling him, and sneezing a few times.

Mu Xinyan was nervous: "Gu Feng, are you okay?" ”

She put her hand on his forehead and used the back of her hand to test the temperature of his skin, thinking he was sick.

"I'm fine, your hair scratched me." Gu Feng shook his head, "Don't make a fuss. ”

Mu Xinyan opened her eyebrows with a smile, and the sadness that had accumulated in her heart gradually released with every casual laugh, but then it would be filled with deeper sadness, backlogged, rotten, released, filled...... Repeatedly, this heart has already been riddled with holes.

Tan Mingtao looked at them from afar, looking at the arc of the smile on Mu Xinyan's lips, maybe he searched all the hospitals in the United States just to see her and see her smile, so that he could let Fang turn around and leave, so that he could let go of it.

Although Tan Mingtao wanted to hug her, he still tried his best to restrain himself from stepping forward. Since she could still smile, he could rest assured. He turned and walked away, each step so heavy. Just like when he came, he didn't expect to see her with the joy, but some were deeply reluctant.

It's good to be like this, don't let her know, and I don't want to see her embarrassed expression. Just a look is enough.

Tan Mingtao applied to go to Tibet because of the arrangement of the army, and I don't know how many years it will be. Perhaps only he knows when he will return.

The night before leaving home, Tan Mingtao was tidying up in his bedroom.

Tan Xiyue knocked on the door and came in: "Fourth brother, do you really want to go to Tibet?" ”

"Well, the notice has come down." Tan Mingtao nodded and continued to clean up very calmly.

"Why go? How long have you been getting better? How long does it take to return to the army? Are you going to the hardest place again? Tan Xiyue was worried, "Grandma and Mom are most worried about you." In fact, even if you can't be with Mu Xinyan, you don't have to exile yourself to Tibet like this. ”

"This is not exile. I'm a soldier, and where I'm needed, of course I'm going there. Besides, I also wanted to go to Tibet, but I never did, so this time I have such an opportunity, okay. You can see the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau, you can see the Potala Palace, you can see herds of yaks, and the purest blue sky and white clouds. When Tan Mingtao said this, there was yearning in his eyes.

"Fourth brother, since you have decided, I don't want to say much. It's just that I hope you don't toss yourself like last time, and you must take good care of yourself. Tan Xiyue put his hands in his trouser pockets, "If you have family leave, come back to see your family, and I will come to see you when I have time." Don't forget, here is your home, there are your relatives, and this is your roots. If you think you've got enough time, come back. ”

Tan Mingtao patted his shoulder with one hand, and an apologetic look appeared in his eyes: "Old Seven, when I leave, the family will be handed over to you, I believe that you will take better care of this family than me." The fourth brother is incompetent and can't share it for you. ”

"Fourth brother, what do you say, we are brothers." Tan Xiyue teased him, "Don't be so sour." I wish you a smooth journey. ”