The push was light, but the door still made a clang, which was particularly harsh to listen to in the quiet of the night.

I slowly sat up and lifted the curtain, and the door was pushed again, and there was another clang, this time heavier than the last, but the door was still firmly closed, and it was not pushed open at all.

I stood up, although the charcoal fire in the room was burning, but there was still a chill outside the warm bedding, I was only wearing a thin long skirt, I shivered slightly, reached out and gathered my clothes, and walked over slowly.

Tonight, I didn't let Xiaoyu and the others come to the vigil, I was the only one in the room, it was as quiet as an ancient tomb, I just stood quietly inside, looking at the closed door.

The people outside the gate also fell silent.

After a long time, his deep voice sounded in the night—"Open the door." ”

Although I knew everything in my heart, when I really heard his voice, my heart still beat hard, with a slight pain.

I said softly, "I'm not going to open the door." ”

The breathing outside suddenly became heavy, and when I was in the cold palace, I already knew very well what would happen next, so I spoke: "I know that a door can't stop you, but even if you come in, you will only enter this door, and it will not be any different from standing outside." ”

The people outside gritted their teeth and said word by word: "You hate me so much? ”

……

I smiled softly in the dark and said, "Love and hate, both need strength, and I don't have the strength now." ”

“……”

"Your Majesty, why don't we forget it."

There was no sound outside at all, as if even breathing had stopped.

I opened my eyes wide, there were still candles in the room, but I couldn't see anything in front of me, as if the whole person, the whole life was plunged into darkness, and there was no way out.

"You don't let me out of the palace, I can accept my fate, I can go to the Linshui Pagoda to accompany the Queen Mother, but-" When I said this, I couldn't help but choke a little, why did the Queen Mother eat fasting and chant Buddha in the Linshui Pagoda for so many years, she was once the imperial concubine, and under the harem alone, she also enjoyed the glory and contention, what kind of sadness did she have to hide from the world for so many years, and she couldn't eliminate the hatred in her heart?

In the harem, there is never a shortage of women with broken hearts.

So—

"Your Majesty, I don't want to be your woman anymore."

When I said this, my own heart sank hard, and the next moment, the door made a loud clatter, and it was kicked open.

Although I was prepared, I was startled by this loud noise in such a quiet night, and I saw the tall figure walk in with a few steps of evil energy, approached my side, grabbed my wrist, and pulled me hard in front of him.

"What did you say?!"

It was the first time I had seen him in so many days.

His face was pale, his eyes were blood-red, and he was so haggard that I was a little strange, but even though he was haggard, he still carried an incomparably evil aura, and the hand that held my wrist was forced, and suddenly there was a sharp pain.

I was so painful that tears were about to flow out, and this qiē was all expected by me.

He is not a man who will let go lightly, either to his power or to his women.

At this time, the loud noise had already woken up the people in Fangcaotang, and I heard Shui Xiu shouting in panic "What's going on", "Go and see the talented people", and then they hurriedly ran over with lanterns, just ran to the door and then looked at the candlelight, several people were all frightened, and quickly knelt down: "Wan-long-long-live-"

Pei Yuanhao ignored them, only gritted his teeth and looked down at me: "You say it again!" ”

In the past, I would be afraid, because I was afraid of pain, humiliation, and he would never stop taking, but at this moment I just looked at him lightly, smiled like a wisp of wind that would leak through my fingertips at any time, and said softly: "Your Majesty, I won't love you anymore." ”

"Talented!"

Mama Wu was so frightened that she couldn't stop shouting.

I was still smiling, looking down at his wrist, which was still wrapped in gauze, and it was so red that I choked up and said softly: "Your Majesty, let's clear the two." You don't have to shed any more blood for me, and I won't—"

"Liangqing, you dare to follow me Liangqing?!"

He gritted his teeth and said viciously, and suddenly shook it hard, I was thrown to the ground by him, my forehead hit the corner of the table next to me, and suddenly a sharp pain came, Wu Mama and they hurriedly ran in to help me, kowtowing to him: "Your Majesty, the emperor is angry, and she is only a person - she just lost her child, she is so sick that she is delirious, and the emperor is angry!" ”

Pei Yuanhao looked down at me with a blushing face, pointed at me and said, "Yue Qingying, you want to clear up with me, you think that if you lose a child, you can blackmail me, so you want to leave me?" You dream! ”

Mama Wu and they hugged me, and when they heard these words, their hands trembled as if they were about to break at any moment.

"You don't want to leave for the rest of your life, don't want to get rid of me, even if you don't love me, you hate me, I will be entangled with you for the rest of my life!"

I lay in Mama Wu's arms, my eyes were white for a while, and a sweet smell surged in my throat, gritting my teeth to keep myself from fainting, I smiled for a while, and slowly raised my head to look at him: "Your Majesty, you and I have been entangled for a lifetime, but we are just hurting each other." ”

It's been so long that I've almost forgotten what kind of person I am, but Liu Ningyan's death has been reminding me of what kind of person I am.

Leave me down, just hurt each other, just let those who were good in the past slowly become unbearable.

"Hurt each other," he slowly squatted down and pinched my chin and looked at me, his eyes were red: "Okay, I'll see, you and I, how to hurt each other!" ”

After saying that, he shook me off and turned to leave.

Mama Wu's face turned pale, and Shui Xiu and they were almost scared to cry, at this time they hugged me and said desperately: "Cairen, are you crazy, how can you tell the emperor this!" ”

My face was pale, and I almost fainted with a burst of pain on my forehead, but I just gritted my teeth and persevered, with a smile on my face.

I'm probably going crazy.

A tingling, a tenderness, this is how he forced me to retreat step by step, let me come to this day little by little, I finally felt a complete pain in my heart, I don't want to turn back for any moment of tenderness, and repeat this torment.

Seeing that I was smiling so weakly, but I kept smiling, Mama Wu's eyes were also red, and they carried me to the bed with Shui Xiu, this time I really coughed up blood, and the pillows were stained red, and they took care of me while wiping my tears, until dawn, I finally calmed down and fell asleep.

It wasn't a quiet night, but I don't know how much wind the people outside heard.

After that night, my body went back and forth several times, low-grade fever, coughing up blood, cold, tortured me so much that I felt pain even in my dreams, and in my dreams, there was a figure of a person, always in front of me, when I was uncomfortable, I always wanted to call him, wanted him to hug me, but I couldn't open my mouth, because I vaguely knew that after his gentleness, it was often more painful.

So, I struggled to bite my lower lip, blood running down the tip of my tongue, and the smell of fish irritated me to open my eyes.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw a trance-like, light face.

Dowager......

I frowned slightly, wanting to say something, but I felt her slightly cool fingertips caress my gray cheeks, and said softly, "Are you better?" ”

"Queen Mother."

"Why bother?" She said softly: "Are you torturing him, or are you torturing yourself?" ”

I asked, "Doesn't the Queen Mother blame Qingying?" ”

She shook her head: "If people drink water and know that they are warm and cold, there is no right or wrong in this kind of thing, who can blame an outsider in the mourning family?" ”

"Then, can Qingying accompany the Queen Mother and chant the Buddha together?"

“……”

She looked at me for a moment and said, "If you really come to chant and chant Buddha, I don't know whose blessing it is." ”

I smiled faintly, felt her fingertips slowly become warmer, rubbed my cheek lightly on her hand, and closed my eyes.

Since that day, Fangcaotang has become another cold palace in the palace.

Pei Yuanhao has never been here again, and even the little eunuch who passed the word was reluctant to step into this threshold, if it weren't for the Queen Mother who would come to see me from time to time, there would be almost no breath of life here.

My body was sick several times, my vitality was badly damaged, and the weather warmed up in the spring, but I was still so weak that I could only lie in bed, and I didn't know what was going on in the outside world.

But I also know what to expect.

On this day, Shuixiu and they came back from the imperial dining room, the faces of the two of them were not very good, and when they served me, they also looked outside from time to time, as if they were waiting for something, I took a sip of medicinal soup and looked up at them: "What's wrong with you?" ”

"No, nothing."

I lowered my head and took another sip, looking at my somewhat pale appearance reflected in the soup, and said lightly: "Xu Jieyu is about to give birth, right?" ”

"How do you know about talents?"

As soon as these words came out, Xiaoyu immediately stuck out her tongue, Shui Xiu slapped her fiercely, and hurriedly turned her head to look at me: "Talented, slave-"

I smiled faintly.

In fact, I don't blame them, I am a few months later than Xu Youling, and I will calculate the date, that is, in the recent past.

Moreover, people come and go outside every day, and several times I asked the imperial doctor to come over and give me the pulse, not from the Tai Hospital, but from outside the door of Jingren Palace, I am not stupid, of course I know what is going on.

Shui Xiu said fiercely: "I really hope she has a difficult birth!" ”

I looked up at her: "Young girl, why do you talk so unreservedly." ”

"But—"

"If you want troubles, you must have no self, and each has its own cause and don't envy others." I turned my head to look at the gray sky outside, it was a little gloomy today - this child, before he was born, someone had already died for him, someone had injured him, I just hoped that he would be well.