Xi Jiayu's hand touched her lower abdomen, this child, should she stay? If she stays, she has a constant connection with Liang Yunfei, and she worries every day that this child's survival will be known by Liang Yunfei, and the consequences are not something she can bear. Leaving the child is also an injury to Feng Yang, making him inexplicably bear a responsibility that does not belong to him, which makes her feel particularly guilty. If she doesn't stay, then she is too cruel again, saying that the child is innocent. Her heart was torn apart by these two thoughts, making her not know how to choose, as if no matter how she chose, it was a mistake.

Xi Jiayu felt that her eyes were warm and tingling, and there were bursts of soreness between her noses, which made her want to cry. She pursed her lips and blinked her eyes, her thick eyelashes already wet with tears, and she struggled to blink down all the moisture that had been accumulating. She raised her hand to touch the wetness in the corner of her eye.

"Xi Jiayu, don't cry, don't be unproductive." Xi Jiayu warned herself, "There is nothing to make yourself cry now." ”

She sat alone on the couch and looked out the window as it began to rain sporadically.

She thought that no matter how difficult the road ahead was, she would still have to go on, no matter how difficult the choice was, she would have to choose one.

When Feng Yang got off work, he bought vegetables and came to Xi Jiayu's house, and she was cooking according to the recipe she bought, and Xi Jiasong, who was not very good at cooking, was in a hurry.

"How do you cook alone? Or I'll come. Feng Yang put the food he bought on the kitchen counter, walked over, turned off the fire, and pulled her aside, "Don't you want your body?" And the baby can't stand your toss like this. ”

Xi Jiayu looked at Feng Yang's somewhat angry face: "I just have nothing to do, it's okay to do it myself, besides, it's just a meal, don't make too much fuss." ”

"It's okay if you say it's all about fuss, what you need now is to be taken care of, and I'll do these things. I really don't worry about you like this, if the kitchen floor tiles are stained with water, I'm afraid you will slip. What if something happens? Feng Yang said as he rolled up the sleeves of his shirt, revealing his powerful forearms, "Give me your apron." ”

Xi Jiayu took off her apron and replaced it for him: "Feng Yang, I really don't have anything good." You see that I can't cook, and I can't do housework, I know that I'm actually a vase, the kind that doesn't work, why do you want to marry me? ”

"Actually, it doesn't matter if you don't know anything, as long as I can." Feng Yang took her apron and tied it to her body, "You just think about how to be a beautiful bride now, and leave the rest to me." I will be your most solid support. ”

"Feng Yang, you are so good to me, I feel that I really have nothing to repay you. I'm afraid of being a good wife, but I'll try. Xi Jiayu took a deep breath and promised.

"I believe in you, and I always believe in you." Feng Yang took her out of the kitchen and sent her to the living room to sit down: "You just sit here obediently and wait for me." It will be fine soon. ”

Feng Yang didn't forget to pour a cup for Xi Jiayu and stuffed it into her hand, and then returned to the kitchen to get busy.

Xi Jiayu sat there, feeling a little embarrassed, after all, this is her home, the person who comes from Fengyang is a guest, and she should be the one who cooks, how can it become that he takes care of himself.

Feng Yang's hands and feet were very fast, and it didn't take long to make a table of fragrant meals, or four dishes and one soup, scrambled eggs with tomatoes, fried fungus meat slices with lettuce, stewed pork ribs with potatoes, and fish head soup, which is rich and nutritious.

Feng Yang brought the dishes to the table, Xi Jiayu wanted to serve the meal, but he stopped him, and sat at the table waiting for his service. At this time, Xi Jiamei came back, and as soon as she entered the door, she smelled a burst of fragrance, which stimulated her index finger.

She changed her shoes and ran up: "It's so fragrant, you can see that it is delicious." It must have been my brother-in-law's doing, right? ”

As she spoke, she unceremoniously picked up a piece of pork ribs from the bowl and threw it into her mouth, while Xi Jiayu scolded her: "You see you don't even wash your hands, what are you talking like?" I'm not afraid of jokes. ”

"Sister, it's all a family, my brother-in-law won't laugh at me." Xi Jiamei looked at Feng Yang, who smiled helplessly at her, "Listen to your sister." ”

Xi Jiamei had no choice but to wash her hands, came over and sat down, Xi Jiayu put the prepared rice in front of her: "If you like to eat, eat more." ”

"Sister, brother-in-law, you all went to register yesterday, when will the wedding take place?" Xi Jiamei nibbled on the delicious pork ribs, "I also want to tell my mother to make them happy." ”

Xi Jiayu and Feng Yang glanced at each other, and then she said, "Eat your food, why do you talk so much?" ”

"Brother-in-law, you should take care of my sister, you see that she treats me like this all day long. It's called bullying. Xi Jiamei complained to the wind.

"Meimei, I have to discuss my marriage with your sister with my mother, and I will notify you and my aunt when the time comes." Feng Yang served a bowl of squid soup for Xi Jiayu, and said with concern, "Drink it while it's hot, this fish soup is very nourishing, eat more fish and be smart." ”

Xi Jiayu thanked him, picked up the white soup bowl, and drank it in small sips, the soup tasted very fresh, there was no fishy smell, and it was delicious.

Xi Jiamei saw the affectionate appearance of the two, and knew that she couldn't say anything, so she buried her head in eating.

After the meal, Xi Jiayu asked Xi Jiamei to wash the dishes, and then she called Feng Yang to her bedroom, and she said some things to Feng Yang, and she was afraid that Xi Jiamei would hear it.

Xi Jiayu poured him a glass of water: "Feng Yang, I've thought about it for a long time, I think I still don't want this child." ”

Feng Yang was startled, his pupils dilated, and he looked at her calm face in a daze: "Why?" Jiajia, I said that I wouldn't mind this child's survival, he is my child, don't think about it, stay, besides, going to have an abortion will hurt your body a lot, I don't want you to get hurt. ”

"Feng Yang, since I have promised to marry you, and you have sacrificed too much for me, since I want to say goodbye to the past, I can't have the slightest relationship with the past." Xi Jiayu lowered her eyelashes, and her palm had already touched her flat lower abdomen, "If I keep this child, I will always be entangled with him and the past, since I have abandoned it to this point, then I should be more thorough." ”

"Jiajia......" Feng Yang put down the water glass and lifted her hand, "Don't talk about this matter." The child stays. ”

"Feng Yang, aren't you afraid that you raised this child, and he wants to recognize his biological father?" Xi Jiayu was worried that he would come and snatch the child away from her, "Instead of being snatched away by him, let me end him with my own hands." ”

"Jiajia, the child is his, but it's yours too." Feng Yang persuaded her, "Now we should think about our wedding, and I don't worry about you living here, let's move to my house, and Meimei will go over together." Listen to me now, I am your husband. ”

Xi Jiayu felt sad in her heart, how could she ever want to be such a cruel woman and mother, but she dared to gamble with the present in the future. Just let her be a cruel woman once.

On this day, when Fu Xiangwan passed by the small operating room of the obstetrics department on the third floor, she was hit by a woman who rushed out, the woman's long hair was a little scattered, covering half of her face, and she didn't apologize and wanted to run, but she was pulled by Fu Xiangwan, and when she saw the other party's appearance clearly, she was shocked.

"Jiajia?" Fu Xiangwan couldn't believe that the woman in front of him was his best friend.

It's only been a long time since I've seen her, how did it become like this? The whole person has lost a lot of weight, his face is pale, and there are blue circles under his eyes, he has lost the pride and beauty of his previous life, and he looks haggard like a frosted eggplant.

"Late?!" She looked up, full of tears, and when she saw Fu Xiangwan's familiar face, she threw herself away regardless of it, hugged her tightly, and cried out loud regardless of her image, like a fragile and helpless child, as if there were many, many hardships to vent.

Fu Xiangwan also hugged her hard, patted her on her vest with one hand and comforted her, and her eyes were filled with sour tears, falling without interest.

People who came and went looked at them inexplicably.

"You come with me. Let's find a place where we can talk. Fu Xiang saw the strangeness of everyone at night, so he helped Xi Jiayu to take the elevator down to the second floor, went to his office, closed the door, and isolated the outside world.

After placing Xi Jiayu, Fu Xiangwan poured her a cup of hot water for her and put it in her cold palm. But she tilted her head and looked out the window, her eyes unblinking, as if she had lost her soul.

Seeing that she was silent, Fu Xiangwan didn't ask, but just tied her long and scattered hair into a ponytail for her. When Fu Xiangwan was about to get up and leave, Xi Jiayu pulled her: "Wanwan, I'...... I was pregnant, and I wanted to get rid of the baby, but at the last minute I didn't want to do it, I thought I was too cruel...... If this kid finds out in the future, he will blame me. There was a suppressed cry in his voice, and tears soaked his eyes again.

Xi Jiayu was holding Fu Xiangwan's hand, and Fu Xiangwan's eyes flickered brightly and darkly, shocked in her words, those words could not be erased in her ears for a long time, and she felt the pain that kept coming from her hand.

"You know what? I can't have this child, I'm afraid I'll never be able to walk out of the pain and shadow of the past, so I'd rather be a cruel mother. I don't deserve this angel from heaven. She continued to speak quietly, like a sad monologue of a man, echoing empty in the room.

"Jiajia...... Don't say it, you have to rest. Her eyes were swollen and she clenched her teeth in pain.

"Wanwan, why don't you ask me who this kid is?" Xi Jiayu turned her head to look at Su Jin, her eyes were empty.

Her throat rolled up and down sharply, and there was a thorn stuck there, which she couldn't pull out, only tingling with her breathing.

"It doesn't matter who the child is, the important thing is to take care of your body. You can't lose weight like this anymore. Fu Xiangwan cupped her face with both hands, "Jiajia, whether you can let go of this child in the past has little to do with it, it depends on whether you can forget it." The child is indeed innocent, you must think about it carefully, and I respect you no matter what choice you make. ”

Fu Xiangwan didn't understand who this child was, but he didn't want to poke it, so that Xi Jiayu was in pain, and he didn't stop again and again.

"It's so unfair." An Zisu is also a strong woman, with a clear distinction between love and hate, selfless love, and thorough hatred.

"Jiajia, the most unfair thing in this world is love, all we have to do is to love ourselves more, so that we can feel less pain." Fu Xiangwan held her hand and gave her the strength to encourage, "Besides, you are not really a cruel person, you just want to remind yourself not to fall deeper and deeper, don't forget the cause of Aunt Jì's death, you are just torturing yourself by doing this." Jiajia, since you have separated from him, you will have nothing to do with him in the future, you can do whatever you want. Don't think too much about it, this child is your baby. ”

Xi Jiayu smiled sadly, full of sadness: "Even if I am in such pain, I still completely let go, maybe only this pain can make me feel that I am truly alive." ”

Xi Jiayu lowered her eyelashes a little sadly, and a faint shadow was outlined under her eyes. She bit her lip lightly, and her palms were wet, and she was uncomfortable. She can only keep those happy and painful memories in the bottom of her heart.

"Let's go, I'll send you back." Fu Xiangwan pulled her up, "Why don't you go to my house for a few days." ”

"I'm ready to move to Fengyang, you don't have to worry about me." Xi Jiayu stood up with her, Fu Xiangwan was stunned for a moment, "You are kind to the wind......"

"We're already married." Xi Jiayu raised her eyelashes, slender and thick, "He said that he wanted to give me and the baby a complete home." This is my best choice. ”

"Now that you've made that choice, let's keep going. Since Feng Yang can say this, I believe that he is a man who can tolerate you. Fu Xiangwan didn't know what to say, after all, only the authorities know about this kind of thing, and there is no possibility of reuniting between Liang Yunfei and Xi Jiayu, so it is better to let each other go free.

As soon as Xi Jiayu stood up, she felt dizzy, and then fainted to the ground. Fu Xiangwan hugged her: "Jiajia, wake up, ...... you"

Xi Jiayu was sent to the emergency room, and Fu Xiangwan sat there, very anxious. It wasn't until Xi Jiayu was pushed out that one of her hearts fell back into her chest. She stepped forward and asked Dr. Li Rou from the obstetrics department, "Dr. Li, how is my friend doing?" ”

"The patient was too weak, she had low blood sugar, anemia, anxiety...... If she doesn't adjust herself, she can easily miscarry in the first three months. Li Rou pushed the glasses on the bridge of her nose, "You have to persuade her to relax." ”

"Thank you." Fu Xiangwan went to Xi Jiayu's ward.

After arranging the ward, the nurse gave Xi Jiayu a drip, and she woke up not long after. Fu Xiangwan poured her a cup of hot water, looking at her pale and transparent face, Fu Xiangwan wanted to cry, and her chest felt like she was scraping with a knife.

"Wanwan, I'm fine, I'm fine." Xi Jiayu's lips were pale, and she forcibly comforted her.

Fu Xiangwan's eyes were so red that she swallowed her throat and forced the bitterness in her mouth down: "You have to rest well, and you have to be kind to yourself in the future, otherwise I will turn my face." ”

"Okay." She nodded and shook Fu Xiangwan's hand tightly, "Wanwan, don't tell anyone else about my affairs." ”

Fu Xiangwan knew that she didn't want Liang Yunfei to know about it: "I know." When is your wedding to Feng Yang? ”

"I haven't discussed it yet. But I want to make it simpler, just invite some friends and family, I think a few tables will be enough. Xi Jiayu doesn't want too many people to pay attention to her marriage, she wants to live quietly.

Fu Xiangwan nodded and patted the back of her hand comfortingly.

Xi Jiayu went back by herself after the drip, because she was crying at home, so Fu Xiangwan had to take the first step. She walked alone on the street, looking at the dead leaves and dead trees in winter.

She hadn't gone far before a black Cayenne car stopped beside her, the window was half lowered, and Liang Yunfei's cold and handsome face appeared in her sight. She looked away, as if she hadn't seen him, and hurried away.

Liang Yunfei saw that she was about to run, so she quickly got out of the car and stopped in front of her: "You are pregnant." ”

"You're talking nonsense." Xi Jiayu did not admit it.

"I heard what you said to Feng Yang that night, he said it for the sake of the baby......" Liang Yunfei didn't finish.

"Yes, we have a baby, so you don't have to pester me." Xi Jiayu didn't expect that Liang Yunfei would quietly come to her community to see her, which made her uncomfortable, she really didn't deserve Liang Yunfei's persistence, and she and he didn't have any possibilities. Doesn't that increase each other's suffering? Why torture each other like this?

"No, I think this kid is mine." Liang Yunfei thought for a long time, "We haven't broken up for a long time, you and Feng Yang haven't really been together for a long time, you are not such a casual woman, the person you love is also me, so this child is mine." Jiajia, since we have a baby, you don't want to be with Feng Yang, okay, we can give the baby a complete home together. ”

Liang Yunfei grabbed her, afraid that she would walk away in a hurry.

"You're insane!" Xi Jiayu struggled, trying to get out of his clamps, "I'm just a casual woman, the child in my belly has nothing to do with your half a dime, you want to be the father of my child, but you also have to see if Feng Yangtong disagrees." ”

"My own children don't need anyone's consent." Liang Yunfei's eyes were so serious and dark.

"Feng Yang and I are the legal husband and wife, and the child is ours." Xi Jiayu thought that in this way he could let go, "You let go of me." ”

"Impossible!" He growled in disbelief.

"We're just getting married, and we're going to have a wedding, of course I won't invite you." Xi Jiayu's words pushed him farther away.

The dark waves in Liang Yunfei's deep pool-like eyes were enough to extinguish all the light in this world, and there was a power to destroy it, he let go of her hand, a hint of wolf bèi flashed in his eyes, and then a bloodthirsty storm, her blood froze inch by inch in his condensed gaze. The air was eerily quiet, and time and space were distorted.

Liang Yunfei clasped her arms with both hands and shook her body: "Xi Jiayu, why are you so cruel?" ”

His face was as cold as ice, so terrifying, like a mad cheetah, trying to tear her apart in one bite.

"Why? Because your parents killed my mother and made me feel miserable, I also want you to taste this kind of pain in the heart, so that your parents can see your pain, which is a true portrayal of what I used to do. You're in pain, I'm so happy. The corners of Xi Jiayu's soft lips were shallow open, and her back was pressed against the rough trunk behind her.

They stood still, like soulless puppets.

Liang Yunfei finally let go of her in a dejected manner, and he clenched his fists fiercely, his bones turned white. He punched Xi Jiayu, her pupils dilated, and then she closed her eyes tightly, waiting to withstand his full blow. The expected pain did not hit her face, but felt the wind of fists brushing her ears, and she felt a muffled sound in her ears, and felt the trunk of the tree shake twice. He didn't want to hit her, he just wanted to scare her, but he didn't know why he couldn't hold back, and his reason was disintegrated by her indifferent and detached eyes, and he couldn't control it.

The force of this punch was not light, and his hands were numb. The entire fist was embedded in the bark, and it was punctured by the mottled bark, and the fist was slowly withdrawn, and the flesh and blood on it were blurred, and the blood flowed endlessly. But he hung down at his side like an unaffected man, blood dripping and staining the tiles at his feet red.

Xi Jiayu held her breath, she didn't dare to look, and her eyelashes trembled in fear. And his gaze imprisoned her tightly like a magnet: "You'd rather give birth to him than give birth to me, right?" You hate me so much? ”

Looking at her pitiful appearance, his tone softened a little, and he tried to get closer again.

She swallowed the bitterness in her mouth, tears rolled down, and they fell on the placket of her clothes, she raised her hand and wiped a handful of tears indiscriminately, raised her tears, and the corners of her lips rose high, "Liang Yunfei, I just hate you, hate myself, want me to give you a child, wishful thinking." ”

She is a pear blossom with rain in March, beautiful and noble, her eyes are crystal clear, but the corners of her lips are smiling and sarcastic.

Liang Yunfei's eyes darkened a little, deep as night, his heart was indescribable, looking at her appearance, his heart shrank suddenly, he looked away, and looked at Chu Ke: "Very good." Then let's see who this kid belongs to. ”

Xi Jiayu glared at him fiercely, and her eyes were angry: "Don't I know who the child is." ”

"Whether it's mine or not, check it out." His eyes were piercing, and he didn't allow her to refute at all.

The hecticism in her heart flashed: "Why are you doing this to me? ”

"Why, because I love you, you have to be!" His hand on her shoulder tightened more and more, and his arrogant anger was like a cold knife cutting through her flesh, making her life worse than death, and her flesh and blood were blurred.

"Liang Yunfei, you are really cheap." She was not afraid to provoke the man.

"Yes, I'm just cheap, but what can I do?" He shouted, all the words squeezing out of his teeth, "I would have strangled you if I could!" ”

Liang Yunfei's eyes were frost and snow chips, his face collapsed, and the increasingly strong and cold aura on his body was enough to make people shiver.

"Then you're going to strangle me." Xi Jiayu smiled, "To live is to suffer anyway." ”

"Strangle me, you, I'll kill myself again, so we can be together, right?" Liang Yunfei's dark eyes flashed with a glimmer of hope, and her hands also caressed her beautiful neck.