Shui Xiu pouted, his face was still unconvinced, I smiled faintly, and said, "However, you should think about yourself." ”

"What do you think?"

"I have such a trouble with the emperor, you should also know that it is impossible for me to be favored anymore, and there will be no future for me to follow." I smiled and said, "If you have other plans, I can help you go and talk to the Queen Mother, and the Queen Mother will speak—"

Before he finished speaking, Shui Xiu hurriedly said: "Cairen, why do you say that." ”

“……”

"We follow you, and we don't seek glory and wealth, isn't that okay?"

Seeing that she was anxious and a little aggrieved, I smiled and said, "But after all—"

"We really don't ask for anything." Xiaoyu also said on the side: "A few days ago, Mama Wu also told the two of us like this, saying that if we want to go elsewhere, she will come to ask for talents, as long as she takes care of talents alone." But Shui Xiu and I have agreed that we will definitely follow the talented people. ”

I was speechless for a while, so shocked that I couldn't speak, looking at them, Shui Xiu also nodded: "Cairen, we are willing to follow you, not for anything else, you are a good person, follow you, eat and sleep steadily." ”

Is he a good person, eating and sleeping steadily?

When I heard this, I suddenly had a sour feeling that I wanted to cry, Shui Xiu may not have read any books and know what ethics are common, but her words seem to be the most basic truth of being a man, but in the palace, I know too little.

I patted her hand gently, looked at Xiaoyu again, and smiled.

I have to sleep for a while every afternoon, but I don't have any sleepiness today, and they don't have Shui Xiu, listening to people running back and forth outside from time to time, it should be the palace maids and eunuchs of each palace who went to Jingren Palace to find out the news, and I faintly heard them talking.

Shui Xiu said angrily: "Don't you just give birth to a child, if you make a fuss like this, what kind of pimple will you have to give birth to!" ”

I couldn't cry or laugh, although she didn't speak so mean when she listened to me, she was still unforgiving, even Mama Wu could only sigh, helped me to lie down on the soft couch, Shui Xiu and Xiaoyu were idle, so they simply ran out to see.

There was only me and Mama Wu in the room, I leaned on the couch and said softly, "Mama, thank you." ”

She was stunned for a moment, and immediately understood what she had come over, and said, "Don't you blame me for making my own decisions?" ”

I shook my head.

She smiled, thought for a moment, and explained: "The slave maid is not to be the master of the talent, it's just that at this time, there are fewer people around you, but it is better, besides-" She said, and glanced out again: "Those two girls, they are either playing or making trouble all day long, and sooner or later they will cause trouble for you." ”

I laughed.

Among these three people, only Shui Xiu and I have known each other for the longest time, but it is rare that we are very close to each other, and we don't feel like master and servant together, but more like family, there is a loving and wise aunt, and two naughty and restless sisters, to this day, I don't ask for anything.

Mama Wu sat under the couch doing needlework, I leaned on the couch and read for a while, but there was something in my heart, and the words in my eyes were also messy, and I raised my eyes from time to time to look outside, and sure enough, after a while, I saw Shui Xiu and Xiaoyu running in panting, panting and saying, "Talent-"

"What's wrong?"

"I heard that Xu Jieyu had a difficult birth!"

"What?"

I was startled and hurriedly sat up, and Mama Wu hurriedly helped me and said, "Be careful, you look dizzy." ”

I didn't care much, and hurriedly asked, "How did it happen to have a difficult birth?" ”

"We don't know," Shui Xiu said: "The little eunuchs passing by outside are saying this, I heard that all the imperial doctors of the entire Tai Hospital have gone to Jingren Palace, and the queen mother is personally accompanied, and I haven't seen it yet." ”

"What about the Emperor?"

"The emperor is also over there in the Taiji Palace, waiting for news."

I slowly leaned back on the couch, and suddenly I felt a feeling of weakness and weakness in my body, and the familiar, sore pain in my heart came up again.

I know that a woman's childbirth is stepping into the ghost gate with one foot, and that kind of pain is incomprehensible to ordinary people, but every mother will insist, no matter how painful it is, no matter how difficult it is.

It's just -- I probably won't have that chance anymore.

My baby......

Subconsciously reached out and stroked his slightly concave lower abdomen, his eyes were also a little red, Mama Wu looked at me, gently grabbed my hand, and said, "Talented, don't think too much." ”

I glanced up at her, nodded slightly, and said to Shui Xiu and them, "Go and inquire again." ”

The two of them nodded, then turned and ran out again.

In the following time, they ran back to tell me some news they had heard, but Jingren Palace had been closed, and not a single imperial doctor had come out, and what had happened could only be heard by the eunuchs and palace maids who were going back and forth to inquire about the news, and I listened to it, and my palms were full of cold sweat.

It doesn't feel like it's good.

This situation continued until the evening, the sky slowly darkened, and lanterns were hung around, and they had been going for a long time this time, and they had not come back for about half an hour, and I had been looking out all the time, and I had not eaten a bite of dinner on the table.

Mama Wu persuaded: "Talented, eat a little first, it's not fun to be hungry." ”

"I can't eat it."

"Talented!"

Mama Wu shouted at me in an aggravated tone, I looked up at her, saw the care and blame in her eyes, and felt a little sorry, so I said, "Okay, I'll drink some soup first." ”

She just let me go, and hurriedly served me a bowl of medicinal soup, I was so worried that I just brought it to my mouth, I heard the sound of hurried footsteps outside, and when I looked up, I saw Shui Xiu and they ran back again, but the faces of the two people in the night were pale, as if they were frightened.

"How's it going?" I asked hurriedly.

Shui Xiu's lips were a little white, looked at me, and said slowly: "Talented people......"

"Say it quickly."

"Xu Jieyu, it seems to be dead."

"What did you say?!"

My hand shook, and the soup bowl in my hand fell to the ground all of a sudden, shattered with a thud, and the soup splashed on my feet and became hot, but I didn't feel it at all, and stood up in shock: "She, dead?" ”

"Seems like so." Shui Xiu nodded, also looking frightened, and said: "None of those imperial doctors came out, Jingren Palace put away all the red lanterns, and now the emperor has also passed, I heard that his face is also not good-looking." ”

“……”

My mind went blank in shock, and I sat back down.

She's dead?

Xu Jieyu, she's dead?

Then—I hurriedly asked, "What about the child?" Has the child been born? ”

"Listening to Xiaofuzi, I heard the cry of a child inside, I don't know if I'm alive or not, and the queen doesn't allow anyone to go in to visit."

I sat there, and for a moment my mind was in turmoil, and a word rang back and forth in my head - she was dead!

Xu Youling, the woman who is so weak and weak that she can't even protect herself; the woman who said she would rather have a daughter than delay her child's future; The woman who said she thought I was a good sister, but ended up turning against me......

She's really dead?!

I sat there in the dark night outside the door, but in my eyes there was the most inconspicuous, weak and docile appearance of the woman in the palace, and an indescribable sourness welled up in my heart.

At this time, Mama Wu stepped forward and said softly: "Talented." ”

"......" I glanced up at her.

"Don't overthink it."

“……”

"Whether she lives or dies has nothing to do with you, you feel sorry for others, and it is always yourself who hurts."

Sorry for others, it's always yourself who hurts, the words are good, but after all, it's a human life, I'm not wood, and I can't practice iron-heartedness, how can I not be sad?

However, they all persuaded me so worriedly, and I didn't want to say anything, so I just nodded, and Mama Wu asked Shui Xiu to clean up the ground and bring me a bowl of soup again, I didn't have much appetite, and I reluctantly drank half a bowl of soup and ate a few bites of food, so I sent them away early and fell asleep by myself.

Tonight is Shui Xiu's vigil for me, if she usually she would have chattered endlessly, but tonight she didn't say anything, a person Mu Leng cleaned up the bed, and slept outside.

I also know that she is usually the most mean in her mouth, and she has no scruples when she speaks, but in the end, it is a human life, and cursing and watching people die are completely different things, but I am afraid that she may not feel very good now.

In the middle of the night, I could still hear the sound of her turning over outside.

I lay on the bed with my eyes wide open, recalling the days when I used to get along with Xu Youling in Chonghua Hall and in Fangcaotang, she was really a good person, but she was not suitable for survival in this palace, she didn't understand scheming, she didn't have a city government, and she was indifferent to the most inconspicuous little jasper, maybe because of these, Pei Yuanhao had some different feelings for her, and she was also the first lucky pregnant woman in this harem.

But this kind of luck only allowed her to go through her life faster.

What about her children? Born, is it still alive? If you live, what will happen in the future?

Thinking like this, I couldn't sleep anymore, and when the time passed, it was silent outside, but I was still awake.

At this moment, there was a sudden sound of hurried footsteps outside, I frowned slightly, and I heard someone banging on the door hard, shouting loudly, Shui Xiu was more alert than me, and sat up at once, and I also looked at her-

What's wrong?

Before we could speak, Mama Wu and the others had already gone to open the door, and I heard them seem to say something, and the footsteps hurried towards this side.

Shui Xiu felt something, hurriedly came over and took the clothes from the shelf and put them on for me, I sat up slowly, there was already a knock on the door outside, Shui Xiu hurriedly went over and opened the door, and when he saw the people outside, he seemed to be shocked: "Father-in-law Yu?" ”

Father-in-law Yu?

I frowned slightly, he hasn't been serving the emperor all the time, since I fell out with Pei Yuanhao, he hasn't been here for a long time, and now he comes in the middle of the night, what are you going to do?

Father-in-law Yu walked in from outside the door, I saw that there were several strong little eunuchs behind him, and in the dim light, his old face was also a little heavy, and he slowly walked over and bowed to me: "Meet Yue Cairen." ”

"Father-in-law Yu, what's the matter?"

"The emperor is in Jingren Palace, summoning people to come over for questioning."

"Question?" I frowned: "What do you ask?" ”