I slowly turned my head to look at Liu San'er sleeping on the ground, to see him, to prove that this qiē is true, I really got the life I wanted most, a reliable husband, an ordinary family, and a down-to-earth warmth.

But when I turned my head, I found that he was also awake, and the person was still tossing and turning, as if he was a little anxious.

Could it be wine rash?

I said softly, "It's still itchy?" ”

"Huh?" He seemed to be startled, and hurriedly turned his head to look at me: "You haven't slept yet?" ”

"Well, it's uncomfortable to see you tossing and turning?"

"No, it's not."

"And what's wrong with you?"

"No—it's fine."

Seeing him stammer, I frowned and asked, "What the hell is wrong?" ”

He was asked by me, but the person seemed to be a little shy, pulled the quilt up, was silent for a while, and then said a little embarrassed: "I, I'm happy."

"......" I leaned over to the edge of the bed and smiled, "What are you happy about?" ”

As soon as he said this, he seemed to be blushing, scratched his hair, and then whispered: "I never thought that the two of us could really get married." ”

“……”

"At that time, watching you grope your way out of the inn, I still thought, I'm afraid I won't be able to meet again in this life."

“……”

"Later, when I rescued you on the riverbank, I thought I was dreaming."

“……”

"Light, I really feel like I'm dreaming, I won't wake up tomorrow morning and you'll be gone, right?"

I wanted to laugh, and I did, but when I did, the blur in my eyes immediately became hot and almost dripping.

It turned out that he, like me, was afraid that this qiē was a dream.

In fact, everyone is the same, experiencing ups and downs and scars on the road to happiness, but these are not really bitter, even if they are bitter, as long as they think about the day when they are happy, they can still persevere, and hold on again.

The real pain is that after getting happiness, I find that everything is fake, all illusory, that kind of loss and despair.

Seeing that I didn't speak for a long time, Liu San'er was embarrassed himself, and was about to retract into the quilt, when I suddenly stretched out my hand to him: "San'er." ”

"Huh?"

He looked at my hand and was stunned for a moment, but immediately understood, and hurriedly reached out to hold my hand. His hands are very rough, his fingertips and palms are full of thick calluses, there is a rough feeling when he holds it, but there is also a warmth that belongs to him from the palm of his hand, which is fine and densely soaked into every inch of skin, making me dye his breath.

I solemnly said word by word: "This is not a dream, this is true." ”

As he spoke, he seemed to be blurred, and he didn't know whether this sentence was said to him or to himself, and the voice was obviously made by himself, but it seemed to be far away as if it came from the sky.

"Let's have a good time."

Liu San'er looked at me, cracked his mouth and smiled, and nodded vigorously: "Hmm! ”

Although this qiē is not a dream, after marrying Liu San'er, every day is like every dream I have had in the past.

Calm and bland.

Although taxes have been reduced and increased, which has left a lot of truth for southerners, if people really want to live, in fact, no matter how difficult the life is, they can still get by.

There were suddenly two more mouths in the house, and Queen Yin and I really made him a little hard. The more than ten acres of land rented back from Niangniang Mountain will spend most of the day cultivating and taking care of it every day, and in his spare time, he will also go down to the river to catch some fish, and together with the chopped firewood, he will go to the market to sell them on the fifteenth day of the new year.

And I, soon after I got married, I re-copied the old business and took some work from the embroidery workshop to do, because I was stable, and the boss also gave me some good work, and the money I earned was subsidized for the family, plus the private money that Huang Tianba gave me, the life was loose and tight, and it was okay.

Such days, compared to before, may really be different.

In the past, when I became a concubine in the palace and enjoyed the glory and wealth, I really didn't think that one day I would spin in the firewood, but after really living such a life, I found that this kind of life is not strange at all. Falling from the clouds into the mud, on the contrary, it is more steady, and there is no longer any worry about which wrong step will cause the sky to collapse.

With a leg of mud, I also became the most ordinary housewife, every morning after sending Liu San'er out, I began to do housework, and at noon with my mother-in-law and aunt (for convenience, Liu San'er and I are called Queen Yin) to eat together, sometimes Liu San'er will come back to eat, sometimes the field work is too busy, I will send the food to him to the field.

This kind of life is not comfortable, and it is not compatible with leisure, sometimes I am still very tired, but my body is getting better and better, the cold disease left over after the previous miscarriage, and some of the symptoms of weakness have not been repeated, sometimes standing by the pot and guarding the stew for half an hour, there is no feeling of weakness; It's just that the belly also grew up quickly, like a big pot buckled on the body, and you have to hold your waist when you are busy coming in and out.

At noon that day, Liu San'er said that he would come back for dinner, but when his mother-in-law had finished eating and I had washed the dishes, he came back from the field.

There was still a fire in the kitchen, and I fried leftovers for him while the pot was still hot, and asked while I was busy, "Why did you come back so late today?" ”

He said: "Two people came to ask for directions, like scholars, and they didn't understand for a long time, so they took them for a while. ”

"It's a reader."

"yes. Recently, more and more people are passing by here. ”

I smiled, didn't speak, and poured the rice into the pot and stir-fried.

Although the man returned to Beijing, but the earth-shaking changes left in the south are still going on, it is said that this year's township examination is also a convenient door for students in the south, although it is not completely opened, but it is still much better than the previous layers of checkpoints, so the students from the three provinces in the south of the Yangtze River are pouring over here.

Liu San'er said with a little envy: "They are here for the exam, and they can do great things in the future." ”

I glanced up at him.

Maybe he won't know that his father and brother have fought for today's situation for decades, and even paid the price of their lives, and they have not regretted it until death, but they have never waited for the day of the amnesty in the south.

I was slightly stunned, Liu San'er had already walked over: "I'll come, you be careful of your stomach." ”

He reached out to get the spatula, I snapped his hand and smiled, "Don't make trouble, you want to burn the house again?" ”

As soon as he mentioned this, he immediately blushed.

It was one day not long after we got married, and he had to go out to work every day, and he had to go down to the river to catch fish and chop wood, and he was often so tired that he collapsed, but when he got home, he had to rush down to the kitchen with me, saying that my stomach was too big and my feet were swollen, and I couldn't stand in front of the pot for too long.

I hadn't paid attention to him a few times before, but that day was also because I was too tired from doing needlework the night before, and I really couldn't stand still, and the meals that day were ready-made, and I could eat them with just one hot one, so I handed him the pots and pans, and went back to the house to hurry up and embroider a few more stitches.

Who knows, just after embroidering a flower, I smelled a strong smell of burning. Hurriedly walked out to take a look, and saw billowing smoke coming out of the small kitchen door and chimney, scared me into a cold sweat, hurriedly ran over with my stomach, and pushed open the kitchen door, but saw Liu San'er because he was too tired, he actually fell asleep on the small stool in front of the pot.

The rice in the pot was already burned, the fire was coming out of the pot, and it was also burning through the dry wood piled up next to it, and the whole small kitchen was full of smoke, and he was half tired, half fainted, and he didn't even notice it.

I hurriedly went over and closed the door of the stove, and shouted to him: "San'er! Liu San'er! ”

He shook his head vaguely, and then slowly opened his eyes, his eyes were hazy for a moment, and he immediately came to his senses and opened his eyes wide: "Huh?!" ”

"Come and help!"

The pot was already burned red, I didn't dare to touch it at all, Liu San'er jumped up, hurriedly scooped up a spoonful of water and splashed it on the pot table, I heard a sound, a puff of heat and smoke rose from the pot, and the fire there was finally extinguished.

But the matter was not over, the firewood pile in the corner of the house also lit a few flames, and it was about to burn, Liu San'er was so frightened that his face turned white, and he shouted: "My-"

I was stunned, and before he finished speaking, he had already pounced, took off his coat and vigorously beat the firewood and grass.

Fortunately, the fire was not big and was extinguished in a few clicks.

He grabbed his clothes, which had already been burned in a few places, and stood there panting, sweat dripping from his forehead, and only after a while, he looked back at me in shock.

I was also frightened just now, at this time holding the pot that was still a little hot, gasping slightly, he glanced at the firewood pile again, and walked up to me: "How are you?" It didn't hurt, did it? ”

"It's fine."

"Stomach, does it hurt?"

Although I was shocked, I couldn't help but laugh a little: "Somewhere, my stomach hurts." ”

"That's good." He picked up his clothes and wiped the sweat from his face, then took my arm and said, "You go back to the house first, I'll clean up here." ”

After speaking, he helped me to walk out, I walked to the door, after all, I couldn't hold back, glanced back at the already messy kitchen, and then looked at him: "San'er, what did you just say 'your'?" ”

His handsome and dark face was stained with a few places of soot, which looked a little wolf and a little funny, but at this time, his face changed slightly, and he hurriedly said, "No." ”

"I heard—"

"I'm afraid the firewood will burn out. After splitting for a long time, I was waiting to sell it when I was in the market. ”

“……”

"It's okay, it's okay, you go back and rest. It stinks in here, don't choke. ”

After saying that, he used a little force on his hand and helped me out.

That time, it really scared me a lot, and afterwards my mother-in-law didn't eat, and scolded him for a long time with his ears, and while he was scolded, he was humming and brushing the pots in the yard for an afternoon, and the children who came and went saw it, and spread it out, making the people in the village laugh for a few days.

From then on, I wouldn't let him into the kitchen again.

Speaking of that incident, he himself sneered, rubbed the place where I was hurting, and grinned: "It's okay, it's just fried rice." With that, he reached for the spatula again.

"Go away, don't make a fuss."

"Give it to me."

"I'm angry!"

The two of them grabbed the spatula and made a fuss in the kitchen, seeing him like a child begging for candy, laughing and playing tricks with me, I was angry and laughing, and was about to knock the spatula on his hand, when I suddenly saw that there seemed to be something in his palm, and immediately stopped the movement in his hand and looked at his hand.

He was also stunned for a moment, and quickly put his hand back.

I frowned slightly and looked at him: "San'er? ”