A scholar with the surname Liu...... Shangjing ...... Father of three......

There was a buzz in my head, and all my thoughts were thrown into chaos. And in the chaos, the words that Liu Yi had said to me at the beginning rang in my ears very clearly-

In fact, in addition to me and my sister-in-law, there is also a third son in the family...... At the beginning, my father was destitute...... The third brother was entrusted to an old couple here......

Liu San'er was also entrusted to Aunt Liu by his father, could it be that Liu San'er is the child of Lord Liu Shizhou, the younger brother of Liu Yi and Liu Zhaoyi?!

I asked a little tremblingly, "Auntie, what was the name of the scholar surnamed Liu, do you remember?" ”

"No, I don't remember much, I just remember that he still has a son and a daughter, the eldest son is very smart and well-born, and the second daughter is especially beautiful, and at first glance it is a blessed appearance in the future." Aunt Liu only said lightly and didn't mention much.

"Then, did his father entrust Liu San'er to you, did he say anything?"

"When his father left, he also gave us a sum of money to treat him well. Later, when San'er grew up, we used the money to send him to private school. Seeing that his father is a scholar, we can't bear to let this child be like us, who can't read a single big word and will be blind for the rest of his life. ”

“……”

"San'er is very smart and attentive to study, and there are more than a dozen dolls in that private school, and he is the favorite one of Mr. It's a pity that he couldn't finish his studies, his family was too poor, he didn't say much, followed his father down the river to learn fishing, and when he was older, he went to Yangzhou City to find a job and earn money to supplement our family. ”

"Then," I hesitated for a moment, and said, "Brother Liu, does he know about this?" ”

Aunt Liu smiled weakly: "The child is older, how can he not say it, that is his own life experience." I have already sued him, but this child is filial, and he is not in a hurry to find his own father, only saying that we raised him, we are his biological father, and we must serve us until we are old. ”

She said and smiled with satisfaction: "San'er is so kind, he will definitely take good care of you and take care of this child." ”

I was so shocked that I forgot about myself, and all I was thinking about Liu San'er back and forth in my head. If I am not mistaken, then he - he is Liu Shizhou's child, Liu Zhaoyi's own brother! Unexpectedly, there is such a coincidence in this world, Liu Yi never forgot his younger brother before he died, he and his father two generations of people have died for the southerners, but also to let this left relatives live a better life.

Now, I've met him!

Feeling that my fingertips were trembling, Aunt Liu thought I was still worried, and said softly: "Child, it's not that Auntie said something evil. We women, none of us want to encounter such a thing, but since it happened, let's not practice ourselves, God doesn't feel sorry, we love ourselves! ”

"......" I looked at her silently.

"Isn't it better to find a man who loves you and marry the rest of your life with peace of mind than to suffer yourself all the time?"

Aunt Liu said a lot of things today, more than I said in the more than I lived in her house for more than a month, and then I was a little out of breath, I hurriedly took care of her to lie down and rest, and it was not early at this time.

By the orange light of the setting sun, I walked to the table in the center of the room and slowly opened the baggage I had brought back from the embroidery workshop today.

There are very few jobs today, only one, but the wages are more than before.

I took out the white sweat towel, straightened out the embroidery thread, and after a little thought, began to embroider. One by one, the snow-white sweat towel slowly appeared on the flying red leaves, because the needle was used, the leaves appeared extraordinarily fresh, the red of the maple leaf gradually encrypted, to the tip of the maple leaf when leaving a little orange red.

The maple leaves are extremely beautiful, better than flowers, but such delicate only appear in the bleak autumn.

The red maple once a year, but how many people's heads are white.

I finished embroidering a bunch of maple leaves, and looked at it carefully for a while, but I didn't put it away, but I twisted up another thread and embroidered a row of small verses next to the maple leaves.

The most nosy autumn wind, red his maple leaf white head.

After embroidering the last stitch, the sky has darkened, I raised my head and looked out of the door, the sunset has already set, the sky in the distance is still reflecting a little red, and the insects are also ringing around, at this time there should be no fish, why hasn't Liu San'er come back yet?

I'm a little worried that the fishing ban hasn't been lifted yet, and he will go to the ditch to fish like this, and it will be bad if something happens.

So, I put down my needlework and went out to find him.

Not far from Jixiang Village is the big river, sparkling and gently trembling with the wind, like a broken moonlight, so beautiful that it is breathtaking. I have been here for so long, it seems that it is the first time I have come out at night, listening to the sound of the murmuring water not far away, I have just walked a path, the hem of my skirt caress the grass, I only hear the sound of the rope under my feet, and when I look down, I see countless fireflies hula and dance from the grass.

What a beautiful view!

I couldn't help but feel a little distracted, and by the faint moonlight, I saw that at the other end of the path, Liu San'er was squatting there, and a fish basket beside him was half-submerged in water.

What's he doing?

I walked over cautiously and shouted, "Liu San'er? ”

As soon as he heard my voice, he bounced up from the ground, looked back at me, and said in surprise, "Why did you come out?" ”

"You haven't been back so late, I'm worried about you."

"I'm here to touch the fish. It's you, how can you still come out so late, what if you can't see it and fall? ”

As he spoke, he reached over to me with one hand to help me back, but I noticed that his other hand was still behind his back, and I was faintly puzzled, so I looked in, "What are you hiding?" ”

"No, nothing."

"There's nothing to show me."

"Don't look—"

He hurriedly dodged, but let me see at a glance where he had just squatted, and he had scratched a lot of writing on the ground with small branches.

"You're—"

As soon as he saw that he couldn't hide it, he sighed, and took out that hand with some embarrassment, it turned out to be a somewhat broken book, looking at the binding, it looked like an ancient book.

I couldn't help but be dumbfounded: "You, you're reading?" ”

"Hmm."

"Why?"

He glanced at me, scratched the back of his head as if he was a little embarrassed, and said, "I see that you help people write letters and obituaries, and you write very well...... So—"

The more he spoke, the more awkward it became, and an embarrassed look appeared on his face, and I immediately understood.

"Didn't you go to private school too?"

"I've almost forgotten all the things I learned......

I couldn't help but smile: "So you secretly come out to study at night?" ”

He became more and more embarrassed: "I asked the old Xiucai to buy his pen and paper at home, it just so happens that he still has some books left at home, anyway, his children are useless, they are going to burn it, it is better for me to take a look." As he spoke, he muttered, "For only five dollars, you sold me a bundle." ”

Looking at him like that, he seems to be quite upset about those books. I couldn't help but smile and stretched out my hand and said, "I'll see, what kind of book are you reading." ”

He handed me the book, and by the faint moonlight, it turned out to be an ancient poem.

I smiled and said, "How many songs have you recited?" ”

He shook his head: "It's too difficult to understand without Mr. talking." ”

By the way, I forgot, he had only just finished college when he went to private school. The foundation has been laid, but these have not yet had time to be learned.

However, looking at the rather frustrating words on the ground, I was a little stunned. It's really hard to learn like this, and it takes more than others, but he didn't tell me at all, just learned silently alone.

In my life, I have met many wonderful people, but very few have strong spiritual strength.

The young man in front of him who can't even afford to eat is one of them!

For some reason, I felt that my eyes were a little hot, so I walked behind him as if to hide it, picked up the small wooden stick, and said, "Do you want to learn?" I'll write one for you. ”

With that, I wrote two lines of words on the riverbank.

Although Liu San'er has been learning to write behind his back, no one has taught him in the end, and his progress is very slow....... It's the autumn wind...... Nosy, red him...... Maple leaf...... White heads? He finished reading it intermittently, frowned and thought for a while, and then asked me, "Light, what do these two poems mean?" ”

"The most nosy thing thing in the autumn wind, red his maple leaf white head." I read softly, meeting his gaze, but in such a dark night, it was as bright as two obsidians, and people couldn't take their eyes off it.

At this time, my eyes fell on his arm again, the wound had healed, leaving a hideous scar, just looking at the scar, it seemed that I could feel how painful he was when he was injured.

And I won't forget Jì, why he chose to get hurt.

Thinking of this, I smiled, looked up at him and said, "You still don't want to learn these two sentences." I'll teach you another poem. ”

After speaking, without waiting for him to ask, I had already scratched up on the ground again, he stood beside me, and silently recited: "Compassion is light and cold, and the apricot blossoms are snowy and pink." In the middle of the night, the swing rope is obliquely built, and the pavilion is hazy and drizzly. ”

After reading it, he frowned again: "This poem ......"

"How?"

He was silent for a moment, and when he saw me slowly stand up and look at him, he smiled: "It's beautiful." ”

“……”

Of course I know what he means.

Even if he didn't learn much, but after going to a private school for so many years, he could still see that this poem was indeed beautiful, but he only wrote about some wind and snow and bright spring colors, and there was really nothing more to say.

He thought for a moment and said, "I still like the first one you wrote." ”

I smiled faintly and said, "Still, you'd better not like it too much." ”

"Why?"

"Because," I said softly, "the more you learn, the more you think; The more you think, the more you have to do; The more you do, the more you get wrong; The more you get wrong, the more pain you suffer. ”

He looked at my pale face in the night, and seemed to understand something, and seemed to have more doubts.

"A lot of times, people just meddle in some things and end up making themselves miserable. Wouldn't it be great if you didn't want to be so much and just be yourself? ”

With that, I smiled at him and motioned for him to go home.

But just as I turned around, I heard him slowly say behind me, "I don't think so. ”

“……？” I looked back at him.

He stood there with frowning eyebrows, thinking hard, and said with difficulty: "Sometimes, although it is an idle matter, you should still do it." As long as you can help people, you can help more people, what are you afraid of if you suffer a little? ”

I looked at him blankly, and he smiled at me again: "It's not a bad thing to be able to help people." ”

His smile was simple, just standing in the night, his strong and tall body seemed so solid and reliable, but I seemed to suddenly see another person, thin and sick - Lord Liu Yi, who was wholeheartedly for the people of the south but was injured by the assassin, and still did not change his original intention before he died, although he was terminally ill, but his spirit was still like a giant, standing in the south without falling!

He is worthy of being a member of the Liu family!

My eyes were hot, and my circles turned red.

Although it was dark, he still sensed my strangeness, and hurriedly walked over and held my arm: "Light, what's wrong with you?" ”

"No, nothing." I rubbed my eye sockets and said softly, "I, I just have a little regret." ”

"What? What regrets? ”

I looked up at him, and looked at the eyes that were still shining in the darkness of the night, no less than any bright star in the sky. I smiled, looked up at him and said, "Nothing. Let's go back soon, or Auntie will be worried. ”

He seemed to be a little confused, but seeing that I had turned to leave, he didn't ask more, picked up the fish basket and rushed back with me, and the two of them didn't say anything again all the way.

I got up early the next morning, cleaned up a few smaller fish he caught yesterday and made a pot of fish soup, Liu San'er smelled the fragrance and ran to the kitchen, watched the milky white soup churning in the pot, and said with a smile: "It's so fragrant." ”

I chuckled the soup with a spoon and smiled, "Go wash your face, wash it and drink the soup." ”

"Hey!"

He agreed, and hurried to the other end of the yard to wash up, and then ran back like another gust of wind, I smiled and poured a bowl of hot soup from the pot, handed it to him, and said, "Drink it quickly, help me run when you are done." ”

"Where?"

"I've done the work I got back from the embroidery yesterday, but I'm too weak to go that far. You go and give it to the boss for me, and get the wages back. ”

When he heard this, he immediately said, "Did you stay up late again?" It's not good for your health. ”

I smiled and said, "I didn't stay up late, I only rushed a few shots." ”

In fact, I really didn't stay up late, and the owner of the sweat towel had no requirements for the color, so I also embroidered casually, a bunch of maple leaves, two ancient poems, and soon finished embroidering.

Liu San'er said seriously: "Light, don't take these jobs anymore." Now you have to rest well and take care of your body. I'll do anything else—"

Before he could finish speaking, I interrupted him with a smile: "Don't worry, I won't do it when I'm done with this." ”

He happily said, "Really? You really don't do it? ”

"Hmm."

I nodded in reassurance, and he immediately said happily, "That's good." You have to be the talker! After saying that, he drank the soup with a smile, told me a few more words, and then picked up the burden I was working on to leave.

Seeing him walk out of the courtyard gate, I suddenly couldn't help but stop him: "Liu San'er." ”

He looked back at me, "Huh? ”

I stood in the doorway, looking at him with a smile on his face, unaware.

At this moment, I suddenly felt that I had a lot to say to him, but when it came to my mouth, there was only a little choking caused by sourness, and I couldn't say anything.

Sensing my silence, he wondered, "What's wrong?" ”

“……”

"Light, are you feeling sick again? If you feel uncomfortable, go back to the house and rest, don't stand on the tuyere. ”

“……”

"I'll be back in a moment."

“……”

My nose was sour, and I listened to his babbling words, but suddenly laughed. When he spoke, his voice trembled slightly: "You, be careful on the road." ”

"I know." He smiled again and waved at me: "Go back to the house and rest." I sold the fish today and went buy some meat and came back. Let's have something good to eat in the evening. ”

I nodded, unable to speak anymore, and could only barely hold on to the smile on my face, watching him happily turn around and walk out, and soon, his back disappeared at the end of the path ahead, in the faint morning mist.

When his back disappeared, I finally couldn't help it, and the hot tears suddenly filled my eyes, but I couldn't shed a drop, only stubbornly swirling in my body, burning my heart in pain.

Indeed, I have regrets.

I regret that I didn't meet him sooner.

If I hadn't suffered these injuries, if I hadn't had those encounters, I would have met such a man, how good would it be?

There is no filth all over the body, there is no love in the heart, there is no this child, there is no life that cannot be turned back......

How good would it be if there was no such qiē?

If I could have met him earlier, it would have been nice if I could have fallen in love with him.

Me and him, as well as Aunt Liu, can really live a peaceful life here, although, he and I may not have any earth-shattering love, although we have to count the copper plate every day, although the work is very tiring, life is very hard, but the heart is peaceful, sweet, no conspiracy calculation, no competition for favor, he will not beat me for anyone, anything, give up on me, I will not beware of him, afraid that there will be some terrible prison disaster in the next moment of the sweet life.

If I am still the same person I was, I really hope to stay and repay the wish he made at Momijiji Temple - I am willing to stay by his side and be his wife.

However, this man who is as clear as water, as clear as a mirror, but has a rock-like resolute personality, I am no longer worthy.

Moreover-

I lowered my head and looked at my lower abdomen with teary eyes.

There's already a child there, a child who shouldn't be there when it's over, a child who might be the bane, and the government is going to check the household registration immediately, and I know very well what that means.

That man, after all, still refused to let me go.

I don't hate him, I don't hate anyone.

I just hate not meeting the right person at the right time.